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Louder Than Bombs; 3

pairing: yoongi x reader x taehyung

Synopsis: When taehyung appears at your front door unannounced everything in your relationship goes to shit.

Warnings: angst, fluff, smut (eventually)

song for this chapter 

 “Taehyung...” you’re a bit taken aback, him being the last person you’d want to see but seeing him oddly made your heart beat a little. He always capable of doing that. You hated how he was always able to make you smile when you had a bad day at work because you knew he shouldn’t that was what Yoongi was for. A part of you did miss Taehyung you couldn’t deny it, you missed his company and his voice but you knew again that the both of you just couldn’t be around each other and you didn’t want to hurt Yoongi anymore because you loved him more than anything in the world...but then why did it hurt you so much when you stopped seeing Tae? 

 Your eyes met his deep brown orbs your mind getting clouded by memories of the both of you. “Of course take a seat” he flashes you a quick smile make you slightly blush. He sits across from you, his heartbeat picking up speed. “So...Um I just wanted to say I’m sorry for every thing I did and said. I had no right to say those things in front of your...boyfriend. I don’t know what came over me but just seeing him there with you made every thing surreal...it was like at that moment I knew I’d never have a chance with you, so I guess out of anger or desperation I just blurted those things out. I’m sorry Y/N.” He loved you and seeing Yoongi caused a surge of jealously to rush through him because in his eyes you were his but he knew you weren’t and you probably never would be.

You take a sip of your coffee taking in what Taehyung said, his words stung you because you never meant for him to fall for you it was never your intention and now sitting across from him it clear how heartbroken he is. In the moment you place your hand over his and look into his eyes once again. The small action makes his heart stop for a second and it takes him back to your first date.

“What did you think of the movie?” he ask as he holds the door open for you, thankfully the cinema wasn’t too packed tonight so he was able to get you 2 perfect seats, not too far but also not too close. He had to admit he was a bit nervous to take you out because he had no clue where to take you but he knew you liked indie movies so when he found out Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind was showing he decided why not. He knew it wasn’t the best first date place to go to since you couldn’t really talk but you wouldn’t mind. 

“Yeah I did. I always wanted to watch the movie since so many people raved about it but I never got around to it and I’m glad I didn’t cause I was able to watch it with you” you send him a playful smirk causing him to blush. You really liked Taehyung, something about him seemed different than anyone else you met. One minute he could have the most serious stone cold face and the next his boxy smile would appear making anyone around him smile always well. You liked that about him the most, the fact that even the smallest things he did made you smile.

Soon you fall into comfortable silence just enjoying the presence of the person by your side. He can’t keep his eyes off of you, you look absolutely beautiful. Your nose and cheeks are painted slightly red from the cold, your hair is slightly curled with a raspberry color beret to top it off. On your way to the cinema you kept talking about how much you loved winter and were looking forward to see the first snow fall this weekend. “I always meet someone special around this time...see I meet you right?” He recalls you saying, it made him blush then and even thinking about it 2 hours later it still makes him blush.

He looks at you one more time his eyes focusing on your hands which swing slightly as you walk, and without a second thought he reaches over and intertwines his with yours. You’re taken aback for a second and just look at Tae’s hand around yours, it should feel wrong but it doesn’t. You look over at him, his eyes are filled with anxiety from what he has just done but he couldn’t help himself. You give his hand a gently squeeze to reassure him that you like it making him smile. “Do you perhaps want to go a café? It’s only 2 blocks from here?” Your eyes meet, a rush of emotions overtake you and for a second you forget about everything in the world only focusing on him. This is all wrong, you have a boyfriend who loves you and who love back but here you are with Taehyung sharing a special moment that you would never want to take back, “I’d love to.”

 His eyes stayed glued on your hand the warmth of your hand on his causes his heart to speed up and a bit of hope creeps up. Maybe you do feel something for him. Maybe you’ll give him a chance to show you just how deeply he cares about you.

“Tae I understand and I accept your apology. Listen I-I still care about you deeply I hope you know that. The time that I spent with you going to museums, cafe or even just hanging out in your apartment while we talked...I miss it a lot...more than I let myself believe...” you laugh nervously not sure where this could but you know that once and for all you have to be upfront with him. Removing your hand from on top of his you place it on top of your thigh and move it up and down. You always did this when you were nervously or anxious in a situation.

“But I can’t go back to that...to us, I have Yoongi...” a smile appears across your face as his name passes through you lips, “and believe it or not I love him deeply more than anything in this world. I know I hurt him and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to live with it but he means too much to me...I can’t keep hurting him Tae. I just can’t, I hope you understand that. I also know that I’ve hurt you too and I’m sorry for doing so. I never thought things would go so far but people always think that and it ends up happening either way, I can’t keep hurting you either...please understand.” You look down at your hands averting Taehyung’s gaze.

Taehyung doesn’t know how to feel of course, he feels upset but the bit of hope he had left was taken away the second you removed your hand from his. He doesn’t know what he was thinking, you’ve made it clear you love someone else but a part of him feels like you love him too even if it’s  just a bit. You wouldn’t of said all those I love yous to him, held his hand during long walks in park or given him those memorizing kisses goodnight after your dates. Maybe he’s thinking too much into it and he maybe he was nothing more than a distraction like all his friends mentioned, his heart breaks at the thought.

“Listen, I have to get going. It’s about to be 6 and I have to go water my plants and fed the cats” you stand up looking at him once more, a sad look adorns your face. He always hated seeing you sad it didn’t suit your aura very well. “I-I’m sorry again Taehyung” and with that you’re out the door leaving his to sit in silence his thought running wild.

You dig through your bag looking for your keys your mind still on Taehyung. You hate yourself for putting him through this and during him along for as much as you did knowing that you could never fully reciprocate his feeling. He’s such a sweet guy who deserves the entire world but you’re not able to give it to him, you never were. Sure the two of you had this incredible connection but it wasn’t the same as the one you have, rather you should had with Yoongi. 

Once you finally find your keys you stare at your door, Yoongi occupying your thoughts.You know you’ve ruined your relationship with him and that it’ll end any day and there’s nothing you can do to save it. You can’t imagine your life without him by your side, you’ve been together too long that the mere thought of it makes you queasy. Seeing him cry that night haunts you the thought that you caused him that much pain that he broke for the first time in your relationship only adds to the hatred you have for yourself. He was always the strong one in the relationships, always being the one who held it together whenever something sad happened in your lives but that day it broke him. He loved you and you don’t understand why you even doubted it for a second, your stupid insecurities getting the best of you causing you to end up in the arms of another man. 

You shake your head of your thoughts opening your front door. The minute you walk in Luna and Ginger walk over to you rubbing their heads against your legs. Bending do you pet them thankful that you have them in your life not knowing how you’d be able to handle your current situation without them. Next to Yoongi they were the light of your eyes and have been since you moved into your apartment a couple years ago. 

“I’ve missed you both so much...too much” you’re too distracted petting Luna that you don’t notice the figure standing in the middle of the living room. He admires you from the distance, his heart clenching seeing the affection you give to your cats. You always loved them and treated them like they were your kids always making sure they were well taken care of, had the essentials and most importantly that they were loved.

“I’ll be right back let me change and then I’ll give fed you guys” you stand up ready to head to your bedroom when you spot him in your living room starring at you with he coffee brown eye, your heart clenching at the site. Before you know it you’re walking towards him wrapping your arms around his neck hugging him like your life dependent on it. You breathe in his foresty scent that you’d grown so fond over the years. It takes him a second before he’s wrapping his arms around your waist pulling you closer to him, he buries his face into the crock of your neck breathing in your lavender scent that always brought him so much peace.

“I missed you.”

[taestrawberrie]

I’ve hit a wall. I can’t think of anything to write

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he’s such a cutie

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i think the reason yoongi’s “bare minimum” domesticity is so attractive is bc it just adds to his overall aura...like a lot of what we know about yoongi is just?? so calming??? is a really good cook. hums while doing so. builds furniture for fun. has never raised his voice at anyone. watches tech reviews and cat videos on youtube. wears big comfy hoodies. waddles. likes interior design. plays piano. attentive. sends i love you texts randomly but as gentle reminders. handwrites his music. patient. soft spoken. harbors fun facts about history and sports and,,,dinosaurs. shoulders bounce when he laughs. likes holding hands. firm but gentle words of comfort. his existence just feels very safe dude idk

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Strawberry fields forever (teaser)

genre: Reader x taehyung ,exs to lovers au, angst, maybe smut, fluff

song for this part 

“I never thought I would have you this close to me again...I’ve missed you so much” he holds you close to his chest, his heart beating rapidly. It’s been so long since the last time he saw you. You managed to look more beautiful then before the only thing different about you is your hair which is now much shorter and darker than it was when both of you were in high school. You take in his faint  scent, a scent that brought back memories of first kisses and first dates. He was never a fan of strong smells, mainly sticking to lotions but he always did have a faint scent of strawberries that always seemed to follow him around. 

When you left home 3 years ago even the slightest smell of strawberries brought you right back into his arms. You could still feel his arms wrapped around your waist, his plush lips on your neck as he teased you. You missed him for so long , your days seemed incomplete without him by your side until one day someone new walked into your life and you no longer could smell the scent of strawberry you grew to cherish so much.

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rapline upon realizing they’re in the same team

bonus:

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♡

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I Dare U | Do not edit.

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I’ve been trying to write part 3 since last week and I’m at a blank I have no idea where I want the story to go. Hopefully I’ll find some inspiration soon

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Louder than bombs 2

Pairing: yoongi x reader x taehyung

Synopsis: When taehyung appears at your front door unannounced everything in your relationship goes to shit.

Warnings: angst, fluff, smut (eventually)

I’ll try and do songs for each part hopefully until I can come up with a playlist good enough for it.

I can’t move, I wish I could but I’m terrified to look into Yoongi’s eyes, instead my eyes meet Tae’s. He has a smug look on his face, eyes burning a hole into my soul. I should look away but I can’t bring myself to divert my eyes anywhere else. 

Looking at him brings back a mixture of emotions. I can still remember when I first saw him. His hair was caught my attention first, black with light waves, his bangs slightly covering his eyes while the back was longer. He walked with such confidence it was almost intimidating but when my eyes scanned over his features he looked so innocent and harmless.   

“You seem very intrigued by this piece?” I was taken aback by the deepness of his voice. “Yeah” I said my eyes still transfixed by Yoko Ono’s cut piece “She’s one of my favorite photographers, artist and singers. She gets a lot of unnecessary hate” I take a sip of my drink trying to relieve the dryness in my throat. “I had no clue she did any thing else besides music and I’m sorry for what I’m about to say but her music isn’t that good…that is if you consider whale noises music.”

At that statement I pull my eyes away from the piece and face the stranger who’s already starring at me with his deep eyes. “Ha! I knew that would catch your attention, I’m Taehyung” a smirk can’t help but appear on my face when I catch a glimpse of his smile, it’s beautiful and infectious “Y/N” 

   We spoke endlessly that night about Van Gogh, Salvador Dali and a bunch of other painters. I found out that night that Tae was also a painter but his first love was photography, that fact attracting me to him even more.  I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss him. Yes I was unsure of my feelings when I was with him but I felt so comforted and at the time maybe that’s what I needed but, I knew I need to end things. I  couldn’t keep hurting Yoongi (even if he was obvious to what was going on) just to spite him and I couldn’t selfishly keep Tae behind me like a lost puppy waiting for me to only be his.

“y/n who is he?” I can tell by the tone in his voice that Yoongi is getting annoyed, perhaps even irradiated just waiting for me to give him an answer. I spin on my heels, taking  a deep breathI face my boyfriend who’s standing arms crossed just a few feet from me. His face is blank but I can tell by just looking at his eyes that he knows something is up, they look hurt and I immediately hate myself for knowing that I’m the cause for that. I want to come up with an excuse, I want to tell him Tae is just a friend but I know deep I have to tell him I just can’t keep doing this to him, I love him.

“T-This is Taehyung…we…Um kinda had a thing when you and I were on bad terms. It didn’t last long…I didn’t have any feelings for him I-I promise” I start to walk over towards Yoongi who’s expression is still the same but I can tell by the way he’s clenching his jaw that he’s angry. “You cheated on me?” the words stumble out his mouth “I-I’m sorry, he didn’t mea-” a chuckle cuts me off “I didn’t mean anything to you? How about all those times you said you loved me? That you would leave him for me? Or when I was eating you out and you said he could never compa-” “GET OUT! DON’T TALK ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT” I’m startled by Yoongi. He has never once raised his voice at anyone even when he’s been really angry, he always said he wasn’t the type that it just wasn’t in him.

Tae and I lock eyes, there’s sadness in his eyes and I can see that there’s still love in them, even after what I said. My heart beats when I notice the way he looks at me a part of me wants to go and hug him give him a kiss on the cheek and tell him I’m sorry but the other part of me never wants to see him again. “I’ll talk to you later Y/N…maybe this time you’ll finally answer me”he walks out shutting the door behind him leaving just Yoongi and I in silence. 

I reach over to cup his face but he jerks it away, looking into his eyes they’re watery and my heart shatters. Yoongi has always been a composed person, hiding his emotions or not being able to express them properly and over the years I’ve learned to adapt to it, I almost thought he was unbreakable maybe not even human until now. 

He looks deeply into your eyes arms still crossed. He doesn’t know how to react to what he just heard. To say it crushed his ego would be an understatement, now he’s second guessing all the times you’ve been intimate together. Were you just faking it to make him feel better? Did you really mean all those I love yous? But then again why would you end it with him just come back? By the looks of it that Taehyung guy was attractive more then he was, he was more manly unlike him but yet you came back, why?

“Baby I’m sorry it really meant nothing to me. All those things I said to him were meaningless, I only love you Yoongi…I only want to spend my life with you baby” he searches your eyes looking for the truth. His brown eyes penetrate your hazel eyes where they sat for a few seconds. He reaches out to cup your face with his hands, he still loves you even after finding out he always will. 

“I’m sorry Yoongs-” he cuts you off with a passionate kiss, it’s short but it still causes your heart to swell a bit. His hand remains on your face, his thumb slowly caressing your cheekbone “I don’t want to talk about this right now…can we just go to bed and listen to one of your vinyls until we fall asleep?” you nod a bit disappointment that he didn’t want to discuss it but also not wanting to push it. His fingers interlock with yours as he leads you to the bedroom, that night he holds you tight as if he’s afraid to let you go, afraid of you slipping from his fingers once again.

It’s been 2 weeks since you last saw Yoongi, you both still spoke and text daily but he’s been distance which is understandable. You’re confused as to what your relationship is as of right now as he has avoid the topic every time you attempt to bring it up answering that he has to go. You’re a little sadden about not seeing him and it only stings more than whenever you say I love you he stays silent and changes the topic. Again you can’t blame him you understand that it’s not something easy to deal with and he’s coping with it in his own way, you just wish he would let you in more but you’re allowing him the distance he needs.

After work you decided to go to the cafe down the street for a coffee feeling so drained from running around with the kids. You’re an elementary school art teacher and while sometimes you get tried from constantly being on high alter you wouldn’t change it for the world. You greet the cashier and order your regular, an Iced Americano, Yoongi turned you onto it and ever since then you’ve been addicted. Once your coffee is ready you take a seat at one of the near by tables to unwind a bit before going home, taking a sip from your coffee you instantly feel relaxed closing your eyes just enjoying the quietness of the cafe.

Your mind starts to wonder you don’t want to assume the worse but you know that you have to be realistic…your relationship with Yoongi is ruined and it’s all your fault. You were a dumbass to even think no to even go through with the idea of cheating on him. Yes when it all happened you were going through a rough patch, him moving away to another town for 5 months while you stayed home but that doesn’t justify any of it. It was easy at first with both of you talking constantly making the distance between the  2 of you seem almost non-exist but that only lasted a minute. After the first month and a half passed the problems and silly arguments began to make their presence. One night you had had enough when you found heard a women’s voice on the other line calling him baby, he tried to deny it saying it was just the tv but you knew better it also didn’t help he had began distancing himself and missing your calls.

He kept calling you after that day trying to example the situation to clear it up for you but every time his story kept changing. Around this time is when you met Taehyung at the museum, he gave you the attention that you were craving and both you were equally passionate about art, him always praising your work with kids, saying you were molding their minds from an early age. You have to admit to yourself that you did care about Taehyung maybe you even liked him but not the same way as Yoongi. 

He distracted you from the pain that you felt being apart from Yoongi and in a way he you felt like you had found your soulmate in him but in a non-loving way. Both of you would talk endlessly about movies, jazz, art and photography even going on dates to the park at night to capture the sincere. He was well aware of your relationship but he couldn’t help himself from falling for you. In all his 24 years of life he had never met anyone like you, he admired what you did the way you were so caring and passionate about your art work and music equally. You’re hippie-like mentality and your way of speaking causing him to blush any time you spoke. 

“Hey, can we talk?” loosing your train of thought your eyes shoot up to the handsome man in front of you, a man you know too well.

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Yoongi listens to Joni Mitchell for the first time

“So tell me babe which album are you going to make me listen to?” He wraps his strong arms around me pulling me close to him his warmth radiates off of him.  He buries his face in my neck placing light kisses on my collarbone causing a chill to travel up my spine. “Hmm I don’t know…I’m torn between Blue and Clouds, which one do you prefer?” I say holding out  both vinyls for him to see “I’m fine with which ever you choose love, you have impeccable taste regardless” I turn my face to look at him “Do I really?” He nods giving my neck one more peck before speaking “Yes I haven’t stopped listening to the Simon and Garfunkel album you gifted me. I listen to it a lot when I miss you...which is all the time. It reminds me of you a lot” I blush at his words turning around to giving him a quick peck on the lips before making my way over to my record player. I put on Clouds since it was my first introduction to Joni Mitchell and I want Yoongi to feel the way I did hearing the lyrics to Both Sides Now. My bedroom is immediately filled with the hypnotizing sounds of the first couple of chords of Tin Angel. 

I make my way over to yoongi who’s seated on our carpet legs spread open, waiting for me to lay between them. Once I do my head finds comfort on his thigh while his fingers run through my hair. We stay silent while the music blares through our bedroom. I always enjoy these moments the most, us in my room listening to music or watching a show while we cuddle in bed. He’s always preferred my apartment over his saying that all the colors, paintings and flowers that hang from the ceiling bring him peace and help him better relax. He says it could be the scented candles I have scattered around the house or the incense that’s I leave burning. He’s spends most days out of the week at my apartment almost making it feel like our own little home. His clothes have occupied a portion of my closet, which I don’t mind because whenever he’s off at school  or work I’ll put on one of his shirts to make it feel like he’s still with me. When he does head back to his apartment it doesn’t feel the same coming home when I’ve grown so used to seeing him on the couch with Luna and Ginger laying on him.   

As Roses blue begins to play I place a kiss on his thigh showing him how much I appreciate his presents with my small action. He blurts out a small I love you causing me to stare up at him who’s already staring down at me with a serious face. It’s the first time he’s ever said it, I was the first to say after a month of dating. Ever since I met Yoongi he made it clear to me that he isn’t very vocal with his emotions and doesn’t know how to properly convey them but that didbn’t stop me from falling in love with him. It never once caused me to doubt his feelings for me because I could always sense it buy the way he looked at me or by the small things he would do to show that he appreciated me. That being said those 3 words still make my heart beat faster a slight blush spreads across my nose bridge.

 I sit up my hands cupping his face and my eyes starring deeply into his while his hands sit on top of my hips holding me in place. Looking into his eyes I know he’s the one, he’s the guy I want to grow old with, the guy I’ve dreamed about since I was a little girl. He brings out the best in me and ever since we started dating I’ve been so inspired, painting and doodling daily. He always encourages me to do my best and to gives me the strength I need to go out and accomplish my dreams. Starring at his eyes I can see my future; a family, marriage, us buying our first home together, all the memories we’d create together. 

My eyes flicker to his pink plush lips, before I lean in and kiss them. His lips are always slightly chapped and taste a bit like vanilla. The kiss starts off slow but heats up quickly as he falls back on the carpet his big hands moving down to cup my ass. He begins to push my hips toward his causing a moan to escape my lips. My lips begin to travel down to his neck where the start to peck away and suck lightly on his pale skin. “Fuck” he moans out when I begin to suck on his sweet spot, his hips smash into mine causing to me to feel his erection. I start to kiss down his clothes chest to his stomach pressing soft light kisses until I reach his erection which I kiss through the fabric of his jeans. He jerks his hips a smile plasters on my face at the way such a gesture makes him lose control. I go to unbuckle his pants but his hands stop me “Come back up here baby…I want to kiss you” I slowly crawl back up until we’re face to face,my lips hover over his as I just admire him. He has the cutest eyes that resemble little crescent moons when he smiles or laughs. The little mole that he has on top of his nose and on his cheeks. His platinum hair that brings out the paleness of his but suits him so well. Any time that we cuddle I can’t help but run my fingers through his locks and admire them. I just love this man so much.

 I’m pulled out of my train of thought by his lips. The is nothing more than love filled the hand that he has on the back of my neck pulls me to deepen the kiss more. He flips us over so I’m under him. He holds himself up while he works on his zipper, I spread my legs open, ready for him to make me his. He dives for my neck kissing and sucking away as small auditable I love you escapes my lips. He tears himself away from my neck to look into my eyes, my hands go up to cup his cheeks which I love so much. I’m so lost in his brown eyes that I’m taken aback when I feel his tip making its way inside me. He pushes himself inside me slowly making sure not to hurt me, still not breaking eye contact with me. He fills me to the brim and I don’t think I can ever grow  tired of how he feels inside me, of the way he stretches me out. He leans down to give me one last kiss before he starts to thirst into me slowly  causing me to moan out in pleasure.

He begins to thrust into me faster and harder causing me to moan uncontrollably. The sound of skin slapping into each other fills our bedroom overpowering the vocals of Ms.Mitchell who still plays behind us. “Fuck Y/N I love you so much…fuck” I shut my eyes enjoying the way my name sounds coming out of his mouth and those 3 simple words that still make my heartheat fast. I’m still not used to him expressing his feelings so freely and I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it.

 “ I’m gonna cum baby” I moan out causing him to thrust into me faster, my eyes wet at the sensation between my legs. “Look at me, I want to see you cum love” I flutter my eyes open to find him starring at me so deeply, love and lust in his deep brown eyes. “Yoongi….yoongi” his name stumbles out of my mouth as I cum, my eyes still starring into his and a warm feeling takes over my chest.  His thrust start to become slopper letting me know that he’s close. I clench around him and his face contorts in pleasure  “cum for me baby…I want you to fill me with all your cum” I say between harsh breathes. “I…Love…You…” he says between his last thrusts before I feel his cum inside me. He lays his head on my chest kissing it lightly both of us trying to catch our breath while we bask in the aftermath of our love making.

“I like this song, a lot “ his voice breaks the silence between us. Both sides now is playing which is my favorite song off the album because of the lyrics that talk about viewing things from 2 different perspectives but still not being able to understand it.  I smile down at him, my heart filling with warmth just looking at the love of my life laying on my chest with the beautiful after sex glow. “I love you yoongi…I’ll never stop saying it, I love you.”

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Louder Than Bomb drabbles

- Yoongi listens to Joni Mitchell for the first time

- Yoongi isn’t sure how to feel

- Y/N makes her feelings for Taehyung clear

- Taehyung finally gets what he wants

- What really happened when yoongi went away

- Why yoongi distanced himself

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m.list

Series:

Louder than bombs

↳ yoongi x reader x taehyung

Synopsis: When taehyung appears at your front door unannounced everything in your relationship goes to shit 

Genre: angst, fluff, smut

chapters: 1 ,2

Drabbles

characterization

Yoongis playlist

Taehyung playlist

Y/N playlist

Louder than bombs

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I barely have followers but I already have ideas for the next chapter. I’ll try to create a master list tomorrow at work and edit the first 2 parts

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Louder than bombs 2

Pairing: yoongi x reader x taehyung

Synopsis: When taehyung appears at your front door unannounced everything in your relationship goes to shit.

Warnings: angst, fluff, smut (eventually)

I’ll try and do songs for each part hopefully until I can come up with a playlist good enough for it.

I can’t move, I wish I could but I’m terrified to look into Yoongi’s eyes, instead my eyes meet Tae’s. He has a smug look on his face, eyes burning a hole into my soul. I should look away but I can’t bring myself to divert my eyes anywhere else. 

Looking at him brings back a mixture of emotions. I can still remember when I first saw him. His hair was caught my attention first, black with light waves, his bangs slightly covering his eyes while the back was longer. He walked with such confidence it was almost intimidating but when my eyes scanned over his features he looked so innocent and harmless.   

“You seem very intrigued by this piece?” I was taken aback by the deepness of his voice. “Yeah” I said my eyes still transfixed by Yoko Ono’s cut piece “She’s one of my favorite photographers, artist and singers. She gets a lot of unnecessary hate” I take a sip of my drink trying to relieve the dryness in my throat. “I had no clue she did any thing else besides music and I’m sorry for what I’m about to say but her music isn’t that good...that is if you consider whale noises music.”

At that statement I pull my eyes away from the piece and face the stranger who’s already starring at me with his deep eyes. “Ha! I knew that would catch your attention, I’m Taehyung” a smirk can’t help but appear on my face when I catch a glimpse of his smile, it’s beautiful and infectious “Y/N” 

   We spoke endlessly that night about Van Gogh, Salvador Dali and a bunch of other painters. I found out that night that Tae was also a painter but his first love was photography, that fact attracting me to him even more.  I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss him. Yes I was unsure of my feelings when I was with him but I felt so comforted and at the time maybe that’s what I needed but, I knew I need to end things. I  couldn’t keep hurting Yoongi (even if he was obvious to what was going on) just to spite him and I couldn’t selfishly keep Tae behind me like a lost puppy waiting for me to only be his.

“y/n who is he?” I can tell by the tone in his voice that Yoongi is getting annoyed, perhaps even irradiated just waiting for me to give him an answer. I spin on my heels, taking  a deep breathI face my boyfriend who’s standing arms crossed just a few feet from me. His face is blank but I can tell by just looking at his eyes that he knows something is up, they look hurt and I immediately hate myself for knowing that I’m the cause for that. I want to come up with an excuse, I want to tell him Tae is just a friend but I know deep I have to tell him I just can’t keep doing this to him, I love him.

“T-This is Taehyung...we...Um kinda had a thing when you and I were on bad terms. It didn’t last long...I didn’t have any feelings for him I-I promise” I start to walk over towards Yoongi who’s expression is still the same but I can tell by the way he’s clenching his jaw that he’s angry. “You cheated on me?” the words stumble out his mouth “I-I’m sorry, he didn’t mea-” a chuckle cuts me off “I didn’t mean anything to you? How about all those times you said you loved me? That you would leave him for me? Or when I was eating you out and you said he could never compa-” “GET OUT! DON’T TALK ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT” I’m startled by Yoongi. He has never once raised his voice at anyone even when he’s been really angry, he always said he wasn’t the type that it just wasn’t in him.

Tae and I lock eyes, there’s sadness in his eyes and I can see that there’s still love in them, even after what I said. My heart beats when I notice the way he looks at me a part of me wants to go and hug him give him a kiss on the cheek and tell him I’m sorry but the other part of me never wants to see him again. “I’ll talk to you later Y/N...maybe this time you’ll finally answer me”he walks out shutting the door behind him leaving just Yoongi and I in silence. 

I reach over to cup his face but he jerks it away, looking into his eyes they’re watery and my heart shatters. Yoongi has always been a composed person, hiding his emotions or not being able to express them properly and over the years I’ve learned to adapt to it, I almost thought he was unbreakable maybe not even human until now. 

He looks deeply into your eyes arms still crossed. He doesn’t know how to react to what he just heard. To say it crushed his ego would be an understatement, now he’s second guessing all the times you’ve been intimate together. Were you just faking it to make him feel better? Did you really mean all those I love yous? But then again why would you end it with him just come back? By the looks of it that Taehyung guy was attractive more then he was, he was more manly unlike him but yet you came back, why?

“Baby I’m sorry it really meant nothing to me. All those things I said to him were meaningless, I only love you Yoongi...I only want to spend my life with you baby” he searches your eyes looking for the truth. His brown eyes penetrate your hazel eyes where they sat for a few seconds. He reaches out to cup your face with his hands, he still loves you even after finding out he always will. 

“I’m sorry Yoongs-” he cuts you off with a passionate kiss, it’s short but it still causes your heart to swell a bit. His hand remains on your face, his thumb slowly caressing your cheekbone “I don’t want to talk about this right now...can we just go to bed and listen to one of your vinyls until we fall asleep?” you nod a bit disappointment that he didn’t want to discuss it but also not wanting to push it. His fingers interlock with yours as he leads you to the bedroom, that night he holds you tight as if he’s afraid to let you go, afraid of you slipping from his fingers once again.

It’s been 2 weeks since you last saw Yoongi, you both still spoke and text daily but he’s been distance which is understandable. You’re confused as to what your relationship is as of right now as he has avoid the topic every time you attempt to bring it up answering that he has to go. You’re a little sadden about not seeing him and it only stings more than whenever you say I love you he stays silent and changes the topic. Again you can’t blame him you understand that it’s not something easy to deal with and he’s coping with it in his own way, you just wish he would let you in more but you’re allowing him the distance he needs.

After work you decided to go to the cafe down the street for a coffee feeling so drained from running around with the kids. You’re an elementary school art teacher and while sometimes you get tried from constantly being on high alter you wouldn’t change it for the world. You greet the cashier and order your regular, an Iced Americano, Yoongi turned you onto it and ever since then you’ve been addicted. Once your coffee is ready you take a seat at one of the near by tables to unwind a bit before going home, taking a sip from your coffee you instantly feel relaxed closing your eyes just enjoying the quietness of the cafe.

Your mind starts to wonder you don’t want to assume the worse but you know that you have to be realistic...your relationship with Yoongi is ruined and it’s all your fault. You were a dumbass to even think no to even go through with the idea of cheating on him. Yes when it all happened you were going through a rough patch, him moving away to another town for 5 months while you stayed home but that doesn’t justify any of it. It was easy at first with both of you talking constantly making the distance between the  2 of you seem almost non-exist but that only lasted a minute. After the first month and a half passed the problems and silly arguments began to make their presence. One night you had had enough when you found heard a women’s voice on the other line calling him baby, he tried to deny it saying it was just the tv but you knew better it also didn’t help he had began distancing himself and missing your calls.

He kept calling you after that day trying to example the situation to clear it up for you but every time his story kept changing. Around this time is when you met Taehyung at the museum, he gave you the attention that you were craving and both you were equally passionate about art, him always praising your work with kids, saying you were molding their minds from an early age. You have to admit to yourself that you did care about Taehyung maybe you even liked him but not the same way as Yoongi. 

He distracted you from the pain that you felt being apart from Yoongi and in a way he you felt like you had found your soulmate in him but in a non-loving way. Both of you would talk endlessly about movies, jazz, art and photography even going on dates to the park at night to capture the sincere. He was well aware of your relationship but he couldn’t help himself from falling for you. In all his 24 years of life he had never met anyone like you, he admired what you did the way you were so caring and passionate about your art work and music equally. You’re hippie-like mentality and your way of speaking causing him to blush any time you spoke. 

“Hey, can we talk?” loosing your train of thought your eyes shoot up to the handsome man in front of you, a man you know too well.

[taestrawberrie]

Louder Than Bombs

Pairing: yoongi x reader x taehyung

Synopsis: When taehyung appears at your front door unannounced everything in your relationship goes to shit.

Warnings: angst, fluff, smut (eventually)

Also, this might turn into a series I’m not too sure since it was just something I wrote in the heat of the moment. Hopefully if people like it I’ll develop it more!

I love him that I’m sure of. I still get butterflies in my stomach whenever I hear my name stumble out of his memorizing mouth. I still get shy and nerves even when he’s just an arms reach from me. Kissing him always feels like the first time all over again, fireworks crackling in the dark summer sky.

“I love you “ the words fall out my mouth so easily, without a lace of doubt to them. He looks down at me flashing his beautiful gummy smile at me causing my heart to beat faster than it already was. We stay looking at each other for a few seconds before his lips make contact with me. It’s a quick kiss but he’s still able to leave an impression. “ I love you too Y/N” his thumb caresses my cheek while our eyes stay locked. I can spend hours starring into his hypnotizing coffee eyes that seem to calm all the worries I’ve ever had in life.

He’s the first to break the silence between, “ I love you so fucking much Y/N” leaning into his touch, I close my eyes allowing his words to sink in.

A knock on the door causes my eyes to flash wide open, “I’ll be right back yoongi” I give him a quick peck on the cheek, forcing myself to stand up from the couch towards the door. When my eyes make contact with the knocker my heart stops. Why is he here? Didn’t he get the message? Is he stalking me now?

“Y/N…” the sound of his voice causes me to tense up. It still has the same affect on me like it did a couple months ago. “I told you to leave me alo-“ he cuts me off grabbing my hand bringing it close to his chest “ I can’t stop thinking about you…fuck I’ve missed you so much. Can’t you feel how fast my heart is beating just from being in your presence” I do but I don’t respond I only look into his brown eyes.

He can’t do this to me…I won’t let myself fall back into this routine, I can’t do this to yoongi…again. I yank my hand away from his grip, panic flashes across his handsome face. “ I can’t do this right now, No I can’t this again Tae. I told you we were ov-“ and then it happens I hear the deep raspy voice of my boyfriend, my heart beating so loudly that I can hear it in my ears. “You can’t do what again Y/N? What do you mean you were over?”