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Idk my bsf seems fake rn and im trying so hsrd shes being acting shady since the very end of last year like during freaking christmas times to now bro. I get new yeta new uou but whats with the shade fr smh. Like i dont wanna sound selfish or rude idk if this does but who was there when you felt like no one would listen? Wgo was there when you came home cryyng every single day from school? Who was there when your thoughts overtook you mentally and physically? Who was there when ones you thought you could trust hurt you? I was and now im the one whos making us solit somehow?? Like she answers me like at 2 in the morning when i send a text at like 5pm abd she be online, reposting tiktoks, and more. I get texting can be draining but every day it seems like its draining. And idk how we could be talking all day one day then the next you just start this habit. I guess its kinda my fault because i never bbrought it up or anything but why the frick does she di this. Like what did i do. I wanna know. She always says ih no im not mad at you or i havent done something but what causes yiu to change your whole respinse to me so quick? I feel so selfish to even say that i feel so lonely without her but like shes the person who i felt mist comfortable ariund for the first time in years and she was there at my lowest and never knew or will probably know. Just talking ti her would brung up my moid but now when she finally repsinds i feel no want to respond even tho i just was feeling so angry for her not repsinding. That i now feel guilty about even being upset cause i dont even wanna text her now. She once said we dont talk that much anymore but i wonder why that is. You always leave me on resd or delivered and answer hours later? You act like i dont have feelings cause when you want sum from me you will keep soamming till i answer snd sct like its the end of rhe wirkd but if i do that you be like hold on omg. WHEN WE USED TO DO THAT NORMALLY. I really hate this sm. Idk what to di. I found someone who texts me alot and stuff but it doesnt feel the same and ahyone who i enjoy a lot i just feel so guilty for talking to them and not her. Even thi she wont respond. I know shes doing better or at least thats what it seems. I hope she is. I hope all the best things on her shes a great persona bd works for what she wbats. She deserves it. I just wish shed tell me what i did. I rather have all the hateful truth than live in a lie of nothing but pure lies to protect myself from relaity. I really do love her shes the best hut i want her to cuss me out shout at me do whatever to explain to me why she does this. Texting is so draining but shell come iut her way to tlel me about how her and lover text all night long ir whatever then disappear again when i listen to thag story. She wont even let me know her crushes and when i ask she acts so sahdy. Also with the “i already told you” crap. I akready told her milkions of things but i dont gotta remind her or not say it anymore. People genuinely forget the knky thing i do isnt just travj everything abiut her. I just feek so guilty. I akways feel guilty for doing anything and i hate it i hate feeling guiltt but every singkebday thats all i feel

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yes, you guessed it lol

so for the past two years on Tumblr you've known me as Toulouse or touloser, which I'm sure you guessed was a fake name. i kept myself anonymous because no one irl knew that did these drawings or was so embarrassingly obsessed with this beautiful YouTube channel. I guess i underestimated people's ability to put voices to faces, and there've been a lot of rumors flying around about me over the past couple of weeks. so, yes. my real name is Frances Javier, and i'm the artist for universe city and the voice of Toulouse. I used to be just a masive fan of the show, and now suddenly i'm helping make the show, which is weird, but here we are. no, I’m not going to tell you who radio is. please stop asking itd also be cool if you could not stalk me. ok. bye.

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