#+ CT scan ordered for this week + BIG SCARY tech issues this weekend

[shirogane-oushirou]

had a dream that gave me the drive to FINALLY pick v.esperia back up so i can try to finish all of the endgame shit and grade farm before starting new game +.

in the dream, the v.esperia gang and i were all in the s.haikos ruins -- the whole gang, incl r.aven and j.udy and p.atty. i was these but was also accessing my gamer knowledge to be like "hey that's a trap switch, step away from it", and uh. while i was being buddies w everyone, i was also being "buddies" w r.aven WEKJSNFKJNSF we were being so flirty, and r.ita just kept looking over at us and going "ew..." sjnfdkjn :') she's great.

anyway. i find it funny that i have so many oushirou dreams but they're mainly "i found ancient merch at this random store, i'm going to buy every single thing money be damned, i Need These" with the occasional "you're meeting him in a horror dream w no logic. he is going to disappear or die or suffer horribly, and when you wake up it's either going to be like 'what the FUCK' or 'that was the funniest shit it could have possibly been."

...while i have r.aven dreams a little less often but they're ALL "just hanging w my dubiously romantic friend(?) r.aven" in different situations sdjkfknkjn.

"him and r.ita accidentally world hopped and we're hanging out (and r.aven and i are cuddling) until they randomly hop back".

"he's a 'camp counselor' at some kind of adult summer camp and he singles me out and protects me from weirdos, invites me to have lunch w him."

"he's a teacher / prof / scientist / it was vague, but we were taking shelter from a tropical storm w others and getting close in the enclosed space."

and noooooooow "i world hopped to t.erca l.umireis and could help them reach places they may not be able to normally w my Big Girthy Gamer Brain" <3

this always brings back the love i have for him, but for MONTHS i've been in such a mood of "oughhhh i want to go back to v.esperiaaaaa i was SOOOO CLOSE to ONE HUNDRED PERCENT COMPLETION, SOOOO CLOSE to NG+... but going back to games after a feww years.... bad...." so it was enough to FINALLY push me back into the game. and i'm loving it. i love this fucking game so much. this is a Real Place. To Me. and i want to finish all of the remaining shit so i can restart and go on another fun adventure w my fwiends (and UNLOCK THE R.AVEN COSTUME I MISSED BC I DIDN'T DO ONE (1) STEP IN A SIDE QUEST. RAAAAGH.) and do it with all of the grade shop perks applied ahehehehe.