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Oliver’s Death

I know it’s going to happen, and of course I am hoping for some sort of resurrection or twist to avoid the heartbreak of Felicity and the kids spending 20 years without him in their lives. But I can’t help but be sad that Felicity won’t be there to say goodbye to Oliver during Crisis.

(I am absolutely holding out hope for a miracle that the last-minute additions to parts 4 and 5 that Guggenheim is talking about will include extra scenes with Felicity, but I know that is highly unlikely.)

I always imagined the scene like this:

[A bright flash of light appears, and Felicity is brought to Oliver’s side with baby Mia in her arms. She sees Oliver in pain, obviously with a fatal injury. She runs to him. Oliver’s eyes widen when he sees them. Barry takes the baby from her arms.]

Oliver: Felicity...[tears in his eyes]

Felicity: I’m here, Oliver. We’re here. Don’t worry. Everything’s going to be fine. [starts crying] We’re going to save you.

Oliver: Oh, baby...[starts smiling through his tears]...don’t you know? You already saved me...

Felicity: [looks confused]...

Oliver: After everything that happened...everything I did...when you showed me that I still deserved love...your love...you saved me. And when you let me love you...every day I loved you, you saved me.

Felicity: I love you so much, Oliver. William, Mia and I love you so much.

Oliver: I love all of you more than anything. [crying, losing breath] Thank you for being my family. Thank you for saving me. I love you and I’m so sorry I had to leave you.

Felicity: No. No regrets. [weeping] You saved all of us. I will love you always...

Oliver: [losing breath, tears, losing the light in his eyes]...Felicity...

[Oliver dies. Felicity weeps. Camera zooms out. Everyone in the room is frozen in grief. Baby Mia starts crying. Fade out.]

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I’m too sad to write

That’s it. That’s the post.

(Kind of.)

Last week of filming on Arrow and I’m spiraling into a sadness I have never felt before for an ending of a television show. I almost don’t know what to do with these emotions.

I’ll pick up my 30 days of thanks again and catch up. But right now, I am letting myself feel all of these feelings. I’m letting the mourning begin in the hopes that it prepares me for the series finale so I am not totally gutted.

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30 Days of Thanks - Day #3

I am grateful for the character of Oliver Queen.

I have watched a few television series from start to finish - Friends, Big Bang Theory, The West Wing, Fringe, Alias, Game of Thrones, Sex and the City - to name a few. None of these series had a character that had the evolution that Oliver Queen went through. I have loved watching his journey. Even though the show is ending after 8 seasons, we’ve really seen Oliver’s life for approximately 13-14 years (counting pre-island scenes). That is a rarity in the television world.

Over the years, people expressed such frustration and anger whenever Oliver didn’t do the right thing, from lying to Felicity to always blaming himself to being a poor teammate to being a poor leader - take your pick. But in a way, I could relate to Oliver’s imperfections quite easily. I make mistakes everyday. Often I make the same mistakes. Growth and evolution is a constant struggle. Anyone who says otherwise isn’t being truthful or isn’t trying to be really better than they were yesterday. Most of us aren’t trying to change or trying to accept who we are at the level that Oliver Queen was trying, but we are all imperfect. But we all have hope we’ll get there one day. We all need others around us who believe we can do it. We all need to feel like we belong - to someone, to a family, to a world who understands and accepts us despite our faults.

Oliver Queen is the best kind of hero, because he doesn’t try to be one. He is just one of us trying to do what’s right every day. He doesn’t have superpowers so he doesn’t take anything for granted. Every lesson he’s learned comes with a painful memory and yet he forges on. He’s a man who loves his family, his friends, his city, and works hard every day to protect them.

I will miss Oliver Queen every week he’s not on my television. I will miss not knowing how he’s dealing with his struggles. I will miss seeing his face light up when he sees his wife or his children. I will miss watching how much he loves taking care of his family by cooking for them. I will miss how he kicks the ass of those big bass but he’s so soft when it comes to the people he loves. I will miss “Goodbye, Speedy” moments, “Suit up” instructions and his growls “You have failed this city.” I will even miss his fucked-up domineering broodiness.

I will miss everything about Oliver Queen. I wish I had more time to say goodbye. But I am so grateful I had eight seasons to watch him grow and be the paragon the world never knew it always needed. He will always be THE hero of Arrowverse.

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30 Days of Thanks - Day 2

I am grateful for the character of Felicity Smoak.

She is really one of a kind. For the most part, the writers have written her well. I love that she is so multi-dimensional - a woman with big brains and a big heart who loves coding and fashion in equal parts and who values friendship and trust. She didn’t disparage other women, she didn’t take shit from an angry and brooding vigilante and she walked away from the love of her life (albeit a little too quickly and judgmentally in my opinion) because she felt she deserved better. She is ridiculously beautiful and acted as if she didn’t know it.

She changed the show as soon as she graced the screen. She brought levity and was someone the fans could relate to really quickly. She was a friend to Diggle and a confidante to Oliver. She was a woman who he could be himself around for the first time since he came back to Starling City. She became his light, his voice of reason and his home.

I shudder to think of what Oliver’s journey would have been without Felicity at his side, first as his IT girl then as his friend then as his partner then as his forever love.

I am so so thankful Felicity Smoak was introduced in season 1 episode 3. I don’t think I would have fallen in love with Arrow without her.

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30 Days of Thanks #1

I can’t start this list without starting with Olicity.

Yes, I am an Oliver Queen fan and a Felicity Smoak fan. But I fell in love with Arrow because of Olicity. I had not seen a relationship like theirs play out on television before. I was impressed by how obvious it was that the love was built on a foundation of trust and faith. It was somehow an unlikely pairing that made so much sense. I rooted for Oliver Queen’s happiness and I knew he had the best chance of finding it with Felicity at his side.

I am convinced I will never love a ship like I love Olicity. And that makes me kind of sad. But I am so so grateful I saw it happen on screen. I am so so grateful to have seen them with two back-to-back Ship of The Year Awards from MTV. I am so so grateful the writers gave us Nanda Parbat sex, Ivy Town, proposal after proposal, bunker sex, against-the-wall kisses, two weddings, a reception, a first dance, co-parenting, “I’m glue, baby,” pregnancy news, countless I love yous, countless kisses and a love bigger than the freakin’ universe.

We got lucky, fam.

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The end of Arrow

I am feeling so nostalgic and melancholy. I have interacted with so many amazing, smart and thoughtful people in this fandom since I started watching the show. I can’t believe it’s almost over.

I am not a Stephen Amell stan by any stretch. But I have been rewatching interviews with him lately. And I can say that we have had a great captain of the Olicity ship and a lead actor who did not let the show down. Even if I didn’t always agree with him, the access he gave to Arrow fans in the last eight years was a gift. I am not sure we would have had the experience we did without his willingness to engage. I am grateful.

I am a little late, but I thought I’d spend the 30 days of November writing about the gratitude I feel for the show. It’s now Nov 7th so I have some catching up to do!

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It’s time for me to go on a journey of my own.

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“My greatest fear… my greatest fear in life is losing you.”

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I wanted to say goodbye to both of you. Here? Yeah.

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Olicity Forever.

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This is bigger than us. Than all of us.

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Would you tell Mia that I love her every day? And I know that she will grow up to be as smart  and as beautiful as her mom.

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It’s time for me to go on a journey of my own.

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man I really loved tonights episode

that scene where Jaime kills Cersei in the throne room with his Ned’s Valyrian steel, claiming justice on behalf of the Starks and fulfilling Maggy the Frog’s prophecy? or when Cersei stabbed him with a knife and he staggered forward and collapsed on the Iron Throne, mirroring when he killed the Mad King? i especially loved when Daenerys walks in and sees his corpse sitting there and understands what he did.

and the part where Sandor cuts of the Mountain’s head and leaves his body burning? talk about symbolism! i’m especially glad that they didn’t kill Sandor off unnecessarily. i also really liked how he lost his eye in the fight and used the strip of cloth to bind it and how it made him look just like Beric.

that part where Grey Worm stopped the Northmen from killing the unarmed Lannister soldiers was really cool too. you could see how conflicted he was about it, but he knew he couldn’t lose himself to hate. i knew he wouldn’t betray Missandei’s memory.

i was certainly concerned about Daenerys throughout the episode, but she really came through in the end. when she realized that Cersei had hidden casks of wildfire around the city and knew that she couldn’t risk the lives of the civilians with her dragonfire. and how she instead flew straight to the Red Keep to take the fight directly to Cersei? really really good.

when Arya saw Gendry across the battlefield and tried to maker it to him but was being held back by the crowds? that was incredible. and how he could hear her scream his name over the noise of the battle and ran towards her voice even when he couldn’t see her? i can’t wait to see them reunite in the next episode.

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no regrets

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Can’t live without you.