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a heart that always understands also gets tired

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Why is it that we only acknowledge our humanity when we make mistakes? - Ate a whole bag of potato chips? Skipped the gym and slept in instead? - “It’s ok I’m human, I make mistakes.” - Hit all your workouts and stayed on track with nutrition? - “I’m a beast!” - Do something kind or caring for another person? - “You’re an angel” “You’re a saint.” - Humans are capable of making mistakes, but we are also capable of some pretty amazing things. - You are human and you make mistakes. Yes, this is true…but you are human and also capable of amazing things. - Sometimes we do stupid shit. That is life…but you are strong. You are capable, and you are more than just a human that makes mistakes. - Being human doesn’t mean that you are just doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over. It might be a process and will take some time, but make sure not to use being human as reason to justify an not trying your best. - You are stronger and more powerful than you know. If you truly want to make a change. You will find a way. 💪 - #fitness #nutrition #workout #keepgoing #motivation #health #change #coach #food #bodybuilding #weightloss #fatloss #fit #determination #human #ftm #ftmfitness #habits #discipline #change https://www.instagram.com/p/CSrubw4JTjX/?utm_medium=tumblr

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You get tested the most when it’s time to elevate. Don’t break.

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It isn't easy, you know,

Even when things seem to be perfect,

Even when someone seems to have the perfect life,

Even there, there is no perfection.

I was always good at school,

I had good and caring parents,

I didn't have money troubles,

Yet, I had so many problems.

My dad, my grandpa, my grandma, my aunt.

But nobody cared, they always thought that it was perfect.

They were jealous of my they-thought-perfection,

But they didn't know what there was behind it,

They didn't know the hard times spent on books,

The hours my parents spent with me to make me feel loved.

It isn't easy, you know

When people look at you in anger

They look at you in hate

Because they don't know what's behind you.

Most of times, to become someone,

You have to know some important people.

If not, they notice your efforts

But can't prize you.

The important ones' children come first.

But you can't stop trying, or they'll win.

I fought, I didn't let them bring me down.

I studied a lot, even if there was that person better than me.

It had to be, or my life would've been meaningless.

But it isn't easy, you know,

It isn't easy trying and trying

Fighting and fighting

And seeing that just a step before the victory

There comes the important child

Who didn't fight as hard as you.

Then, as a cherry on the cake,

There was the tragedy.

I don't know how I managed

Keeping walking, breathing, living.

I don't know where did I find the strength.

The world suddenly stopped,

Or it kept going on but I stopped.

Something broke inside of me, everywhere.

Then I realized that everything had no importance.

Let them give the prize to who ever they wanted,

Let them think whatever they wanted,

Let them look at you and don't understand the emptiness in your eyes.

Nothing mattered anymore.

What a futile fight had been.

It wasn't easy, you know,

The pain is still there,

Is wasn't easy changing in one morning,

It wasn't easy seeing your normal world not being normal anymore.

But you keep going,

You stand up, stronger than ever

'Cause otherwise you fall forever.

You can't lose hope,

One day someone will notice your efforts,

They will recognize your strength

And your passion and your intelligence.

'Cause you're smart and strong,

You are loved and life is a wheel,

All the good and the study you did

They will come up

And you will find your place

Where everybody sees your potential.

It won't be easy, you know,

'Cause there will always be the important one's child

On the road with you,

Always one step in front of you.

But you keep going, on and on,

Until you can breathe,

'Cause if you quit, you lose everything.

It isn't easy, you know,

Living in this world,

With all this misunderstanding people,

Selfish people, corrupted people,

But this is your life, you can't throw it away.

One day, it all will make sense,

'Cause life is a wheel

Even if you know it isn't easy.

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Entry 117

08/21/21

I have a small circle of friends that I tell my feelings too. But i have no one to tell what goes on in my head.

Figures.

- M A T T

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i don‘t give up on people easily, so if i cut u off, u really fucked up

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i hate jensen for having social media self control you know he’s either gonna text that man or ignore him completely which is simply unfair because we’re all invested now

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something i forgot and really love about the early seasons when sam and dean are learning to relate to each other as adults is how gentle sam is with dean’s trauma. whereas when sam expresses frustration at how they were raised dean will usually respond by defending their upbringing or john (sometimes you were out of line / what was he supposed to do you know what’s out there) in something wicked the first thing sam says when dean tells that horrific story about the shtriga and how he blames himself is you were just a kid. when dean says “don’t” sam doesn’t push, but  he makes a point to apologise later for his own actions (giving dean a hard time for listening to their dad when he didn’t get why). he’s constantly saying it wasn’t your fault, i didn’t know you carried me out of the fire, I didn’t know you were carrying all of this, I always thought you were just on dad’s side but i understand now and I’m sorry. It feels like he’s dancing around saying “this wasn’t fair to you” without saying that outright bc dean’s not at all ready to hear that, and to me it really shows that sam has grown up with such a strong sense self compared to dean- likely due to dean’s supportive influence- and how being away from his family for those crucial few years at stanford gave him that perspective that dean tragically never got. idk where im going with this but early seasons rlly had something and also i love sammy. best empathetic boy <3

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hey friends i am once again reminding you to use the block button as much as you want. it takes one click of a button to get that person you just Don’t Vibe With off your dashboard. no one will or should take it personally.

this is your social media experience.

you get to curate it.

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If someone is doing better than you, good for them. But their success has nothing to do with your own and you shouldn’t compare your journey to theirs. You are running your own race and if they’re running faster than you, then they probably have less obstacles in their way than you do in this season of your life. Or maybe life has you going slower because their are very important lessons you need to grasp right now and need extended time to learn them. Whatever the case may be, you are doing your own thing. You cannot compare yourself to anyone.

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You have to present yourself in such a way that people don’t even feel right approaching you with bullshit.

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But the only thing we can do is focus on ourselves. Enjoy our alone time. Chill w ourselves. Focus on studies, be rich, be independent. We will get what we want. WE.DESERVE.THAT.

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