#& even between them its rocky . which is normal!! no relationship is sunshine and rainbows all the time

[ashtreelane]

"I dont like Jonny Simms" is kind of a catchall 2 me of like . I just dont like how he approaches horror . I dont know enough abt him as a person to actually form a deep like or dislike LOL

[teamkaiforever]

Do you remember ?

Kai Parker x Reader word count : 3 369 summary : Kai and Reader break up and their post break up relationship is rocky until they find a way back to each other. *not my gifs _____________

There he is again , walking into the Whitmore bar with his hands wrapped around yet another girl. she thought. Y/N was sitting with Stefan , doing their daily studying. He had agreed to help her with history since he had lived through some of it and by now she was absolutely sure Kai was doing this on purpose. She couldn’t tear her eyes away from them , the way he leaned in to whisper something in her ear making her giggle … Stefan followed her gaze , turning around to look at what she was starring. “Are you OK ? We can go if you want..” asked Stefan , reaching to touch her hand across the table. “I am sure Damon wouldn’t mind if I help you with your studies at the house…” “No. No , it’s fine.” she said forcing her gaze away from her x-boyfriend and his new toy. “Where were we ? Roman empire ?”  She said , pulling out a text book from the pile in front of her. “Right..” Stefan said , looking at something behind her. Y/N hadn’t even noticed Kai and the girl he had brought with him had sat on the bar already and now Kai was heading towards them. Y/N sighed and started picking up her stuff. “So I guess we are going home ?” Stefan asked. Y/N nodded slightly. “Hey guys !” said Kai , unusually chipper. “How’s the studying going ?” Y/N wouldn’t even look at him , she kept putting books in her bag with Stefan’s help. “It’s going perfect. Everything is absolutely perfect and life is sunshine and rainbows.” she snapped getting up , walking briskly towards the exit. “What… what did I do ?” Kai asked Stefan confused. Stefan left some money on the table and glanced at Kai. “You broke up with her. That’s what.” he said , following Y/N outside. She was already waiting by the car , tears in her eyes. It was bad enough when Kai had broken up with her , but this? this was just crossing so many lines. He wasn’t even giving her space to get over it , and she knew it wasn’t on purpose - he was knew at emotions , but rubbing it in her face that he is hooking up with other girls was a bit too much for her. Stefan didn’t say a word to her on the way to the Salvatore Boarding house. She got her bag , the handle tearing apart from the heavy books. Y/N sighed and started picking them up. “I got it.” said Stefan. “You go inside , I’ll be right in.” “Thanks…” Y/N said with a small smile and pushed the door open. There was no one in the living room , she dropped her jacket and poured herself a glass with bourbon , drinking it all in one gulp, pouring another when someone grabbed her wrist. “Don’t. This is not going to make things better.” She looked up , finding Stefan looking at her with concerned expression. A few seconds later she broke into tears and he pulled her into a hug. Y/N had been pushing away the tears and all the feelings for so long , now it was impossible to stop them. “I hate him , Stefan.” she said between sobs , Stefan stroking her hair trying to comfort her but there was nothing he could do or say that would make it all go away. Part of her wanted to forget she ever loved or even met him , and even as she said she hated him , Y/N knew it wasn’t true. She could never hate him. “No , you don’t. You are just hurt , it will all pass over time.” Stefan said in a soothing tone.   Y/N pulled away , wiping a few tears from her cheeks. Stefan was like her big brother , always there for her helping her with everything and in any way possible. “I thought you were studying .. why is she crying ? Did you get to the part where the Romans -” Damon walked in but a glare from Stefan later he shut up. “Oh-kay. I’ll just grab this bottle right here and leave you to studying.”

Y/N went to wash up in the upstairs bathroom , splashing some cool water on her face washing the tears away. She rested her hands on the sink , starring at her face in the mirror - dark circles under her eyes , her hair was messier than usual and unless she was imagining it , her skin had gotten paler. “It’s been a month Y/N.” she spoke to herself out loud. “Get over it.” She closed her eyes , took a deep breath before turning around and walking back downstairs. Damon and Stefan were arguing quietly and looked startled when she walked in. Damon left the room , smirking at her for a second and Stefan didn’t look happy with whatever they had been arguing about. “Hey … um, is it OK if we reschedule ? I am not sure … that I can focus enough to soak up all this information.” she said smiling nervously , reaching for her bag. “Yeah yeah of course.” Stefan said , “Do you want me to drive you home ?” “Um .. no , I think I’ll just walk home. It will give me time to think. Is it OK if I leave some of the books here ? I’ll be carrying them back tomorrow anyways…” she asked , and he just nodded. “What were you and Damon arguing about ?” “Nothing. Its not important.” he said , walking her out. “Call me when you get home , I want to know you got there safely.” “Yeah , of course.” she said giving him a hug before leaving. Y/N put her bag across her shoulder and headed down the road. The Salvatore’s house was a little outside of town which gave her about an hour to think , before she got home. The crunching of her footsteps was the only sound around her for a little while , her brain had someone emptied itself completely and she just kept walking mindlessly down the road. When Kai had broken up with her about a month ago , he had said it’s for the best .. that she’d be better off without him and that she deserved better than him. Thing is , she didn’t want anyone else , she wanted him , she loved him… and if he was playing games with her , then she’d do the same. Instead of home she headed towards the Grill. She flirted with one of the guys taking a selfie with him in which she was kissing him and posting it on instagram , making sure Kai would see it. Two days later , the guy was found dead in the woods … Another animal attack , except Y/N knew better. Part of her felt responsible , the other wondered why Kai cared enough to do something like that. The next month she tried to move on , but somehow each of the guys had ended up hurt somehow.  She realised the mistake she had made by posting that selfie and didn’t repeat it , but somehow Kai kept turning up where ever she was having a date with someone - the Grill , the park , in the coffee place on the other side of town , each date ending in a disaster so big , the guys never called her again. Day’s went by and she decided to quit dating altogether. -   It was Friday night and Y/N had gone out to the Grill to get a drink.She sat on the bar alone , scrolling through pictures on her phone when one of the guys who had been starring at her since she sat there walked over to her. He was cute , funny and it was kind of nice talking to someone who had no idea who she was. His name was Peter and he had just moved into town. They talked and laughed , had drinks … everything was going fine , for the first time in two months she felt the pain slip away. “You are so beautiful.” Peter said leaning in to whisper in her ear placing his hand on her thigh , sliding up under her dress. To Y/N it felt wrong someone else touching her that way , she felt uncomfortable and was just about to pull away when the Peter kissed her. A split second later her started chocking , his hand reaching for his neck. Y/N looked around , Kai was standing a few meters away from them. She hadn’t even noticed when he had walked in… who knew how long he had been standing there. He got up , taking the bottle that had been standing on the table in front of him and smashed it on the bar, glass shards splashing everywhere. The look in his eyes made her blood freeze - she could see anger burning in them , little devils dancing as he took a step towards Peter grabbed his neck and pushed the crushed bottle onto the guy’s throat. Y/N grabbed his wrist trying to pull him away. “Kai , stop !” she screamed. “You don’t have to do this.” He didn’t appear to be hearing her at all , she cupped his face making him turn around and look at her. “Let him go. I am begging you.” Kai blinked a few times , faster than normal snapping out of his anger and let go of the guy’s neck , grabbing his shoulders. “Don’t ever touch her again. Leave and forget the little accident that just happened.” he compelled the guy. Y/N shook her head , a look of disbelief on her face. “Who are you?” she asked , grabbing her jacket , rushing towards the exit. As soon as she was outside , she took a deep breath and ran as fast as she could towards her house , opening the door and slamming it shut with a loud bang , her feet giving in as she slided onto the floor with tears streaming down her face. Why was Kai even doing that ? He broke up with her… why would he care who she kisses or who wraps their hands around her pulling her close or anything like that ?!

Knock , knock , knock .. came the sounds from the front door. Y/N stopped sobbing , looking confused at the door. Knock , knock , knock , knock … came the sounds again. “Y/N? Please , I know you are in there. I can hear you breathing.” It was Kai. He had followed her to her house. “Go away Kai.” she screamed from the inside. “I dont want you here.” A few minutes passed in silence and she got up , bringing herself to open the door a little. Kai wasn’t there… he had really left just as she had asked. In that moment her heart broke all over again. Part of her wanted him gone , the other wanted him to pull her close and tell her everything will be alright. Y/N closed the door , resting her forehead on the door , trying to push away the new wave of tears threatening to roll down her cheeks. Suddenly someone placed their hands on either side of her , bracing against the door , boxing her in. There was no doubt about who  it was. She could never forget that cologne…Slowly she turned around , coming face to face with Kai who looked just as broken as she felt , she couldn’t bare more than a second looking at him. None of them said a word at first , Y/N refused to meet his eyes  until he gently lifted her chin up forcing her to meet his eyes. “I’m sorry.” Kai said softly. “ I never should’ve …. I never should’ve broken up with you. It took me seeing you with other guys to realise what a huge mistake I had made…and seeing you tonight with that guy , his hands on your body where they shouldn’t be… where my hands should be… I just lost it.” Kai took a step away from her , giving her room to walk away if she wanted. Why would she stay ? He had broken her heart , caused her so much pain … she didn’t move. “You broke a bottle and nearly cut the guy’s head off , Kai.” she raised her voice , she wasn’t even sure how she was able to find her voice after all that had happened. “Yeah , I’d say you definitely lost it. Why would you even care ? YOU broke up with me , not the other way around.” Kai shifted nervously on his feet starring at the ground not saying a word. He wanted to tell her , he just didn’t know how. “Right …” Y/N said , opening the door. “Leave , Kai. There is nothing keeping you here.” She waited one minute , two minutes … the door hanging open , Kai starring at his feet , the silence following was deafening. Finally she decided to drag him outside. The moment she touched him , it was like something came alive in her again and she could see the same reaction in his eyes. He backed her up against the wall , resting his forehead on hers as his hands slided around her waist. “What are you doing ?” she asked out of breath. Even after all the pain he had caused her , he was still able to get her heart breathing faster than a hummingbird’s and take her breath away just standing close to her. “You… You are keeping me here , Y/N.” Kai said , his voice so low it was almost a whisper. “I hate seeing you suffer , knowing that it’s my fault … it’s tearing me apart on the inside. I didn’t even knew feelings like these existed.” he said , brushing his nose against hers gently. “Breaking up with you was the biggest mistake of my life…” Y/N’s heart was about to leap out of her chest , Kai’s words breaking her to pieces only so he can pick them up and put her heart together again. She wanted to forgive him , but she also couldn’t ignore the pain he had caused her. “Do … do you remember the first time we kissed ?” he asked. “It was at that stupid carnival you dragged me to , we um … we were on top of the ferris wheel and there was this shooting star grazing across the sky.” Kai’s hand stroked her cheek , moving towards the back of her neck tangling his fingers in her hair. “And you pointed it out , jumping so fast you nearly fell down, you turned around towards me wide eyed with this inexplicably bright glow in your eyes , largest smile I’ve ever seen … that’s when I knew I loved you.” he pulled her closer to him. “… and I kissed you and it was like the world finally made sense. Like I had finally found a piece of me that was missing… and then I listened to Damon , who told me how wrong I was for you.. How I’d ruin you and only break your heart…”  Kai kissed her forehead gently.  "In my attempts not to cause you pain , that’s exactly what I ended up doing. I hate myself every day more and more and I’d do anything to get you back , to get you to forgive me… I love you , Y/N. I never stopped…“ Y/N’s lips touched his for the first time in 2 months , it was like lighting a match. The second their lips touched he pulled her closer kissing her deeply. "I already have…” she said , smiling at him a single tear rolling down her cheek , Kai wiping it away gently. “I never stopped loving you either , Malachai.” “You really forgive me for all the pain I caused you?” he asked smiling nervously. “How could I not ?” she smiled. “You just made me fall in love with you all over again….” Kai kissed her again , pulling her closer than ever , leaving no space between them. “Get in the car.” she said suddenly serious.“We are going to visit some friends.” Y/N took his hand , with the other grabbed her car keys and they got in the car , Kai sitting in the passenger seat. “Where are we going ?” he asked nervously looking at the speed she was driving the car with. “Slow down , princess… I may be indestructible but you are still human.” A few moments later Kai found out where they were going. Y/N pulled over at the entrance of the Salvatore Boarding House , nearly knocking the door of its hinges , storming inside like a tornado. Stefan , Damon and Caroline were sitting in the living room , talking. All three of them turned towards her in shock then in surprise seeing who was with her. “Stefan … Caroline …” she said as calmly as possible. “I’d like a moment alone with the master manipulator here.” When none of them moved from their seats she added. “It’s not a request. ” Caroline and Stefan glanced at each other , then at Damon and back at Y/N and Kai hanging near the door and reluctantly left. “What was that about ?” Caroline asked in a hushed voice. “Considering who is with her , my guess is … she found out the reason why Kai broke up with her…” Stefan said trailing off , taking Caroline’s hand and heading upstairs. “This will be nuclear…” he muttered.

Y/N crossed her hands on her chest glaring at Damon who was acting like nothing  had happened. “Do you have anything to say for yourself ?” she demanded , raising her voice with every word. “How dare you mess with my love life and my life in general ? Do you have any idea the pain your actions caused ? Do you even care?” Y/N was starting to shake with anger. Now it all made sense - that’s what Stefan and Damon had been arguing about that day. Stefan knew … and he didn’t tell her. Did all her friends know what Damon had done ?! Y/N smashed away the glass with bourbon from Damon’s hand , finally getting his attention. “What do you want me to say , Y/N?” he said. “I don’t like him , I never will and I don’t like him being anywhere near the people I care about.” “Oh , so you caused me all this world of hurt because you ‘care’ about me ?” Y/N scoffed. “Unbelievable now 'loving and caring’ you are…” she said with the most sarcastic tone she could muster. Kai was keeping his distance. He had learned a long time ago not to stand in her way when she is angry. They had that in common. Y/N looked around the room , quickly grabbing one of the wooden stakes near the fireplace , launching for Damon. Suddenly Kai’s hands were on her waist pulling her away from Damon , snatching the wooden stake from her hand. “I can’t believe you are making me do this.” Kai muttered. “Never thought I’d be the one stopping you from murdering someone. Calm down , sweetheart.” Y/N trashed against his grip , begging at him to let go off her. He leaned in whispering in her ear. “It will feel really good for about 5 seconds and then the guilt will cripple you… and that is if he doesn’t get you first.” Kai’s words seemed to calm her down a little and he let her feet back on the ground. Y/N knew he was right , she wouldn’t be able to handle the guilt. “Good girl.” Kai whispered noticing Stefan had rushed downstairs. “How about we go home ?” “No … no , I don’t want to go home.” she said as Kai practically dragged her out of the house , flickering his hand in the air making a couple wooden stakes fly in the air stabbing Damon in various places - the neck , his stomach and his chest , missing his heart by an inch.  Damon cried out in pain and Y/N turned around to see what had happened , a small smile on her face when she saw. Maybe the pain he was suffering at the moment wasn’t the payback she had wanted but it was enough for now. Kai cupped her face and smashed his lips against hers. “I am never ever letting you go.” he said opening the car door for her. “Come on … I want to take you somewhere.” “Where ?” Y/N asked curious. Her anger had died down and was now replaced by the happiness of being back with Kai. “It’s a surprise.” he said winking at her , driving away. ____________________ MASTERLIST March / April 2017 MASTERLIST MAY 2017 _____________________