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“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”

— David Foster Wallace

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man i have GOT to do this thing. *doesnt do it*

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Alright Davy, what's your typical New Year's meal? Do you even have one? Anything you'd add to it or wish to change?

I am learning at this very moment that New Year's meals are even a thing. What do people eat for this. What am I supposed to eat for this?

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5. TV show of the year?

If this means favourite I'd have to say Gravity Falls. That was incredible, and I wish I'd been invested as a kid to experience the wait and foreshadowing the same way. Wow.

If this means most regularly and consistently watched, that would be Hudson & Rex. My parents really like detective shows and it's got a dog lol. Possibly the Fraiser 2023 reboot, but my parents aren't champing at the bit to watch it.

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sometimes it quiets down, but it never leaves

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Monday 12/16/24 Triggers: cult/religious trauma (descriptive), CSA (mentioned not detailed), bombing (mentioned not detailed)

After many moons, I am returning to my oldest work-in-progress The Arcana Quest (TAQ)! Old summary can be found here to get a general idea of the storyline. I have known for a while that TAQ needed a big overhaul and has had a lot of its themes change, but in my brain it was formless so I couldn't start it. However, I have found a starting point to work off of for my first draft. I realize that I want to be a planner, but I am a pantser at heart, so I'm just going to jump in and see where I go.

I have a summary below of the beginning up to the catalyst. I'd really like it if you'd look it over and give your thoughts and/or ideas. Triggers are above.

Setting: A high fantasy setting resembling the world of the 1940s/WW2 era.

Protagonist: Antigone Fairview, genderfluid, 22. A graduate student studying Arcanism, a major religion in this world, at a university notorious for its connection to a secret society called Order of the Green Flame. It is actually a doomsday cult they were born into that is preparing for a prophecy to be fulfilled where their prophesied supreme leader will bring about the end of the world to make it anew.

Antagonist: Herald Grunell, cis man, early 40s. Following the prophecy the members essentially had a breeding program to birth The High Lord, a epitaph for a player in a prophecy in which he will be adversaries with "Gemini" to collect the nine Arcane Artifacts that will allow them to "ascend to the stars" and have one request granted by the nine gods. He has recently ascended to the role as Prime Minister in the country of Verdun and is a charismatic populist leader beginning military mobilization to conquer neighboring countries with the ultimate goal of taking the country of Dorimus, where the prophecy will be fulfilled.

So a lot of themes around religion come into play as I’m basing this story around ideas I've had in connection to me being raised in a cult, having to do religious deconstruction, and seeing the rise of Christian nationalism in the US. Antigone has been raised in a doomsday cult trying to fulfill The Arcana Quest, a famous prophecy about the potential end of the world while “The High Lord” and “Gemini” will be working to collect these items (arcane artifacts) and who does will “ascend to the stars” in order to get one wish. This cult has been basically trying to breed the existence of the High Lord and they did. He is in his 40s and has gained power. He is an “uncle” aka adult male within the cult. Antigone revealed as a kid that he had been SA-ing them and basically has been ousted as an outsider since then and gaslit that they were in the wrong. Due to this and realizing their gender identity, they are in the beginning stages of wondering if their religious indoctrination is all true/questioning but is feeling ashamed to be doing so. They are an academic and their interpretation of the prophecy is not aligning with the cult creed and they have an idea of where one of the unknown arcane artifacts is located. A creepy conversation between Herald (High Lord) and Antigone will reveal that destroying and recreating the world is not metaphorical and will be creating it in his image. This leads them to them to essentially blow up the cult building in an attempt to kill Herald and will escape with an arcane artifact. They will be running to Dorimus for asylum and to follow their hypothesis about the potential location of one of the arcane artifacts not accounted for.

I am really excited about this new beginning. I'd appreciate any thoughts, questions, or opinions about the summary above. A snippet will be posted soon!

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yes audiobooks do count. put exactly how many and if you had a reading goal this year in the tags <3

also reblog for sample size please!!!

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hey 🔫🐛

whats a mythical place you'd like to visit? from a movie, cartoon, story, etc. why?

The vague and undefinable notion of home that exists only in the yearning center of my brain.

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LIKE???

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i am terrified by how quickly people change their minds. it fucking terrifies me to think about letting someone in and trusting them and then them just changing their mind about me. and it terrifies me because it’s happened too many times

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