#& vera.

[slumpcd]

femme watched his face closely, didn't want to push him out of the comfortable bubble they had created together. his truck a safe haven for them. " yeah ... " teeth sank into her bottom lip as she nodded slowly. vera wanted to show him that whatever they had wasn't something for just the shadows. even though her family, or her world, wouldn't accept him. but she did. " if you want to ... " femme shrugged her shoulders, careful digits moving through his dark hair. " i just ... want to be with you tonight. " — " i'll sweeten the deal, you get to snoop around my room if you want to. " vera joked, smile pulling at the corners of her lips.

the  thought  of  getting  her  alone  somewhere  other  than  the  six  by  five  foot  rusted chevy  truck  cab  was  thrilling, to say the least.    he  was  just  a  man,    after  all.    only  he  knew  he  didn’t  belong  in  a  place  like  that,    bound  to  track  in  mud  from  his  dirty  sneakers and poison the air with his meager breath.    her  parents  weren’t  home  and,    yet,    the  entire  prospect  of  invading  their  home  with  his  presence  felt  daunting.    like  a  sinner  on their knees in  church  or  a  whale  soaring through  the  sky    –    levi  didn’t  belong  to  any  place,    nowhere  stagnant,    but  especially  not  there.    brow  archs  as  he  runs  his  fingers  through  her  hair,    careful  not  to  allow  them  to  tangle or pull.    ❛  are  you  sure?  ❜    question  said  more  out  of  morality  than  trepidation.    he  wouldn’t  want  to  put  her  in  any  uncomfortable  situation  nor  did  he  want  to  find  himself  in  the  back  of  a  police  car  for  trespassing.

[strryskys]

i think if i was to pick another name to go by online i'd choose vera

[mipexch]

tficjk ir threat

THREAT???????????????

[nightmaretist]

How did the death of Inge's daughter affect how she views her own immortality?

[meta] It has made her more afraid of death and, with that, of disease and decay. To have seen someone die in such a way, not violently but slowly and in a draining way, has very much put her off the whole idea. To be immortal puts her above most disease, which is something she views as a definite perk. It has not just made her feel like her immortality is a good thing, though. It isn't often that Inge thinks of her state of being as something unnatural, but this? This was a confrontation that things weren't as they were supposed to go. No parent should lose their child, of course. That is not the order in which things are supposed to transpire. Not only did Vera die before Inge, she became physically older than Inge. Of course, this had happened to her siblings and ex husband as well, but that wasn't so startling: but to see Vera at age thirty six and dying when Inge had died at thirty three ... now that was just wrong, wasn't it? And I'd be lying if I said that she didn't consider it, attempting to immortalize her daughter. But she couldn't. Like all undead, mares are created out of trauma. Inge may not have always been the best mother, but she is not that terrible that she would terrify her own daughter so badly she'd die. So Vera died of cancer in stead and stayed dead, unlike Inge had. And that was wrong. But who would Inge be, to take that wrongness and think of it as something wrong with her? No, the wrongness is with the world, with disease, with her ex-husband, with medical professionals. She's very skilled at projection, while on the inside that grief and knowledge rots.

[sbovercopious]

i'm seventeen again. i am not scared of death. i've got dreams again... vera dreschner edit 1/?

[streetknown]

when i find the most vera picture ever again ;_;

[shisasan]

10 January, 1924 Letters to Véra by Vladimir Nabokov

[thecollectibles]

Clouds by Vera Velichko

[promniight]

look at my professor dawg we’re gonna go down the path of deceit

[slumpcd]

" oh, so now you care? "

[dykefyre]

glinda upland and elphaba thropp + onion headlines (part one)

[metamorphesque]

Brief Poems, Vera Pavlova

[nightmaretist]

Describe an NPC who is important to your character's story. Is this person still a part of your character's life? What are your character's feelings towards them? Have those feelings shifted, or have they always been constant?

[meta] Vera Beenhakker is born in 1971, when Inge is twenty five years old. She holds her daughter and it is the best thing that has ever been held by her hands, the best thing she will ever hold. Look, there was never a doubt whether Inge loved her daughter. This was an undeniable fact, something that was a part of her the same way Vera had once been a part of her. She loved her daughter. Sometimes love is not enough. Sometimes love is not all a child needs. Vera grew up with a father who worked and hated his life and a mother who didn't and hated hers. She grew up with a mother who suffered from night terrors for the first eight years of her life, making her a creature of dark-rimmed eyes and skittish movements. Maybe there was never a chance for her to have a good mother — maybe Sanne took it, maybe Inge let her take it. That's neither here or there. This is about Vera. Vera, who moved from Wanneperveen to Amsterdam when she was eight. Who didn't understand these city folk at first but grew to understand them. Who was loud and daring and funny. Who missed her father and hated him at the same time. Vera was ambitious and bright, went to university. Vera was angry. Vera had a mother who was wrapped up in something she wasn't allowed to understand. Something her mother tried to keep her from, and whether that was out of protection or out of an unwillingness to share, neither of them knew. Vera had a mother who would disappear at night, and return without opening the door. Who covered the keyhole to her daughter's door, with no explanation. Vera didn't understand, but maybe she did. Her mother was in love with another woman, and that woman had done something to her. Changed her. (That Sanne had killed Inge, Vera didn't figure out, but she knew well enough.) Vera studied, got a good job, got a boyfriend. Never got kids, because she knew that motherhood wasn't a fit for all. (It hadn't been for her mother.) She didn't see much of her mother, after a certain point, and when she did, she looked the same. Never a day older. Always with new jewlery. Always over the moon, ecstatic, but never glad enough to stay. Vera hated her mother. Vera hated her father. Vera loved them both. Vera died with them in the room when she was thirty six, three years older than her mother had been when she had died. (Vera asked her mother for the truth and her mother gave it. Her mother helped her sleep with a soft touch. Her mother held her, listened to her, spoke to her. She was loved and she loved in return. Time may have ran out, but there was always that — that love.)

[bountyhaunter]

Intense about my food not being stolen, yes. I could do that. My rate is 80$ an hour. I'll even tie him up for you so you can have your revenge. It's sweet, I've been told.

You're kinda intense, huh? ...What if I just hired you to take care of the perp for me? I'm not as hungry as I was before and that part of the culprit reveal feels like a lot of work on my part.

[u3pxx]

KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE! 💍💐‼️

my piece for the @aaweddingzine which is now open for leftovers!

extra stuff/commentary under the cut | like what i do? support me on ko-fi ❤️💜

i also ramble a lot more on the behind-the-scenes pdf for this zine that you can also get with your purchase >;^] i also drew some nifty matching icons for the zine! (hint: it's time for divorce)

you know me, i'm incredibly klapollopilled, of course i'm drawing these two suckers for the wedding zine! <3 something about klapollo marriage makes me incredibly emo so i'm very glad for the opportunity to go all out so i can be EXTRA emo about it 😈

if i remember right, i think this idea came to be when i thought about the image of klavier bursting into tears as he lifts up apollo's veil and it all went from there LOL (also so psyched i get to draw him in a barong tagalog <333)

everything got so much more ambitious, though, from that initial idea! i drew like what (i am counting the number of characters in the spread right now as i type) 40-ISH CHARACTERS ALL IN ALL?! (WHAT THE FUCKDFGDHJ) and i even had to cut out some of the characters i originally had in the sketch 😭 (sorry gumshoe, kay, and seb/eustace ....)

i drew this like a year ago and i'm still so proud of this piece! i don't think i can achieve this level of rendering again, it's been so long i forgot how to do it LMAO

(also i can never reopen the file for this thing again bc it makes clip studio want to dieeeee DFSGHDJ so many layers ...)

another thing, i was working on this in tandem with my piece for the mea culpa zine; do you know how funny it is to draw apollo having such a happy moment and then draw him dying 😭 the contrast, the whiplash

that's all i have to ramble about i think, i'm so so so amazed at this zine bc my zinemates truly made some spectacular pieces of art! :"^D if you have the chance, please do check it out! 💗