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I’m a background character in everyone’s life. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t even matter.

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“Há dias que eu chamo de “dias ruins”, mas não se tratam de dias em que acontecem coisas ruins, são dias em que eu estou ruim e me fecho nesse meu mundo ruim, em que eu não tenho poder sobre mim, é uma guerra interna todos os dias, sobre o que eu quero fazer e o que eu o que eu consigo fazer, mas nesses dias, eu já nem luto, sequer me esforço pra sair da cama. E ainda que nesses dias eu não saiba diferenciar o bom do ruim, mesmo que a reação seja a mesma, eu simplesmente não sinta, nada me toque, ainda consigo perceber que, não sentir, com certeza não está no topo das coisas que mais adoro nesse mundo. Sentir, é o que me move. E nesses dias, nem viver faz sentido.”

— Mar e amar…

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The Morning After I Killed Myself

The morning after I killed myself, I woke up.

I made myself breakfast in bed. I added salt and pepper to my eggs and used my toast for a cheese and bacon sandwich. I squeezed a grapefruit into a juice glass. I scraped the ashes from the frying pan and rinsed the butter off the counter. I washed the dishes and folded the towels.

The morning after I killed myself, I fell in love. Not with the boy down the street or the middle school principal. Not with the everyday jogger or the grocer who always left the avocados out of the bag. I fell in love with my mother and the way she sat on the floor of my room holding each rock from my collection in her palms until they grew dark with sweat. I fell in love with my father down at the river as he placed my note into a bottle and sent it into the current. With my brother who once believed in unicorns but who now sat in his desk at school trying desperately to believe I still existed.

The morning after I killed myself, I walked the dog. I watched the way her tail twitched when a bird flew by or how her pace quickened at the sight of a cat. I saw the empty space in her eyes when she reached a stick and turned around to greet me so we could play catch but saw nothing but sky in my place. I stood by as strangers stroked her muzzle and she wilted beneath their touch like she did once for mine.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to the neighbors’ yard where I left my footprints in concrete as a two year old and examined how they were already fading. I picked a few daylilies and pulled a few weeds and watched the elderly woman through her window as she read the paper with the news of my death. I saw her husband spit tobacco into the kitchen sink and bring her her daily medication.

The morning after I killed myself, I watched the sun come up. Each orange tree opened like a hand and the kid down the street pointed out a single red cloud to his mother.

The morning after I killed myself, I went back to that body in the morgue and tried to talk some sense into her. I told her about the avocados and the stepping stones, the river and her parents. I told her about the sunsets and the dog and the beach.

The morning after I killed myself, I tried to unkill myself, but couldn’t finish what I started.

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Crazy Love  (Movie: When a man loves a woman) 

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“I used to think the years would go by in order, that you get older one year at a time. But it’s not like that. It happens overnight.”

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▬ 𝒗𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒔✨

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Do not set yourself on fire to keep others warm

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Boyfriend Jimin Lockscreens

Jungkook

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» ꒰th icons + tk headers꒱ ˎˊ˗

𝗋𝖾𝖻𝗅𝗈𝗀 𝗈𝗋 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾. 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝗋𝖾𝗉𝗈𝗌𝗍! ♡

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#messy_taekook_&_CARE BEARS_layouts 🧸

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✎ … jungkook +  taekook soft layouts  ♡ ˎˊ˗  

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Color palette tutorial time!

This is by no means the Only Way To Pick Colors—it’s just a relatively-simple method I use sometimes.  I’ve found it works pretty well, almost regardless of what colors you pick—as long as you can keep them organized by those light/dark warm/cool categories, and make sure one category takes up a significantly higher proportion of page space, it usually turns out pretty good!

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jk lockcreens🦔

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