#/ in which my muse is so full of contradictions it's ridiculous tbh....

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all the prime numbers for the character solidifying meme

2      how do they think of their mother ? what do they hate ? love ? what influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have ? 

      oh boi.    ok, so let me be real honest for one small second ;  amelia hunter loved her mother with all her heart.   yes, she hated her for not standing up to jackson, for not stopping him, for letting herself get murdered by her husband.  but dear lord, she loved her so much.  was a real mommy’s girl as a matter of fact.   as for influence, i’d low key wager nothing actually influenced her about ashley, bc blondie was like seven at the time she died and everything she really knew was that she would never ever touch alcohol….   heh.

3       brothers, sisters ?  who do they like ? why ? what do they despise about their siblings ?

      LEANNE WAS HER FIRST LOVE.   AND SHE WAS HEARTBROKEN WHEN SHE WAS LOST.      ok, so from the very first moment she held leanne in her arms at the hospital at the ripe age of four, amelia hunter swore to protect her baby sister from anything that could ever harm her.    how wrong she would prove to be.   along with her first real platonic love, and for the next eight years, leanne hunter was her everything — as well as her biggest failure and sorrow. 

7       what was the economic status of their family ?

      the first four years they belonged in like the upper middle class ?    two story house, garden with a white picket fence ; the perfect family i the sub-urbs.   then jackson lost his job and started drinking and the money went quickly down the drain, but up until the brutal murder of jackson ; and the night where wolfie’s world turned upside down, they stayed in the same house.    (  extra info !   the same house has since then had like seven families who all moved out quickly claiming the house was haunted.   so now it’s just slowly decaying at the  end of the streets.  kids in the neighborhood dare each other to go inside / spend the night etc.  – it’s now a test of “bravery” tbh. )

11       how do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated ?

      she is uneducated, and she’s awfully aware of that, having never actually graduated high school.     she was done with that shit the day she turned eighteen and was out of the system.     and so she doesn’t see herself as smart, intelligent or anything in those directions.   she does however consider herself streetsmart and witty, a survivor and a fighter, and strong and brave.     but at the same time, a coward and a hypocrite and weak.

13       did they like school ? teachers ? schoolmates ?

      as mentioned above, she never even graduated high school, so she disliked that quite a lot.   mostly because she was always the new kid and had a really hard time connecting with her peers.  instead she was the kind of rebel shit that skipped classes and hung out with the older boys and smoked cigarettes behind the gym and made out beneath the bleachers.  she was rude towards her teachers, and most other kinds of authorities, and sometimes even fellow students.   the only subjects she even moderately liked was music and gym.  anything that required her to sit still and take notes and read were a whole other story and usually skipped.   especially biology, chem and math.    being the new kid at least once a school year wasn’t easy and  as such friendships were scarce.    why make a connection that would never last more than like a semester ?

19       what were your character’s deepest disillusions ? in life ? what are they now ?

answer to be added when i have a good one tbh.

23       what do they want from a partner ? what do they think and feel of sex ?

      security.   feeling secure with her partner is one of the most important things;  along with security comes trust, of course.  if there’s no trust there’s simply nothing.   secondly she demands a modicum of independence due to her line of work.  she needs to know that their partner can handle the uncertainty of this thing she’s chosen for a living,  and not go and demand her changing her way of life.   ( she might decide to do that if it’s serious enough, but it HAS TO BE her choice. )     also any future partner need to be able to kill det fucking spiders, man !!         as for the sex,  it’s an itch that needs to be scratched once in a while.  it’s a means to an end,  something to offer to get something she wants.   it means nothing to her. 

29       what is your character’s weaknesses ? 

      her heart.      ok, so amelia might come off as somewhat of a frigid bitch,  but that’s more or less fake news.    it’s the safest defense mechanism;  don’t let anyone in, and you won’t get hurt.   because despite it all she has a gigantic heart of gold,  and if you manged to get through the microscopic cracks she will lay down ehr life for you without blinking twice.   her pride.    blondie’s never been much of a team player, preferring to handle things alone,  always believing she’s good enough to handle things on her own.   safe to say it has landed her in more trouble than anyone should be able to.    her lack of a brain-to-mouth-filter …  sarcasm is the one thing this girl can speak fluently,  especially at inappropriate times.    children and animals,  seeing one hurt is an eternal source of rage, and she rarely won’t rest until she’s had  a     talk     with whomever responsible for the suffering.       … and she’s deathly terrified of fucking spiders. 

31       does your character have children ? how do they feel about the parental role ? about children ? 

      she does not.   and she can ever actually have one,  not biologically at least.   but, boy oh boy,  she wish to be a parent.   she loves children,  would give her soul to have one of her own.   instead she is orphaned children’s fiercest protector;   never one to back away if she sees one in trouble.    honestly, if she could she would just adopt every single one she meets. 

37       how is your character’s imagination ? daydreaming a lot ? worried most of the time ? living in memories ?

      surprisingly not that vivid.    with everything she sees and handles it’s hard to imagine even more crazy.  when she was little she used to live in a daydream; one in which she got leanne and herself away from jackson, away from oklahoma,  and they could start anew just the two of them.    when leanne was killed however the dream just died with her, and since then the only kind of dreams have been night terrors,   and even day terrors if she’s gone too long without sleeping and hallucinations starts to appear.   

41       is your character aware of who they are ? strengths ? weaknesses ? idiosyncrasies ? capable of self-irony ?

   mostly yes,    while i’m very sure others could pick out her quirks easier than she can herself,  she is very aware of her flaws and most of her  strengths;  except for those she simply does not agree with.   like the golden heart and generosity -  because those are weaknesses and not strengths after all.   

43       does your character have any secrets ? if so, are they holding them back ?

      ‘”     i murdered my father at the age of twelve..  but only because he was an abusive fuck who killed my sister and mother.   and then i’ve been in and out of foster homes until i turned 18  and ever since i’ve been hunting monsters and living under false names because my real identity is presumed dead.   “  yeah, huge secrets,   never to tell unless you’re in the really, really close inner circle.   no one never is tbh…

47       do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person ? do they want to be visible or invisible ?

      it depends on the situation,  amelia is nothing if not a social chameleon and can blend in and fake it with the best of them if deemed necessary.   

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