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Show analysis

I've constantly thought of ways I could go about talking bout shows or movies I'm watching and just talk about how they make me feel. I feel like I can't get that in my daily life and don't have people I feel comfortable going on and on about how some random show made me cry because I saw myself in the main character. So I figure why not make a blog about? I don't really plan to make it some well typed essay or anything, just letting my thoughts spill out. So I'm gonna start this with...

Carol and the end of the World

This will all be written with the assumption you, the reader, have seen the show/movie

Episode 1: Carol is depressed. And I feel a lot of that. It's like everyone else is "normal" and I'm just here trying to cope and I just want things to go back to how they used to be. Wether or not how things used to be is better or worse for me is irrelevant. I want things to go back to how they were so I can feel... Sane. Why can't I just be happy, like them?

On a separate note, holy shit do I know those kinda guys. Hell I was that kinda guy once. Desperate, lonely, afraid... I guess I'm still lonely. Just lost the desperation. It's hard being alone, feeling lonely. You meet someone you feel like you match with and they do something that makes you rethink. Often something small, though sometimes something as big as saying Im in love with you on the second date. And I just... Run. I'm scared.

Did this episode make me cry? Yes.

Episode 2: it's a distraction. All of it. Just something to feel normal, to not think about it. Busy work to keep your mind busy so it doesn't have to think about... Everything. The gun was a bit of a wild turn but hey, it's an animated show for adults by Netflix, you gotta expect some odd curve balls.

The frantic searching felt a lot like the lead up to a panic attack. You're mind just racing and not shutting up because it thinks this is the most important thing in the world. If I don't do this I will literally die. But you won't, Carol wouldn't. It's just a job/it's just a distraction. At any time she could stand up and leave. It's uncontrolled anxiety. Anxiety is important, it keeps us alive, but people with anxiety problems, like myself, their anxiety finds everything to be a threat. A slight hick up and our worlds spiral. In the moment it feels so final.

To speak on the object in the sky, I honestly see its an inevitably. Death comes for us all, it's inevitable. Instead of spending our time on art or hobbies everything just feels pointless. That's why we use distractions. Anything to shut our brain up. Make it work just enough it that it doesn't have time to think, but not too much to wear us out. Anything to keep from obsessing over the inevitable.

Episode 3: let me start by talking about Daddy- no sorry, Daddy- no sorry, the captain. Lol. Don't know why, like dat man.

Anyways, pretty chill episode, till the end anyways. With how things are right now in America... I can't help but feel for Donna. It may not be about this but it certainly compares.

I forget his name, but the male coworker said something really deep that hit me in the core. Friends and experiences come and go and you just kinda feel... Numb after a while. This episode made me cry.

Episode 4: I love episode about siblings. It's always reminds me of just how special my relationship with my brother is. I love him to the end of the earth and farther. He really means the world to me. I wouldn't be here without him. I look up to him. He's always been there when I needed him and I always wish there was some way to pay him back for it all. I know that silly.

Episode 5: I didn't think this episode was gonna be so impactful at first. It starts out very quirky and kinda run of the mill, till David dies, that is. It's kinda difficult to put into words what exactly this made me feel. It was nice seeing them all regain their humanity in the face of such tragedy. Half a year and everyone dies. And David not even being able to make it to the end... Kinda makes me think of suicide. It's not how he died in story, but we distract ourselves from the inevitable and sometimes we just can't make it. Wether that be through personal or natural causes. It's sad to think he could have had more life ahead of him, even if it WAS only 6 months.

That's all for this post. I'm really enjoying the series and can't wait to see if they are actually going to go through with the world ending or not.