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Apocalypse one:

I have built a financial lifeboat in this recession but the most difficult part is watching your friends drown in it. I couldn't have build it bigger boat nor were their any alarms to sound, by which I mean I have been sounding the alarm for years but people have mistaken that noise as my character. I couldn't get them to move. I didn't cause the recession of course but as is activist taking responsibility requires taking the blame too. I didn't create a movement. I did create a lifeboat.

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The apocalypse of connection

We live in apoplectic times. Often In fiction the people collectively remember the day the apocalypse started and/or what started it. However in our real life apocalyptic times it's more likely you remember when you realized it was happening. Maybe you have had hard life that has always seemed apocalyptic or maybe you realized it into just recently by looking into how things operate? Unlike the fictional worlds most of our physical infrastructure are intact and some of it is very pretty. Some places would seem like paradise aside from the people obviously experiencing homeless or other forms of poverty. That is because the apocalypse is not about the state of physical public infrastructure, wearing rags from the lack of fast fashion and clean clothes or the need to re build vehicles out of junk parts as it's portrayed in fiction. It's about the hearts of the survivors here. By heart I mean the connections people make between each other, the connection people make to their environment/ bio-regions and the connection people make with non-human life on the planet. If we do nothing people can and will survive physically in this state of being but when we look at the effects of these harmful intentions and the weakness of these kind of heart connections we can really Internalized the desolate Apocalypse of Broken Hearts we live in. Every mechanism and process seems to create disconnection, isolation and broken hearts. The apocalypse is end but it is also the beginning again. I want to aid in creation of some thing new by sharing over 19years of translated notes from an Intentionally nameless Malian shamanic order/monk hood(more on them later). Starting with insights from the past that will help us all to understand how and why we create connections rather then when or why we lost them.

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1. 2. 3. 4th dimension

he was almost right, the 4th dimension is not time but time is the device needed to explore/live in a 3-dimensional world. when he makes the cube with the connects toy you can see it 2 dimensionally but to explore the whole cube you need time. the time it takes you to turn the cube back to where you started is a 3rd dimensional understanding of the toy. to get to a 4th dimensional understanding of an "object" like the connects toy one has to witness the whole 3 dimensional time line of the connects toy while existenceting outside of time we understand as both linear and one directional (same a 1D being seeing a 3d object move on the plane). the problem with witnessing any thing in its tesseract form is it would take the whole length of our lives to watch it. assuming the lifespan of the tesseract was longer than our 3 dimensional lifespan. or the tesseract would seem like all of it forms it's has ever existed in, all at the same time but either way perceptually, by which I mean 3 dimensionally it would look as if one glance could split into infinite timelines. 4th dimension being might be able to see our whole lifespan as if they were glancing at one item (imagine what you could judge about a person's character with sight like that). i can only further speculate what interaction would feel like, maybe it would feel omnipotent and scary. fun note: if the connects toy looks like the 2d drawing of the tesseract imagine what a tesseract angle or eye of god would look like.... my guess is the biblically accurate angle

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If I could speak to your existential dread, I would tell you that the only thing worse than being powerless in all this is to realize you have just a little bit of power. Having a little bit of power Implicates & Invites you to do everything in your power make a difference with the possibility of failure.

My love Don't be afraid of bring a failure, you understand how successful people fuck up this world.

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Q: keep on seeing numbers like 11:11 11:14 14:41 22:22. I feel like my brain thoughts are responsible for what i sees before me. whenever I deeply think about something I end up seeing it sometimes on TV, on my phone, on Billboard sometimes within 5 or 10 or 10 minutes after I have thought of it but sometimes it takes hours for me to see it. could this be something that has to do with my spiritual being, Is it a coincidence or my overthinking?

A: soundssounds like you A strong advertising and technology( with clocks and counters on them) presents in your life. our lifestyles are not curated by us at first therefore the things we think about seem to appear coincidentally but we are actually experiencing is part of a loop the things placed in front us inform our thinking and our thinking allow us to recognize those things before us. Almost like how functional magic works but it's just targeted advertisement not spirituality but could be actually be good news still. if you can recognize the loop you can break it!

maybe it's spiritual in that you are self aware that your life (things before you) and thoughts( if you are aware you are thinking then you can think of something different) are not one and the same but two Separate elements looping into each other. but there is nothing spiritual as in super natural happening. Perhaps you are over thinking this phenomenon but only because you're seeking something which is good, its even better if you know what you are seeking. do you know?

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Hate in the heart is poisonous

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When I was younger I honestly wanted to change the world my neighborhood for the betterment for myself and my friends. Over time my friends either found a way to do better without changing the world or they were crushed into unrecognizable gouls of poverty, both out comes are sad. I'm doing about the same as I always have been even now but I want to change the world or at less one neighborhood for the younger people coming up behind me. we call them Zoomers, which we should stop doing it's not helpful.

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Worse than the billionaires that making money off of it the elders who couldn't admit that their lifestyle was wrong. Wrong for the plant, wrong for themselves and wrong for us. By wrong lifestyle I mean if you ride a bike by sitting on the handlebars, it might look cool and it might move some but it's the wrong way to ride a bike that undermines the design of the foot pedals and its intended use. I can empathize that after living so long being wrong is a hard pill to swallow, but maybe it's suppository amd they should shove it up they asses.

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listen

not every spirit/deity/entity that enters your space or makes themselves known wants to work with you

some of them are just passing by

some of them just want to be there to vibe

some might be lost

some might just be curious about you or what you’re doing

communicate, ask if they want/need anything, don’t make assumptions

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Part of me wants to write a blurb on shamanism and its importance to my people and our ancestors.

The other part of me wants to keep it to myself. I think the reason why our old traditions haven't gotten the shit appropriated out of them is because we've somehow managed to keep them to ourselves and white people don't know enough about them to steal them.

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Being attract to you feel like looking into some kind infinity, like how look up at the stars feels like.

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I know that humans will survive this so I pray that the right humans survive this, the kind with their hearts intact

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The movement is third parent to me, it shaped me, it told me about the world. It explained why my mother and father were not home. #princeoflatchkeys

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If I don't love it and I refuse to hate it, all is that for me is to change it. This obsessive toil is healthier trade off than the stickiness of hate and the corrosive cycles of loving something that is harmful to you. That's it, those are three options we have until we are free.

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I have observed something you might can use Runner, many people here have an open heart for fictional characters. Anime, super heroes and justice minded serial killers are the most popular Style of character. This seems harmless upon first glance but the problem is fictional characters can not reciprocate that of the heart, the cycle that is forges a Braveheart from repeat connection ends with them making making a connection to the fictional, links to void of unrealness feel safe but create a pining for real connection. ( imagine if an average connection is two runners choosing to hold hands this kind of pining is like many hands stretched out to meet just one hand that needs holding) the attraction is distorted since who they want are not people but limited stories of characters reproduced in fictional world designed around their behaviors, just not realistic people.

One's heart looks for attributes in people that they can find in fiction. They can miss authentic people and be fool by people aligning themselves with the fictional (prophets are the oldest example of this) being like the fiction makes people see you because their hearts are Forged in fiction(social media is an ideal landscape to be like fiction, as their is a screen between you and the visitor similar to how one connects with fiction and the attributes one observe on socal media are curated) the other more troubling thing that happens is people can admit the characters are not real and shift the pinning of attraction to the fictional actions oftentimes violence that manifests in the real world. Ex. Superheroes are not real so the violence they inflict is also not real but police are real and they inflict real violence and it's the violence that feels like a proximity to the connection they are pinning from the void, it's not that they're violent people, it's that that's just their attraction even if its harmful to them selfies or others ex. The old fictional character named James Bond was a serial rapist and misogynist. His admirers who made a connection to his void know he not real but have an attraction to rape and misogyny because it's a real world alignment with the fiction. His fans might or might not identify serial rapist misogynist but they can ignore the real world victims of such things in favor of maintaining the connection to the void.

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Guess it only seems natural that the prince of latchkeys would inherit the thing that kept his father away from home. #SecondGenerationBusiness

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Damn this broken world, so many instances of reconciliation have gone unresolved. The apocalypse really did happen! if could just rebuild my kingdom without bring about to much more harm I could start to fix things on a more substantial level. Damn it all!