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Barricade Garage Slaying Hate With Comedy.

I was subscribed to Barricade Garage 3 days ago when he had 25K subs. He now has over 75K. Why? Because America is not a racist country for as much Marxism would like folks to believe America is the white devil. We're not. America is everybody that loves personal sovereignty and freedom. Yes. America has flaws and corruptions just like humanity does. But America and Americans has a hell of a sense of humor and used to love laughing at itself before all this oh so serious, make everyone a victim, SJW nonsense. Laughter is healing, and this guys videos are the BEST! Laugh, people! Let's laugh at ourselves again.

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Self-Respect Matters

Self-Respect knows no racial or gender bias. It has no sexuality though it may have some well-earned boundaries to keep from being the doormat of others. Self-respect can be had by anyone at any time. Self-respect simply refuses to be abused, nor will it knock anyone else down to lift itself up.

Years ago, my first love fell out of love with me. But I was a really good dog on a leash to keep around for reasons of usury. Feeling unsatisfied in the relationship, I constantly complained about our relationship among friends and family. My low esteem took it's junk-food Twinkies of hollow praise wherever it could find them. I gobbled-up every girlfriend's therapeutic praise of "you're the best girlfriend he could ever have" and "he knows your great and really loves you but is scared of real commitment".

So, I kept bowing, caving, and groveling to prove I was the "best girlfriend anyone could ever have" all well I kept a little score sheet to bash him over the head with and kept complaining to friends for my quick-fix, Twinkie high of a temporary ego boost.

Mine and my ex's relationship stopped being about love and respect and started being about my sacrifices, my scoresheets, me using manipulative guilt, and my command for him to obey and love me like he used to. His side of the relationship became about manipulating me, neglecting, rejecting, and using me when he could find nothing better.

All my girlfriends fed into my behavior. If they didn't, than I stopped being their friend. Some family told me to leave him, but I wasn't trying to hear that. I wanted what I wanted, and I wanted him to love me again. In my mind, I was nothing without his love. I needed it to make me whole and to make me worthy of life, itself. He was my everything.

Then, one day I was having my usual self-pitying bitch-fest about my boyfriend in the smoke-hole at work. The ladies did what they always did, but there was this one older man sitting at the table we all shared and who suffered severe back pain.

His exhausted and bloodshot eyes, red from yet another night without sleep due to his extreme pain, looked right into mine in total disgust and simply said, "Grow up!" He, then, forced his inflamed back to straighten as he got out his chair and walked out of the room while all my friends and I sat silent in total shock.

It might seem cruel, but that was kindest thing anyone ever said to me. A flip switched in my mind right there and then, and I knew he was right. I thought, "What the hell am I doing to myself? What the hell happened to my self-respect? I'm torturing these people with my bullshit, because I can't grow-up and face reality for what it is. My relationship is already over and has been over for years. I'm torturing myself at this point!

I came home that night and my boyfriend expected me to kiss his ass, after our earlier fight that day, as he packed his stuff. He waited till I got home to pack hoping I'd kiss his ass as usual. He expected me to beg him not to go as I had always done before. But he was wrong! I had changed.

I told him to hurry-up and pack his shit to get out! I was done kissing his ass and groveling on my hands and knees begging, bribing, and guilting to be loved. I was also done with trying to put him on his knees. Maybe I didn't love him as much as I thought I did in trying to do so? Maybe my low self-esteem didn't even know what love was in it's sick need of him?

The shock on his face was priceless and fueled me even more. I yelled, "GET YOUR SHIT & GET OUT! NOW!" It was my house in my name and I paid all the bills, so I could tell him to get out. It's the first time in 6 years I had ever yelled at him in anger and not cried begging at his feet.

I was totally done with being his victim which is what I had always chosen for myself, but failed to see it was me all along that had chosen to be his used and abused victim while using that victim status to become an abuser myself.

Over the last few years, there's considerable movements embracing being a victim as if there's empowerment, strength, and courage in self-victimization. I have been there and done that. And the whole world is like my female friends in that smoke hole feeding into it. Just like me back then, insecure people in desperate need of external validation and acceptance gobble-up that hollow shit of false praise like a Twinkie.

It never nourishes anyone, but it tastes real good and feeds the starved insecurity, for a moment, till it seeks another one and another one and becomes one's own abusive gorging on junk. There's no real nourishment in it. It just keeps the starved chasing others to fill a void that's within oneself.

As a result, we are a people that's losing self-respect and praising the loss of it as "heroic". Like me, they got their score sheets tallied and fully equipped with bullets of guilt to be fired at will. But, also like me, there's a greater abuser in the form of tyranny ready and willing to put that dog of insecurity on a leash.

With love I tell my fellow humanity... GROW UP!

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All The Books On My Heading & Why.

I know, going into this, we all have our clique encampments we're loyal to, and loyalty to these encampments makes opposing information a taboo. I have no superstition, or any affiliation with any one clique. As a result, I have no taboos when it comes to information.

Over the years, I have just sought truth having never owned a truth that helped me fit-in with any one clique. I learned a long time ago that abusers and the power hungry create information taboos. Their goal is control, so they must control the beliefs of the minds they seek to dominate with their one and only "truth" that makes that "truth" superior and every other one inferior. War after war after war has began on such premises of superiority seeking to dominate and overthrow it's perceived inferiority.

This doesn't only happen between countries; it happens in our own families and friendships all the time. Suddenly, close friends and family who've found some gospel truth seeks to push that on everyone else and tell them what makes them inferior or "evil" as opposed to themselves.

So, when anyone tells me not to look in the direction of whatever manufactured darkness, that's the first place I go and turn on the light. I like to decide for myself what's what. So, my header image is not an endorsement of any one book so much as it's an endorsement of putting garlic around one's neck & facing society's manufactured boogeymen head-on.

How can we ever consider ourselves informed when we're scared of the boogeyman books that might challenge our perspectives?

If one is frightened of books, than the books aren't the problem...one's flimsy and insecure grounding in some so-called "truth" that dare not be challenged is the problem. Because if that person is confident in their truth, than nothing... let alone reading a book...threatens that truth.

No book is a threat to me. Not being well-informed in insecure fears of boogeymen is a threat to us all.

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Echkart Tolle's Power of Now? How About Power of You!

I love Eckhart Tolle. He's his own holy trinity of calm, patient, and witty. The guy's just hypnotically likeable, and people that understandably like him tune-in for guidance only become confused...

"How the hell do I not learn from past mistakes or plan for tomorrow? Damn! I'm failing already! I gotta think about now and now and now and now and now. Staring at this breadbox is boring. Maybe I should eat something? I am feeling kinda hungry. But I gotta lose weight. I can't eat carbs! All those kids bullied me in school and a reunion is coming up. I'mma show those bastards looking fit and thin. I remember when Johnny & Mandy made fun of me. That really hurt my feelings. It still hurts. I'm so hurt and pissed-off! Ahhh man! I'm screwing-up again! I suck! I gotta think about now and now and now and now!"

What Eckhart Tolle's philosophy leaves out of the "now" equation is confidence & personal empowerment. People are trying to find their confidence and empowerment, and he's like "that's all ego" forget about it and focus on the now as we make ourselves unaccountable dust in fate or destiny's winds.

Confidence is not ego. Confidence is humble. Narciscissim is ego, but narcissicism is not confidence. It took considerable self-confidence for Eckhart Tolle to sit and write the "Power of Now". It took more confidence to send it to publishers where it could be rejected. It took even more confidence to do lectures to empty seats, yet keep pushing oneself to lecture till those seats became filled.

The focus on the "now" had nothing to do with Tolle's ultimate success. Confidence has everything to do with it.

The "Power of Now" is only beneficial if we consider it terms of building self-confidence as it does no good to dwell on how someone hurt you in the distant past and continue to beat yourself up with the echos of their actions and words. It also does no good for one to perpetually live for a magical future and measure one's current circumstances by a future ideal.

Self-confidence recognizes it's past, present, and potential future's imperfections minus the self-abuse. It makes the best of all these things to become a better self, not a perfectly enlightened self. To consider oneself "enlightened" or to even seek holy enlightenment is itself an egotistical endeavor.

When we start seeing ourselves as "enlightened," than we start seeing everyone else as inferior. That's the breeding ground for narcissicism and narcissicistic abuses.

I think Tolle realizes this, but he's so caught in the "spiritual/philosophical" admonishment of the ego, he fails to teach people the importance of confidence and personal empowerment. There is no power in the abstract of "now;" the power is in the person making the best of oneself in the now.

You are the power. The "now" is just the bullshit you are trying to sort through & make the best of while focusing on the pretty colors of a breadbox, or the feeling of soap suds as you wash the dishes.

Ideally, the "now" would be used for meditation that goes within in an attempt to become self-aware, not of one's breath, but of one's own hypocrisies and character flaws that could've contributed to past and present problems and affect one's future as well.

When we start seeing ourselves for the imperfection we all are, than we start having a natural compassion for the imperfection in others. This, too, builds confidence because we realize we're not "lesser-than" or inferior to anyone else. We're all on the same playing field trying to find our way through the game.

Maybe the real "enlightenment" doesn't come from rising above suffering in a mindless focus on the now, but in using the now to realize how everyone suffers in a way that meliminates our self-victimizing rage, hate, and anger and finds compassion for oneself and others?