#&&. I HAD A DREAM ABOUT US WHERE WE WERE TWO HALVES OF A WORM … ！𝐛𝐡𝐚𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐬。(accultant)

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what the fuck ... who let these freaks in here

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DARLINGTON LIFE & DEATH ADVENTURES. 1 / ？hope y'all don't mind me posting screenshots from my bhaaltwins save file in the sims. i've been having a lot of fun with the new pack. if you do mind, feel free to mute the tag i added about it hehe. :3

iago put spending a day in windenburg on their bucket list, so they dragged puck along with them & proceeded to crush him at dont wake the llama. very cute sibling fun.

feat. @accultant , of course :)

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puck mental health update:

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@accultant ⸻ continued from here :

I don’t deserve to be coddled, they bite their tongue against answering, curling into a smaller ball where they sit with their shoulder pressed against Puck’s, their knees to their chest. It isn’t fair that he has to comfort them when they were the one who lied. They made the choice to hide it all from him, manipulate him. All in a futile, foolish attempt to erase their past, and themselves along with it. It was always their fault.  “I failed you in so many ways, Puck,” they respond quietly, looking at their hands as they worry and pick at the same hole in their cloak that they mended just the night before. It’s hard to talk so openly and honestly for a number of reasons. One of them being that Puck and Iago, as close as they’ve always been, as important as they are to each other, stopped talking a long time ago. Even before the Bhaal temple, so much was left unspoken and so much was never truly addressed. They were stuck with a horrible, rotten life and only had one person in the world to turn to - and they often failed to do even that, mistaking codependency and obsession for support.  Now, they’re finally trying. Iago insists upon it, as difficult as it is. They have to be better.   “I was not a good sibling,” they continue, stating it like a fact. It is a fact, in Iago’s eyes. Puck won’t ever be able to remember all the ways they let him down. He won’t remember playing lanceboard or wearing matching bows as kids, either.  A hole rips beneath their shaking fingers and they start to wind a thread around their pinkie.  “I shouldn’t have lied. I know that’s no way to fix that, but…” they have to add before they go on, their thoughts choppy and disjointed as they chip at the truth. They’ll never be able to apologize enough for what they did to him, but it must be said anyway.  “But I was scared that you wouldn’t want me as I was,” their voice has devolved into a mumble, losing steam quickly as the lump in their throat grows. “I thought that I would be better left forgotten. Sometimes I still do. Maybe if you remembered what I was like -” they’re already shaking their head as they interrupt themselves. “No. You wouldn’t agree, you’ve always been patient with me. Kind. But the truth is, you deserve a better sibling than what I was for you.” That shouldn't have been your choice to make, Iago.

HE LISTENS. Absorbs their words. Gathers his thoughts. Then he sucks in a breath, begins:  ❝ You’re right. ❞ 

        He hopes his tone doesn’t come across as harsh. He doesn’t mean it that way, though he would not be surprised if a hint of bitterness wormed its way in. He will forgive Iago in time; there is no questioning that, of course he will, but he is still angry for now. Still heartbroken.

Voice as steady as he can muster, he continues, ❝ You shouldn’t have lied. I won't scold you for it again; you already know how I feel about your little long con. It hurt me in ways I will never be able to forget. ❞ Pause. Hm. Well 。。。

❝ Barring the admittedly higher than average chance that I get another lobotomy, of course, ❞ he clarifies before cringing at the fact that such a thing even needs clarifying, ❝ I will never forget that pain. Though, truthfully, I wouldn't want to forget it. Because it was you, & I love all of you, even the parts that hurt me. ❞

❝ But yes, what you did was not what a good sibling would have done, I agree. ❞

        Puck shifts to face them more directly. His hands reach forward to gently pry the thread from their pinkie. No need to suffocate the poor thing ‘til it turns purple simply because they want to punish themselves. Or maybe they just can't help fidgeting despite the potential harm. Puck understands both instincts & wishes neither on them. 

❝ Now, this is the part where I could go on & say that I’m not a good sibling, either. That would be true, too. I may not remember anything, but I know I wasn’t exactly a saint. I’m sure that extends to how I treated you; I doubt I was always patient. Definitely not always kind, that just sounds insane. I can't imagine the leader of a murder cult being benevolent. ❞ 

        He’s hunched over now, head tilting upwards to look at them like that of a curious dog. His fingers slip between theirs, thumb brushing the back of their hand. Eyebrows raise with an absentminded hum. ❝ In a way, we’re already a bit even with each other, no ？But that isn’t really the point of what I said. ❞

His hand retracts to cup his own chin, elbows resting on his knees. Puck looks out at the ocean, and there is a long pause as he watches the sun dip beneath the waves. One of his feet idly kicks at the large rock they sit on. 

        ❝ I didn’t claim you were too good to be forgotten. I said you didn’t deserve it. ❞ Eyes flick back to his twin. ( Gods, his twin 。His twin, his twin, he has a twin 。That’s why he always felt like something was missing. Like half of him had been stolen away. It was never his memories. It was Iago. All this time, it was them. Of course it was them. ) 

❝ No one deserves to be forgotten by their own brother, Iago. No matter what they’ve done. I don’t care that we treated each other like shit. Of course we did. I’d bear the weight of knowing all my sins tenfold if it meant I could remember you, too. It isn’t fair that you have to carry those memories alone. ❞ 

        Dark eyebrows furrow. He knows it isn’t that simple. That he would surely buckle under the pain of all he’d done. But at least he’d have someone to lean on, then. He’s glad to be able to lean on them now, so he does. His head finds a comfortable home in the crook of Iago’s neck.

❝ You told me we were sweet once. The other day. I responded with something rather bitter because I could not control my anger at the time. I believe you, though. That we were, I mean. But even if that weren’t true, I am still sorry that I cannot remember it. That I cannot remember you. ❞

        He swallows roughly, trying & failing ⸻ always failing ⸻ to hold back the tears that sting his eyes. Despite that, he lifts his head to look at Iago, his sibling, his twin, directly because they are the only one with whom he can. Delicately, he takes their face between his hands.

❝ Worst of all, I am sorry that I cannot apologize for all I've done to you. You did not deserve that, either. ❞ Firmly, he adds, ❝ Even if you hurt me, too. It is not fair that you have to carry both of our sins on your own. You must understand that you deserve so much more than that. Tell me that you do. ❞

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𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐒 。

           ⸻ familial & platonic.                   not an exhaustive list. will add more. :o)

𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒 。

&&. I HAD A DREAM ABOUT US WHERE WE WERE TWO HALVES OF A WORM … ！𝐛𝐡𝐚𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐬。(accultant) // @accultant

&&. IT’S TIME I HAD A GO AT THE GUILLOTINE ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢。(sleetkissed) // @sleetkissed

&&. YOU ARE SO A LITTLE BITCH ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐤𝐚𝐧。(murderreign) // @murderreign

&&. NOT ONLY MONSTERS BUT PEOPLE TOO … ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐜𝐚。(faebhaal)  // @faebhaal

&&. I TOTALLY CLEAN THE DISHES … ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 & 𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐢。(slaycults) // @slaycults

𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐂 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒 。

&&. YOU ARE LOVE PERSONIFIED ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐬𝐭。(lovepvnch) // @lovepvnch

&&. SWORD SLASH TO THE CHEST ＆ YOU’RE ON FIRE ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐜𝐤。(bluebardofhappiness) // @bluebardofhappiness

&&. BABSI’S REPLY GUYS … ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐧。(estarion) // @estarion

&&. CHRONIC MAYBE LATER DANCE ！𝐩𝐮𝐜𝐤 ＆ 𝐰𝐲𝐥𝐥。

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this is a really good tag. i want it on my blog

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✏️ brudder :3

Send in ✏️ and I’ll use this (improved) incorrect quote generator featuring both our muses ！// @accultant

Iago: See, the problem is, Puck, you’re playing 3D chess. I’m playing 4D.  Puck: I’m playing checkers. I don’t know what the fuck you’re playing.

Iago: I am an expert at identifying birds.  Puck: Okay, what about those ones flying over there?  Iago: Yeah, they're all birds.

Iago: Look Puck, I'm not slut shaming you but...  Iago: Actually yeah, I'm TOTALLY slut shaming you.

Iago: I have a problem.  Puck: Kill it.  Iago: Can you chill for like, two seconds?

Iago: Ha! Don't you know the trappers trap can trap the trapper?  Iago: I must be losing it, I'm quoting Puck.

Puck: Iago, what do you call people you go out with but don’t try to sleep with?  Iago: ...People?

Iago: What's the most illegal thing you can do with one dollar?  Puck: Exchange it for a hundred pennies, put them all in a sock, and then beat someone to death with it.

Puck: Do you have a superpower?  Iago: Yep! It’s hindsight.  Puck: …that’s not going to help us.  Iago: Yes, I see that now.

Iago: Puck, remember when you said you weren’t going to interfere with my love life?  Puck: No, that doesn’t sound like me at all.

Iago: You know, I really wish you’d just admit you made a mistake sometimes.  Puck, stirring their coffee: I prefer it with salt.

Iago: I am the left brain, I am the left brain. "I work really hard until my inevitable death" brain. You've got a job to do, you better do it right and the right way is with the left brain's might.  Puck: I LIKE OREOS AND PUSSY-

Iago: Puck gets offended by everything.  Puck: What did you say about me?!?  Iago:  Iago: Case in point.

Iago, peeling a banana: May I take your jacket, sir? Hahahaha.  Puck: Do you think other people can’t hear you?

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DARLINGTON LIFE & DEATH ADVENTURES. 3 / ？this is literally just an iago facial expressions appreciation post because i am obsessed with every single face they pull in this video game @accultant

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@accultant ⸻ send me a ✧ and i’ll bold all that apply to your muse.

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I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧   I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep lay by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you (on the forehead). ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

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hc + 🏠 for a home-themed headcanon

THEMATIC HEADCANONS.

HEHE you know this one, but i don't think i've ever mentioned the full story behind puck having it ingrained into his brain that he needs to be a little gentleman on this blog before.

when he & iago were little, they shared a room. their family didn't have much money, so their house was pretty small. that was probably the main reason why they shared a room, but honestly i think they would have anyway because they were just absolutely inseparable at that point.

BUT they had a bunk bed, and at first they both very much wanted to have the top bunk because that is objectively the better choice. the two of them argued very heatedly about it, which led to puck trying to bite iago's leg. their dad had to intervene, and the way he got them to stop fighting was to look puck in the eye (despite the headache doing so will give, sorry dad) & ask him, "puck, are you being a little gentleman right now?"

needless to say, iago got the top bunk. iago got away with a lot of things in the name of puck being a little gentleman, i imagine. nothing too severe, just little things like that.

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@accultant

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♞ - what is your favorite brave thing that your character has ever done?

Behind the Scenes Meme.

aghhhhh so many options!!! there's a fine line between what's brave & what's actually self-destructive when it comes to puck's choices lol. tho personally i would say that he is ultimately very brave every waking moment bc he's always fighting against his instincts when the easiest option would be to give in to them. but that's not the question!!!!!!!!!!

hm, hm. i wanna say defying bhaal, but that seems obvious & kind of boring. i think it was probably the most brave thing he's ever done, but maybe not my favorite.

OH. NO. i know what it is. it's kind of an ouchie ow my heart moment, but my favorite bravest thing he's ever done is say goodbye to iago after the ending of bg3. unlike what he attempted to do before losing his memories (tldr; writing them a goodbye letter before intentionally provoking orin in the hopes of her killing him) he actually says it to them, which is very scary & very difficult for him to do. but it is also necessary for both of them to heal.

and also unlike last time, it is not a permanent goodbye. he just has to learn how to live life without them for a few years. which is, to him, an absolutely unfathomable concept, and that's why he knows he has to do it. because they both need to LIVE. as their OWN PEOPLE. so they can love each other in a healthy way down the line. ugh. ack. ooughgoughh...

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puck is so funny to me. he doesnt get jealous in romantic relationships at all. the only time he might get jealous is if his affection is unrequited, and the object of his affection is already with someone else. but tbh, i think that's more him being envious than really jealous.

other than that, any potential aggression he might display towards someone flirting with his partner(s) is always going to be in cases where he thinks his partner is being mistreated or disrespected in some way. or perhaps he simply does not like the person flirting with them. but he's not jealous. he wants his partner(s) to be & feel loved by ppl who really care about them / treat them right.

. . . IAGO, HOWEVER!!!!!!!!! he's very unhealthily attached to his twin lol. so sorry to any potential iago suitors, you are going to have to get through their rabid guard dog first. you breathe next to iago, and suddenly puck is breathing down your neck & growling. he is VERY PROTECTIVE of them. he's probably a bit possessive.

there's a lot of projection going on with his perception of literally anyone who interacts with iago. it is . . . so, so, so complicated for him. objectively, in his right mind & outside of bhaal's influence, he wants nothing more than for iago to be happy. he wants them to live. to experience all the good things life has to offer. and he wants them to be safe! protected & loved! he wants them to find someone who can do that for them!!! because he loves them so, so much. at his core, puck just wants what's best for iago.

the PROBLEM is that he knows that is not him. he is not the best for them. they are NOT safe around him, and they never will be because he is supposed to kill them. it's literally written in their blood; they are meant to die at his hand. and oh, how many times he's tried to do it against his will. a few times, he almost tried on purpose- to kill them quickly & painlessly because he knew that wouldn't be how they died if he wasn't in control. but he could never do it because all he really wants to do is protect them.

puck is always very alert & on guard in general, but when it comes to iago those instincts skyrocket. especially about himself, but he takes it out on others. someone makes so much as a mildly snide remark to iago, and they're dead on the ground within seconds. puck just cannot handle the idea of someone else hurting iago because he already puts them through so much. (there's also the subconscious predator instinct. y'know, that's his prey, but he suppresses that as much as he possibly can because oh my god.)

there's also, of course, the insecurity. oh my god the insecurity. puck feels so much shame & guilt. he knows iago would be far better off without him, but that's his sibling. his TWIN. they've literally always been there for him & vice versa. no matter what happened he always knew they'd be right next to him, so he can never bring himself to push them away. he doesn't want to push them away. furthermore, they're also kind of . . . all each other even has? he's iago's only friend, and they're his. so he's afraid of them running off with someone else & never coming back home because they realized they're safer that way. i don't think he does this intentionally; it's definitely subconscious. if you asked him, he'd tell you that he & iago would never abandon each other & of course they can be with whoever they want! he doesn't mind! really!!! haha but what are your intentions with my sibling tho i will murder you if you even touch a hair on their head

^ IN THEORY. puck has very high standards for them. their partner had better be the BEST of the BEST. he can & will try to give their partner rabies or perhaps kill them if they don't meet the mark. this is why it was actually a fucking miracle that iago's canon romance is wyll because puck would have become the joker had it been literally anyone else.

basically . . . if puck can't protect iago from himself, he's going to do everythinggg he can to protect them from everyone else. he WILL protect them from everyone else. so. i am sorry for all the iago romancers out there. there is a dog barking outside your window, and he is about to start crawling into your walls with like. a Chainsaw.