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My fear… my guilt… has kept both of us back for far too long.

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I have a million things to talk to you about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning.

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood (via thelovejournals)

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2:22 AM

Why do I only have writing breakthroughs at 2 in the morning? Though happy to have written it all, I wish I could be this productive during normal hours...

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如果我們不真擁有，那我也就沒什麼好失去的。 因为擁有就是失去的開始。

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And I’m… just stuck. And there’s all this pressure ‘cause everyone’s hovering around me waiting for me to do something or say something or flip out or yell or cry some more. And I’m happy to play my part. I’m happy to say the lines and do whatever I’m supposed to be doing if it will make everyone feel more comfortable.But I don’t… I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to be this person. I don’t… I don’t know who this person is. How did this happen? How did we end up here? Why am I alone?

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Watch: Poet G Yamazawa nails what it’s like to grow up in the U.S. as the child of immigrants.

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Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you.

P.S. I love you (2007), Dir. Richard LaGravenese (via wnq-movies)

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You make my heart melt

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Today I am not in my skin. My body cannot contain me. I am spilling out and over, like a rouge wave on the shore. Today I can’t keep myself from feeling like I don’t have a friend in the world. And no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to pick myself off of the floor. My demons are lying in wait, they are grinning in the shadows, their polished fangs glinting, knowing today, it will be an easy kill. But tomorrow, tomorrow can be different, and that is what keeps me going.

Lang Leav, “Today”, Memories (via wordsnquotes)

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She wasn’t bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time.

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower  (via wordsnquotes)

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To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.

Friedrich Nietzsche (via fyp-philosophy)

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Most days I wish I never met you because then I could sleep at night and I wouldn’t have to walk around with the knowledge there was someone like you out there.

Good Will Hunting (1997), Dir. Gus Van Sant (via wnq-movies)

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Some days I feel so much I want to tear my heart out of my chest so I can stop feeling some days I feel so little that I am not sure I am even alive anymore I do not know which one is the blessing and which one is the curse

s.s. (via wnq-writers)

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I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.

Stephen Chbosky,  The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via wordsnquotes)