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DELICATE .

a strand of thin gossamer was what remained between two unhealed hearts, a ghostly sheen the sole indication that anything at all still spanned between them . once , a connection that bore strength , an unwavering obstruction from all that threatened to break it , thick , plaited wool ; durable , seemingly spun by the hands of a trusting , forgiving god . and oh , how it still unraveled , their mutual plights pitiful , weathering what was once a formidable bond down to a lone thread, precarious & fragile , the only thing still hanging in the balance . the will she possessed to ensure that it remained was the birth of a small inkling that it could , mere hope the only route to reparations , a road she hadn’t permitted to travel alone .

why should she ? veiled promises that were nothing more than pretty lies , half-truths slipping past his lips as easy as his breath , opaque & fleeting like the smoke constantly curling around him, acridly scented but so grossly comforting that she’d find herself missing it . ‘ it ’ something that sutton can only loosely define , a purposeful generalization that accounts for the way that smoke and dishonesty both have the tendency to linger. faint hints of tobacco forever in her sheets , her favorite jeans , & every sheet of music scrawled with the notes of the love songs he wrote for her . there it stayed , alongside the stories he had spun , fairy tales where he was her prince charming , that with a love like theirs , they were guaranteed a happily ever after . trapping her in a web of expectation , her naivety the spooled prey , his love the beautiful trap where sutton met her end . how wrong river had been -- not only in regards to their love being lasting , but that one day , the subtle stench of American Spirits would no longer remain .

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╰        ❥    𝓯𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓭  𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻  :  alexander  o’connor  .

❛   𝑖   𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤   ,   𝑖’𝑚   𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦   ,   ❜   his   apology   could   certainly   be   described   as   disingenuous   ,   his   timbre   nulled   from   grievance   as   a   small   smile   can’t   help   but   perks   his   lips   .   truthfully   ,   he’s   still   digesting   the   news   sutton   has   actually   decided   to   take   him   up   on   his   invitation   .   not   that   he   is   dismayed   —   quite   the   opposite   ,   in   fact   .   once   he’d   mentioned   the   party   to   the   damsel   during   one   of   their   many   tutoring   sessions   ;   in   river’s   subconscious   there   was   some   doubt   &   very   little   conviction   that   she   would   want   to   show   ,   or   if   she   did   ,   it   really   wouldn’t   be   her   scene   .   but   the   fact   she’s   decided   to   attend   during   the   prime   hours   of   party   going   ,   ensembled   in   a   little   tangerine   number   to   align   with   the   neon   concept   himself   &   corey   had   conjured   up   ;      dare   he   say   it   ,   he’s   ENDEARED   .   ❛   wait   ,   are   you   serious   ?   ❜   he   echoes   her   giggles   with   a   suppressed   chuckle   of   his   own   ,   ❛   how   have   YOU   not   pregamed   ?   ❜   now   the   boy’s   really   laughing   as   he’s   thinking   about   the   likely   chance   (   &   sad   reality   )   that   sutton   has   never   probably   pregamed   in   her   life.   ❛   okay   ,   right   now   i’m   all   the   way   up   here   ,   ❜   his   gangly   frame   can’t   help   but   softly   lean   into   her   diminutive   figure   every   now   &   then   with   the   bodies   moving   past   the   twosome   ,   but   he   bears   this   no   mind   as   his   hand   acts   as   a   metre   further   explain   his   level   of   intoxication   .   ❛   i’m   all   the   way   up   here   ,   ❜   his   palm   hovers   just   above   his   head   ,   ❛   and   right   now   ,   you’re   right   here   ,   ❜   before   it   levitates   down   beneath   his   waist   .   ❛   &   we   can’t   have   that   ,   i’m   not   having   that   .   i   need   you   on   the   same   wavelength   as   me   ,   sutton   .   so   ,   you   know   —   you   know   what   we’re   going   to   do   ?   ❜   a   rogue   smirk   adorns   his   brims   once   he   reaches   over   to   palm   her   chin   ;   fixating   on   her   chocolate   orbs   .   ❛   shots   .   ❜

 the  invitation  river  had  extended  sutton’s  direction  was  safely  assumed  to  be  an  olive  branch  ,  an  admirable  attempt  to  draw  the  two  of  their  worlds  that  much  closer  together  ,  their  immediate  circles  of  friends  ,  hobbies  ,  interests  so  vastly  different  that  the  two  of  them  likely  were  never  intended  to  meet  .  &  yet  ,  here  she  was  ,  in  river’s  company  while  he  was  in  his  element  ,  basking  in  the  attention  &  praise  he  was  receiving  for  throwing  such  a  wild  event  ,  celebrating  his  achievements  on  the  field  .  sutton  looked  on  from  the   stands with  a  healthy  ,  MILD  interest  ,  making  sure  not  to  seem  too  interested  in  what  river  decided  to  do  .  he  was  someone  who  garnered  attention  from  the  entire  student  body  ,  his  name  known  &  widely  recognized  .  it’s  why  with  his  attention  completely  on  her  she  can’t  help  the  flush  to  her  cheeks  ,  a  DUSTED  pink  over  her  milky  complexion  as  he  teases  her  for  her  alcohol  inexperience  .  ‘  &  what  exactly  do  you  reckon  i  should  be  pre  -  gaming  for  ?  it  would  be  highly  inappropriate  for  me  to  show  up  to  church  or  rehearsal  four  shots  in  .  ’  a  fond  roll  of  her  eyes  shows  she’s  joking  ,  &  sutton  takes  a  moment  to  rifle  through  her  purse  ,  the  echo  of  anastasia’s  call  -  out  of  her  APPARENT  oral  fixation  in  her  mind  as  she  rips  the  plastic  wrapper  from  a  heart  -  shaped  lollipop  ,  placing  it  between  her  lips  as  she  sucks  ,  wide  eyes  on  river  as  he  continues  to  speak  .  she  only  removes  it  to  respond  ,  ‘  don’t  be  dramatic  ,  alexander  ,  of  course  i’m  not  on  your  level  .  i’m  one  of  kappa’s  sober  sisters  ,  so  don’t  patronize  me  .  ’  sutton  can’t  help  but  wrinkles  her  nose  when  river  grabs  her  chin  ,  the  affection  behind  it  something  she  chooses  to  ignore  as  her  small  fingers  wrap  delicately  around  his  wrist  ,  a  touch  gentle  enough  he  probably  could  only  barely  feel  it  .  ‘  new  idea  :  you  drink  shots  ,  &  i  watch  .  how’s  that  sound  ?  ’

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╰        ❥    𝓯𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓭  𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻  :  roman  pierce  .

𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊   𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑   𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊   𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑   𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊   and   suddenly   any   temporal   value   that   the   night   previously   had   steadily   begins   to   fade   into   nothingness,   and   roman’s   memory   is   in   utter   SHAMBLES.   he   isn’t   sure   when   he   moved   from   the   living   room   to   the   kitchen,   down   to   the   basement,   but   he   knows   a   challenge   when   he   hears   one,   and   the   bet   that   the   two   idiots   standing   opposite   of   him   at   the   beer   pong   table   can   come   anywhere   CLOSE   to   beating   him   begets   a   loud,   incredulous   laugh.   ‘   yeah   fuckin’   right,   ’   he   scoffs   in   response,   hoarse   voice   loud   enough   to   be   heard   over   the   pounding   music.   ‘   i   can   pick   ANY   fucking   person   in   this   room   and   still   beat   you   guys.   as   a   matter   of   fact…   ’   he   spins,   glazed   eyes   moving   around   the   room   before   stopping   on   one   girl   in   particular.   ‘   you–   my   partner.   c’mon,   we’ll   wipe   the   goddamn   floor   with   these   scrubs.   ’

 with  the  petite  femme  making  sure  to  be  careful  of  anyone’s  bare  ,  sweaty  body  from  colliding  into  her  ,  sutton  does  her  very  best  to  navigate  between  the  occupants  of  the  sigma  alpha  nu  house  ,  frantic  excuse  me  &  pardon  me’s  getting  her  almost  nowhere  with  the  drunk  crowd  she  attempted  to  walk  through  .  after  what  seems  to  take  forever  ,  she  finally  emerges  VICTORIOUS  ,  finding  standing  room  &  being  granted  the  chance  to  catch  her  breath  as  she  fans  herself  ,  the  amount  of  people  within  the  massive  interior  making  the  room  temperature  rise  ,  sutton’s  skin  feeling  flushed  .  the  petite  girl  is  digging  a  tube  of  her  glossier  lip  shine  from  her  tiny  clutch  ,  in  the  process  of  applying  it  to  her  full  ,  pink  lips  when  she’s  jostled  by  a  COMMANDING  presence  ,  her  lips  remaining  parted  in  a  small  ‘  o  ’  before  she  gets  the  chance  to  school  her  soft  ,  pretty  features  .  ‘  partner  ?  ’  sutton  asks  ,  realizing  she  was  speaking  to  roman  pierce  ,  the  very  player  who  ,  alongside  river  ,  had  led  hollingsworth  to  yet  another  victory  .  asking  her  to  --  what  ?  ‘  um  ,  did  i  mishear  you  ?  you  want  me  to  be  your  partner  ?  for  this  ?  ’  she  extends  a  manicured  finger  ,  pointing  to  the  game  ,  her  eyes  flickering  over  the  faces  of  the  competitors  that  stand  on  the  other  side  of  the  table  .  their  expectant  expressions  help  her  understand  that  she’s  hit  the  nail  right  on  the  head  ,  roman  wanting  her  to  play  .  ‘  i  don’t  drink  ,  so  ...  i  guess  i’ll  try  .  but  you’ll  have  to  drink  for  me  .  ’  she  sinks  her  teeth  into  her  lesser  lip  ,  leveling  him  with  a  wary  stare  as  she  anticipates  his  reaction  .

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╰        ❥    𝓯𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓭  𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻  :   alexander  o’connor  .

𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔   𝑔𝑢𝑖𝑙𝑡𝑦   𝑜𝑓   tooting   his   own   horn   is   something   that   comes   instinctively   to   river   —   &   this   party   tonight   was   no   exception   .   the   drinks   are   pouring   ,   psychedelic   friendly   jams   in   full   swing   &   its   safe   to   say   that   word   has   gotten   all   around   campus   .   throngs   of   neon   -   attired   bodies   are   beginning   to   fill   the   enormous   premise   ,   &   of   course   playing   his   part   as   host   ,   the   male   boisterously   welcomes   each   friendly   face   he   runs   into   with   strong   liquor   in   their   grip   .   it’s   still   quite   early   in   the   eve   ,   but   river   figures   now   is   probably   the   best   time   to   dose   up   on   the   little   baggies   (   containing   mdma   &   other   affiliated   sorts   )   that   the   boys   have   been   provided   with   .   being   so   consumed   in   trying   to   locate   corey   ,   his   towering   frame   abruptly   bumps   into   a   feminine   physique   clad   in   orange   —   and   before   he’s   able   to   utter   an   apology   ,   river   quickly   realises   that   it’s   none   other   than   sutton   —   an   all   too   familiar   presence   he   wasn’t   expecting   tonight   .   ❛   hey   you   ,   ❜   his   elated   greeting   can   barely   be   heard   over   the   bass   &   evidently   ,   the   boy’s   already   had   one   too   many   drinks   ;   as   his   arms   find   themselves   snaking   around   her   petite   figure   .  

trembling  fingers  undid  the  plait  in  sutton’s  hair  ,  the kappa  electing  to  let  her  hair  down  for  an  occasion  special  enough  to  warrant  her  attendance  .  game  day  ,  one  of  the  most  IMPORTANT  events  that  was  denoted  upon  her  social  calendar  .  hollingsworth  students  had  a  way  of  displaying  their  passionate  school  spirit  ,  the  weekend  always  chock  full  of  the  most  raucous  ,  irresponsible  events  ,  sutton  usually  convinced  will  be  responsible  for  sending  some  of  her  classmates  straight  to  hell  come  judgement  day  .  but  it’s  something  she  can’t  help  but  yearn  to  be  apart  of  ,  the  beginning  of  her  senior  year  just  as  dull  as  the  past  three  ,  &  she  was  craving  a  change  of  scenery  .  forgoing  her  usual  modest  attire  ,  she  attempts  to  participate  ,  having  acquired  an  outfit  specifically  for  tonight  ,  river  o’connor’s  invitation  enticing  enough  to  reignite   sutton’s  affinity  for  shopping  .  donning  neon  orange  with  a  more  conservative  white  bathing  suit  beneath   ,  sutton  arrives  to  the  party  ,  wide  ,  brown  eyes  searching  amongst  the  crowd  for  a  familiar  face  that  would  grant  her  solace  .  just  as  she’s  side  -  stepping  a  party  -  goer  who’s  already  emptying  the  contents  of  their  stomach  onto  the  sigma  alpha  nu’s  lawn  ,  the  kappa  femme  runs  into  someone  ,  caught  COMPLETELY off  guard  as  a  surprised  gasp  -  turned  -  squeal  sounds  her  surprise  .  upon  recognizing  the  figure  that  now  had  his  arms  wrapped  around  her  ,  a  rush  of  fondness  is  suddenly  overcome  by  her  momentary  outrage  .  ‘  alexander  !  you  need  to  watch  where  you’re  going  .  ’  with  river  so  close  ,  sutton  becomes  all  too  aware  of  the  size   of   his  arms  ,  his  torso  pressing  against  her  ,  &  a  flush  of  heat  warms  her  skin  as  she  pushes  away  from  him  half  -  heartedly  ,  putting  space  between  their  bodies  .  ‘  i  just  got  here  ,  ’  she  begins  ,  looking  over  his  features  ,  trying  not  to  linger  on  the  green  of  his  eyes  ,  ‘  how  are  you  already  drunk  ?  ’  she  questions  ,  her  inquiry  ending  with  a  melodic  chime  of  curious  laughter  .

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╰        ❥    𝓯𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓭  𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻  :  anastasia  merlo  ( @stasiatm​ )  .

 delicate  ,  manicured  fingers  slowly  plait  the  strands  of  honey  brown  hair  that  frame  sutton  attwood’s  face  ,  loose  waves  that  had  been  straightened  by  the  intense  heat  of  a  flat  iron  now  being  braided  ,  tucked  out  of  her  face  to  create  less  of  a  distraction  .  her  feet  were  snug  in  a  pair  of  kitten  heels  ,  sheer  tights  lining  her  thin  ,  toned  legs  ;  a  candied  HEART  forged  of  pink  sugar  ,  melted  around  the  edge  of  a  small  ,  paper  stick  found  a  home  between  her  lips  ,  braid  swaying  back  &  forth  with  each  step  as  the  attwood  femme  made  her  way  to  her  second  class  of  the  day  .  english  literature  ,  taught  by  a  professor  who  seemed  set  to  make  their  year  as  boring  as  possible  .  but  sutton  did  her  best  to  maintain  her  CHEERFUL  attitude  ,  a  smile  adorning  her  features  ,  laugh  lines  on  display  as  she  makes  her  way  into  the  lecture  hall  with  her  mouth  quirked  up  at  the  corners  .  a  lovely  sight  to  be  hold  ,  practically  radiating  a  pure  ,  feminine  energy  .  sutton’s  eyes  scan  the  seating  ,  lighting  up  when  she  happens  upon  a  familiar  face  .  anastasia  merlo  ,  NOTORIOUS  partier  &  beloved  zeta  ,  the  queen  of  the  girls  who  looked  at  sutton  &  couldn’t  help  but  laugh  .  dating  corey  myers  ,  the  president  of  her  own  sorority’s  brother  fraternity  ;  overall  ,  INTIMIDATING  ,  her  presence  enough  to  have  sutton  worrying  over  her  appearance  ,  french  -    tipped  digits  grabbing  hold  of  her  cross  before  she  decides  to  take  the  seat  beside  the  beautiful  brunette  ,  her  nerves  working  to  get  the  best  of  her  .  ‘  hi  ,  anastasia  .  you  look  lovely  today  .  ’  a  soft  smile  ,  as  she  flickers  her  eyes  over  to  see  that  anastasia  had  NOTHING  on  the  small  ,  retractable  desk  attached  to  her  chair  .  ‘  you  did  the  homework  ,  right  ? ’  a  pause  .  ‘  i  did  ,  so  if  you  didn’t  ,  i  would  totally  offer  to  let  you  copy  mine  but  that’s  plaigarism  ,  so  .  if  you  need  help  ,  or  something  ... ’  she  trails  off  ,  realizing  she’s  already  spoken  too  much  ,  &  she  instead  opts  to  give  her  attention  to  the  lollipop  in  her  possession  ,  wide  ,  doe  -  eyes  flickering  between  the  professor  &  anastasia  as  she  awaits  her  response  .

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 greetings  ,  angels  ,  i’m  back  AGAIN  with  a  second  muse  ,  the  lovely  sutton  marie  attwood  !  i  have  so  much  muse  for  sutton  ,  seeing  as  she  is  a  character  i  have  been  itching  to  bring  to  life  for  a  long  time  !  i’m  very  excited  for  you  all  to  read  more  about  her  ,  so  without  further  ado  ,  please  take  a  gander  below  the  cut  ,  &  for  plotting  purposes  ,  make  sure  you  give  this  post  a  big  phat  LIKE  if  you  would  like  me  to  message  /  im  you  .  enjoy  reading  about  my  presh  ballerina  :’  ))

𝓶𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓲𝓷𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷

⋆ ╰  another  year  at  hollingsworth  ,  another  year  of  the  big  six  rivalry  .  i  hear  that  SUTTON  ATTWOOD  is  ensuring  KAPPA  KAPPA  DELTA gets  a  solid  pledge  class  and  stays  at  the  top  of  the  ranks  .  oh  ,  you’re  not  familiar  with  HER  ?  SUTTON  is  the  BRIDGET  SATTERLEE  look  alike  from  BOSTON , MASSACHUSETTS  .  apart  of  PC  ‘16  ,  she  is  majoring  in  PERFORMING  ARTS  and  has  plans  to  JOIN  THE  BOSTON  BALLET   after  undergrad  .  it  makes  sense  they  pledged  their  house  ,  their BENEVOLENT  &  DOCILE attributes  make  them  perfect  matches  .  however  ,  their  SUBMISSIVE  &   NAIVE  attributes  keep  their  name  alive  on  greek  rank  .  if  you  don’t  catch  them  dancing  to GET  WELL  SOON  -  ARIANA  GRANDE  at  a  fraternity  band  party  this  year  ,  you’ll  be  sure  to  catch  them  nursing  their  morning  hangover  at  THE  KAPPA  HOUSE  .  cheers  to  another  wild  semester !

𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓽𝓾𝓭𝔂

𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖𝕤 & 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖𝕤

 so  !  sutton  has  a  wide  array  of  things  she  likes  :  long  walks  in  the  park  ,  puppies  that  are  learning  how  to  run  ,  freshly  sharpened  number  two  pencils  ,  the  smell  of  an  old  book  ,  baby  clips  ,  leather  mary  janes  ,  dainty  jewelry  ,  bubble  baths  ,  pink  or  creme  roses  ,  daffodils  ,  heart  -  shaped  lollipops  .  she  dislikes  cursing  ,  mean  -  spirited  people  ,  drinking  alcohol  /  doing  drugs  ,  vulgarity  /  explicit  conversation  .  she  also  hates  having  to  walk  alone  at  night  ,  when  she  misses  church  ,  &  all  red  meat  .

if  you  want  a  lil’  more  of  her  general  aesthetic  ,  click  HERE  for  her pinterest  board  ,  loves  !

𝕞𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪

lovely  lil’  sutton  ....  where  do  i  even  start  JSLDKAJSDLKJ  ok  so  ...  she’s  .  angelic  vibes  all  2019  ,  ok  ?  she’s  wholesome  ,  pure  of  heart  ,  &  overall  ,  is  one  of  the  kindest  people  that  anyone  at  hollingsworth  will  come  across  .  her  overall  demeanor  is  docile  ,  quiet  ,  the  girl  usually  keeping  to  herself  ,  opting  to  stay  quiet  when  facing  confrontation  or  a  new  ,  strange  situation  .  her  voice  is  a  lil  deeper  ,  not  so  much  pealing  bells  ,  but  something  with  a  bit  of  a  rasp  ,  accented  by  the  bostonian  lilt  to  everything  she  says  .  she’s  irish  -  catholic  ,  her  family  being  very  devoted  to  their  faith  ,  &  passing  that  on  to  her  ...  she’s  always  wearing  her  cross  ,  &  making  sure  her  general  attire  is  conservative  enough  for  the  lord  (  lordt  salkdjad  )  .  i’m  talking  tights  ,  white  ruffled  socks  ,  the  whole  nine  :  /  she’s  also  !  very  smart  ,  well  -  read  ,  writing  poems  &  reading  old  novels  .  currently  ,  she  plays  the  piano  ,  &  is  on  hollingsworth’s  dance  team  !  she’s  very  disciplined  as  a  lifetime  ballerina  ,  her  life  revolving  around  the  entire  process  .  she’s  devoted  ,  loyal  ,  kind  ,  &  overall  just  !  a  lil  angel  ;  _  ;  so  pls  love  her  :  (

𝓶𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓽𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷

 sutton  attwood  was  born  the  youngest  of  four  children  ,  to  her  mother  marie  ,  and  her  father  ,  alexander  .  marie  and  alexander  had  been  married  for  the  last  twenty  -  seven  years  ,  having  kids  in  their  younger  years  ,  happily  in  love  ,  ready  to  start  a  family  .  after  her  three  siblings  were  born  ,  there  was  a  long  gap  until  her  own  arrival  ,  an  accident  that  her  parents  had  no  reason  to  expect  .  but  she  came  anyway  ,  arriving  into  the  attwood  family  ,  lungs  aching  as  she  cried  &  cried  .

 as  a  young  girl  ,  sutton  was  very  well  -  behaved  ,  but  also  very  sensitive  .  she  was  careful  to  mind  her  manners  ,  knowing  the  consequence  of  having  her  elbows  on  the  table  ,  or  neglecting  to  fold  her  napkin  across  her  lap  .  her  parents  had  high  standards  &  expectations  ,  strict  rules  that  they  enforced  to  ensure  their  daughter  stayed  within  the  mold  of  the  rest  ,  the  two  of  them  scared  that  ,  with  sutton  being  the  anomaly  ,  she  may  have  the  tendency  to  try  to  break  from  the  restraints  they  had  confined  the  rest  of  their  kids  in  .

 for  most  of  her  adolescence  ,  the  girl  was  extremely  confined  ,  repressed  ;  she  had  no  way  of  exhibiting  her  freedom  ,  expression  ,  or  creativity  ,  except  for  one  thing  --  ballet  .  she  had  started  as  soon  as  she  could  walk  ,  her  parents  having  her  join  on  the  premonition  it  would  be  a  good  outlet  for  her  ,  a  way  to  teach  her  the  discipline  they  were  sure  she  would  need  .  little  did  they  know  she  would  end  up  loving  ballet  ,  naturally  poised  for  such  a  difficult  art  form  ,  her  grace  &  athleticism  preceding  her  wildest  dreams  as  she  continued  to  train  &  train  ,  changing  dance  companies  over  the  years  as  she  became  better  &  better  .

 being  raised  irish  -  catholic  ,  she  has  a  strict  church  schedule  ,  attending  mass  every  saturday  with  her  whole  family  ,  &  sometimes  during  the  week  to  help  her  church  organize  youth  groups  ,  bible  study  ,  &  activities  of  the  same  ilk  .  being  heavily  involved  in  the  church  only  served  to  reinforce  her  parents  warnings  ,  the  people  around  her  sure  to  remind  her  that  if  she  were  to  sin  ,  she  was  damned  to  an  eternity  of  suffering  .  with  that  in  mind  ,  sutton  always  navigated  the  world  as  carefully  as  she  could  .  her  overall  mindset  was  to  stay  out  of  trouble  ,  avoiding  temptation  as  she  came  across  it  .  her  will  power  is  something  that  she  praises  herself  for  ,  being  able  to  resist  drugs  ,  sex  ,  &  alcohol  her  entire  life  .

 due  to  her  kind  demeanor  ,  she  has  the  tendency  to  be  taken  advantage  of  ,  her  niceness  taken  as  weakness  over  the  years  as  people  took  the  chance  to  belittle  or  berate  her  ,  but  despite  it  ,  her  exterior  has  never  hardened  ,  the  girl’s  heart  forever  warn  &  displayed  on  her  sleeve  . 

 since  coming  to  hollingsworth  ,  the  girl  has  done  her  best  to  maintain  her  pristine  image  ,  her  reputation  untainted  by  the  things  a  college  experience  may  promise  to  tarnish  .  but  somehow  ,  she’s  sidestepped  trouble  up  until  now  --  senior  year  .  as  a  kappa  ,  she  has  the  intention  only  to  maintain  her  house’s  top  spot  ,  her  competitive  nature  from  dancing  making  it  so  that  her  kindness  isn’t  always  necessarily  extended  to  the  members  of  other  sororities  ,  but  a  part  of  her  can’t  help  but  still  smile  in  other  girl’s  directions  ,  happy  to  have  them  as  a  friend  instead  of  an  enemy  .  the  cutthroat  mentality  of  kappa  house  is  overwhelming  ,  but  with  chaise  as  president  ,  sutton  is  even  more  nervous  to  see  what  happens  .

 with  the  promise  of  new  experiences  on  the  horizon  ,  sutton  intends  to  keep  up  the  good  work  .  to  maintain  her  4.0  gpa  ,  to  keep  her  virginity  &  promise  to  god  intact  ,  &  to  continue  dancing  without  having  any  drama  .  whose  gonna  tell  her  .....

𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼

 tbh  !  i  want  her  BEST  FRIEND  ,  one  -  sides  friendship  (  i  .  e  .  sutton  bothering  them  &  always  being  nice  ,  inevitably  driving  them  crazy  )  ,  her  CRUSH  (  this  is  a  big  one  bcos  ...  well  ...  v*rgin  or  what  not  jlkjlajskdjaldaj  but  yes  could  be  mutual  /  one  -  sided  )  ,  someone  she  tutors  bcos  she’s  a  smart  gal  !  her  confidant  ,  her  ex  -  best  friend  (  maybe  dropped  her  bcos  when  they  came  into  the  college  they  were  both  wholesome  &  they  gave  into  the  whole  greek  lifestyle  ,  losing  themselves  /  sutton  along  the  way  :/    )    um  !  i  can’t  think  of  anything  else  rn  but  u  know  me  ...  lets  go  off  chem  <3  ok  ,  that’s  all  for  now  ,  folks  !

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I just want to be perfect

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tag drop ! 

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I sleep. I dream. I make up things that I would never say. I say them very quietly.

Richard Siken, Crush (via illuminosity)