#/ ... not even deleting anything im just throwin it all down.

[moonrevolutions]

Tell us about Vi's emotional relationship with his art. Does he feel like it's an extension or expression of himself? Once it's out there, is it still part of him?

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ @starfoam this shit got long for no reason.

virote paints from life solely for the sake of preserving it. he's never really been one to make art that deviates from the realistic or to say something like. super deep about himself... always nature based, too. or, cityscapes. objects. things. if other people are involved, he keeps their details purposefully vague. while he can paint, like... people... he just doesn't. he's only painted / sketched a self-portrait of himself like three times in his 20-something years of learning and mastering his craft? anyway, virote is struck by the beauty of things around him sometimes... when the clouds are washed extra orange over the golden gate bridge or a certain bouquet of flowers in the display of a shop. he'll take a picture and use it as a reference, every time.

and i guess art for him is less about expression of the self.... and more about reminding himself of a moment where something particular moved him to the point of immortalizing it, but through his own pov. like sure... other ppl on the streets of san francisco were looking at the same clouds, but the way he paints them make the experience completely unique to him. virote has a lot of little drawings from his trips around the world. he'll go to portugal and see the architecture in porto and he will have to draw it. or go to japan and challenge himself to snapshot passing scenery while hes on the train so that he can commit it to paper.

you know, i figure this stemmed from the fact that he wasn't much of a talker when he was a little kid. he'd visit his aunt and she'd ask him what he wanted to eat, and he'd just draw dumplings or chicken. asked him where he wanted to go next, he'd doodle something that resembled a park.

this art ofc is always still with him. he'll dig out something he painted like 12 years ago and be like ' i remember exactly where i was when the trees back on my grandparents farm looked like this, i was 2 miles down the road on my bike. '

so it's an extension of how he views the world around him... the tl;dr... lol.

his art style is drawn from post-impressionism, it lends well to what he chooses to paint.

now when it comes to other things like origami or metal sculptures or when he occasionally dabbles in clay, he'll get more abstract there. that's where his art looks like delightful, weird nonsense...!

[jenanddomo]

1.19.23

today the day i finally move on. im glad he block me on here unless i did idk. i blocked him everywhere. phone number to roblox . i finally deleted every picture of us. well what used to be “us”

i actually cherish the moments we had from beginning to end. i remember when we used to send selfies to eachother n how we would fight who would do what more in the beginning. i remember just being over heels for u , i even thought we werent even gon get together or last for a month. but we grew up for basically 3 years together n saw us become adults .

it sad it had to end like this. it ended in the most heart wrenching way for me. maybe not for u. but then in a way realization hit. this was for the best.

n my gut was right. i remember the time we would just smile after every kiss we did,every hug, even dumb arguments in person we would smile. i remember our dumb inside jokes with miss ***** and dont go to the restroom youll die type beat. i remember the time in december 2019 how we huddled together to stay warm infront of the gym and we just laughed and smile abt it. the first time we kissed n u didnt realize it til i kissed u the third time n we were watching helen keller i think lol. i remember when i used to write u love notes n little drawings for u to keep. n i remember the letter u gave me n how u said u had to write a in a fancy way lol. i regret throwin that away . i only remember some of what it said.

their were up n downs, mostly down lol . but we did have alot of love to give to eachother everytime we saw eachother. i remember just loving to be in his arms n fighting over one spot on the couch just so one of us can lay. or the time ill try to be big spoon n we would just fight. or when we would be ghost together in blankets n just cuddle . i remember we woudlnt even pay attention to movies bc all we will do is make fun of eachother n focus on eachother. lol i remember pretending to be alll sad n depressed everytime he left my house.

i remember our fights . we were both so jealous. so controllin too. im sorry for being so controlling and jealous at the time. now i realize we were being dumb n we needed to trust eachother. but it all started to go downhill when we both lied to eachother.

this is my realization that the relationship was so bad. im startin to remember all the bad things me n him did. i dont wan remember bc i just regret fighting n just arguing. i regret slapping him at school. i regret just being so ugly ard him. all i ever was to be just his n just his. i fell in love so hard for him that i just wanted him n only him. even if he didnt believe me i would say it.

that was my problem, i overthought everything bc how madly in love i was . for me, he was my everything, my world, n at the time i would die for him. do anything for him, but at the same time i would atleast have control over myself n try to do wtv even tho i wouldnt let him do wtv. it so weird not talkin to guys for atleast 3 years . when i blocked him i realize i had freedom . for the first time i didnt know what to do. it like a baby comin out of a womb n just cryin n not knowin wtf to do. it was so weird first time in ever i see nothing abt, tryin so hard not to think abt him . n this week i been trying to do self care n workout but i fucked up my sleepin schedule n diet bc since i dont eat as much -below 1000 cals-

since i eat below 1000 cals i lost most of my energy n just tryna make money made it worse.

it was so weird when his bsf started to follow everything n jst like my stuff. like he a hoe no cap

but lol

idk i can’t speak on things.

i can’t speak abt this no more.

i just hope she makes him happier n not miserable like i did. n i hope he finally loves himself n do better for him. but i really hope he can be happy with n without someone n just be a better bf for someone else n hopefully learn from our mistakes.

ill like to describe this relationship as

karmic

“A karmic relationship is one that's filled with all-consuming passion but is extremely difficult to maintain,”

we loved eachother so much but our personalities were always so different eversince the beginning.

hopefully we can talk again in the future. maybe in the future ? maybe when i finally get over over u. i cant bare to see u rn bc ik ill just fall in love again , i just wan see u as sum1 i used to know.

its so funny how i tried to atleast make him jealous lolllollol :p i was so dumb n childish

i dont like nobody

i love to lie so ppl dont think im weak

i only loved him

but he doesn’t love me

anyways

im glad i didnt cry makin this post:) girlboss

hopefully i do the things i wan today bc i just got 100 bucks:) also may never post again