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I am trying to work on my Skyrim alchemy skills and I am not made for this. This is not my skill. I am aware that you can't get the Purity perk until you hit level 100 but fucking hell, all I seem to do is create the most absurdly, uselessly fucked up potions imaginable. I'm like "Let's make a potion to heal me!" and then what I get is half a gallon of dubious liquid that's like "Will heal 27 hit points, deplete your stamina, clear your mortal enemy's skin, and legally change your name to Uriel Septim the Ugly."

Weirdly these potions are nonetheless quite expensive

I am BAD at alchemy

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boy do i have another zinger for you folks

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post by @theeffens on TikTok

I used to staged fist fights with my friends in 711. We would actually punch each other and then end the fight by making out.

People were always really confused and shocked.

The employees didn't really care we were fighting and would laugh.

Years later some guy started a fight with me at a show and once we were grappling on the floor I instinctively started making out with him.

He immediately got up and left the show. Technically I have won every fight I've ever been in 💪

losing my mind over this a little bit. new type of guy.

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i gotta remember this

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fuck everyone who's started saying the r slur again i hate you and i hope your life falls apart and you die alone

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weirdest part of being an adult is the fact that you can put off watching a movie for nearly a decade and barely notice

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Hi new friends. Please don’t censor words, especially triggering ones. Seeing trigger words written l!ke th!s doesn’t stop them from being triggering.

It just stops Tumblr’s built in filter (see under settings) from working which many of us have in place to protect ourselves.

This has happened to me multiple times this week, and as someone currently struggling with suicidal ideation, has not been great.

You are not on TikTok or Insta, please use the full words so people can protect themselves. Thank you 💖

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While Christmas Day is the last day anyone should ask for you to spend more money, I'm asking you to spend more money. A dollar. Five dollars. Whatever you've got. Elon Musk wants to own Wikipedia - one of the last reliable sources out there, and the only one not owned by a billionaire or corporation.

If you can't donate, this message isn't for you and you should not feel bad.

If you can donate to Wikipedia to keep it out of Musk's filthy, blood-stained hands, please do.

Here's the donations page.

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I wish I could fucking fall asleep.

I think I have a lump on the inside of my throat and a couple of times before when I fell asleep by accident in the daytime, I was woken up from being upable to breathe, and the first time I thought it was like regular sleep apnea and I was just getting old, but then I realize the vibration from the snore sound was coming from my throat, and that's when I realized this thing I've been suspecting is a lump might not just be a hallucination.

What pisses me off - aside from having no insurance and no gp and probably not enough money to deal with it being a thyroid lump (which it could well be because of where I live) 🙂 - is that YEARS ago, I went to urgent care because it felt like a piece of pretzel (the small, hard, dry kind) was stuck on something in my throat and wouldn't go down. The *useless* doctor I saw looked down my throat with a light and said there was nothing there-- HOW ARE YOU GOING TO SEE INTO MY ESOPHAGUS BY LOOKING INTO MY MOUTH YOU DUMB BITCH??? And like, what? I'm going to die in my sleep and my parents are going to find my body tomorrow afternoon, being gnawed on by my cat (or heavily scratched on the face since she's normally a pawer, ot a biter) and they're going to be saddled with the burial and I will have accomplished NOTHING with my life??

I'm just

I'm so scared and mad and freakrd out and it's almost 2:30am and I'm tired and I wish it were tomorrow and I wish I get to wake up for it and I wish I had the money to deal with any of this and I just feel alone and scared.

I wish I was 26 again and still on my parents insurance

I think it was before 26 when I went to urgent care that time

I wish doctors here would just take me seriously

I'm so tired

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Some Fem!Sheps because I miss her

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