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sorry for vanishing like that—schoolwork and real life got to be too much and the anxiety said "something's gotta go" :')

i am as of now officially back ksjfjsk! i'll be trying to catch up on drafts and things later tonight and early tomorrow 😌

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𝕾𝖍𝖆𝖉𝖔𝖜 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕭𝖔𝖓𝖊 ꜱᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ 2 ʀᴇᴡᴀᴛᴄʜ #3 ↳ 𝟸.𝟶𝟷: 𝚗𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚎

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demolitionsman·:

“That is a diluted phosphorous component.” Wylan said. He reached over, pulling the vial away from the gun slinger. “There are worse things than a blown up face. Please be careful.”

He swallowed, and tucked the vial down. “Why are you here? Instead of Kaz? Kaz is usually the one… here.”

Jesper raised his eyebrows. “Worse than a blown-up face? How bad are we talking?” At the change of topic, he snapped his fingers. “You’re right. Boss sent me down to...pick up some new explosives? Or something? Don’t know. He said you would know what he meant.” He gave the other a helpless shrug. “Unless, of course, they’re too delicate to move?”

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“ why are you looking at me like that? ” (For Jesper)

"Hey," he threw his hands up in mock surrender with a short laugh, "it's nothing personal, I swear." Jesper glanced at the man again, studying his face. "Some people are just more...intriguing." That was a nice way to put it, right? "And, I mean, you've got to be the most intriguing of them all, yeah?"

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PSA:

You don’t have to be nice to my character. You don’t have to hold your character back. I am perfectly okay with consequences. I don’t consider powerful characters using those powers to be godmodding. Some things might require a little bit of a chat before hand, but go crazy, kids. Conflict is part of story telling. 

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demolitionsman·:

“It’s a lab for your demo man,” Wylan pointed out. He plucked a few more precious vials out of the way, the musical labels tugged into place. “There’s a lot of things in here that can… you know.”

“I can see that,” he mumbled, eyeing a paper that had just an explosive cloud scrawled onto it. “Certainly wouldn’t want to blow up this face,” he grinned. “So, uh...what about this one?” he asked, placing a finger on the top of a vial of green liquid.

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Jesper’s eyes widened and he gave an awkward chuckle, pulling his hand away from the bottle he’d been reaching for. “Understood, boss,” he joked, secretly grateful to the other for keeping him from a week he would regret. “Any other bottles I should be sure to avoid?”

@feathvrings​ liked for a starter:

“Don’t touch that specific bottle. You’ll be itching for days.”

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𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒

“ am i not good enough? ”  

“ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ”  

“ why did you help me? ”  

“ who do you fight for? ”  

“ why do you hate me? ”  

“ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ”  

“ you’re not dating anyone, are you? ”  

“ i’ve got your back, okay? ”  

“ where do you think you’re going? ”  

“ how long have i been asleep? ”  

“ are you going to kill me? ”  

“ why can’t i come with you? ”  

“ we all have secrets, don’t we? ”  

“ did you want to be alone? ”  

“ why should i trust you? ”  

“ wait. did you hear that? ”  

“ promise me? ”  

“ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ”  

“ do you remember anything at all? ”  

“ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ”  

“ you wanna know what your problem is? ”  

“ may i have this dance? ”  

“ can i ask… what happened? ”  

“ how many people have you killed? how many? ”  

“ do you ever hear yourself? ”  

“ would you run away with me? ”  

“ could you be happy here with me? ”  

“ you can’t or you won’t? ”  

“ you slept with them, didn’t you? ”  

“ well, how do i look? ”  

“ after all you’ve done how can i possibly trust you? ”  

“ why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of? ”  

“ what did they do to you? ”  

“ so why’s it so important anyway? ”  

“ where have you been? ”  

“ why are you looking at me like that? ”  

“ why did you come? ”  

“ what are you doing out here by yourself? ”  

“ is… that my shirt you’re wearing? ”  

“ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ”  

“ why does it always have to be a fight with you? ”

“ why can’t you look me in the eye? ”  

“ can you forgive me? ”  

“ what if i never see you again? ”  

“ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ”  

“ how about a little midnight snack? ”  

“ are you… smelling me? ”  

“ how did you get this scar? ”  

“ what do you want in exchange for it? ”  

“ what did you want to tell me? ”  

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“When everyone knows you’re a monster, you needn’t waste time doing every monstrous thing.”

selective and semi-private indie portrayal of KAZ rietveld BREKKER, JESPER FAHEY, naoise burns NESHA VLADSTIK, and WYLAN van eck HENDRIKS, as understood by sen.

rules below cut for mobile users.

general:

all muns must be 18+, as i am. i do not allow anon asks, so please be aware of this. this is my first venture into indie/1x1 rp, so please go easy on me—i’m accustomed to group rp, and still don’t know all the terminology. i will use the block button, whenever i feel it necessary. be nice and respectful. it’s a basic thing. i’m here to write, not argue—so let’s keep the ooc drama to a minimum. i don’t interact with call-out posts/purity culture/passive-aggressiveness/etc. don’t godmod/metagame, please. my name is sen! i'm 18+ and use they/them pronouns.

writing:

i write semi-literate to literate multi-para responses. i use a mix of beta and legacy editors, mostly because i’m new to tumblr and can’t figure out what the hell is going on with that, but i don’t seem to have the option to switch whenever i want. i will cut posts whenever possible—please be patient with me. i’m very active and have a tendency to reply frequently. please don’t feel rushed by me, i’m very patient—this is just a heads-up. just a warning, i talk in the tags. a fair bit.

plotting:

please don’t reach out through dms to plot with me unless we’re mutuals. if we are moots, feel free to contact me at any time to start up a thread, fangirl about the source material or our threads/characters, or just chat about anything at all. ask memes are a great way to start up interactions—always feel free to throw an ask my way, even if we’re not moots. memes and open starters are open to everyone, and i’m willing to write those threads for as long as they go.

formatting:

i do use small text, just to keep my dash easier for me personally to read. if you’d prefer i not use it for various reasons, just reach out and let me know! i generally use gif icons and/or small/medium gifs, but you don’t have to. i do not expect you to match my formatting. please don’t expect me to match yours.

content:

dark themes and triggers will absolutely be present on this blog due to the nature of the source material. i will do my best to tag things as needed, using the format “trigger cw.” things that will 100% be tagged are as follows:

death.

gore.

nsfw content (not that there should really be any of it on this blog).

this list will be added to as necessary.

following:

i will not follow/interact with blogs that:

write only/primarily smut/nsfw content.

contain omegaverse or a/b/o content.

roleplay as real people.

use a deceased person as a fc.

if you write untagged smut/nsfw, i may block you. if i follow you, i have read all of your rules/information and am interested in writing with you. if i don’t, i’m not. if you initiate a follow, 9 times out of 10 i will check it as soon as i see it and read your page. if i don’t follow back, i’m not interested—it’s nothing personal, and it could be for any number of reasons, so don’t feel bad. please don’t spam follow me to get me to accept it—my answer likely won’t change. if i initiate a follow, you are (of course) under no obligation to accept it. if you don’t intend on reciprocating however, please block-then-unblock (i think that’s a softblock?) me to remove the follow. i will take the hint, i promise. if i soft or hard block you, it’s nothing personal. i keep my dash very strictly curated.

nopes:

i do not write nsfw/smut. i do not accept anons. i reserve the right to not interact with anyone or engage in any interaction that makes me uncomfortable—period, end of discussion.

asks:

any meme/starter can be answered at any time. (if it’s one of those “send an emoji” ones you may need to remind me which post it’s coming from.) you’re always welcome to turn an ask response into a thread. please don’t use me as a source for memes—reblog them from the op. they’re the one that created it, they should get the credit.

for mutuals:

if you’re going to drop a thread, please let me know. i don’t mind, just tell me ahead of time so i’m not eternally on hold. always feel free to reach out to me. my dms are open: if there’s a reply that you’d like me to make some changes to, any plotting things you want to clear up, a cool musing you saw that fits our characters, or you just plain want to chat—hit me up.

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ooc updates!

long(ish) post, beware!

hello everyone! i have this bad habit of starting something and then immediately abandoning it, so i am doing my best to not do that here KSFJGSFKJG! jokes aside, today is finally the day i'm doing "spring cleaning" (can you do that on an account that's barely open?), so read on for a couple of important updates! some of this stuff is eventually going to be moved onto my page fully, but for now i just need to get it out of my head and on the dash.

1. i...belatedly realized i had a brain fart when i set up the account and forgot to open my askbox. asks are on now! (anons will not be accepted.)

2. i'm going to be finishing up the tumblr page tonight: adding bios, rules, etcetera. i have a rules doc as of right now (which i'll be adding to the page for easier reading), and eventually i'd like to make a full doc/dossier for each character, but it's just not viable with my schedule at the moment.

3. after i finish up the page, i'll create a pinned post (for easier legibility on mobile that can't see desktop themes) and a starter call! i'm always open to dms from mutuals—i'm a bit crap at plotting because i tend to run on how the characters and writing styles vibe together, but i'm always open to it! you'll just have to bear with me.

4. speaking of a starter call, i'm also going to be double-checking my moots rules/carrds and such, as well as filling out any interest trackers. been swamped with work, so i just want to make sure i haven't missed anything.

5. i'm still very new to indie rp here on tumblr, and therefore i don't understand some terms yet (if anyone wants to explain mains and exclusives to me i would love you forever). but if i ever interact with a character that's exclusive or anything, just shoot me a message and let me know! i likely didn't even realize.

6. (this will be added to the page later!) just wanted to touch on how i'm handling show versus book canon. first of all, i love the show, and it is indeed what inspired me to start the account, so that's where a lot of my inspo is coming from right now. i treat the show as almost like an au from the books—because i think it is: they did an amazing job respecting the source material, but i'm well aware it's not 100% accurate. plus, it's been a bit since i read the books—honestly, i'm due for a reread lmao. so, my main verse for kaz, jesper, and wylan will be shadow and bone (tv). i am completely open to writing in the six of crows/grishaverse novel canon, and if you would prefer to write there, that's awesome—let me know! just know that (as of right now) the show is my default. [ nesha is going to be a bit different, so i'll play him more on a case by case basis. ]

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”to quote jesper from episode 8 at 2:52: MY MAN” via Shadow and Bone | SHADOW AND BONE, SEASON 2

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“𝙎𝙃𝘼𝘿𝙊𝙒 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝘽𝙊𝙉𝙀” - 𝙄𝙉𝙎𝙋𝙄𝙍𝙀𝘿 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎.

hi friends!! basically, i watched the teaser trailer for season 2 of shadow and bone, got excited, began to reread the soc duology, and then these happened! or rather, i found an ancient unpublished fic i wrote after the first time i read the duology, and decided to make that a problem for everyone else! i hope you all enjoy these, you don’t need to have seen the show nor read the books, i actually think many of these are fairly fandomless! i just wanted to explain my inspiration! DON’T ADD TO THIS LIST! i’ll make more lists like this one! ily all, bon appetit, go forth and write or read or nap or watch tv or something!

“ my goodness, you’re not nearly as stupid as you look! ”

“ you have all the answers right in front of you. you just need to look at it differently. ”

“ don’t presume that you know me just because you’ve heard a few rumors and read a few articles. ”

“ there’s certainly more to you than meets the eye, isn’t there? ”

“ i urge you to remember exactly who it is you’re talking to. because while others might appreciate your tone, i assure you, i do not. ”

“ i’m concerned that you mightn’t understand what discreet means. because the path of chaos you’ve just created is exactly the opposite of discreet. ”

“ you owe me a favour. i’m here to collect. ”

“ i thought it was a good time to pay you a visit. it’s been so long, after all; and we have so much to catch up on. ”

“ you are not your father/mother/parent’s child. not by anything other than blood, and that’s not even on the spectrum of importance. ”

“ i was wrong about you. ”

“ you know, i was warned not to get involved with you. people insisted it was a fool’s decision. but i held out hope that you’d prove them wrong. now’s your chance. ”

“ i’m not the sort of person to fuss over hurt feelings. you’re either of value to me, or you’re worthless. so prove to me that you’re not the latter. ”

“ you honestly think i don’t know where you go each night? i’m not blind nor an idiot. i just trust your ability to return home unharmed. ”

“ have you told anyone else about this? ”

“ there are no children anymore. only survivors. childhood and innocence are luxuries afforded to the privileged. not us. ”

“ i offered you an opportunity once. to build a better world together. we both know how that turned out. and now, you come crawling back, begging for… what? mercy? forgiveness? ”

“ i’m with you. always. no matter what happens, i will be right by your side. do you understand? ”

“ we’re a team, aren’t we? teams stick together. even when the leader is being a prick. ”

“ …i was really worried about you, you know. you scared me earlier. and i’m not saying it to make you feel bad, it’s just… promise me you’ll tell me if things get bad again? ”

“ i can’t pretend to understand all this stuff you’ve got going on. but i do promise that i’ll be here to help you through it all. alright? ”

“ there’s a job that needs to be done before we get to work on the big task. that’s why i’m here. you’ll be helping me/us to complete both jobs. payment upon completion. ”

“ you and i aren’t as different as you want to believe. that must be why you’re so angry. because looking at me, all that i’ve done… it’s like looking in a mirror. isn’t it? ”

“ people are scared. they need a leader. and right now, like it or not, they’re looking to you. so go on. lead us. ”

“ you’ve come up with some really insane plans over the years, but this is just defying any amount of belief. ”

“ look. i don’t care if people underestimate me. i actually enjoy it. they see me as an idiot, they drop their guard, the end. but i need you to know that i’m not an idiot. okay? ”

“ people have died. we can’t let that go unpunished. ”

“ the world is changing. and if we don’t get ahead of it, then they’ll be the ones to decide what it changes into. ”

“ right! what’s the plan, then? and god help the lot of us if you don’t have one. ”

“ not all of us can afford the luxury of a conscience. ”

“ don’t make the deadly mistake of presuming my actions reflect weakness. too many have made that same presumption. and not a single one of them lived to tell the tale. ”

“ you’re scared. i can tell. the shaking, the look in your eye… you want to run. don’t. you’ll waste precious time and energy, and you’ll need it all if you want to live. ”

“ everything is gone. it’s all smoke, ruin, obliterated. is that our legacy now? our reputation? destruction, devastation, death? is that who we are? ”

“ we’ve fought against powerful enemies before, but this is beyond that. if we want to get out of this alive, we need to be smarter, stronger, better than we’ve ever been before. ”

“ don’t forget why we’re here. there’s far more at stake than our lives if this goes wrong. ”

“ you’re the only person here i trust. we need to stick together, watch each other’s backs. just because everything’s changed, doesn’t mean we have to, too. ”

“ i can’t think of anyone i’d rather be doing this crazy, ridiculous, nearly definitely lethal mission with. let’s go out with a bang, eh? ”

“ you people are completely insane. but you’re also insufferably good at this sort of thing. so let’s go save the world, shall we? ”

“ why are we fighting so hard to save the lives of people who hate us, anyway? ”

“ you’re the best there is at this sort of thing. i’d hate to see the one who got the better of you… ”

“ look at them all. going around, fussing over money, clothes, land… do they ever realize what’s going on around them? do they ever see the bigger picture as we do? ”

“ you’re clever. good. it’s nice to have a challenge. but you should know now, you’ll want to be a hell of a lot smarter than that if you want to go up against me. ”

“ you and i both know the risks. we both know what people like them are capable of. tell me it’s all okay, and i won’t question you. but if it isn’t… we need to be ready. ”

“ it’s lonely and vicious at the top. i can handle that. but you… you wouldn’t survive five minutes of this life. ”

“ you can’t survive in this world without growing a thicker skin, and erasing that naive belief that you can trust anyone you meet. least of all me. ”

“ if you’re knocking on my door, i can only imagine it means you’re here to collect. and by your demeanour, it’s one hell of a favor you’ll be asking, too. ”

“ i understand your anger. i’ve lived with that sort of rage for many years of my life. but you need to set it aside, understand? we need you calm if we want to get out of here. ”

“ oh, don’t get all sentimental. i saved your life because you’re worth more to me alive than dead. it doesn’t signify any degree of care or affection. ”

“ you have one hell of an inflated ego, you know that? we were told this job was impossible. that’s not a challenge. that’s a fact. it is not possible. even for you. ”

“ i’ve heard it all before. one more job. one more mission. one last heist. but there’s always more. it’s like some sort of obsession for you. searching for another thrill. ”

“ enough! this is it! don’t you see that?! we almost died! you almost got killed! if the saints are kind enough to save us today, it’s only so we can quit while we’re ahead! ”

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WYLAN VAN ECK + being the cutest little bean

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kaz brekker didn’t need a reason.

[six of crows, leigh bardugo || like calls to like, shadow and bone || every monstrous thing, shadow and bone]

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“When everyone knows you’re a monster, you needn’t waste time doing every monstrous thing.”

selective and semi-private indie portrayal of kaz rietveld brekker, jesper fahey, naoise burns nesha vladstik, and wylan van eck hendriks, as understood by sen.

rules. \\ main.