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Meanwhile, in the Matsu Islands reunion chat.....

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Let’s pretend that these sass awards aren’t 3 months late. I even gave Jaemin and myself one too! 

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Confessionals: FTC/Post-game

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RYAN

Dear Candace

JEN

So the game is over and this doesn’t need to be accepted idec. I didn’t do an “exit interview.” I am not discussing who won because even if this were an exit interview, I wouldn’t know that. I was sent to Hell to live with the “badgals”. Ponder-Hell-sa. *someone * is bitter and won’t leave me alone.

It’s 3:30 AM aka late as heck. Matsu has matsucked the life out of me. I don’t really care who wins. I just am glad this is going to be over with. I’m angry and ready to drag people. My allies are smart enough to not initiate with the badppl but I’ve lost my chill factor. Good things that came out of Matsu: Ryan, Jessie, Hanne, Dom, Michelle, Szymon, Maria. However overall the game has been extremely stressful. Tumblr Survivor has gone to Hell. *goes to sleep for 9 years* bye old Jen who thought all of tumblr survivor was rainbows and butterflies, hello Jen who knows better. Ignorance is bliss and unfortunately I learned a heavy lesson in Matsu.  

SIMON

Post Game Analysis So since I kinda failed at making confessionals ever since the loss of my fave, I thought I’d just do a quick bullet point list for what was going on each episode so we had some idea what was going on. Honestly the chronological order of this is all over the place, but I just wanted people to know that I did something and wasn’t inactive. I just was better at giving witty in the moment commentary to Jake and Jae rather than writing really long wordy things (in other words I wrote really long confessionals at the beginning then remembered I’m lazy… Sorry. :x)

Before Gerda’s Elimination.

So yeah, that Jen elimination thing failed and NOBODY told me about y’know all the drama surrounding it. :x I actually am still kinda uncertain as to what went on with it, but I feel like if Jen was fed information without her asking then we can’t blame her, we have to get angry at whoever spilt the info outside of the game and the person who pressed it on - not Jen. Even though I dislike a lot of her game, I don’t think we can hold ze grudges just for that. The initial plan I’m pretty sure was to maybe even throw immunity so that we could get Jen out and take out some returnees (CAUSE Y’KNOW, THAT MIGHT��VE BEEN A GOOD IDEA WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE FINAL 4.) I feel Ryan was upset at this point cause we didn’t include him in a vote for his best friend? In fact I’m pretty sure this is what he calls ‘the point we pushed him towards Jen.’ Still, I know confessionals will tell, but I’m pretty sure Jen was one of his closest allies from the start. Michelle on the other hand was pissed at Jen for not telling her about the idol, which I was so pleased about cause it meant the Ladies had an advocate and therefore my flipping plans had someone else, especially since I think this is when Michelle made me the F2 that I honestly thought neither of us were gonna stay loyal too. (And really I didn’t, so I apologise for that. ;_;) Jen gets second life in the game cause of the twist that ruined my game tbh. It was a fair twist, it just kinda took out my main ally and made me all sad… :( I download 2048 on my phone so that I can play it during rehearsals cause it’s actually really addictive. Side Note: I got 2048 a few days after the comp. :L I talk to Gerda about the challenge, finding out that she’s not doing so great cause of exams and subsequently accidentally causing her to panic about going home which makes me feel even worse. :( The worst case scenario becomes the scenario and I cry myself to sleep pretty much. Gerda was amazing and you better believe that I wanna play again with her sometime. Thanks for giving me such a great game Gerda, you really welcomed me to the community and I’m so happy to have made a lifelong friend. Whilst I was gutted you weren’t on jury, I was also really happy that it meant I was still allowed to talk to you since you weren’t under oath to keep quiet. ^__^ Before Daniel’s Elimination/Merge:

So I was in post-Gerda blues and was feeling all sad and defeated since we weren’t in the numbers and game life was not looking good for the Shady Ladies who had realistically been reduced back to the Young Old People(Tengaged Alliance, not Premade since y’know… I wasn’t a member of that. :x). Then a shining light came along, my glorious twin; Szymon! (Get it… cause our names are like the same, but well, different language, eyyy?) Anyways, Szy was just so nice and easy to talk to and I don’t exaggerate when I say we clicked straight away. I thought this maybe meant we had the chance to get the youngsters since Szy and I pretty much made an F2 sometime around here and I knew he had my back as much as I had his. Ryan also talked to me for the first time ever here, which y’know was nice of him. ¬_¬ It honestly annoyed me so much cause obviously he was our target, and it seemed that the only way I was getting to communicate with him was when he was a target. This kinda furthered my feeling of loneliness in the game and that people were underestimating me as a player (which was part of my gameplan going in, but it did result in so much fakeness which was difficult to bare throughout the game -.-) Basically it was battle for the babies, whoever got the young people on their side would have the numbers. [Simon/Candace/Cody/Daniel vs Jessie/Jen/Ryan/Dom/Michelle] We thought having one less number and pointing out an obvious alliance meant the odds were in our favor… Turns out we were wrong. Side note; I think this was also the time that Candace/Cody got reward challenge clues but my communication with the ladies had died down I think mainly due to timezone differences and so I was kinda excluded from the idol guessing game. In fact, I would only find out how to guess for idols after Daniel had left, which shows how much a part of the group I was in reality - though I guess it also kinda confirms for me that flipping would’ve been the right move and I had some intentions of doing it… More on that though over the next bold line. :p Before Cody’s Elimination/Christmas Break:

So I think it was immediately after Daniel’s elimination and my first true feeling of being deceived in this game as I was really really really not expecting to see his name… That I kinda decided aggression was the only approach when I was in such a pitiful minority now. Candace seemed to get the same idea and our full force came out in the chat. :p I can’t remember exactly what was said, but I know I called out Jen at one point as the leader and directly appealed the the young people that they needed to act now as this was the only time they we would have 6 votes onto their 5 votes. Meanwhile, I was also talking to people on an individual level - like trying to form bonds over break but also trying to get as much information as possible. I figured if I was going home, well then I wanted to drag down a few people with me. The most notable case of this was when I talked bluntly to Jen about the game. She often had this way of talking to me like she thought I was an idiot who couldn’t see through the fact she was using me for information from the other side - and so instead I tried to play her own game against her. I made her make decisions, in fact at one point I actually told her; “please don’t say idk - give me a decision and actually play survivor with me.” or something to that extent. I then just relayed this information back to who it was about so that I had at least a chance to weaken the strengthen of my opposition. I also got Jen to apologise to me at some point during this chat cause she told me there was a “Tengaged Premade” that had all joined together, with her obviously not realising that I was also from Tengaged and knew of their closeness. So yeah, I got an apology from Jen in an attempt to gain sympathy votes and keep up that image I was creating of being weak and uneducated on what was going on in certain aspects of the game. Though I even knew how to search for idols by this point! (Since Cody finally linked me to the list) So yeah, I was totally keeping up that illusion that I was uneducated… That was an act, yeah… *Shifty Eyes* He’ll tell you himself if it was true or not - cause I honestly don’t know… but I think I cracked Ryan a little. He got so pissed off at Jen and I constantly feeding him info about each other that he eventually just said he was cutting ties with both of us, which was perfect cause it meant I’d at least caused tension inside their camp. I should also note that I told Ryan at this point he was just a goat to the other F5 alliance - with my intention being that he’d maybe start playing the game now and shake it up a little (ayyy T.Swift mild referencing). Whilst he didn’t really do that while I was here, I wanna apologise to him in retrospect as he played a better game than I did - since y’know, he made it to Final 3 and I made it to 4th Juror seating. :p It was also around this time I found out that Jen was relaying my information back around the camp but paraphrased. In fact if anyone wants to see the word document they can, but I spent ages highlighting the comments she had made about me in which she had stitched together two bits of conversation and left out literally of hundreds of words in between. This is when I called her “The Painter” cause she was literally trying to paint herself as the hero of the tribe who could do no wrong and therefore anyone who played against her - well they were just a villain in her eyes and she was stopping at nothing to make sure she painted that picture for the rest of her alliance to just nod along with. That was how I thought she got Daniel out since obviously he was her biggest target… but realistically on hind sight there was a lot more than just Jen contributing to it. Extra Extra! This is also the point where Jen tried to tell me she “Wasn’t running the game.” Despite the fact I pointed out that her enemies were pretty quickly walking out of the game one by one conveniently for her… /: However this also led to me creating the Taylor Swift Idol as I wanted to go out with a laugh and was convinced that Miss Picaso had done a great job in painting me as a villain again. :p In a last ditch effort, I tried to start a side chat with Szy/Maria/Hanne/Candace/Cody to play against the solid 5 person alliance… and well it was very chilly in that chat cause nobody was communicating. This was the point of the game where I felt like I was trying my best to play, but nobody wanted to… which was giving me flashbacks to childhood when I used to sit at my gate and cry out to my neighbours’ parents that I “Hadddd nobody t-to play wiffff.” I thought that might’ve changed in 14 years, but apparently not. In fact I was so desperate to play with them that I told Cody I was gonna make a fake deal with Szy/Mar/Han that I would flip on Cody/Candace at F6 and take him out cause it would confirm their loyalty… Realistically though, that was actually my plan. :x It was just great to get justification from the guy who I was targeting in the first place! :p My childhood fear was proven by the fact that once again Cody was taken out, which really sucked for Candace and my game… /: Though I thought it interesting that they kept Crazy Candace and I who were playing OTT, whereas Cody was being civil about losing Daniel, despite those two being the closest in my opinion. :p Before Michelle’s Elimination:

Deja Vu - I went back to calling out people in the chat cause literally we had missed the opportunity, reached the point of no return. In fact, Candace and I literally had nothing to lose, so we just started calling everyone out in the chat. Shade: The Rusical literally took place in my opinion… Minus the music and Drag Queens…. /: Once again then, we let the waters calm down a wee tad and I started talking to people behind the scenes again. I forgot to mention, but Michelle had told me to play UTR from merge, which I had completely opposed - I think it worked better for me in the end cause at least I made a mark and played then, rather than literally filled my stereotype of “dumb ginger who is completely new and clueless.” This was also the time I started trying to talk the Youngsters back into playing with me and I was getting a little more response - with a lot of my game resting on my twinnie(Szy<3) to convince his Young Alliance that we were the way. :p I once again created a group chat for these guys, but it only got active a little later (I’ll explain in a minute.) At this time, Dom was also talking to Candace and myself, with him making some very questionable moves that I was living for as they messed up his game and saved mine… well momentarily, they would later screw me up too. Michelle was supportive of this and I think the plan was that Candace, Michelle, Jessie, Dom and I were voting Szymon… but Dom had deffo also created a side alliance of some sort which involved Szymon in it. Then Dom made the most questionable of all his moves, he gave Szy the idol to play on Candace so we could make our move against like… I think we were pretending it was Ryan or something? :s Nonetheless, Szy told me about this idol giving now and I was living for it cause it meant Dom was gonna get backstabbed and he’d given us a gift for doing so! Therefore with 3 votes on Szy, we had the means to get the young people on our side by just telling them what was really going down… and we did. :3 I initially wanted to wait for Candace to come home so that I knew we could do that as a group decision. However she never responded to my message and by the time I was awake, all the plans were set in place. I’m gonna admit it made me a little sad as I felt it was a situation that was gonna be noted as a huge defining moment in the game, and I didn’t want to look like I was sheeping her when doing it. My timezone, which has many sheep within it, thought otherwise. Therefore we got our best case scenario, well I mean apart from the fact the targets were still crosshaired on two of my allies (I wanted the vote to go on like Jen - since Michelle was my F2, but so was Szy.) In fact, if I had gone ahead without trying to consult Candace - I feel I might’ve got to take out someone who would’ve been more useful to me than Michelle. Nonetheless, if Michelle has anything to blame for her elimination - it’s the Irish timezone. :p And the fact that Candace was smart enough to just go ahead and make plans while she had the chance. :p To be honest, part of me worried that Michelle had made our kind of F2 deals with everyone since she was always telling me to be so quiet about it. :p My Own Elimination:

It was so funny to see a vote that we actually wanted go through. :L In fact it was so shocking and funny that it actually created silence in the tribe chat… like dead silence. It was hilarious from my PoV anyway! Still, I know I didn’t wanna get too comfortable in the game and so I kept talking away to people and nodding along if they wanted to make deals cause at least it meant I wasn’t their target and I could easily just tell my alliance of 5 that the deals were fake. I actually felt so good though at this stage, cause like the new alliance - named the Little Bo Peeps - had the perfect endgame for me. Candace, Szymon and Myself… It made sense for us to vote together at Final 5 to make sure it was a newbie winner. I knew I could turn Szy our way and I think I convinced Candace about that… like it would’ve been perfect. :( But alas, we all know that I dislike linear games and I certainly didn’t go out in a linear fashion. :p We kept dropping hints towards voting Jen, whilst Dom once again tried to get us to vote Szy.. -.- But I guess our hinting didn’t work that well as apparently we just made all the other alliance paranoid. I really don’t know what to say about this round, I mean I kept playing and there were deffo some side deals made… but I just felt safe enough that round. Like I didn’t know any of the votes would be pointed at me… AND THAT’S WHAT MADE LEAVING SO EPIC! :’) I was completely stunned by the two idol plays and was just so happy to go out in such an epic way. I was starting to feel good about my positioning in the game and I think it was a really admirable move to take me out - especially since it was Jen and the vote completely made sense since we had stopped talking by this point due to both of us just knowing we were playing this game opposing each other. I really wish I could big it up and make it as epic as it felt at the time, but unfortunately it’s not in my writing ability to do so without seeming melodramatic and so I’ll just say that; “As I was leaving too soon… I was enchanted to meet you.” It was a great game move and it ended my game in a really cool way that I won’t be forgetting soon. :p Overall I just wanted to say thanks for such a great game, I know I’ll say it again on finalé night - but this game was just so epic for me and it made me feel so welcomed to what seems to be a really cool community. Everyone kept the game interesting and entertaining, and I couldn’t have asked for more. I’m just looking forward to getting to know people outside the game now… both from Matsu and hopefully from the community. *Hint Hint - You should message me.*

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Confessionals: Episode 17

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MARIA

how exactly did i manage to survive the last tribal?? and convince jen to vote out her closest ally, who would have definitely brought her to the final three???? ……………hanne and i are literally incredible. now we need to win immunity cause if ryan wins again we are very much screwed.

JEN

Ryan was saying he “might” choose Hanne and Maria. He was not giving me any definite answers. He said “if I choose to go with you and Dom” as though it was completely up for grabs. I thought that there was a huge possibility that Ryan would vote Dom and then me next time. I know you might say it doesn’t make sense for me to vote Dom therefore causing the exact thing I didn’t want to happen. True I’m a bitch for that and I love you Dom. But Maria/Hanne offered me safety in the next 2 votes if they can give it to me. Unlike Ryan, they gave me reasons to trust them in this vote and next. If I didn’t vote Dom, they wouldn’t trust me and they’d be more likely to vote for me next time anyway. I figured I’d beat Ryan to the punch and gain their trust as well. Ryan is sooooo angry at me. And I totally get it. I’d be angry too. I was angry when he voted out Jessie….which tbh was the first backstab so idk why he thinks I am more awful than him. How was I supposed to trust his word when he was so wishy washy? Ryan himself said that if he went to the f3, it had to be with both me and Dom or both Hanne and Maria. So I am using his idea and going to do my best to end up in the f3 with Hanne and Maria. I am probably going to lose hardcore but there’s always the chance that my gameplay will gain Jessie, Michelle, Dom, and possibly Ryan’s votes. I think I might be able to sway one more person but who knows. That would be 5 of 9 votes. My thought was that I would put my allies on the jury so I have more of a chance that I could get votes. Dom told me if I was in f3 he would vote for me. so idk. I know that move was ridiculous and I will probably regret it a lot…..but ugh. Ryan should have made me and Dom feel more comfortable. I”M SO SORRY :’( :’( :’(

JEN

I’m talking to Maria and she is making a lot of sense. (not that she didn’t before)  She is saying that Ryan’s move on Jessie might sway some of the jury members who hated my alliance to vote for him since he was their “hero” so to speak. I do think both Hanne and Maria are HUGE threats. Ryan is a big threat now too. Out of Maria/Hanne, Hanne might actually be the bigger threat because her social game has been more apparent to some people. but I possibly want to go to f3 with Hanne/Maria if it’s possible because Ryan /might/ get over his bitterness enough to vote for me anyway. who knows. Nothing is guaranteed and I’d feel really bad for betraying him but tbf he betrayed me first. He is also acting like he deserves f3 more than some of us. He basically told me :  ”It’s either Dom or Maria tonight. And I hope you don’t end up getting 4th place again.”  Then after I voted Dom he got upset at me. But how was I supposed to feel safe when I’m getting a lot of “I might”, “I think”, and “I don’t know who I am going with yet”? If Ryan wins immunity, idk what to do. I might try to convince Maria/Hanne to vote for the other so there isn’t a tie-breaker. If Ryan doesn’t win, I think we are going to vote him out. I know Ryan might never forgive me. He told me himself that he either wanted in the f3 with both Dom and me or both Maria and Hanne. Well, I might as well use his idea against him (I say that in the nicest way possible :/  ) to make a move. If Simon respects big moves, I guess voting out 2 of your alliance members is a big move. Meh idk. I hate being disloyal. I really wouldn’t have done this if Ryan hadn’t been so wishy washy after basically destroying our alliance. If he would’ve waited a round, we could’ve been 4 Dongyins to 1 Nangan and he could’ve voted out Jessie then if he felt compelled to do so… He said that he voted for Jessie for the good of himself, Dom, and I.  That isn’t true?  Because if he was concerned about my safety he wouldn’t have put 4 cookies on me and he wouldn’t have made me flush my idol before f5. Also why, oh why, would he put a vote on me?!?   If he was concerned about me, he would’ve put the random vote on Hanne so that if I played my idol on Jessie, I’d stay. He said he didn’t want to vote for Hanne because that would mean destroying trust with them but what does he think he did with Dom and I?????   Idk. Also, I kind of think he was using Maria. He saved Maria only to then try to vote her out. He wanted to make a huge move (voting out Jessie) but what was the point of saving Maria to then betray her?  I guess it makes sense that he is more loyal to my alliance.. but he was just leaving his options open between going to the Nangans or staying with the Dongyins.

MARIA

while writing my rites of passage i am very aware that i have no idea what to say that is like… good and so if i make it to ftc again i know i’m gonna have another amanda kimmel performance but u know

MARIA

when i had a 5 day weekend to work on the challenge and stay up for endurance but it wasn’t even posted during it

JEN

I think I made a huge mistake but it’s too late now. If I don’t make it to FTC and all people see are my confessionals, I want it to be known that I wasn’t a barn animal. (lol)  The Nangans seem to think that I was following my allies around like a lost puppy. For instance, Hanne said “You don’t always have to do what Ryan, Dom, and Jessie tell you to do!” I get where she is coming from because she and I have been allies for quite a while (even thought we haven’t voted together for a long time) and she wanted to get me to vote with her and also I haven’t come across as a big threat to them like Jessie did. I built my social game over a long period of time. My friendships with everyone in this game (with those who don’t hate me) are 100% genuine. On a “social game” level, I spent a lot of time gaining the trust of the Nangans. Over the Christmas break, I never took a break. I worked tirelessly to keep my alliance from becoming minority for the f11 vote. We easily could have been minority because Cody, Simon, and Candace can be really persuasive as seen from the Michelle and Jessie votes. I didn’t talk with Candace or Cody at all over the break and I talked to Simon because he kept writing me. So in gaining the trust of the Nangans, I definitely wasn’t going to try to let them think I am a threat. In fact if I came across as a threat, I wouldn’t be here right now because the Nangans would’ve taken me out. Hanne, Maria, and Szymon think that I followed my allies around and did whatever they told me to do. They probably think I’m a goat or a sheep. In a way that bothers me. But like I said, the only reason I was able to make it past f6 or f5 is because of my relationships with the Nangans (and Ryan). If Ryan and I weren’t close allies, he would’ve taken me out instead of Jessie. If the Nangans and I weren’t close allies, they would’ve voted for me a long time ago. I’ve been able to get only 1 vote since merge which shocks me since the other Dongyin alliance seemed to target me the most out of anyone. Maria and Hanne came to me with the offer of f3 instead of Dom in the f5 vote. They easily could’ve gone to Dom and rallied to get me out. Ryan was between voting for Dom and Maria in the f5 vote. Thankfully they came to me but if I came across as a giant threat or if they didn’t trust me, they probably would’ve voted for me to leave. Tbh I probably won’t get any votes if I actually make it to FTC…which seems unlikely. Maria/Hanne’s stories are great and it was probably very dumb of me to vote out Dom instead of Maria. But like I said in my previous confessional, I didn’t know if I could trust Ryan and if I was going to f3, it needed to be with both Ryan and Dom or both Hanne and Maria. If Ryan wins final immunity, I think it makes sense to go to f3 with Maria because she has made more people angry than Hanne. If I created a tie at f5, the trust that Hanne and Maria have in me might have faltered. Then I’d have nowhere to go in the f4 vote because Ryan is so angry at me and the Nangans would have been iffy about trusting me. I’m going to play up the big move that Ryan made by taking out Jessie. I need to come across as a complete goat if I’m going to get Maria and Hanne to vote for Ryan instead of me. This is super long wow. I hope I can win the final immunity challenge but lol I suck at most things. I am amazed I made it to f4 because this game has been INSANE. I have had to fight tooth and nail every inch of the way. I’m so sorry Ryan and Dom for being a turncoat. I feel awful. :’( :’(   It’s against my moral code. But it’s too late now. I’ve made my choice and I have to follow through. I hope you can forgive me. I love both of you dearly. You are both great people and have played well. I love having you as friends. Maria, you are a sweetheart. I have no idea why people would be mean to you. Hanne, you are such a nice person and one of the best things about this game has been becoming your friend. We are one in the same with many things.  Ryan, you are a very kind person and a great friend as well. My biggest regret in this game has been lying to you (and to Dom).

JEN

This game is making me kind of depressed and angry at the same time. I’m not good with being bullied and I think that’s what some of the jury does. I left all public chats right now because I want nothing to do with the mean jury members or anyone who supports them. I don’t have a chance of winning which idc about anymore but I put a lot of hard work into this game and I’m just going to be mauled at the end when I have done just as much as the rest of the f4. I have lost all hope. Good job Candace, Simon, and Daniel on making me go from rainbows and sunshine to a bitter rain cloud. Congrats. You win. I hope you’re happy that you put me through so much stress and anxiety. I hope you feel good about yourself for saying “cum guzzler” in a public chat, for calling me fake, for throwing a rock at my forehead, for constantly saying subtle comments in public chats that are obviously targeted at me. I hope you’re happy, Daniel, for turning some of my friends against me. So mature, high fives to you. I started this game happy and ready to meet friends. Now Idk if I ever want to play another survivor season again. I’ve transformed.  Way to go. I might laugh about the comments you all make but in reality it really does bother me. Especially since now people outside of the game believe your crock of shit. Anyway touche and I hope I get 4th place again so I don’t have to sit through a ftc with you mean people badgering me

JEN

Matsu is basically the story of how Jen went from being a happy-go-lucky TS community member who thought everyone was great and sweet and wonderful…into a seriously jaded individual. RIP RIP RIP   Signed, the Wicked Witch of the (Mid)West

JEN

I was told I have no chance of winning which sucks because I think I deserve at least a chance. But did I ever have a chance?  The jury is bitter as all get out and I put more than half of them on the jury (Daniel, Cody, Simon, Szymon, Dom). But this jury is not true Survivor fans or they’d at least appreciate good game play. I’m not afraid to say I put Daniel, Cody, and Simon on the jury. idc. And Candace had bad luck but honestly it’s karma. I also idoled out Lachie. I literally have voted out every single person who targeted me other than Hanne. And she was just misguided by Daniel. Lachie, Simon, Gerda, Daniel are all gone. Whether by luck or a vote, it’s karma. If they had learned anything from my previous games they would see I’m loyal until I am given a reason to not be. (Other than Dom which RIP I love you so much and Szymon that was just because you are a huge threat)  The Geezers fell apart because of Daniel and Gerda’s vendetta against me. And guess what? I’m still standing and you are gone. I’m not even sorry about Daniel being voted out. And he has shown since his vote out that he is immature and mean, a bully at best. You will see from my confessionals in this game that I am a genuine person. You called me fake but I’m not, not at all. I truly consider Szymon, Dom, Michelle, Jessie, Hanne, Ryan, and Maria to be my friends. And whether they vote me out or not, I’ll still consider them to be my friends. I have said good things about all of them. You think I’m fake? That’s honestly your problem. Maybe you have mistaken yourself with me (specifically talking to Daniel right now). I have spent countless confessionals talking about how sweet Hanne, Maria, Ryan, Dom, Szymon, Jessie, Grace, and Michelle are. I even said good things about some of you in the beginning. But at this point, I have nothing to say to you that is good. You can’t tell me I’m a bad person because I know I’m not….but I have a breaking point. I can see myself losing 3-6.  And that sucks because I have put a lot of effort into this game. BUT I don’t  want a vote from a bully. I am not going to kiss your ass for a game. It kind of bothered me when Hanne and Maria called Candace a “queen” when she has been so mean to me. I thought as my friends they would at least not be kissing up to Daniel or Candace. I guess it’s part of the game…… W/E you (4 members of the jury) are acting like a bunch of whiny babies. I’m 25 so I know you’re younger than me but that is not an excuse. I have 11 year old cousins that act more dignified than you. Hanne and Maria are younger than you and they are way sweeter. I was nice to ALL of you. I was NEVER mean to you. You attacked me without provocation. You made me into a scapegoat. I knew you were trouble when you walked in (Daniel, Cody, and Candace). Sorrynotsorry about this confessional. I am sure you are good people outside of the game but ….hmmm idec. There is no excuse for your behavior. I am continuously told that it’s just a game and that things are going to be ok afterwards and you’ll be my friends after. 1. I would never ever EVER be mean to someone over a game. 2. You should treat people with kindness no matter what. 3. Saltiness doesn’t look good on anyone. 4. I don’t deserve this. You are rude, mean, and bitter. Again. SORRYNOTSORRY maybe I will be sorry after the game but YOU ARE SO  MEAN TO ME AND I AM SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JEN

If I make it to jury, I have a question ready for both Maria and Hanne. I have told them numerous times that I’ve wanted to leave the community because of the bullying in this game. They’ve seen Candace blow up and they know how mean she can be. (Charmin, ass licker, calling me out constantly with no reason, throwing a rock at my forehead, treating Ryan terribly, calling me/Hanne Bo Peep, calling us barn animals) My question will be:  How can they call Candace a queen and praise her…. as if she has done nothing wrong?  If she was mean to them (Maria or Hanne), there is no way I’d call her a queen. Ugh Queendace. I can’t. I might not go after Candace hardcore but I would not support her actions. Hanne also knows that Daniel used her (Hanne), has been mean to me, and is overall acting immature. Yet in her rites of passage she says she is thankful that he stuck his neck out for her?   He didn’t. He used her to spread propaganda against me for no reason. He had wanted Hanne out instead of Lachie and I was the one who was gunning for Lachie instead. And then he has the audacity to play “hero”. Nah bro. He has been very mean to me in the community by going into public chats and being incredibly passive aggressive and turning my friends against me. He’s just plain rude. So my question stands. How can they support (praise) either of them when they know that their friend was basically bullied by them? How could they refer to someone as “Queendace” when she has done nothing but attack people? Meh I know they’ve had a different experience with all of the ……. individuals…… in this game but it’s completely obvious that they’ve been mean to me. I’ve gotten to a breaking point and my friends know this. So as much as I love both Hanne and Maria, it kind of sucks how they act toward the CDCS army.

MARIA

Ryan won immunity. I'm quitting

MARIA

ok so miss ryan literally told me he’s gonna vote jen so i’m gonna start a group chat of him + hanne and i and i’m gonna tell hanne to tell him she’s voting jen even though she’s having double thoughts and wants to tie it which would mean voting me bc of a promise to jen… which is super scary tbh…

then i’m telling jen rn i’ll vote hanne to avoid a tiebreaker and she’s saying she would be willing to also so i’m hopefully going to split jen and ryan’s votes?? jen votes hanne, ryan votes jen. i vote… idk who yet. i promised jen i wouldnt vote for her. i would’ve never voted out hanne until she was so convinced on her decision to keep her promise to jen even if it means tying the vote on me when we have such an easy opportunity to avoid a tiebreaker.

MARIA

i promised miss jen i wouldn’t vote her but u know… i might have to….. wtf i’m so desperate to survive bye… pray for little miss me

MARIA

why did ryan have to tell miss jen about the plan to vote her out now she’s so sad and i feel so bad cause i’m gonna end up lying to her and i’m gonna lose her jury vote and if i lose to another winner again RIP!!!!

MARIA

i sold my soul to tumblr survivor

MARIA

[2015-02-06, 10:56:47 AM] Jen (loves puppies): Congrats Maria on f3 [2015-02-06, 10:56:56 AM] Jen (loves puppies): Your record won’t be broken [2015-02-06, 12:31:39 PM] Jen (loves puppies): For sure you’re going to f3

is this really true…

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Confessionals: Episode 16

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MARIA

ryan playing his idol on me is good karma from me playing my idol on jaemin

HANNE

me and maria watching our tribe burn to the ground :~)

and laughing when we still haven’t been voted out :~) tbh we didn’t even have any alliances at the beginning of this game im still screaming how are we here!!!! i didn’t join phil’s 6th place club thank god i don’t think i could handle that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me @ bae szymon and queen candace i miss u guys so much <33333

and us when miss jessie going home actually worked!!!!!!!!! we’ve voted for her like 5 times by now omg!!!!!!!!!!!

ilysm maria if i get voted out pls win <3

when we’re the last 2 ppl from the baby tribe and we’re sad…….

tbh i would much rather be in the ponderosa chat w/ those ppl but i’m not !!!!!! so i’m playing for them bc we can’t let these barn animals win !!!!!!!! also so happy that i’ll at least be able to vote for someone (maria or ryan) that i actually want to vote for at ftc or i’ll be there myself !!!!!!! :~)

so to sum it all up !!!!!!!!! at least i’ll get voted out knowing that ppl legitimately thought i was a threat to win the game……. that’s never happened before……. and i won immunity like i couldn’t ask for anything more out of this season tbqh i made some great friends and i did everything i wanted to so i’m happy

but here’s to me and miss maria winning the next reward and immunity challenges !!!!! and to this being both of our 3rd time being in f5 :~)

JEN

JESSIE </3   Jessifer ship has been sunk in this game. I think I’m going next. The worst part about this is that it was Ryan who did this. I thought he was loyal. It’s fine that he voted out Jessie, even though I heart Jessie. I understand that she’s a big threat. She would’ve won against me. But he keeps saying that he “hasn’t decided” if he wants to go to the FTC with Maria/Hanne or me/Dom. If Dom gets voted out next (hopefully that won’t happen but mainly hopefully I don’t go) and I don’t win immunity, I guess I will have to beg Maria and Hanne to take me to FTC instead of Ryan. rip I think Ryan is being irrational but whatever…  I don’t like to be betrayed, who does. but I have a strong sense of loyalty. I don’t say this in an arrogant way at all, but I think that if I were on actual Survivor I’d be considered a “hero” because I see things in a very black-and-white fashion. In my mind, Maria was my first choice to go because she was not really my ally. Then, it was Hanne because she wasn’t my ally since the beginning (although I could be swayed on this probably). Then I would decide my next move but the 3 remaining players are who I have been loyal to since day one/two. I’d rather go to the end feeling like I made the moral choices than to be at the end as a flipper. That’s why I risked my skin to go to rocks for my ally. I’d do the same for Dom or Ryan. I would not be ok with becoming Judas. I’d rather go down as a loyal, trustworthy person. Rock me out. I freaking put myself in danger to protect Szymon, Ryan, Dom, Hanne, and Jessie this game. It sucks that Ryan is going to backstab me after that. w/e I’ve spent most of the game making moves without lying to a ton of people about votes. I have lied some obviously. But my biggest lie was Szymon and I feel bad about that. But I never promised him safety toward the end. I also never promised Hanne safety until I knew it was 100% true. I don’t like giving people false hope. I like all of the remaining contestants. Maria, Hanne, Ryan, and Dom are all nice people. I just really want to make FTC and not be a fourth or fifth place flop.  RIP at least I’ve tried sooo much. Hard work, never giving up, loyalty, and determination have gotten me here. Also my allies. BUT I won’t give up. I’m the little engine that (hopefully) could and I’ll be damned if I don’t give it my all. LORD HELP ME

HANNE

MARIA

so ryan decided to flip on hanne and i already??? like he literally just played his idol for me two days ago???? but anyway we had reward and he won and now he gets a 30% increase in his score when dom said he would vote him out rn and ughhhhh if he wins immunity i’m completely screwed :~( if he wins immunity i’m probably gonna tell him everything dom told me about wanting him out or something…

MARIA

ryan beat my score by so much……… i’m.. . it’s overn ow…. goodbye everyone

RYAN

My problem with a lot of people so far, Daniel, Simon, Candace, Syzmon, and Jen is they decide to threaten me that I won’t get their vote at the end. With me threats as subtle as that, even if they are truth or false, they make me want to oppose you more. Jen immediately after the last vote screamed at me she’d vote for Hanne or Maria over me. At points like this I’m either you’re ally or your enemy and I’m telling Dom what I want him to say. I want him to beg for my vote. I want him and Jen to promise to protect me like Hanne and Maria would.

RYAN

i feel like everyone should laugh harder at my jokes not because they're funny but because i have power

HANNE

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Confessionals: Episodes 14 & 15

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HANNE

MARIA

1. things are looking bleak for my alliance. 2. i miss queendice so much. 3. ryan needs to flip idk why he won’t. 4. please help

SZYMON

Well, last tribal was crazy and odds are so aganist us its kinda saddening but i still didn’t want to give up and still DIDN’T GIVE UP. Im trying to work on Jen since yesterday so hard for her to finally make a move, but ulitmately i think she’s not flipping.. I tried, i played, i had so much fun and i have no regrets. At this point, i think Jessie is winning. Her gameplay is really good and until nothing happens, she’s gonna win but i’m just rooting for my baes Hanne and Maria <3 Slay them gurls

JESSIE

okay yeah i’m really slacking on confessionals, last one i made was grieving michelle (rip michelle gone too soon too good for this bullshit). the plan at that stage had been to shower the remaining 4 michelle warriors with idols and pray to molly christ that we’d be able to send one of hanne/maria/szymon/simon/candace out. took dom about two days from that point to let us know that the idol we’d assumed we had at our disposal was in szymon’s possession. that was an interesting fucking surprise to get about 22 hours before the vote. step 1: find idol step 2: give idol to szymon, secure his vote for the rest of the game!!111!!! (not like szymon’s a capable fucking player who can make his own moves, especially when someone presents him with an idol at final fucking eleven) step 3: concoct plan to vote out szymon and your own idol. it’s so genius nobody will see it coming. step 4: well the plan fell through, still gonna vote for him even though i’m one of 3 votes in a split vote plan lmao. step 5: confess to szymon you voted for him. step 6: make sure your allies are the very last to know where the idol is, that bit’s really important. step 7: ???? step 8: profit. (ily dom anyway) anyway so after realising we couldn’t just rely on idols and would actually have to play the game a lil but (so rood, i’m a princess i deserve to be in the majority all the time), i figured i’d try actually having an influence in where the votes are going – candace had already kinda discussed the idea of voting szymon out with me, as had simon with other people so i just kinda continued to talk a fuck tonne of strategy to simon and candace and said nothing to maria hanne and szymon for like 3 days hoping to freak them out and have them vote for me AND IT FUCKING WORKED. EVERY TIME, EVERY FRICKING TIME THAT STRATEGY HAS WORKED IT WORKED ON THE GRACE VOTE EVEN THOUGH I DIDN’T GET MAJORITY VOTES BUT IT WORKED i’m sorry to talk myself up so much but i love that move i’m proud of me. i mean maybe they were planning on voting for me anyway but one of the voting confessionals said (one moment let me go find it i have that tribal council bookmarked lmao) Jessie. You’re an excellent social player and that’s why I got worried tonight because you didn’t speak a word to me… (Does not count) like !!!!!!!!!!!!!! hook, line and sinker. so yeah thus ends the “jessie sucks her own dick” portion of the confessional, cos tbh i was rly proud of my allies too like jen invented what I like to call plan doodoo, which is a split vote strategy for the minority, sending simon out the door with one freaking vote, what a queen, what a queen. also dom and ryan like stayed loyal and all round the 4 of us just SLAYED it was a beautiful thing. so yeah then it was 4-4 and we were like okay candace you know the nangans are taking each other to the end right, and that would be straight up embarrassing to have an all dongyin jury so we were basically all making f3s with her and i wanted to suggest her me and ryan but she said she trusted me and dom still so i was like lmao k i’ll roll with this and idk if anyone will ever believe me but I was kinda for real on that f3 like idk if I can salvage daniel and cody’s votes at this point, nor simons so why not take candace and hopefully people like michelle and jen would still be too pissed to vote for her? so yeah candace if you’re reading this my f3 with you was semi legit, I probably would have at least tried to take you to f4 idk. anyway so 4-4 and surprise surprise me and szymon get votes again! so that’s 2 iconic tribals in a row at which szymon and I have both been immune without even working together it’s hilarious. candace didn’t flip cos she didn’t think any of the f3s were legit and my allies stuck with me which was like… shit i’m totally indebted to you guys now, you’re all gods/goddesses and i love you. and then the most poetic outcome of all (except maaaaaybe if maria had been rocked out AGAIN thus maintaining her “perfect” record), candace was sent home in the rock draw that she was responsible for. poor girl though, i actually legit like candace when she’s not screaming at people in the tribe chat. ya so now we’re at f7 and shit’s getting dicey, apparently a dom/ryan/maria f3 was proposed in an attempt to get her to flip on the revote at f8 but dom’s outted it to me and jen saying ryan actually wants to do it, and ryan’s outted it to me and jen saying dom actually wants to do it and in my head i’m thinking okay if that’s the f3 I’m voting maria unless she royally fucks up at ftc again, like she and hanne were in minority on their original tribe, and have managed to be swing votes ever since, if either of them can make the right deals to get to the end that’s a game well played in my book, certainly sitting next to diabolical genius (read: headache) dom and firecracker (read: also headache) ryan then they’ve got my vote hands down. also when I won that damn reward I had the biggest freaking dilemma cos this whole time it’s been like jessie don’t give jen more power don’t let her coast to the end you need to prepare for the waterloo of the conqueror queen jen and then dom and ryan are both saying to me “don’t send dom/ryan, he’s sketchy” and I’m like shit I need to keep this 4 together…. jen you can go! so she has the idol now, she got it on her second try, so that’s either going to be a massive help (potentially getting people to vote for jen and idolling out maria bc she’s quickly becoming the biggest threat in the game purely by the fact that she might take up a seat at ftc) or a gigantic hindrance (watch jen idol me out at f6/5, rip #jenessie) so idk rn at least she told me she has it, but also dom and ryan know so ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffck. oh and this morning I woke up to szymon telling the entire tribe that I’m playing the best game and nobody can beat me in the end and I’ve pulled all these great moves and I’m like well shit, my chances of getting to the end are basically a fraction higher than the chances of me winning the next three immunites so like… considering we’ve already had 2048, tetris and touchy subjects…. maybe 0.4%? my only solace would be getting jen freaked out that people are coming for her and using her idol to take someone out, and like the fact that dom probably still thinks he can beat me idk. i fucking hope he thinks that, i really do. yeah so there’s this weird tone in all my conversations like trying to convince people that they can win against me so they should take me further but also trying to convince them that I don’t think I’ll lose to them so I won’t take them out like… fuck idk. somebody drag me to f4 and whoop my ass at final immunity please.

JEN

I haven’t done a confessional in a while it seems. A lot has been on my mind but I haven’t felt like a confessional. I feel bad about Szymon because he’s really nice and a good friend. I think it was the right choice though. He’s great at challenges and Nangans are going to win if they make it to f3. Simon made that clear. I hope I can survive this next vote without using my idol because if I can, I’ll guarantee myself a spot in the f4. So that I can be another fourth place flop lbr. Simon basically cemented in stone that I am voting for Maria and Hanne in the next 2 rounds. I don’t want to vote Hanne at all but she would definitely win in ftc. Anyway on to squish some birds.

MARIA

me and hanne on a boat w/ the barn animals (obvi the jumping)

MARIA

tumblr survivor: matsu islands (f8) / survivor: nicaragua crossover

szymon = sash for being strategic not the hated part idk why sash is hated

candace = naonka for always slaying these dang FRICKBOYS/FARM ANIMALS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me = purple kelly for not speaking until like 2 episodes before i leave

hanne = brenda for being actually RELEVANT!!!! TBH!!!!

ryan = SOME TYPE OF BARN ANIMAL not sure yet bc he said he has the beach idol and will play it on either me or hanne this vote??? ……. we will see… . ….

jessie = horse idk cause i imagine horses are like the head of the farm animal hierarchy

miss jen = a mother cow she kinda just hangs out and says she’s tryna take care of the lil kids and cows are pretty inactive and just go with whatever U FEEL///?????

dom = rooster BC HE ALWAYS WANTS ATTENTION!!!!!!! like “WOW I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD WIN IMMUNITY” YOUR DANG SCORE IS 3X HIGHER THAN THE SECOND HIGHEST SCORE DOM!!!!!!!

idk much about farm animals i hope these are accurate

MARIA

ANYWAY….. RECENT EVENTS .  . …….. .SZYMON WAS VOTED OUT:( :((#*T&& CYRINGGGGGG I WON REWARD AND GOT THE DANG IDOL CLUE?????? BUT THERE’S 50 POSSIBLITIES/??? EYTFUGHIJOKPEL{: I!!!W$#%E!RFTYUGHIJGYUEJHBN K GOOOODBYETRDEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEN DOM WON COOKIE CHALLENGE REWARD!! AND I GOT 12 DANG COOKEIS!!!!! WHO DID THSI!!!!!! WHY!!@#$%^&*() I’M DONE!! IT’S OVER NOW! THEN AFTER I WAS LIKE TO RYAN “HEY I GOT THE BEACH IDOL CLUE :O” AND HE SAYS HE HAS THE DANG BARN IDOL???? AND HE’S GONNA PLAY IT ON ME OR HANNE TO MAKE SURE NEITHER OF US GO HOME THIS VOTE ? ……… DO I BELIEVE HIM. .…IDK……….. ALSO JEN’S GONNA PLAY HER IDOL FOR EITHER HERSELF OR JESSIE SO….  …. i…. it’s overn ow……….. am i about to be VOTED OUT

MARIA

MARIA

miss JENNCITY with her immunity idol!!!

BIG MOVES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JEN

hmm. so Ryan gave Jessie and I 4 cookies. He says he did it because “he wanted to win immunity” but I’m almost certain that it’s because he wanted us to lose so they can vote us out. Dom and Ryan are blaming each other for flipping but I think they both flipped tbh. They not very logical about who they’re voting out. Obviously if Hanne or Maria make f3 they are going to be the ones to win. Everyone loves them. Heck I’d vote for them if Jessie isn’t there. And SIMON so smartly said he is voting for them in FTC. I don’t want to lose my idol before f5 but I’m using it tonight (I’m pretty sure). I don’t want to go out at f6 and if they bluff and vote for me or we go to rocks, I don’t want to risk it. I don’t want Jessie to go home but…..idk I’d rather not go. And I would have to vote her out at f4 anyway if I want to have a chance of winning. But then I’d have to win the next 2 immunities or come up with something out of my ass.   Next vote I might try very very hard to send myself to exile again (lol) and pretend like I have the idol, maybe just act suspiciously or something. Or maybe I can actually find it first try? If I can’t go to exile, I’m probably going to send Dom or Ryan “proof” that I found the beach idol. Hopefully Maria or Hanne haven’t found it yet. I’m pissed that Ryan played cookies on Jessie and me because one of us would’ve won immunity and we would have been able to play the idol on the other person. Dom and Ryan aren’t making sense right now. I am NOT going home at f6 so…..I will play it safe and use the idol tbh. I’m voting Maria tonight because I promised Hanne I’d go as far as possible with her and also Maria is probably a bigger threat to my game at the moment. I’m not betraying Hanne before I vote out the one person who is least part of my alliance. I’m assuming that Maria or Jessie are going home tonight. I’ll be really sad if it’s Jessie. </3 My baeship Hanne said “You don’t have to always follow Dom/Jessie/Ryan” but in reality I’m not following them. I have had a part in deciding all of the votes since Lachie other than Michelle and Szymon. I didn’t follow them to vote Szymon…..it was the smart choice. Jessie and I had equal parts if anything. I know that Hanne is just trying to stay though which I don’t blame her for. She knows I am her best chance because I have tried to protect her since tribe swap. And I truly do like the kid (sorry for calling you kid but you’re 8 years younger than me). I like Maria too, don’t get me wrong. She’s super sweet and a good player. Hanne is also a good player. That’s why I don’t want to go to the end with them. But anyway Hanne knows I trust her more and Maria hasn’t talked to me like at all about game. Plus Ryan says Dom has a f3 with her/Hanne and Dom says Ryan has a f3 with her. The common factor is Maria. It’s kind of interesting to hear from Szymon and Hanne that I’m not a threat because I heard I am so much from Candace, Daniel, Szymon, and Gerda. Anyway I think I might have a good chance at FTC if it’s Dom, Ryan, and me. That’s not to say they don’t have good games but I have made a lot of moves and Jessie has said before she would vote for whoever voted out the most people on jury. Simon has said the same thing and Cody said he wouldn’t vote bitterly. Anyway I need to win the next reward and immunity. Definitely reward so I can go back to my home and find another idol hopefully. If not, RIP me because I kind of suck at immunity challenges. Gotta give myself the chance of becoming another 4th place flop!

MARIA

they’re voting for me tonight:((((( so if ryan doesn’t actually have the idol or he doesn’t play it on me then rip me:((((((((((((( but honestly i miss the people on jury so much they’re so much better than everyone in the game minus hanne!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MARIA

[2015-01-27, 3:50:34 PM] Ryphine: say something incriminating that you’re voting for jen so i can quote it [2015-01-27, 3:51:10 PM] 2015 maria: well me and hanne are putting our two votes on jen [2015-01-27, 3:51:50 PM] Ryphine: i don’t know why i laughed so hard

i want my oscar

MARIA

how i feel 100% of the time in this game

MARIA

ryan is my glimmer of hope with red hair and furry boots

MARIA

[2015-01-27, 8:04:11 PM] Dom Literal Sheep Reichenbach: laughs nervously [2015-01-27, 8:04:21 PM] 2015 maria: what do u have to be nervous about dom :O

if i get voted out tonight i’ll at least be grateful not to have to hear dom and jen talk about being nervous all the dang time!!!!!!!

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Confessionals: Episode 13

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JEN I’m SO glad Jessie didn’t go home. I spent hours and hours trying to get her to play her idol because I knew something was brewing. The “opposition” lol knows that Ryan, Dom, Jessie, and I have been to reward a lot so we have a good chance of having an idol. Logically, we would have used the idol on Dom or me because of how paranoid I am or how big of a target Dom is becoming. So…..I read into it and deciphered the truth teas.

anyway my bet was on making sure that the opposition was voting Jessie (because I already knew they were pretty much) by saying how scared I was to be voted out and also by saying that I’d vote Dom. I knew Candace and Simon weren’t loyal but we needed to play an idol on the correct person.  So I tried my best to play it off like Dom and I are in grave danger. Maybe it’s manipulating the vote onto Jessie but it wasn’t to put her in danger I swear to BaJeesus. I just knew she was going to get votes and wanted to be sure we make the correct move at the correct time. (I never said her name once,I was just ensuring an inevitability tbh SAVE JESSIE 2K15 BRIGADE AGO.) I finally decided to throw a random vote on Simon because Szymon and Jessie both had idols and if they both played…..   I am shocked it worked. It worked 100% according to plan. wow. Basically I put a random vote in because: It didn’t really matter what I voted because Simon and Candace are not going to vote differently from one another. So it would have ended up being 5-4 (Jessie goes home) or 6-3 (Szymon goes home).   I was 100% sure it would be 5-4 against us so I wanted to come up with a plan (a backup plan within a backup plan). I would make it 5-3-1 (if CS voted Szymon and no idol played), 0-1-0  (if both Jessie and Szymon plan an idol). Basically our only shot was if Candace or Simon actually did want to work with us but they told Hanne the truth so I was like YEP THEY ARE NOT WITH US JESSIE PLAY YOUR IDOL PLAY IT NOW LOL.  Our best shot was for her to use her idol but odds were , Szymon would use his too because he was in danger and he isn’t going to risk it. I suggested my plan to Jessie. I voted Simon.  and then the rest is history.  Sorry Simon, but I’m glad you at least appreciate the gameplay of this tribal. It was a strategic move to save the minority. I’m glad I chose Simon too (again, sorry) because he has a good social and strategic game. He also is very very against me going far in the game. There is no way we could work together in the game so it’s better for me that he is on jury and not here trying to vote me out every time. anyway I hope I don’t have to go soon. I like talking to these people and it’d suck to wait until the end of the game. Also, I want to apologize to Ryan because at the end of the game you’re going to see that I knew more than I told you. I trust you a lot and I like you as a friend. I’d be happy to go to the end with you. <3  You are the most honest, loyal person in this game and you are nobody’s flying monkey. Don’t let anyone say that loyalty is a bad quality. I hope you can forgive me. I’m doing my best to keep you safe until the very end, I promise.  I will not write your name down at a tribal.

RYAN i’m pretty buzzed right now. i’ve learned to be a light weight. i work 13 hours tomorrow and won’t be able to compete. so i have to compete right now. buzzed. thank you based god.

CANDACE I’m fully prepared to go to rocks, I don’t give a RAT’S ASS. Suddenly everyone is like OMG Candace, let’s keep Dongyin strong it’s time to vote out the Nangans like kiss my ass I’d rather my fate be decided by a damn rock than have to sit there and offer myself over to you so I can get picked off. How stupid would I be to vote off my side of the 4-4 tie, then vote the rest off and not think I’d just go after them? UM? I just hope my side isn’t that dumb. But sure I’ll feed into it saying sure, maybe. As far as I know they won’t put me down for the tie, it’s Szymon. I think Jen has the idol because Ryan went out of his way to tell me she doesn’t to possibly get me to vote for her and they idol her. No thanks. I think we’ll vote Jessie again then, since she’s annoying. So yes I will go to rocks. Fingers crossed the other side goes. Our numbers in rocks will most likely be 2-3, so cool. I’m almost hoping I do so I can stop stressing and worrying over this ridiculous game. #OverIt

SZYMON

Well.. It was devastating to see Simon to go home, but at least i’m still here and i had a good thought to play it on myself, after fighting all day with myself. I had a feeling that Hanne and Maria were in danger as much as i was.

Anyway, game needs to move on. And auction went worse possible for me, but last thing i can and want to do is to give up at this point (even if this might be my last confessional in this game) At this point its a clear division. 4vs4. It’s obvious that no one would flip from their side or hardly ever, i even tried to talk with Dom and Jen but i know they won’t vote Ryan, they would just play idol on him instead. It sucks because there is bigger possibility that someone from our side would flip on us. But its not gonna be me, i love Candace, Hanne and Maria and want to stay loyal i don’t see a reason for me to flip now. I guess i’m gonna be targeted (Jessie for sure is already targetting me) but i hope that Jen will have my back as i have hers for entire merge keeping target away from her. But we don’t even know who will our side vote.. It sucks to be us at this point… Oh well

HANNE

tbh i never thought i would get to make 11 confessionals i thought i would be gone by now but i won immunity im screaming!!!!!!

MARIA

welllll if all goes well this vote will end up being 4 vs. 4 and either one of the other 4 will flip (maybe jen?) or we’ll go to rocks. candace, hanne, szymon and i are voting jessie and the others said they’re voting szymon apparently. tbh i’m kinda nervous bc nobody’s really been talking to me??? typical though they don’t rly ever waste their time trying to do that

MARIA

Um... please just rock me out i’ve been asking to just keep my never being voted out record all season

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Confessionals: Episode 12

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JESSIE

CANDACE

TITLE IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I’M SO RELIEVED AND SHOCKED I PULLED THIS OFFFF. I THINK THIS MIGHT BE MY FIRST POSITIVE CONFESSIONAL IN WEEKS. OK, so let me explain EVERYTHING. It all started when I attacked Hanne in tribe chat. Bad move I know, but right after I ended up making an alliance with her by apologizing and explaining how much we needed each other in the game. She agreed and we ended up creating one with Simon, Maria, Hanne, Szymon and myself. So we all decided on Ryan, until he won Immunity, and then the target shifted to Michelle. Michelle was not my idea, but I figured if they were voting with me let them feel they control the vote. It would make them want to vote with me even more. I would have just done Jen. So that was my plan from that moment until tribal. On the sidelines though, Dom had wanted to blinside Szymon. Get this, Dom GIVES the idol to the person he wanted to blindside. He literally gave it to him and told him, ‘Use it on Candace’ because the majority of Jen/Jessie/Ryan/Michelle/Dom + they thought they had old Nangan numbers were splitting the votes to get me out. HA, nice try. But now Dom gave his idol to Szymon, so we have turned a 5 v 5 into a 5 v 4 with majority and Dom’s idol. Everyone counted me out, but suddenly I’m in power. I’m not getting cocky because I know how easily they flipped to me, they’ll flip against me. Jen & Jessie’s biggest downfall is going to be counting me out. They thought I gave up, was done, and I stopped trying. Instead of using me to their advantage, they ignored me and let someone else swoop me up and put them at a disadvantage. How stupid can you be? They didn’t even try to get me on their side or lie to me, not even a daily hello. I wasn’t worth their time then, well they sure as hell aren’t getting any favors from me unless I need something from them. So a big FUCK YOU to all the people who ignored me and counted me out, I’m still here and still fighting.

MARIA

the nangan 3 is honestly the most iconic alliance there has ever been and there will ever be! I CANNOT BELIEVEEEEEEEE WE PULLED THIS OFF AND WE NOW HAVE THE IDOL ON OUR SIDE LIKE???? WE CAME INTO MERGE BEING 3/12 OR WHATEVER AND LIKE I’M SCREEAAAMINGGGGGGGGGGGGG

JEN

:’( :’(  :’(  :’(   </3 </3 </3 1. Michelle is out. I love Michelle, she is so sweet and we have been together since the beginning. It’s awful. 2. Hanne and Szymon betrayed me. Tbh Hanne betraying me hurts more than any betrayal I’ve ever had in a game, probably because she is like my sister. yeah probably the worst part of this blindside. I get that it was a good strategic move for them. but it sucks. I’m mad, I’m sad, I’m just overall done. I’m having a hard time with not just laying on the ground and giving up. This entire game has been an uphill battle. I’m so tired. People have been stabbing at me constantly and now some of my closest allies have turned on me. Jessie is holding me together right now. I don’t do well when people break trust or loyalty. signed, a very sad Jen

SZYMON

So, here we are, final 9. Im so glad that our plan worked, and if i have to say that i regret something of it, its nothing. Now my only problem is idol, becuase before the tribal results i had to reveal about it to Hanne, Maria, Simon and Candace, in case if Dom would tell them right after the TC results (which he obviously did) My plan now is to target Dom/Jessie for next 2 tribals. Those are two people who would be willing to work to get Candace or Simon to flip aganist us. While Ryan and Jen vs Candace and Simon hate each other. In this way we can keep nangan 3 strong until we have numbers. We all agreed (currently core alliance of nangan 3 and Candy and Simon) to keep us 5 strong till the end, and blindside hanne and maria at 5/4 but i told them for now just in case to make sure they woudnt flip on us. So in a perfect scenario this 5 makes all to the final 5, or with Jen who i really trust and don’t want just to ditch, however i know how dangerous she can be

HANNE

JEN

cries I’m really hurt by Hanne betraying me… rip   after this whole thing I don’t have the energy to do reward. idec throws in the towel

RYAN

I MISS MICHELLE AND CANDACE IS SUCH A BITCH. Like we get screwed over but do you hear us screaming “MARIA YOU’RE A GOAT YOUR UP SOMEONES ASS” and posting shady pictures in the tag? No you don’t! But you post a smiley face after results like you drive me crazy I’m gonna shave her damn hair off.

JEN

1. I take back my confessional on who I want to vote out etc.   2. This is live footage of me when Candace, Simon, and Daniel have been mean lately. (in the tribe chat, in PMs, on the tag, in viewing lounges)   Enjoy

JEN

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DOM GAVE HIS IDOL TO SZYMON I’M DYING I’M LITERALLY DYING so this vote is going to either go Jessie or me. I’m almost 100% certain. So we need to use Jessie’s idol correctly. I want to vote Szymon out so we can flush the exile idol in the process. I’m so ugh     Kill me

CANDACE

Michelle left, plan successful. This week I have to pull of another one of my plans. It seems like this is becoming a habit. No one is smart enough it feels to make plans, so here I am every week with an awesome plan. This week’s : Get Dom to believe Szymon is leading a vote against him (he’s not), Tell Dom we’ll vote with him (we’re not), Us 5 vote out someone discreetly (we are). This week’s target, Jessie. So instead of ranting about plans and schemes, even though I’d like to point out everyone is talking to me again now that I’ve set myself in a position of power, I’d like to write a letter to Jessie. Dear Jessie, I trusted you the most out of everyone outside of my Daniel/Cody alliance. More than Simon. When we made it to the swap and us 4 were all alone and you and I made the plan of butt saving of a lifetime, I honestly felt a bond. And then you lied to me, ignored me, voted off my allies, and prepared to vote me out. Now look where it’s gotten you. Instead of using someone who actually trusted you, you kicked them while they were down. So instead of counting people out, I really think you should rethink how you play this game. I was still willing to vote with you even AFTER you blindsided Daniel. I came to you when YOU should have came to me. And now this week when you need me you suddenly try to be friendly. How convenient. It will honestly feel really good knowing you’re the one going before me. So as they say in New Zealand, seeya!

CANDACE

Disregard my last confessional. My plan just flopped because Jen is a bitch.

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Confessionals: Episode 11

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JESSIE

This confessional brought to you by: Jessie's ranting in the staffroom about her alliance mates and Jakemin won't get off her dick about confessionals Okay so I love everyone I'm aligned with they're all great people but half of them are fucking imbeciles This should have been the easiest vote out in the world but NOOOOO, everybody knows final eleven is a great time to flip on your allies and make a big move. Because that couldn't possibly not blow up in our faces, right? Hi Jessie, it's Dom, btw I know we were just talking about how Candace Cody and Simon are trying to claw their way back into majority and save their butts by throwing you, me, and everyone we know under the bus, so guess what I did? I went to them about voting out Ryan! Also I took the liberty to implicate you in this shit! Xoxo  Dom the strategic goddess

So now mastermind Cody is in hothead Ryan's ear about turning on Dom or like... szymon? Idk where the fuck that came from But can all the goats stop targeting each other? Its giving me a migraine. But yeah nah after all this Ryan went ahead and voted for Cody early, thereby sealing the voting strategy of his entire alliance so Rip us Honestly at this stage I'm tempted to just go to the end with Jen instead of like Dom and szymon and let her beat me unanimously cos at least she can like... rattle off the definition of a majority, which is more than I can say for some of these lovely people If I go today bc of the idiot squads actions imma throw myself off a cliff And if this all works out fine, I'm going to make Dom and Ryan get me and Jen to sign permission slips before they try anything.

MARIA

we just voted out cody which i feel realllyyyy really bad about… :( he was really nice to me and i wish i would’ve messaged him before the vote and told him but i forgot and i was gonna message him after but then i remembered i can’t bc he’s at ponderosa rip cody if ur reading this i’m really sorry :( i did it to help szymon candace is freaking out in the main chat and tbh i’m screaming bc she’s yelling @ everyone to talk and she literally summarized hanne and i’s games perfectly: [2015-01-08, 9:00:51 PM] Candace: I’d like to hear from Maria and Hanne [2015-01-08, 9:00:56 PM] Candace: Or are they not talking like usual?

RYAN

I have school, two jobs, and a medical condition to worry about. You think I have time to worry about people coming after me about my character? Because I didn’t backstab my best friend? Because I didn’t allign with the people who keep writing down my name? Because the biggest lie I’ve told so far is to Daniel about voting for Syzmon. I straight up told Syzmon everything when he confronted me. I straight up told everyone the truth if they had questions. If I make it to the end I’m going with Jen. I’m not her dog I’m her friend. She was labelled as threatening for no good reason. Why am i being targetted and not her? Why am I labeled the toilet paper? Candace has been up so many peoples asses she’s running out of asses to hide in.

JEN

wow things went crazy in the tribe chat last night…..  Candace started calling people names and attacked everyone AGAIN. There is no excuse for calling Ryan an “ass licker” or saying he is stuck up my ass. Calling him Charmin? Low blow. Ryan is his own person and yeah he is really loyal to me but he isn’t my flying monkey or whatever they were saying. It pisses me off. She called out Jessie, Dom, Michelle, Hanne, and Maria. I don’t understand why she is being so mean. I understand that she is angry but UGH. and they kept attacking me too. I DID NOT TALK TO THEM ABOUT THE VOTE AND I AM NOT A SCHEMING BITCH LIKE THEY SAY I AM I DID NOT LIE TO THEM about this vote. I haven’t even talked to Candace in weeks. I’m just sick of the drama. If I wasn’t in this game I would’ve gone off on Candace for being mean to my friends. I will not allow a villain to win this game.

MICHELLE

i’m CRAUGHING so hard over this tribal. like i’m on my way home from work and reading this damn long drama in the tribe chat. and i’m smiling and feeling crap all by myself staring outside the window.

i present to you the epic fail that happened less than two hours before tribal:

[09-Jan-15 09:25:15] michelle lopez: jen insists szymon voted for cody [09-Jan-15 09:25:21] michelle lopez: are you sure szymon is down with this [09-Jan-15 09:26:14] michelle lopez: i asked him a while ago he wants to go cody than ryan [09-Jan-15 09:26:20] michelle lopez: now he’s sleeping [09-Jan-15 09:26:21] michelle lopez: ahhh [09-Jan-15 09:32:29] Dom o-o: Ok ok did you vote already [09-Jan-15 09:33:01] Dom o-o: Because szymon freaked out at me and I can’t get ahold of him [09-Jan-15 09:33:04] Dom o-o: He voted cody [09-Jan-15 09:33:10] Dom o-o: Shit what do we do [09-Jan-15 09:33:53] Dom o-o: Michelle [09-Jan-15 09:34:02] Dom o-o: Help meeee lol [09-Jan-15 09:34:46] michelle lopez: he voted cody? [09-Jan-15 09:34:53] michelle lopez: OMFGGGG [09-Jan-15 09:35:01] Dom o-o: Yeah he freaked out at me

[09-Jan-15 09:36:24] Dom o-o: That’s all he said to me now he’s not responding frick [09-Jan-15 09:37:02] michelle lopez: god damnnn [09-Jan-15 09:37:37] Dom o-o: So now what do we just drop the whole blindside and vote cody?? [09-Jan-15 09:40:01] michelle lopez: people at the other side will be sooo maddd as hell [09-Jan-15 09:40:30] Dom o-o: Lmao we will have such a bitter jury [09-Jan-15 09:40:51] Dom o-o: This is terrible thanks szymon -.-‘ [09-Jan-15 09:41:41] michelle lopez: rip

my thoughts just went up to beer heaven but my body is burning in hell’s kitchen. i want to punch cody, szymon, dom and myself in that order. i did ask szymon who would he rather vote and he wanted cody out so bad. i promised him we can get cody next round. like i already plotted to vote dom next but dom will play his idol so that the counter vote aka cody/candace whoever doesn’t have the idol will be a legit count. but holy crap for real. it was a damn good plan. voting for szymon was a damn perfect plan as well, i had ryan and cody/candace in my bootlist. see, i want to vote ryan out because he is a challenge threat. so is szymon. but jen won’t vote either of them. what the hell right? and now, ryan is grateful that he trusted me because of all this mess. it’ll be so frickin’ hard to vote for him now.

DOM

rip forest fire cody so I figured I would make a confessional considering that’s the only thing I can do in this game besides trying to make big moves and flopping into the next century. SO I spent the whole break casually bringing up the idea that I wanted Ryan gone, to various people. The only people who even considered it were szymon and michelle. So I thought hey I have majority right? Because I have 6-5 me candace cody Simon szymon and michelle, rifht? WELP. Cody exposed a lot of my game that whole week and I’m sure you are going to read about it but I just want to say right now, I’m sorry cody. When I said I wanted to be final 3 with you I really meant it I thought it would be so fun. Now that that is out of the way, I would also like to explain what happened this vote. Szymon flipped. Szymon flipped and then went to bed and left me screwed. Like literally he killed my game lmao all because he didn’t trust cody. But like, nobody trusted cody we all knew that but we could have gotten into a much better position with Ryan gone. Oh well, it’s a new leaf, a new tribal, and a new rediculous game move for me to come up with! :~) So ready? Remember when I gave szymon an idol? Well now I’m gonna have him use it on candace because Ryan said he’s definitely voting candace, I will convince everyone else in my alliance to vote candace too and after he plays the idol on Candace I’m gonna vote him out lmaoooooo if this works I will be so hated but it will be the best move I have ever made wish me luck and nothing happens like it did last time lol rip meeee

RYAN

Saying I'm confrontational is an understatement.

SZYMON

So last tribe i think i was the swing vote.. I could either go with CSC, Dom and Michelle to blindside Ryan or to get Jen to vote out the person who i really didn’t want to play with anymore, aka. Cody. They might not seen how dangerous he is, but since first time i talked to him i knew hes gonna be sneaky. And he’s in this game like a very silent killer. He’s never part of drama and talks to people nicely on PMs. Im so glad he’s gone. If he was still here it would only benefit his way to get control over the game. Now, there is only Simon and Candace in minority. But i dont want them to leave now. I don’t feel like to have any connection with Ryan. So to change the game, i really need him out. I really like him as a person, but he take it too personally and cause a lot of drama. Plus Jen/Jessie would just use him as goat. He would be perfect person to take to the end, but only for favor of people that he works with. I know that people might understimate me, because im youngest boy in this merged tribe. I still have lot to do. Right not my main priority is to all of nangan 3. Then to keep safe Dom, Jen, Simon and Candace. I liked her since first time we talked, i really dont have any plans aganist her

JEN

OMG I am like wut. Right now Szymon has said he would be ok with voting for Ryan. Ryan has said he wants to vote out Dom and Szymon. Michellle has talked about voting out Ryan, Szymon, and Hanne. This whole time I’m like NO STOP PEOPLE. And I’m over here trying to protect each and every one of them…. I’m trying hard to clean up this mess. And to dodge bullets while also keeping bullets away from my allies. I swear I probably am hurting myself by protecting them but whatever. I can’t in good faith turn on them right now. Dom and I joked about how we have adopted 3 children. Because Jessie talks to Maria , Dom talks to szymon, and I talk to Hanne. I also talk to szymon so I’m like a second parent haha. I’m trying to protect my allies but everyone is turning against each other. Gosh Jen Such evil So bitch Much fake That wicked witch damn

CANDACE

Cody is gone. I’m the last the person from my dear sweet friends that I’ve joined with. Bragging rights yes, but still annoying and pretty much the end of my game. I blew up… again! I just can’t with these people they’re like Candace is so mean, yet they don’t talk to me and went out of their ways to insult and wish death upon Daniel. I’m tired of talking in the tribe chat but it’s funny to shade them especially when Jen talks about dogs all day. Puppy this, puppy that! I’m not even kidding she is literally obsessed. Ryan is WHACK he wants to fight now but he was on muzzle mode since day 1. Jen must have loosened the dog leash a bit because he suddenly has a mind of his own. Shocker! Michelle and Dom are either wanting to flip to me, or just stroking my ego for jury votes. I’m not voting for either of them anyways so it’s whatever. They said if we can keep Szymon with us then we can all vote Ryan out, good luck with that one. I’ve voted Ryan twice now and this third time better work. I’m not even sure it will but it’s funny just voting him because he’s a little bitch. Talking with Michelle is so straining on my brain. This is how a conversation with her goes : Me : Michelle! How are you? Mich : Haha good me too! Me : OK, so do you think we can work together? Mich : Haha yes I would like that! Me too! Me : Alright… So you guys are ok with Ryan? Mich : Haha yes! Me too! Me : .. Thanks Michelle, it was nice talking to you. Mich : Haha yes! Me too. Jessie, Maria, Hanne or dumb, dumber, and dumbest we’ll refer to them as, don’t talk to me. I mean I’m not complaining, but I’m just wondering why they think they are so secure. Maria was so willing to work with me, but as soon as I am public enemy she wants to sheep the majority alliance. We all know they’re going to cut the bitch loose once I’m gone, I’m just ready when she makes jury so I can laugh in her dumb face. I’m tired of being the bitter witch, I’m just so tired and exhausted with everyone. Final note the Immunity challenge was posted, it’s the honesty one. They’re such cry babies, ‘OMG I love you all I can’t be mean I won’t put any of your name’s down!’. LIKE, really? I could suspect this from Maria and Hanne since they’re childish and stupid, but Jen & Michelle in their 20s? You’re both older than me act your age not your IQ. I’d be happy to put down Jen for every negative category and MYSELF for every positive one, but I’ll be strategic since I’m positive they will jump me and put me in every bad vote so I’m voting myself and hopefully I’ll win. Updates later, I’m going to shade Jen some more tonight in public chat. Besos!

JEN

I don’t usually talk much strategy in confessionals. but right now, I want to go to the f3 with Michelle and Ryan. I don’t want to vote out Jessie who I’ve been with since day 1 but I know she would win against me.. and also I am like 100% sure she is going to try to vote me out. That’s not to say that Ryan or Michelle wouldn’t win either. but I feel like Jessie has been the most strategic through the game of anyone. 

My …. preferred boot list is unclear but I definitely want Candace and Simon to go in the next couple tribals. Just because they’re making the game unpleasant and I know they’d have a good shot of getting Daniel and Cody’s jury votes. As much as I hate to say it, I would want to vote out Szymon (or Maria? but probably Szymon) after Candace and Simon. This is because Szymon is really really good at flash games, has a good social game, and has been in the minority since merge. Then I’d want to go Maria because she doesn’t really talk to me much and I worry she will go against me. After that, I’d want to vote for Dom probably :( :( because he is soooo well-liked and he can sometimes be really good at games as well. Dom is so sweet and people don’t think he is a witch lmao. Then I’d want to go for Hanne or Jessie? I mean idk out of those 2. I guess it would depend who I think is better at games. I heart both of them so much omg it sucks to even think about voting for Jessie or Dom or Hanne. :’( Or Szymon or Maria gosh. Anyway I want to be at f3 with Michelle and Ryan. I might not even make it at all but that’s ok. RIP me I hope I don’t get backstabbed soon.

MICHELLE

[09-Jan-15 14:33:56] Dom o-o: If we can make szymon think we are still with him hmmmm idk ugh [09-Jan-15 14:36:43] michelle lopez: i think i don’t want to talk to him rn if we’re gonna vote for him the next round.

[10-Jan-15 01:08:23] Dom o-o: So Ryan very much hates me lmao [10-Jan-15 01:08:39] michelle lopez: did you talk to him? [10-Jan-15 01:08:50] Dom o-o: Yeah or i tried to lol [10-Jan-15 01:08:58] michelle lopez: aaand? [10-Jan-15 01:09:17] Dom o-o: And he shut me down so so bad lmaoooo

so i actually talked to szymon and he’s going for ryan, so does candace and cody. it’s basically the same group that flopped last round. it’s awkward. i actually kinda hate this group. candace is a self-proclaimed sitting queen duck. szymon messed-up last round and still a challenge beast.

and dom did this……

[10-Jan-15 22:11:20] Dom o-o: Hey so I have a question for your eyes only : > [10-Jan-15 22:11:27] michelle lopez: lol what [10-Jan-15 22:14:03] Dom o-o: Would you be cool voting out szymon this round? Lol [10-Jan-15 22:14:39] michelle lopez: HAHA for real now?

what the hell, dom? please don’t mess this up. like you want to do this after we are cool now with szymon... i’m frickin’ trying to drift off with ryan so it’ll be less “emotional” for him. this is not easy. like i know dom is super friendly and would definitely win jury votes. i wouldn’t think too much to vote him out tbh. it will not ruin my deal with him because i specifically said we will not vote each other out at f4. bringing him to ftc might be a bad idea after all.

SIMON

Touchy Subjects

MARIA

*forgets ryan's in the game until i get to the last question of touchy subjects*

RYAN

Honestly like I was considering quitting before but once I find out what my best friends are saying about me I don’t think I can handle it, The worst thing anyone can call anyone is annoying. It makes them so self-conscious like they can’t speak and they can’t have an opinion. I would be so hurt if I won that category. If Candace wins it then I feel bad and I hope she’s strong enough to take it because I can’t.

CANDACE

19. Who do you hope to never talk to again? I just wanted to say how hard it was to answer this, because I couldn’t decide out of everyone who I most didn’t want to have a conversation with again. Too bad everyone wasn’t an option.

MARIA

not getting a touchy subjects attribute is furthering my purple kelly game this season!

MICHELLE

it’s my time to submit for an idol guess for TeamDorito (aka me jen ryan). but i don’t think i’m gonna tell the group who I guess anymore cos if i actually get that idol, it’d be stupid if i’m going to vote ryan anyways. like it’s hard for me to backstab. and simon keeps on telling how people are blinded with jen’s game. and how he’ll vote her if she gets to ftc. it’s kind of annoying.

CANDACE

SORRY if I have submitted too many but I’d rather talk to myself than these nut cases, but I wanted to put this out there it’s really hilarious. I mean I’m angry, but not angry. I get it was obviously coming but these people want to smile in my face and avoid me, yet when I am so openly talking to them in the tribe chat it’s fake and childish. And the fact that they all voted me for never wanting to talk to me again gives me GREAT pleasure. Like, thanks not like I was going to anyways! 11. Who is the most annoying? The correct answer is Candace 15. Who never shuts up? The correct answer is Candace. 16. Who has the strongest sense of entitlement? The correct answer is both Candace and Jen. 19. Who do you hope to never talk to again? The correct answer is Candace.

It infuriates me more that I have tried to talk to Maria and she is silent. Nothing. Not even a hello. Hanne as well. I know Jessie and Jen won’t give me the time of the day which is why I’m not even trying, but the two people who could benefit getting people on their side the most are playing sheep to Little Bo Peep (Jen) and won’t even muster a peep. Like damn you can at least give me the respect to entertain me. Everytime I see Hanne talk in tribe chat I am going to call her Bo Peep since she is as silent as a goldfish. I will NOT be voting for her. #LittleBoPeep #Hanne #Goldfish

MARIA

hanne and candace got into a fight in the tribe chat so rip hanne might not wanna flip anymore, but we need to so i’m talking to candace and trying to calm her down bc rn we have enough for 5 vs. 5 and if this ends up working out i am asking the hosts to rig it so i can keep my record and rock me out TBH!

RYAN

Candace is shit heaps crazy like I can’t wait for her to leave.

MARIA

WTF HOSTS/????? WE HAD OUR PLAN ALL SET UP TO VOTE RYAN AND TIE THE VOTE AND MICHELLE FLIPS AT REVOTE BC SHE SECRETLY WANTS RYAN OUT AND Y’ALL RUINED IT BYE

MICHELLE

ryan won immunity. the people i want to vote are winning immunity. maybe the tumblr survivor gods are saying i shouldn’t flip right now. with that said, i’m convinced i’ll be writing candace’s name whether we split or go straight. if there’s an idol, we can slip simon’s name. whether we split or vote straight, the idol will be flushed. candace never shuts up tbh and it’s kinda annoying how she is starting the drama. I’m seriously done with her. simon, on the other hand, thinks i’m still part of their alliance. this ain’t our deal, bro. i was just there to vote ryan but he won immunity, so you guys are on your own. simon, also, never shuts up. it’s annoying how he’s preaching about jen. dom is probably talking to everybody right now campaigning against szymon, which i don’t want at this point tbh. i have far more interesting things planned for these people in the next few rounds. hopefully people will go with candace as a vote. i am more confident of voting ryan now tbh. i know jen is protecting ryan saying even jessie is a threat. you two need to separate

SZYMON

So last tribal didnt go how Dom wanted, because he wanted obv Ryan to go, but i told him that i was going to vote Cody so he and Michelle all voted with majority I gave him good reasons and didnt lie, so Im so glad that Cody is out, i wasn’t going to hand him control over my fate in this game. Things are getting really crazy now.. If i think that every tribal so far had a effect of huge drama, this one might cause biggest effect of drama yet. Nangan 3 are here and ready to make a move. We talked to Simon and Candice about to vote together, when the our original alliance wants to split votes between Simon and Candice in case of some idol pooping out. Then have no idea where the idol is right now.. Anyway, on other side there is Dom, who thinks that he’s going to mastermind this tribal. I love this guy but he tends to overplay his moves. He wants to vote for Jessie, and he thinks he have C/S, Michelle and ME to vote with him. But i already warned C/S before Dom would ever do, and no one but Nangan 3 and C/S knows about the plan so we should be probably good (but you never know, its survivor). Im sad its Michelle, i genuitly like her. I think shes a very nice person and its not gonna be just a easy vote for me. However i do what i need to do for the best of my game and my allies. When i wake up i think that i will have made pissed many people.

HANNE

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Confessionals: Episode 10

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CODY

They blindsided me completely. It’s alright. I’m down right now, but not out. I can’t give up. I won’t give up. I want this SO BAD and I’m not gonna end it all here. There’s gonna be a way through this. All the hatred and animosity to Daniel was a little much, but I guess I can say I’m in the worse spot imaginable.

RYAN

I learned too much too late. I didn’t go home at tribal and Daniel went like I wanted. But the price was for everyone to call me the goat. I’m the goat who didn’t flip and therefore wasn’t the one to go home at tribal. They think Jenn is running the game and I hate that. I made the decision to vote out Daniel and I was most active in our alliance skype group convo but everyones calling me a goat. And if the people who I help send go to the jury they’ll just see me as a goat and never vote for me to win. I’m here to win, so I might have to flip on the majority alliance who are also my best friends in this game. I learned that come before the swap if we went to tribal that Jenn and Michelle were gonna vote me out. And I just got lucky. I believe I’ve made my own luck and my own choices but it’s the same choices others want and I’m being seen as a goat. So what am I to do? I feel so stuck and helpless now in this game.

JEN

ok this game is getting ridiculous. I’m so sick of it. I have never been mean to any of them but they constantly make it seem like I’m the evil witch of the west. I CAN’T I have a lot in my mind but it’s too much. I am not a mean person and Simon just accused me of saying “go die” to Daniel. There is no way I would EVER say that to ANYONE. I AM SO DONE WITH THESE PEOPLE …………… GOODBYE Here are the thoughts of the evil witch of the west:   Maria is a sweetheart.  Hanne is SUPER sweet and I enjoy talking to her. Cat ladies 4 the win. Dom is hilarious and a good guy. Michelle is awesome sauce. Ryan is a nice guy and loyal/honest. I enjoy being on his side. Szymon is also a really cool guy. Jessie is my bae and I love the crap out of her.   *legally changes name to Elphaba* I’m too evil for this world. Goodbye

DOM

Ok so just a heads up I would like to explain one thing: when I started playing this game I decided to use the strategy I would use in the real game just to see how far I would get. From the start my plan was to align with returning players for two reasons, one, because I knew they would be good at finding idols, and for two, if I made any moves, people would assume the returnees are making them, allowing me to make whatever moves and have them get the backlash. Lucky for me all the returnees on the Dongyin tribe were really cool people, and I am so glad I established a connection with them. So by the time of the tribe swap, I had a final 3 with jessie and jen we called ourselves the idol hunters, and a final 2 on the side with both jen and Michelle. Later this turned into an alliance of four called the comedy troupe alliance. When I swapped to nangan I knew we were in the bottom so candace and jessie got maria to flip and “blindsided” grace. During this time I got close to szymon, in fact, he ended up becoming one of my closest allies and he said he would vote with me from there on out. I think grace was his biggest ally, so when we got her out and I was still nice I got to be alliances with him. Once we got to the merge I knew I wanted him on my side, and I was hoping to get the comedy troupe back together too. Jen and Michelle had hanne and Ryan, and me and jessie had maria and szymon. This made a huge alliance of 8. I didn’t want 8, I thought it was too risky and would have preferred 7 but that’s how it goes. Surprisingly everyone voted together and we got daniel out. The only problem is candace exploded lol. She blew up the tribe chat exposing my game and how I have the idol and such and such. So here we are currently. I have made it this far playing my strategy, and I’m sure if I kept it up I could probably get to the end. But I think that would make for a kinda boring season… So I decided to switch things up a little :~) my plan from here on out is to blindside just about everyone I can lol, starting with Ryan. I don’t think anyone wants to take me to the end, and that’s ok, but I think I can get at least szymon to the end so here’s the plan: I gave szymon my idol : > with the idol in his possession he can use it when he is in trouble, and everyone still thinks I have it, meaning people will at least split votes to try to get me out, and I’m gonna bank on that to push for some fun blindsides. I want to get out Ryan first, because I know jen would take him to the end and win, also he’s very panicky and plays straight up Keith style which is bad for my game. So im gonna try to take cody and szymon to the end lol, and I’m hoping I can get jessie and Michelle on board with getting Ryan out bc it would make for a very fun season : > here’s to switching things up! :»>

JEN

With how much everyone is going against me, I am doubting that I’ll make it very far but I’m not going to give up. If I do make it to the FTC then I guess I will have a good plea for my case. That there was an army against me but I still lived. I hope I can still live for a while. If I don’t make FTC, I want one of my allies to win. I’d be happy with anyone who is a good person winning. Ryan is very loyal and I’ve lied to him and I feel awful about that. He deserves to go far.   Jessie is my bae-mate and I totally want her to make it far. I don’t think I would win against her in a ftc tbh. Michelle is amazing, Dom is a sweetheart, Hanne is so awesome. IDK I just don’t want bullies to win. I would prefer if me or one of my allies wins. You better bet I’d stand behind them in jury if that’s where I end up. Especially Jessie tbh. She is really smart and her gameplay is very good in my opinion. She also has a good social game. I think she and I have overcome a lot of odds. She worked her way from minority to majority in Nangan. I’m also ok with the way I have played. I’ve played messily at times but I’m playing a more strategic game than I was in Tahiti (I had no strategy though). I also have more odds against me in this game. I don’t think I’d have such a big problem with CDC if Daniel didn’t make that move against me. Anyway this game is getting very dramatic which I don’t like. I’m scared about the upcoming tribals..

MICHELLE

i was srsly having legit difficulties with my wifi during the challenge up to the voting part and but then like it all went good literally after daniel got booted. ain’t that funny HAHAHA. anyways, candace went bezerk after the daniel vote. she told everyone we got a 5-people (me, jen, ryan, dom, jessie) alliance at the start of this game and even telling everyone dom has the idol. and simon was preaching all the way. i told candace i voted daniel just because he was lying to my face and not because i have an alliance. like there is no 5-people alliance to begin with. i would want szymon and ryan out before simon tbh. so simon needs to stfu and stay under the radar.

HANNE

JEN

[12/24/14 12:14:05 AM] Jen - Blue Wiggle: Crucible: a story of my life in Matsu [12/24/14 12:14:18 AM] Hanne: omf g [12/24/14 12:14:19 AM] Hanne: crying [12/24/14 12:14:23 AM] Jen - Blue Wiggle: same omfg [12/24/14 12:14:30 AM] Jen - Blue Wiggle: the Matsu witch trials RIP [12/24/14 12:14:45 AM] Hanne: omggg i will never look at that book the same again

Need I say more?

JEN

Thoughts of the evil witch of the west omg this game is way too intense. I have to say, I’m happy to have met some good friends from this game. I think Michelle, Ryan, Dom, Jessie, Hanne, Szymon will be my friends for quite a while. Maria too if she is around haha because she’s cool and nice. Plus apparently (according to Scoot), she is my daughter. Regarding my previous confessional where I talked about if we had to vote out Hanne, I would be the murderer of puppies and rainbows… I’m glad we didn’t and I hope she goes far with us (even though I know she isn’t in our main alliance and I would probably have to vote her out at some point if I’m still here). And yes I would 100% be the murderer of puppies and rainbows because she is literally SO sweet. We are basically twins with how much we both like Disney/cats/Orphan Black. After the game our twin ship name totally has to be Jenaynay. Please don’t vote me out though! :P I’m mad at CDC, Simon, and kind of Gerda (however Gerda and I are cool now) but oh well… I guess…Even if they obviously don’t like me on a game standpoint. I’ll eventually get over it unless they still hate me after the game. I’m excited for when the game starts back up. woot!  *falls over because I’m tired* Signed, Elphaba

MARIA

if i was smart and/or still in chief’s island, i would be using these 2 weeks off for holiday break to socialize with people and establish connections without the chance of messing up and not having enough time to fix my mistakes but instead i’m way too antisocial to actually talk to people?? like what happened since chief’s island lmao i had such a great social game and in both this season and maluku i’ve sucked (but ppl still thought my social game in maluku was ok/????? who r they) also i am the youngest person in this game now :OOOOOoooooo wowee!!

RYAN

I’m caught in an all out war between Simon and Jenn. Theatrically I could choose sides. But I rather be seen as a “goat” (I’m not) then be with Simon and his team because Simon’s being a grade A dick right now.

MARIA

is there a ryan in this game .>>.i..... apparently there is i wasn't aware..

JEN

It’s holiday break right now but in reality, I haven’t taken a break at all. I’ve been spending everyday strategizing on my own and with others. I’ve talked strategy (at least somewhat) with 7 contestants since the break started. I’ve kept up with as many people as possible. I know how important the social aspect of the game is. I’ve been going non-stop to keep my alliance above the water and I have no idea if it’s working. I hope I’m not making it worse which I may likely be doing. I enjoy getting to know everyone so I’m not “fake” like people think….I actually do care about the friends I’m making and I enjoy being around them. I legitimately want to know how they’re doing, what they like doing for fun, etc etc. Szymon Maria and Hanne are really cool and I will be sad if they vote against us but hey more than anything I’m glad to have met them. As far as strategy and social game, I think the only way I will have a chance in a FTC (not that I will make it, I’ll probably be voted out like next or something) is if I can work hard on my social game and strategy so that I can prove I’ve been in the game 100% the entire time. I mean regardless, I am giving it my all. My motto in these games has always been work hard, play as fair as possible, and never give up. I’m never giving up even if people continue to call me fake, manipulative, and whatever else they say. I know that these things aren’t true and that I’m not a fake/manipulative person. I’ve been loyal to my allies this whole game. I will never back down. I’m giving 110%. idc I’ll die trying (not literal death because whoa buddy that’s cray) and I swear to baJeezus that if I get voted out I am working as hard as I can to get my allies to win this game. Message to my haters from my man Elton: "I’m Still Standing" You could never know what it’s like Your blood like winter freezes just like ice And there’s a cold lonely light that shines from you You’ll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use And did you think this fool could never win Well look at me, I’m coming back again I got a taste of love in a simple way And if you need to know while I’m still standing you just fade away Don’t you know I’m still standing better than I ever did Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid I’m still standing after all this time Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind I’m still standing yeah yeah yeah I’m still standing yeah yeah yeah Once I never could hope to win You starting down the road leaving me again The threats you made were meant to cut me down And if our love was just a circus you’d be a clown by now

MARIA

me when i’m eventually voted out bc i don’t feel like socializing with anyone:

CODY

So as of now I am not sure where I am going. I have Dom telling me Ryan should go and Ryan saying he’s willing to flip to me. The thing is Ryan isn’t trying and if I side with Dom my best two allies follow Ryan out the door. I sure hope I’m not being deceived right now otherwise I am probably going home this round or after.

MARIA

cody and simon are trying really hard to get me on their side… and tbh i think it’s working… i really appreciate how they were there for me when all that stuff happened w/ phil a few days ago lol and i would gladly flip w/ them but that’s all just emotions and also i can’t bc my #1 is hanne and also i’m v close w/ szymon. also jen’s been really nice to me and jessie’s been nice too so i may as well stay on their side. i’ve hardly talked w/ dom lately or michelle at all though??? idk what to do man

SZYMON

SO GAME IS BACK ON The break was really necessary ily so much Baemin and Jake for letting us to breath. <3 Looks like right now the game is really crazy, even if after Daniel was voted out minority ain’t gonna give up. Simon and I are getting closer, and i love him so much as a brother, he’s genuitly amazing person but for now, i can’t promise him anything. it’s obvious that people are coming to Nangan 3 as the swing votes, but sooner or later they will see us as too big of threats.. So because of this, we need to keep in game people who will foreshadow our targets. In this case best people seems to be Simon & Jen, who are on two totally opposite sides, and they always seem to fight.

MARIA

two interesting things have happened pre-immunity results being posted tonight! 1. simon’s tryna talk to everyone and when he messaged me he was like “I also mentioned to Maria just there about how…” i»….. i am maria>………… ….interesting ..>…. okay.. .. 2. who is ryan? i honestly had no idea he was in this season until simon said ryan hates him. interesting

JEN

I’m so confused. I want everything to go smoothly but everything is a mess. I won’t be surprised if I go home. As evil as everyone thinks I am, I am really uncomfortable even considering voting out Hanne or Szymon right now (which has been suggested). Hanne and I have grown close, Szymon as well. I know that eventually I will have to vote for them but I want to get out the people I don’t trust as much first. It’s like impossible for me to morally go after my allies before necessary.

RYAN

My loyalties belong to Cody, Jenn, and Michelle. But Jenn and Cody are on opposite sides. Michelle’s doing her own thang like she seems so down to flip with me. But Jenn! Girl let’s get it popping like this game needs to start people need to cut some throats. My names out there, Cody Simon and Candace (dubbed CSC after the Cody Candace and Daniel alliance we called CDC) are free votes, if we don’t use them Dom could. My names out there again. IM TIRED OF IT. I want to vote with Michelle and Jenn and vote out Dom with CSC. I choose my own fate. I would have preferred Syzmon but wtf he won immunity. Hates him now. But Michelle might not like that we have to switch it up. We might have to play safe and vote for Simon and I can’t tell Cody that because then he’ll side with Dom and vote me out or maybe Michelle. This makes things complicated. ugh i need a drink

MICHELLE

michelle’s theoretical flop guide to ftc 1.) live up to your deals. 2.) stick to your one true alliance to the end. 3.) challenge beasts should be slayed given the opportunity. 4.) people on the outs are watching and when you know it, they have made it further. during the break simon has been talking around people about jen and god knows what else. i basically told simon shut his mouth and lay off the talking because that is making him a huge target. dom also had the idea of voting ryan out just to make people think the old dongyin people are not that close. sure. and just before the challenge results, ryan apparently knew he was being targeted by dom through cody.  szymon was being targeted just to see if dom will give the idol to him. i know dom would not do that for szymon. sure. jen, on the other hand, doesn’t want to believe that dom wants ryan out. she doesn’t want to vote szymon either. well that’s what you get when you talk and trust too many people. rip. i am so ready to put szymon’s name down. but wait he’s a damn challenge beast. and he frickin won immunity. back to the drawing board. ryan wants dom or simon out. dom wants ryan out. i should go with dom. jen, not me, should persuade ryan to go for simon or whoever. but i think this will cause some serious damage to jen and jessie. i think i might as well talk to them before they feel they’re left out.

JEN

I'm Smokey the Jenbear ugh. things are getting very #messy. I’m trying to put out forest fires and get things to calm down. These fires need to CHILL.

CODY

I’m sick of a lot of people in this game. I’m sick of Jessie not wanting to make moves. I’m sick of Jen’s constant fakeness. I’m sick of Dom being in one of the best spots. I’m sick of Hanne and Maria being the same person and sitting on their asses while they get to slide to the end. I’m sick of Michelle’s constant lies and her innocent facade she tries to pass off. I’m sick of Szymon’s jealousy of me since Day 1 and has always had it out for me even though he literally is such an idiot. Does he not know he is the reason Grace is gone? If he makes it to the end, he along with Jen will get no votes. I’m sick of Simon and Candace being so god damn awesome. That’s what I’m here for!

CANDACE

This is a bit overdue since I was screwed over weeks ago by Jen and her rag dolls, but I was in no mood to talk Survivor since I blew up on EVERYONE. Oh well, they’re literally annoying and Dusty is so gross he scooted his way into a season that didn’t even concern him and ruined any chances I had. Jessie is a bitch, I am kissing her ass like she kisses Jen’s just to smooth things over. The person I actually trust most is Dom surprisingly, he made this master plan to do Ryan again! This is the second time I’m voting him and I hope this time it works. Hanne & Maria or Thing 1 & Thing 2 I should say are literally stupid. They must not know they are going to go 3 versus 5 so let them think they’re hella smart and I’ll laugh my ass off from the jury when the bitches are picked off like flies. Szymon is so fake he kisses my ass and I’m just like Ha-Ha! But really he lied to me, and hasn’t even acknowledged it and I hope he is gone soon too. I want them all gone. The highlight of MY week was going to exile where I didn’t have to respond to those annoying orange notifications on my Skype from the losers on this tribe. The vote is either Simon or Ryan so I’m crossing my fingers and toes praying to God that Dom comes through and uses his brain. AND I HOPE WHEN THE SEASON IS OVER AND YOU’RE ALL READING THIS YOU WILL SEE HOW RIGHT I WAS, HOW WRONG YOU WERE, AND HOW IDIOTIC YOU LOOK. And to conclude this, JEN IS A BITCH. Instead of confronting drama she’d rather talk about dogs and puppies since the bitch practically runs a dog shelter here on Survivor and every person here are her pets. Woof woof!

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Confessionals: Episode 9

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MICHELLE

i feel it’s been a while since my last confessional. there’s just so much going on inside my head and before you know it you’ve made the merge.

but before merge, one quick flashback. jen and dom wants a f4 deal with me and jessie. agreed. dom and i made a deal at exile that if we both end up at f4, we will not write each other’s name down. agreed. i thought i can work with daniel but by the way things turned out and might turn out, i have to switch to simon. simon and i made a deal (just before that crazy automatic elimation challenge) that given we are on opposite sides of the alliance we will tell each other if our names has come up or has been thrown around and won’t write each others names down as well until f5. agreed. i don’t know where my deals would take me but i’m just glad the people involved didn’t fell for that automatic elimination crap. WE ALL MADE IT TO MERGE!!!! HAHAHAHA! i’m just so darn happy i made merge for the first time and at least i’d be part of the jury (unless jakemin comes up with yet another crazy crap). simon and dom better hold on to their promises because i don’t want to be brenda lowe’d. and then there’s ryan, who just proposed to make a f3 deal with me and jen. whaaat?? i didn’t confirm, i just told him we need numbers to make alliance. tbh he is a smart challenge beast which imo makes him very dangerous. once he target simon, i think it is only smart to boot him first. with gerda gone, and the geezers back, simon is left with candace and ryan. but my gut is telling me there’s something going on outside the geezers involving candace, daniel, and cody which could probably pull simon and/or hanne and/or maria to their side. but we have ryan on our side. idk now, let’s see where this is going.

DANIEL

Hello, Daniel hear (listen up). Ok, so I completely flopped on the Jen blindside. Not sure how she “had a feeling” to play her idol that she managed to grab out of her ass, but it happened. Lachie (who trusted me) left, and Gerda (who also trusted me) got out in the challenge competition… when she claimed that she was the “brawn”. That leaves Simon and I who attempted the Jen blindside going into the merge. GREAT! Thankfully my buds Candace and Cody are at merge, or I probably would have just given up now. Jessie is a wildcard, because right away I was informed about what she said about me to Jen. I had to do a bunch of damage control, so I guess that is where my acting skills needed to begin. :| I had to make up this lie about how Gerda emotionally manipulated me or something, and I guess Jessie believed me? To be honest, I don’t care if she believed me or not. If she is as close to Candace as she claims, then I know Candace can get her to trust me. The hardest part is definitely going to be this first vote. I would obviously want someone like a Ryan, Jen, or maybe even a Michelle gone? I like Michelle but she has a townhome in Jen’s community, and is next door neighbors with the “always pleasant” Ryan (whom, by the way, hates me. [Oh well!]). If I can get one of them out of this game, I will be Happy Daniel! I haven’t been too happy with my position in this game, so something like this can really change my destiny. Jessie told me that she sees what Jen is doing, and she also said the same thing to Simon. If I can get Candace (and her supposedly new sub-alliance with Maria/Szymon???) to come along for the party, I might be able to pull it off. Overall, this merge kinda sucked but this may have saved me from not getting out next. I hope I can get the others to see how Jen/Dom/Ryan are making it to the end, and make the target off of me. I am not here to make anymore friends, I am here to win survivor. I don’t plan on kissing any more ass. If I wanted to make my nose browner I would buy foundation from Wal-Mart. For now, GL to me.

RYAN

Gerda being eliminated was literally the best thing that could happen to me. Not only was I gunning for her day one but after the last few tribals a number against me is obviously gone. I started a final 3 deal with Jenn and Michelle. We got word of Candace, Cody, and Daniel working together and they’re called the CDC. I totally stole the idea and called us MJR. Not quite a ring to it but hopefully we have the numbers now. We’re trying to allign with Syzmon, Jessie, Dom and Hanne. Making it 7 strong. I feel iffy about Syzmon I don’t trust him. Our main target is Daniel (if he wins immunity Cody). We’re gonna tell Candace that we’re targeting Simon so if they’re side has an idol (Candace won reward and Cody went to exile) then they’ll waste it.

CODY

So after I merged then I get XXXiled! Like wth! Then the IDOL ISN’T EVEN HERE……..like Dom you got it and something has to be done. Right now I’m in the middle about what I wanna do. But flipping surely is something that has crossed my mind….hmmm

CANDACE

OK, it’s been awhile but the game has just been going very slowly. We managed to get Grace & Sam out with Maria on our side which was amazing. And then their whole tribal to get Jen out flopped and Daniel is in a bad position so since they trust me and not him I’m doing my best to get them on his side. I’m framing Michelle & Ryan basically, whichever they want to buy. Even though it’s not working really at least they’re unsure and would rather vote off like old Nangan… I honestly want Dom and Jen OUT. We lost Gerda right before merge and she was key in taking bullets so we can take out the unholy trinity of ass kissing that is Dom, Jessie, Jen. I’m planting seeds in Maria’s ear & keeping Szymon close and they definitely trust me a lot so I can use them as numbers to vote for the other side when the time is right. This week, I don’t know who we should vote… No one trusts anyone, but I feel like both sides trust me. I’m going to talk to Jessie about what she wants to do, but I’m 99.9% sure they want to get rid of Szymon which is not good for me since I can use him to put my plans in motion. Daniel thinks he has Hanne & Simon too so maybe Daniel, Cody, Myself, Maria, Szymon, Simon, Hanne can pull ANOTHER blindside and trick them this time so a surprise idol doesn’t come flying from the sky and crushing our hopes. There’s so many idols I can’t keep track. Speaking of idols I have 3 clues for the camp idol which makes things even more interesting. Shout out to Dolce & Gabanna for helping me win reward! Everyone was giving me the Dom treatment when I won, ‘OMG your flag is so pretty!!!’. Ugh. So either this week I play it safe, or rally the troops and pull off another big one. The target? I’m not sure. It will definitely be between Dom, Michelle, Ryan & Jen. Keep your eyes peeled and your tongues in your mouths!

MARIA

i won immunity!!!!!!!!!!! and now everyone’s acting like i’m their best friend lmao tbh daniel wants to start an alliance of hanne, candace, him and i but it’s like ?? u tried to get hanne out during tribe swap rip i’m in an alliance of jessie, jen, hanne and i and ya i feel g about it but i’m a little worried about jessie, jen, dom and michelle now jen started an alliance of jessie, her, hanne, dom……. well basically everyone but daniel, candace or cody. rip candace i liked her during swap but she’s hardly talked to me lately

SZYMON

OMG FIRST OF ALL IM SO SORRY THAT I DIDNT SEND CONFESSIONAL IN A WHILE! Past days were really crazy for me especially with the end of this semester and last days i spent all on studying or being in school… Anyway, its clear that after Grace was out i stuck in minority. Lauren’s quit kinda killed me inside.. But anyway, i didnt give up, i knew i need to make in the merge and that it would open a new possiblities for me. I tried to make strong individual bonds with Jessie, Dom and Candace. But of course, my main alliance was with Maria. Basing my game on social game i hoped that i could float into the merge… And here I am! We merged! Im in the final 12, and now i can finally reunite with Hanne! Even if we left only in nangan 3, it can still work on our advantage.Old people night take us as naive and easy to use. That’s what im trying to play like for this round, because most of them doesnt really know me. Here are my first impressions on everyone from the merge Hanne - I love her. Shes like a sister for me in this game. She’s the person i almost totally trust and i share with her like everything. Im sure that no matter what we will still be friends after the game. And i hope and will work hard to make sure we can both make it far. Jen - We totally didnt know each other since we merged, but once we did met and talked, shes the person i mostly talk in this game. I knew that she had an alliance with Dom and Jessie and they are working togehter. Shes defitnily a person that i want to keep on my side, and i feel like i can trust her. Ryan - We were exiled once, and we didnt talk that much in this game yet, but i know he, Jen and Michelle were on the bottom in another tribe. For now hes a person that i feel like i  can trust. Michelle - We didnt really have that much of opportunity to talk, but shes such a sweetheart and im sure we will get along if we will talk more :3 Simon - I love him as a person and we are having both such a cool names, however hes very sneaky and in this game, im just pretending like im working with him Daniel - Sneaky. Im not gonna cry if he will go home :) Generally, my plan is to stick now with people i can trust. Im part of majority alliance. On other side, and actual outisde we have Daniel, Simon, Candace and Cody. Daniel and Simon made an idividual chat with me and they think they got me into voting for Ryan. Even tho Cody was targeting me before, because apparently i was easy target for since people thought i dont have any connections in this game… Are they right ? ;) Time for a little suprise bitches.

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Confessionals: Episode 8

JEN

alright so chances are I won’t make it because I am SO bad at these games. I want to stay really badly. but if I lose literally the only thing I want is for Jessie to win. or Michelle. or Dom. Pretty much anyone who isn’t a villain backstabber who either can’t take a joke or lies out of their ass. If Daniel, Gerda, Candace, or Cody win I give up on tumblr Survivor omfg. I like everyone almost always (and I’m sure they’re good people out of a game) but I don’t respect the fact that they play immorally. I want a hero to win this, not a villain. I’ll be sick if they win. Please Jessie win this thing if I can’t be here. I will root for you from the grave.

RYAN

I’m not going to be the person eliminated in this challenge. I’m worried there are no inactive people left and that Jen is going to be the one to flake out. I need her. I confronted Gerda about the whole not submitting and initially submitting a low score at first and me calling her out on it and she’s so passive. I’ve started a fight with Daniel that he wants to patch things up becasue now we’re hitting merge and I have a feeling we’re gonna hit it running right into each other.

JEN

I’m going to be so sad if I leave because of games. I have tried so hard the entire season and I’ve spent so many hours on all 3 of these games. Probably more than 12 hours. I woke up at 5:45 AM just to play them. I’m even heading to work late. I’ve spent 2 hours just this morning. *cries* I’m doing my absolute best but sometimes your best isn’t enough. I just hope I don’t suck the worst. ::::””””’((((((

GERDA

Whoever decided to pick multitask as a challenge should be flogged, hanged, and flogged again! Then boiled in pudding and then fried til crispy! Naw I’m just kidding. But.. I do hate that challenge. More than any I’ve done here before.

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Confessionals: Episode 7

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JEN

Operation Kill Jen has been haulted, Operation Slay Dragons is commenced well things took a dramatic and ironic twist. I freaked out and thankfully played my idol. Daniel flipped hardcore. As in he is leading an army against me. But he is acting like we are still #1 allies. I know that is simply not true. The anti-Jen army thinks I’m fake, shady, untrustworthy, and trying to control the game…. in which case I don’t know if they’ve ever actually talked to me. I love almost everyone, I am loyal, and I’m genuine. By trying to control the game, Idek what they mean. I’m enthusiastic about the game and no one else likes to talk. I always enjoy hearing other people’s opinions… Hanne, Michelle, and I have started a new alliance and I really like it. Ryan will hopefully join too. These are people I feel are more trustworthy. Team Puppies, Kittens, and Rainbows are going to slay all the dragons (or at least attempt to).   The people in this game that I trust the most and also have a lot of fun talking to are Dom, Jessie, Michelle, Hanne, and Ryan. CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF I’m not evil or at least I don’t try to be. I was loyal to the comedy troupe, the Geezers, and the Oldies. The Geezers/Oldies fell apart but now I’m loyal to comedy troupe and Team PK&R. I”m loyal as heck and IDK what they were thinking. Daniel must have lied to them about me.

GERDA

Well.. our plan was ruined since Jen had an idol.. To say I was disappointed was an understatement.

I’ve been annoyed by the way her, Dom and the others such as Michelle and Jessie have been all lovey dovey with each other. I mean come on, I’d expect returnees to hide an alliance better. Every time they swooned over Dom I felt like this:

Luckily after the switch Dom and Jessie ended up on the other tribe. But if I’m honest I am kinda scared of how things when we all will be reunited again. Daniel is already scared about our future and I’m trying my best to calm him down. One thing that is for sure though is that Jen having an idol dumbfounded more than one person. Surprisingly it seems Michelle was not at all aware she had one. This proves she most likely had alliances on the other tribe which shocked her. Right now I am trying my best to turn her against Jen and I think it’s working. If she was truthful to me, it seems Michelle trusts me the most right now. Jen seems dumbfounded too. She isn’t talking to anyone really. Daniel kept on messaging her, so did Michelle but they got no answer. I’m not even going to try. But then again, she’d have less reason to be angry with me anyway. I mean who was it that left me out of the alliance cause that would be “too many people”? Right now our goal is to win immunity. I sure hope no one in our current alliance betrayed us, even though it sure seems strange Jen knew exactly when to use the idol. Because of this Lachie actually accused me at first when he was voted out. He was like: Did you tell Michelle or something that we were going to vote for Jen? And no, the only people I discussed it with were Hanne, Daniel, Simon and himself. Either way I have got to be careful right now. It seems a lot of people trust me, especially Simon and Daniel who have both told me they find me to be the most trustworthy person in the game. The problem is that Simon suspects Daniel a bit which worries me. I trust them both a lot too and I want to take them to the end. Although, let’s face it, my first and primary alliance was formed with Daniel. I just hope we will make it cause after our failure we have to be extremely careful. We have to consider if we really do have the numbers to take out Jen. All I know is that she cannot go to the merge. We can’t let her be back together with Jessie and Dom. And considering idols are always limited, we can hope that it will work the next time. Cause I really want to do the victory dance. Hugh Grant style.

JEN

Ryan told Daniel something I said and I’m freaking out. It might be my last day. Idk. RIP

JEN

I’m convinced that Gerda, Simon, Daniel, and Lachie threw the challenge. Simon and Gerda didn’t even submit. Daniel sat out even though he’s good at puzzles. but guess what?  #blindsiders got blindsided At least for today. *laughing* like seriously this happens to me a lot. I don’t go out of my way to blindside anyone until they blindside me. OOPS sorrynotsorry I’m not a bad person. I like everyone, I’m not trying to control the game, and I am not shady/whatever. But the damage has been done and now I need to get out Daniel first and then Gerda, Simon, Cody, and Candace. Idek why Gerda doesn’t like me. Apparently it’s because of the bee game?  I think she doesn’t like when people beat her in challenges. I’m humble and I didn’t brag whatsoever about winning. She is always talking about being a challenge beast and stuff. So who cares that I won? I congratulated Ryan. She is sour that I did better at bees. I am constantly saying GOOD JOB! to people about challenges. Even Gerda! SO I don’t get why she is so salty.

JEN

sorry for like 90 submissions. I think I’m just going to be public enemy #1 for the next tribal. so that we can blindside Daniel. I’m screwed if Ryan doesn’t come to us. UGH. SLAY THE DRAGONS

RYAN

Crazy shit went down. I didn’t expect tribal to go down like this so it took a long while for me to even find out. Jenn had to snapchat me and I was like “wat *double chin selfie*. So much went down after I don’t know where to start. The beginning of this drama: It all started the Batria vote, Jenn, Michelle and I were paranoid of Gerda and Daniel not want to vote out Lachie and switching it to Batria. Eventually we did vote for Batria but we were scared of them flipping on the 3 of us the whole time. But we went through with it. And when it came out that Batria was out we were like “good a solid Dongyin alliance” Come the next vote. Jenn and I have been tight since the beginning and Michelle and I were tight a week or two into the game. Everyone agreed it was Lachie’s time to go so we all voted him out. Wrong. They flipped on Jenn. And only 3 people didn’t vote Jenn. One was me. One was obvisouly Jenn. The third? I don’t know at this point. It’s either Michelle or Daniel. And Daniel is going behind my back saying that I flipped and he doesn’t have to prove anything and Jenn, Michelle and I all switched which confessional we were and we all matched up as 3 different Lachie voting confessionals. But Daniel didn’t want to. His reasoning for calling me out and talking shit about me to Jenn (she shared) is “I was worried he was targetting me, we never talk game.” Because the asshole wants to talk about personal life and we do talk. The reward challenge is accurate, there def are some snakes around here. Jenn told me not to blow up and reveal I know what Jenn said to Daniel… but I did. I hate him now and he hates me. Jenn never told me about her idol. I never knew there was an idol. Appartently once you win reward you get it. I won reward and I chose to go to exile island, if i knew that I wouldn’t have gone. But whatever. Now that she’s worried that everyones against her she feels bad about not telling me. I did trust her 100% but now what do I do? I feel like she’s stuck with me and I her. The tribe is divided now. Dongyin 3v3 with Hanne in the middle. Michelle Jenn & I are sticking together to vote out either Gerda or Daniel come the next time. I talked to Hanne before and told her everything and she seems so willing to vote with us over them. Jenn talked to her too. Hanne’s the safest person on an all Dongyin tribe! Gerda wants to send me to exile… I’m totally now the new target after blowing up on Daniel who everyone thinks is “running the show.” I don’t know if I got eveything written down but If I remember I’ll add more! Deuces.

MARIA

last night’s tribal was CRAZY!!!!!!!! "Jen. Because I know about your alliance of Jessie, Daniel, and Dom." :OOOOOOoooooo i totally thought something was going on between jessie and dom but this confirms it!! and i’m hoping this will get candace closer with me tbh. every season i’ve been a returnee on i’ve had my newbie ally who takes the fall for me (matt, scott) and candace needs to be mine this season tbqh. but at the same time…… idk if i made the choice with voting out grace rn cause dom and jessie are so powerful and they have their entire original tribe still on the other side. i hope hanne’s managed to get herself into some of the cracks, and i’ll still working on the candace and i’ll try to keep szymon with me. what if the chief’s thing with being the last person of my tribe happens to me again……. but this time i did it to myself……. rip but tbh i feel like people are threatened by me so i won’t get that far but i just neeeed to make merge and jury!!!!!! please!!!! send me an immunity idol jaemin

GERDA

Of course! Dom won reward again. I’m so freaking tired of seeing the dancing Cochran. Stop showing him to me! Who even chooses Cochran as their avatar? He is one of the lamest winners ever in my opinion. Well at least with Jen and Jessie going it’s pretty clear who is working in an alliance. And they’re not even trying to hide it. But just you wait. I’m going to use this against you. You’ve given us undeniable proof you fool. This will be but one of the things I will use to convince Michelle.

MARIA

lol @ dom sending jen to exile i’m gonna frickin PASS OUT UGH NOW HANNE WILL BE LEAVING NEXT CAUSE JEN’S GONNA GET THE IDOL ALL OVER AGAIN lowkey wanna come up with a plan to get dom out…… i should talk to samuel, szymon, candace and cody but cody never responded to my message from yesterday rip

JEN

I’M REUNITED BRIEFLY WITH JESSIE which is awesome but also I’m scared it’ll make her a target. I’m already public enemy #1 in Dongyin so whatever. I just want Dom and Jessie to know that Cody is not to be trusted due to CDC (and probably Candace too) and that Daniel might have signaled something with that voting confessional. I don’t want Dom and Jessie to be voted out ugh. I hope I didn’t make things worse. Right now I’m so sick of dealing with people who go out of their way to maliciously lie to someone and just overall screw them over. It’s fine to screw someone over in Survivor….it’s Survivor. but don’t be so goddamn cutthroat and evil about it.

MICHELLE

You know what happens when sneaky grandpa snakes lead a #blindside? It gets #backfired. First off, thank God Jen’s paranoia took over and played her beach idol. If anyone should be targeted at this point, I think it could be me. Apparently Lachie told his old friend Daniel about the pseudo deal I made with a few retouches:

So here’s me and Lachie [08-Dec-14 20:31:57] michelle lopez: well i still don’t know who will i send to exile. do you think you want to go? [08-Dec-14 20:32:25] michelle lopez: oh wait, you went to exile already? [08-Dec-14 20:32:35] Lachie: I dont mind. and yeah I have [08-Dec-14 20:33:33] michelle lopez: if you go, can i trust you with the clue? [08-Dec-14 20:33:51] Lachie: well sure! [08-Dec-14 20:34:09] michelle lopez: so we’re good? [08-Dec-14 20:34:33] Lachie: mhm! [08-Dec-14 20:34:45] michelle lopez: alright then.

And here’s Daniel and Lachie

[10-Dec-14 13:26:37] Jen: [12/9/14 3:25:37 PM] Daniel K: ok lachie told me [12/9/14 3:25:43 PM] Daniel K: that if michelle and him made a dela [12/9/14 3:25:45 PM] Daniel K: deal* [12/9/14 3:25:56 PM] Daniel K: that if him or her were sent to exile [12/9/14 3:26:01 PM] Daniel K: that they would give each other the clue to the idol

We never had a deal that if I go to exile, I would give him the clue. That’d be stupid.

Daniel is a ridiculously bad liar, prentending he voted Lachie out and throwing it all to Ryan with “Because I know about your alliance of Jessie, Daniel, and Dom. It’s time for you to go.” drama. He even confronted Ryan with something like

[06:36:39] Jen - Blue Wiggle: What did Daniel say to your face ? [06:48:42] Ryphine: that I flipped and Michelle and Jenn are his closest allies and I’m a liar

For all I know he even lead that charade in the immunity challenge that we "lost". But I think I could use his awful lying skills and get him to work with me to get me to the final 5. So here’s what’s got to happen: We must win this immunity challenge so that the other tribe could vote out Szymon (supposing they’re still Dongyin-strong, which I really hope) so that come merge there’ll be no chllenege beasts couple of GerMon. Right now, I think Hanne, Jen, Ryan and me have an alliance good for one trip to tribal council. When that happens, it should be whoever on Daniel’s group except Daniel. With a small number I think Daniel would work with me to have a final 5 deal just like the one I made with Dom on final 4. I don’t how that will work, but here’s to nothing.

JEN

I’M SO ANGRY at Daniel, Gerda, and Lachie right now. Because their vote confessionals were mean and they obviously don’t like me/think I’m awful. Which doesn’t make sense because I’ve been NOTHING BUT NICE TO THEM. UGH. Lachie seriously I have been so nice to him and he has no reason to dislike me except that DANIEL has been filling his head with lies. UGH UGH UGH I am so annoyed that people hate me it doesn’t make sense. And I bet they’re spreading lies to the community like STOP YOU DON’T KNOW ME. LET ME LIVER. I AM NICE TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE AND I WAS SO NICE TO YOU SO STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP I LITERALLY CAN’T I’M A VICTIM OF HATE SLANDER STOP THIS SHIZZ NOW PLZ OR I CRY

JEN

TENGAGED SAY WHAT? sorry for so many confessionals, it’s just been a crazy couple of days. I’ve figured out the connection and they aren’t fooling me anymore. 

CONNECTION= TENGAGED TEN FREAKING GAGED

They’re all good people I’m sure but I am not going to put up with them lying about me and trying to gun for my allies.

HANNE

GERDA

Ryan annoys the hell out of me. Like seriously, stop pining over the fact that I suggested you go to Exile. You’re not some sort of a huge challenge beast that you can judge me. Like I am actually a person with a life you know. I had to work for 10 hours plus sleep most of the time the challenge was going on. I only got to play it for like and hour, and I’d say that for that I got a pretty badass score. You however probably had all the time in the world. I find it funny you thought I was THAT weak though. Like 4000? Seriously? Obviously it was fake. Ryan has to be the most horrible social player in our tribe. He doesn’t talk to people most of the time, he just basically does his job in the challenges and votes the way he is told to. He doesn’t stand out in any way. Yet Jen still told him over me and the others that she had an idol. And does she now expect me to crawl to her or something? Not going to happen. She was the one who told Daniel I was the threat, one can’t blame me for looking out for myself.

SIMON

This is perhaps why I should do confessionals in the moment, cause realistically you don’t get to see my full naïve excitement and subsequent astonishment now that I have had an overview of the whole thing. Nonetheless I will walk you through the plan that I have dubbed; “Honey, I Saved the Kids.” As I mentioned in my last confessional, talks were in the works to snuff Jen and turn this game around so that we wouldn’t be taken out by the other older tribe members… well we decided it was time to put that play in action. [Side Note - I am extremely sorry about missing immunity, I would love to tell you it was a mix up with scheduling like I publically announced - but really I just fell asleep since the deadline is like 3am my time and I was staying up late to better my score.] Anyway, on with the plan. Basically we reassured Michelle, Jen and I guess you could say Ryan; even though I’ve never actually talked to him in my whole game [not that I haven’t tried - he just doesn’t respond] , that we were voting for Lachie and it was “Oldies 5evaaa”… but we had another thing coming. I talked myself to both Lachie and Hanne, building a relationship with the two of them which I thought could’ve been my ticket to the final - really. That’s why I was so devastated by the outcome to be honest…. My plan was to carry onwards with Shady Ladies + Lachie/Hanne and then at F7 talk to Lachie as a fellow tengager about how close Cody/Daniel/Candace were…. once that was done I was gonna expose the Tengagers to the whole alliance and let Gerda and Hanne come to us so we could F4 and boot the others. That would’ve also meant we could’ve reached F4 without being bottom of totem pole but as equals against much easier players to face off with in Jury… Also I could’ve totally played myself off as the goat card then. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. :( We voted, we were confident, I was originally gonna wake up at like 3am just to see Jen and Ryan’s reaction… then I fell asleep as I told you… and well I woke up to a very different reality which shocked me a lot. I mean fair play to Jen, she might have quite a fake social game that I don’t enjoy but that play was extremely strong by her and I have nothing but congratulations and admiration for it. She outwitted us and that was really good of her. I actually told her that afterwards, I said well done to her cause she deserved to be told that - and cause it totally puts me in a better position for social game. [I also am totally guessing that each tribe had an idol hidden with a clue being given to the reward winner, alongside exile having a shared idol hidden upon it. That’s just hypothesising though.] Thing is it now puts a spanner in the works which we’ll have to see if it comes undone. I mean everything suddenly becomes so much more difficult in relation to the game but I’m hoping I can still carry this out for Gerda and me. All I have to do is get both of us to F7 with the rest of the shady ladies and then I can play it onward from there. I’m looking to the future and I’m ambitious for it. I’m sorry for how short/sporadic/undetailed this particular confessional was but I just haven’t had time to write it and it seems like now you’re not really getting the full effect of my reaction as I said at the top. So yeah, I’ll try to be more prompt for you all next time.

JEN

Tribe is too quiet now. I’m not even sure if I’m welcome anymore in the main Dongyin tribe chat. I tend to put all of my conversations in alliance/PMs now. Nobody welcomed me back in the main chat from exile. I’m not looking forward to being in merge with someone who hates me. (if I even make it to merge which seems unlikely) I’ll be really annoyed if someone in my alliance goes home today and Daniel/Gerda stay. *Goes back to camp and sits under the farthest tree possible while everyone else sits next to the fire*

JESSIE

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Confessionals: Episode 6

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MARIA

day ??????: i miss hanne. i miss gossiping about how annoying these people are. i miss having someone i could really trust. please bring me back to her tumblr survivor gods

HANNE

AFTER NANGAN TRIBAL!!! I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY!!! I’M PRETTY SURE MARIA FLIPPED AND OMG ILYSM I MISS U THAT WAS SO GREAT I’M SCREAMING and rip szymon’s probably not in the majority </3 BUT OMFG MARIA OMFG I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE!!!!!! OMGGGGG MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED but now i’m worried that daniel won’t want to help me and lachie bc grace is gone… oh well… but maybe now dongyin won’t want to throw challenges bc the oldies are doing so good!!! we need a crack BADDDDD IT’S FUCKING 6 TO FUCKING 10 REST IN PIECES BUT I’M HERE TO BE THE LAST BABY STANDING!!!!! also this is my request for another tribe swap thx!!! reunite hanne with her friends pls!!!!

SIMON

Holy moly I am so excited to get to read the confessionals from the OT; I really wanna know what happened! :O I am so proud of Candace and Cody for hanging on but as I just explained it also means we have to be super careful as whatever we do in terms of flipping on the other oldies over here could really badly hurt them later on in the game. We’re in a minefield right now and one foot out of line could blow up the entirety of our games. Still, congrats to everyone on the OT for getting out the person who was allegedly running the Youngsters tribe - I’m so impressed! :p I think we need to be careful now with how to play the game though as obviously their tribe dynamic could be a lot more fragile than ours and we need to see Candace and Cody back with us if we wanna go far into the game. Also side note - based on research I predict a merge at F12 like both other seasons that had 22 cast mates. Therefore we have 4 opportunities to eliminate whoever we do to give us numbers for our alliance come merge.

JEN

HOLY TAMOLE SHIT BALLS HELL ON WHEELS I’M SAD BUT ALSO EXCITED OMFG JESSIE DID IT, MY BAE DID IT I’m so proud of Dom and Jessie for pulling this off. It was the best move strategically for Jessie and Dom to make, but it’s sad for my little child, Grace. Grace (according to Lachlan and Batria) is the leader of the main Nangan alliance and a huge threat. If they were going to use the idol, they needed to do something big. They did something HUGE. I like Grace which is why I’m sad but also relieved that I don’t have to vote her out myself. The way things were looking, Grace was going to be a major target by the Oldies because we know she is in charge of things over there. I’m so glad Jessie, Dom, and I got the idol together. It was a game changer. I still have an idol which I will save until it’s necessary. Hopefully I won’t be voted out with it in my pocket….. I’m not going to let anyone on this side know I helped to find the exile idol because it would make them lose trust in me possibly. I don’t want to win reward but I also do….. because I don’t want anyone to find out I got idol clues while on the beach. :O

SIMON

So despite all the drama surrounding a tribe swap and the splitting of Shady Ladies and double tribals and such; we seemed to find ourselves  a decent enough position in the tribe as we have that old majority and ANOTHER TENGAGER (:D) - Lachie - meaning that we have another potential long term ally (and another potential person above me in an F5 alliance with the Tengagers. But I will get onto Lachie in a mo.) The vote was relatively simple and I mean god bless Bat as she tried hard to convince us she was minority; she honestly seemed like such a nice person and someone I’d like to continue to get to know after the game finishes. Seriously, all credit to her she seemed so genuine and interesting. Thing is now we have to look to the future - whilst that vote was a simple one that confirmed our dominance, and allowed me to breathe after… Actually hold on a minute; I’m getting ahead of myself. CLUCK YOU GUYS! That “Read More Idol Post”… thing had me completely terrified and shouting “I TOLD YOU SO!” at my monitor - seriously not cool! I honestly thought they had used an idol and I was really worried about that cause I had suggested a number of times a split vote might work better as it keeps us safe and we completely had the numbers to do it! - Luckily it wasn’t necessary this time. … Sorry, tangent. It allowed us to establish a majority; but I have a feeling that majority might be about to split up again as Daniel knows we have Lachie… and we know Jen is a social threat for all the wrong reasons; i.e. she talks to a lot of people but usually the same thing and usually in quite a fake manner that really seems to be in order to further herself in the game. (During Tribal B she pretty much messaged Daniel and I at the exact same time with our name in CAPS - It was just a small excuse to try and make her bond closer with us; I have strong reason to believe she did it with everyone.) So Jen is on the talking cards right now but I’m not 100% certain about it as there are a lot of scenarios that could occur if we take her out that I’ve already explained to Daniel. She really is a pivotal player. I mean if we take her out then we could endanger our allies as Dom and Jessie might flip to the young ones and take out Candace and Cody… Or come merge we could end up on the smaller side of things as Jen leaving us means Cody, Dom, Michelle and Ryan flip to the 4 young and I don’t completely trust Hanne to stick with us. Like I said to Daniel; “this is Survivor and protecting someone doesn’t give you their loyalty… It gives them more chances to turn on you.” Basically I worry that the second we take Jen out we draw a line in the sand that screws up our numbers come merge. We might dislike her and we might see her sociability as a threat; but we can’t get caught in the moment and snag the opportunity straight away as it could pretty much determine the rest of our games. We need to take her out at the right time; but we also need to ensure she doesn’t become the next Amanda Zuckerman. I think what we’re gonna do is talk to Lachie and Gerda about it and see what will be best for us in the future - I’ll keep you updated though, promsie. That brings me onto the final thing I need to talk about - Lachie. Hopefully a hidden gem of Tengaged for me. I don’t think Daniel was up for telling me about the fact they were a Tengager, I can’t exactly remember though so don’t quote me on that… but anyway, I figured it out myself as if you look on the first challenge screencap you can totally see the logo in the tabs. This could work great for me though as I’ve been checking out Lachie’s profile and there doesn’t appear to be any history with Cody, Candace or Daniel… Which means I have someone who might understand their cliquiness and who might be able to flip with me once it’s been realised we’re on the bottom of the alliance. I have to ensure Gerda makes it far enough for her to flip with me too, but all being well Lachie as an ally could come as a very big blessing for the both of us. I’m gonna end on an apology for how all over the place this confessional is; I had a lot of thoughts going on at once and wanted to try and get as many down as possible while maintaining Skype conversations to figure out the future of this game. I’m never gonna get into Uni for English at this rate. :p

JEN

I’m SO glad that Dom won reward. He took Michelle and I’m so excited! I trust Michelle a lot. I also trust Dom and Jessie. PLUS the fact that Dom sent himself…..means that no one else has found out there are idols on the beaches yet. Hopefully Dom and Michelle can work together on whatever they find on exile island. My comedy troupe is completely taken from me which is sad </3 but hopefully I’ll see them soon! I tried really hard on this murderous cat game but I’m glad I didn’t win tbh. Hanne is a sweetheart. She’s soooo nice. I would hate to vote for her. I’m glad we didn’t have to in the previous tribal council at least.

HANNE

when u lose reward by 17 points to a person in the majority whO HAS 10 PPL STILL LEFT FROM THEIR TRIBE AND REALLY PROBABLY IS NOT GONNA GET VOTED OUT!!!!!!! honestly rip me rip…… smh

MICHELLE

ok so the plan is, since the whole tribe including the old folks can’t decide who are we going to send to exile and jen got 2k something on the reward challenge, might as well decide for ourselves. like i already asked the old folks who they think we’re gonna send out but gerda suggested we can talk abt it when there are more people. i sent my score without nominating people (not even lachie, who probly knows i picked him and made a deal with the clue). but still, after they were all active and stuff, no definite decision on who to send. [07:13:06] michelle lopez: no decision yet? [07:13:18] Jen: No they won’t talk lol [07:13:21] Jen: Any ideas ? [07:56:15] Jen: do you think one of us should try to go to exile? [07:56:20] Jen: if so, we can’t sit that person out [07:56:45] michelle lopez: true. i can sit out. you go. HAHAHA [07:56:51] michelle lopez: what do you think? [07:57:02] Jen: LOL haha [07:57:08] Jen: do you think it’s a good idea for one of us to go? [07:57:10] Jen: I am ok with that [07:57:18] Jen: I’m just scared lol [07:58:04] Jen: idk if people will try to kill me next [08:05:48] michelle lopez: yeah, i’d be like that if i were you. [08:07:41] michelle lopez: like if i win the reward, i could probably say i suck at this challenge and i can go to exile since none of yall’s are answering (don’t say the last part tho). [08:44:44] Jen: LOL people in this tribe aren’t very helpful [08:45:58] michelle lopez: like if ya’ll don’t answer might as well decide for ourselves [09:01:32] Jen: lmao Michelle [09:01:36] Jen: these people do not respond [09:01:48] Jen: either we are on the outs or they just don’t respond [10:00:52] Jen: OMFG [10:00:56] Jen: Seriously [10:01:35] Jen: Ok so apparently no one is alive to make the decision [10:25:53] Jen: are you sitting out? I think we have to make the decision and yeah, that’s where i died and came back to be on exile. and for that, i’m really sorry i didn’t answer that jen. HAHA. i really thought i’m gonna sit out the whole time i wasn’t on. oh well it’s been 10 hrs since exile. dom and i agreed to exchange clues. idk if he found the idol but i found out it’s frosti and 253. like dom is away and the hosts are probably sleepin.  we haven’t had time to talk much which is sad. i would want to know what’s up at their side and me sharing my side as well. and eventually planning ahead or something

HANNE

this is probably my best one yet! (but i mean like i hope i don’t have to do any of this lmao)

GERDA

I seriously hate the timing everything in this org has.. And it will be the last time I probably schedule something… Who knows, maybe it’ll kill me in this game too.

HANNE

#OPERATIONCHAOSCASEY

JEN

Here is my confessional about some of what I have observed up to this point. I’m SO bad at confessionals so this probably won’t come across correctly but I thought it’d be nice to actually delve into specifics. First of all, I am observant especially in a game setting like this. My observations may not always be correct but I’m always ready to take notes in my mind :P :P For instance, in the Spain/Newfoundland chat I have seen Syzmon and Grace call each other bae and be all lovey dovey and Grace even has a nickname for him apparently. Cinammon. It’s sweet but I’ve got my Sherlock Holmes clothes on lmao and I think I see under that friendship. I see an alliance (possibly a f2 deal?) that fell apart after a shocking vote. Grace was leading the Nangan majority alliance (according to Lachie and Batria) and I’m certain Syzmon would have worked with her. Gerda knows Syzmon. I noticed that as well. The Nangan majority alliances seems to have consisted of Grace, Lachie, Syzmon, Batria, Lauren, and Sam. I may be completely off point. But the main thing that is concerning me lately is happening within the old Dongyin tribe itself. I found out a while ago that Daniel, Candace, and Cody know each other from the tengaged community. And when you add all the pieces together, everything makes sense based off of how they've been acting around us. Additionally, one of their friends (this person is not in Matsu) basically slipped that he knows all 3 of them. He had given off indirectly in other chats that he is good friends with all 3 based off of how he was talking. He is closer to Daniel and Cody but seems to have a strained past with Cody. He even called Daniel “DK” I had an idea before but now everything makes even more sense. I’m concerned because I get the feeling that they have an alliance that runs much deeper than any one is aware of. I expressed my concerns to Jessie a long while back and today I expressed them to Michelle. Michelle called their *possible* alliance CDC and now all I can think about is a viral disease spreading from the CDC that we need to stop. Somebody get out the Hazmat suits before the virus destroys us all.

MARIA

me and hanne when she isn’t voted out:

CODY

WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED!?! I’m not sure what is going on the other tribe, but shit has got me so scared for the merge.

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Confessionals: Episode 5

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MICHELLE

i knew this was coming and i’m still freaked out. we swaped at 18 which is a darn long way to merge. Dongyin 2.0 is now me, jen, daniel, gerda, simon, ryan, hanne, batria, and lachie. my thoughts: 1.) i’m so happy i’m with my girl, jen. 2.) much more we have a 6-3 advantage. 3.) i’m relieved gerda and szymon are not together. 4.) i’m with the high scorers. 5.) i fangirled over hanne and her blog. 6.) i honestly thought lachie is a she, but came to find out he’s a he. 7.) i haven’t added batria yet sorry.

CANDACE

My game is FUCKED! I was in a majority alliance on Dongyin, kinda, and even had side alliances ready to flip when the time is right. Now I’m on this tribe with two people who we planned on flipping on, Jessie & Dom. I’ve been distancing myself more and more because they are constantly up Dom’s ass. Their tongues must be permanently brown from how much ass licking they’ve done. But, I’m not stupid and I’m sticking as close to them as possible. Me, Cody, Jessie, Dom on the new Flopgan need to stick together. Grace is so annoying. I don’t know Survivor crazy well, but I do know Phillip and she is literally Phillip. She’s like OMG, I have no idea how we’re voting, yet goes ahead and tells Cody they’re voting me out. She acts if she is running the tribe, which she is, but not sure why they’re leaving their games in her hands. My alliance knows they want to vote me out, so we’re doing everything we can to get someone to flip. Also, Jessie has an idol. We have to play our cards right or else we’re fucked. If we can win immunity, use our idol, and get someone to flip then we at least are no longer in minority. Our best hope is Maria. Maria is really sneaky, she came to us saying she’s on the outs but I’m like why would you willingly tell us? She is our only hope. I’m praying Jessie and I can milk her and get her to flip, we have to do whatever it takes. Can we trust that Grace is telling Cody the truth? Can we get Maria to trust us? If not, I’m doomed. This may be the last you see of me. Praying I make it to next week!

HANNE

JEN

MY POOR #JESSIFER HEART

The tribe swap is scaring me. I’m glad to be in majority old people in the new Dongyin but I’m worried about Jessie, Dom, Cody, and Candace in new Nangan. I would hate for any of them to be voted off. My partner in crime has been stolen from me. :’(  </3 sadface I’m glad to be with Michelle and Daniel. I had a connection with both of them before tripe swap so that’s great. I trust both of them. Michelle is really fun to talk to and a good friend. Daniel is also a cool person/friend. I hope the Oldies on new Dongyin can pull this out. I’M SO SCARED for the others ahhhhhh. The tribe swap has also brought some complications. There is a lot of talk about Lachlan having the exile idol. There is also speculation that Hanne might have it (but mainly people think Lachlan has it). The Oldies have talked about wanting to vote out Hanne instead of Lachlan because “he might have the idol.”  They have also talked about splitting the vote between Hanne and Lachlan to be sure that the idol isn’t played. This is all happening while I KNOW that JESSIE (and Dom) has the idol. Also I have the Dongyin beach idol… but I don’t think anyone knows that it exists yet. So I have to act paranoid about an idol that original Nangan “has” when …..Jessie and Dom actually have it. I’m scared about the well-being of Cody/Candace/Jessie/Dom but I’m hoping they can somehow use the idol to save themselves. It’d be great if Jessie and Dom could come up with a scheme to get the youngin’s to vote against the other person (so against either Jessie or Dom) and then they could pull out the idol and BAM they’re safe and it’s a 4-4 ratio instead of 5-4. Anyway people in this game are nice so I always feel bad about voting for them. But tis Survivor :/ I’m excited to finally meet Hanne because she seems like a real sweetheart. It sucks that we’re on opposite alliances. My favorite part of Tumblr Survivor is always getting to know the people so it isn’t fun when you have to vote out someone so early. If Hanne is voted out, RIP to me. The tumblr Survivor community will lynch me and throw me in a river. I would be Public Enemy #1: the slayer of puppies and rainbows. Thing is, I’m super loyal so I can’t turn my back on the old folks. I will vote with them 100%.

CANDACE

Either Maria is putting on a sociopathic performance worthy of an Oscar, or I got her on my side. Jessie and I’s plan was to get Maria to think we want a final 3, and it apparently worked. I actually really like Maria, but I’m definitely kissing ass like OMG love you Maria this is so perfect and Jessie is too. So now we have majority, apparently. Maria says she can get Szymon to vote with us so that would be 6 votes. The whole thing is VERY confusing it’s like lieception. A lie here, a fib there, I’m trying hard not to get my lies mixed up LOL! If I honestly just pulled Maria onto our side, I feel really good about my position. Maria suggested us trying to vote Grace out, but I don’t think we can do it SO I told her why not the person closest to her? She said that would be Samuel, and that’s what we’re going to do. So my plan is to keep Maria with us and she feels she can get Szymon with us, then we get Dom/Cody votes maybe we can really do it. But there’s something fishy why Maria would do all of this.. Grace is really scary though. She has only put my name out there to Cody and hasn’t done anything really strategic since. We all think Grace is this leader running the tribe, imagine it’s little Maria mentally fucking with our minds making me think I’m actually safe. So if I am the one voted out this tribal, I’d like to present this to you Maria. Thank you for playing me!

MICHELLE

double tribal council and individual immunity for the highest scorers on each tribe. it seems the old folks would want to stick together against lachie, hanne, and batria. so here’s the thing. during the tribe swap hype, hanne said she was so relieved bc she apparently wasn’t part of the majority alliance and they’re just keeping her bc of the games. lachie said nothing noteable happened at their camp. shady. but daniel seems keep up with him. mhmm. just as when ryan came back from exile, he showed me the clue that hanne got from the pick a jar thing. apparently, it can be easily be found just in the first clue. the first one to go in exile was dom, but dom showed the geezers his congratulatory note specifically saying “You can either collect a 10% bonus for your tribe in the upcoming immunity challenge, but in doing so send yourself to exile island, OR you may send a person from each tribe to exile island, and secretly obtain a hidden immunity idol clue for an idol hidden back at your camp.” dom couldn’t have had it. plus he keeps on volunteering to go to exile probly for the clue. jessie and lachie were the next ones to go but ryan said he and jessie lost the clue each time. idk where he got this but apparently someone told him. it should be on the nangan people and most likely lachie has it. ryan thinks that as well and proposed to flush it out by bluffing. the old folks initially agreed on hanne, but daniel wants batria out because she’s a part of this majority alliance in nangan. and i’m like lachie is in that alliance too and is a frickin beast in challenges and i don’t want someone like him come to merge. batria is a self-proclaimed flop queen, it would’ve been better with her in the merge. and yet daniel keeps insisting to vote out batria like ugh. i told ryan to tell dem old folks the plan to flush the idol from lachie but we’ll be voting batria if that’s they want. daniel agreed. but i still think something’s a miss here. if i can guarantee that jessie didn’t really have the clue on the idol, i’m pretty damn sure lachie has it. like lachie could’ve been saying these things to get daniel’s trust and daniel could be saying our plan to him and wouldn’t really play the idol. well damn.

JEN

I miss my comedy troupe :’(   Dom, Jessie, Michelle, and I always laughed so much together. COME BACK TO ME. I need some puns and funny nicknames. We’re going on tour, better get tickets before they sell out. I HEART YOU BOTH DANGIT WHY YOU GOTTA LEAVE ME On a less comedic note: Apparently (according to Lachlan who I haven’t talked to but an ally did)  Grace is heading the young people alliance. GRACEY WHY YOU GOTTA DO THIS TO ME I’m loyal as heck to my oldies and MY LITTLE SISTER/CHILD IS BABY ENEMY #1 This is some King Solomon shit. On a game standpoint I have to stick with the old folk. BUT I HEART YOU GRACEY WHY ARE YOU A BABY, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE A LEADER, STOP IT PLEASE LET ME LIVER

RYAN

The 3 Nangan people on a tribe with 6 other Dongyin people are not scrambling. I trust Jenn and Michelle and I thought I could trust Daniel, depending on what happens I think Daniel and Gerda are the two biggest people who could possibly flip. But I’m just paranoid. Hopefully Batria goes home. Jenn Michelle and I would all prefer Lachie to go home, but we’re scared of that idol that he might have.

JEN

NOOO JESSIE’S COMPUTERRRR WHY DIDN’T YOU POST THAT IMMUNITY SCORE I’M SO SAD IF JESSIE GOES HOME AT NANGAN TRIBAL I’M THROWING MY COMPUTER INTO THE LAKE

JESSIE

CODY

So coming onto this tribe I was looking into the gates of hell. No but honestly this tribe gets on my last DAMNED nerve. They don’t try to talk to me? Like haha we have 5 votes and you have 4! We don’t feel the need…well take this as a curve ball you snot-nosed kids. We have a plan. With age comes intelligence, and tonight we’re definitely gonna get you with that.

CANDACE

I DID IT. I CRACKED MARIA! Maybe.. Oh God a shit load of stuff has happened. Jessie & I basically solidified our threesome with Maria, but some DRAMA occurred. Maria felt we could trust Szymon, but he flopped on us. He basically told Grace that Jessie was shit talking her and now I’m certain Grace and her flock of geese will be voting Jessie. I mean at least it’s no longer me, but I can’t lose Jessie! She’s LITERALLY my biggest ally in this game. We’ve been working ourselves exhausted like red headed step children and it needs to pay off. But we convinced Maria we couldn’t trust Szymon after what he did, and she seems to agree. Us three are voting Grace, and we told her we can get Cody & Dom to do so as well even though we knew for sure we had their votes. Jessie is also playing our idol tonight, so the consequences from that I’ll deal with next week. This is the best I’ve felt all week, good thing or not we’ll see. My stomach churns when I think too much about it………. Nervous for tribal, praying that it goes our way & I can’t wait to see Grace’s reaction if she’s voted off. Her pet dogs as well. Besos, until next time!

CODY

Someone better be on diaper duty. These young ones are gonna shit themselves after this vote.

GRACE

SZYMON

OMFG I JUST REALIZED THAT I DIDNT WRITE CONFESSIONAL IN AGES Tribe swap is crazy, very crazy. Especially the first day of it are always a MESS. and this means that im mess as well. Ofc tribe swap means also meeting new people, and new opportunites but im also very glad and happy that im in the majority part of nangan in my tribe. I did my best in immunity and gladly won it. I cant imagine how would i feel without that necklace in game right now. I got to meet Candace, Jessie and Dom and i really like them. There is also Cody a kid that i dont really like, he thinks hes smart and just trying to do all to safe himself getting close to Lauren and Grace which is nothing good for me. Last thing i need right now is to have him to replace me in my position in tribe. He would be honestly perfect first target for me, but its so hard to figurate out what everyone wants, and since i have a feeling that all donngyin is about to stick together, then my goal is to make sure that all nangan will vote together atleast for this tribal, and that that our target wont be Candice. After all hours of talking about decision it seems that Jessie will be the target, which honestly wonders me because i know that her and Dom are super close and i KNOW that one of them has the idol. However, it doesnt mean at all that this tribe will be just a boring pagong of Dongyin. If Cody will keep working on Grace and Lauren then he will need to gtheo, and this will put Grace and Lauren on huge outsides, i mean i dont feel like i can trust Lauren and Grace that much anymore. I mean If i feel that i can trust you then im willing to go all the way with you, but if i dont trust you, you cant believe a word im telling you.

DANIEL

I kinda have just been waiting to post a confessional because I really wanted to get in the game before I surveyed it. I think I finally understand where I fit in this game and where I hope to go.

Starting on the old Dongyin tribe, I was fine with my position. I knew that Jessie/Jen/Dom had all the power. It was obvious and I wasn’t going to challenge them for that. I wanted to get closer to Jessie and Jen because I figured they knew how to maneuver around and get in a good majority. I later learned that they were completely unnecessary for my success in this game. The majority oldies alliance has completely isolated Simon/Gerda from the group. They aren’t in the “clique” as I call it. Thank god. Gerda is a sweet heart and I completely love her. Simon reminds me of… well, me. He gets it. He understands how things are gonna work. Cody and Candace and I have always been close from the beginning, we all share common characteristics and trends. It just makes sense that us 5 work together.

We all have a common theme though. We despise the obvious leaders. Jen is so nice and so sweet, but she knows she has so much power. She thinks she is running this game, in reality, she is barely walking. She doesn’t know it, but she is on very thin ice. Beyond everything, I am glad this first vote went as planned, and I am even happier Hanne and Lachie both didn’t go home. With Simon, Gerda, and I, we may have a few tricks up our sleeve before merge. I really hope Cody/Candace can stay safe on the other tribe, because we are all ready to take out the threats and go to the end. Overall, this has been such a great experience and I am happy I met so many great people. But, it’s time to stop playing in the shadows and start experiencing the lime-light.

GRACE

I feel less comfortable because I haven’t known Dongyin for a long time and already we have to go to tribal. I’ll be honest when I say I really have no idea how this tribal is going to turn out.

MARIA

so. tonight i voted for grace. and flipped on old nangan to the old dongyin tribe. grace had been going around to everyone saying she controls me and how i vote for awhile and people came back and told me. like i knew she felt this way but i wasn’t expecting her to tell everyone. and i found out grace had been saying other things behind my back. it kind of sucks because i trusted her the most coming into the game, but she’s choosing to play this game so hard? like i just want to play to be friends with people and stuff gvhbjnmk. 

and in the past couple of days i talked to candace and jessie and we made an alliance. tbh i don’t 100% trust jessie but i trust candace a lot and she seems kind of easy to manipulate, so if i can manage to become her #1 over jessie that would work out for me!! being on a tribe where it’s half the majority alliance + me isn’t very comforting. like why would i want to stay with them? there’s more cracks in a whole tribe, probably, than in an alliance. like being in an alliance with jessie and candace is obviously a crack in dongyin. but also, the majority alliance was apparently having trouble back on nangan. but oh well, i’ve already voted so it’s too late. last night i was at a party and decided to check skype to see if anything had happened, and i was greeted by a lot of messages!! something happened involving szymon, jessie and grace. apparently szymon asked grace about saying bad things about me to jessie, and grace completely denied it but i’m pretty much sure it really happened because i completely know i was on the outside of nangan and i don’t doubt that at all. so yeah. man i don’t want to be a flip flopper but this will hopefully help me out.

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Confessionals: Episode 4

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HANNE

SIMON

I think the illusion of being elderly that comes with being cast on the old tribe is getting to me, cause I can’t for the life of me remember if I wrote a confessional for Episode Three or not? :s Either way, this ones gonna be dull. Really not a lot has changed, so I won’t bore you all with another “cast assessment type thing.” The main people we should concern ourselves with if you wanna learn more about my game are Jen, Daniel and Gerda… People I think could make it quite far into the game. I would talk about Candace and Cody, but honestly Candace’s social game has if anything only gotten worse… I tried to communicate with her despite timezone difference and I got back diddlysquat. I need her as an ally, but I have to say her total lack of speech doesn’t fill me with confidence in that she has my back. Anyways, onto the more exciting news in that I actually did some strategic stuff! ^_^ So I can’t remember if I mentioned the whole Gerda alliance thing, I think I did? Anyways, I was talking to Daniel about the possibility of using Gerda as an affiliate of YOAP and he seemed pretty down for it as I think he’s still super suspicious of Dom. Therefore I’ve been talking a lot to Gerda; letting her think that I’m still this blissfully unaware kid who is new to playing Survivor online and needs her help. I let her know that I took her advice of talking to Candace, Cody and Daniel and said that I liked them.. This then leads to a conversation about sides and how Gerda believes that the returnees + Dom are working together and that our best bet is to take out Ryan at whenever our next tribal is; then allow ourselves to become a majority by working with YOAP. She basically made the dream scenario for me and all I really had to do was talk to her. That all being said, it makes me seem like I’m a gamebot though, and I know I’m far from it. The truth is that I’m extremely loyal to Gerda as she has a rocking social game and gives me the best conversations out of the whole tribe. Seriously, we can talk about anything and she makes me feel great. I really want her to do well with me. I don’t wanna use her, I wanna play this game with her. The reason I also mentioned Jen was just cause I wanted to let people know that if she claims to have “control” over me… That’s actually part of my plan. I’m very much playing the innocent confused kid card and sort of ask her how to vote/what to do sometimes so that she’ll feed me info. I’m hoping these comments get me into her trust and that later she’ll feed me info which will help me to figure out stuff such as who has idols or how we should vote when it comes down to 5v4. Last thing; I’m not an idiot and fully understand everyone has independent games, so everything I’ve said is very hypothetical and could easily be influenced by a number of events… What I’m describing is just my ambitions for the future based on what I’ve done in the present. I understand others also have ambitions which will conflict mine and therefore we’ll have to see whose ambitions triumph over others. I am not a lunatic idealist; I am not Jay Gatsby.

JEN

I’m getting really paranoid. This game is killer. I like everyone and it’s fun but I’m also constantly checking my phone, reblogging, playing games, and being nervous about the next thing to happen. I’m having trouble sleeping because I want our team to win this notes challenge. We’re doing our best so I’m proud of us even if we lose. Of course it’d be great if we win but at least we never give up. If I wake up and we’re 10,000 behind I will spend every free moment of my day doing my best to win. Yay Dongyin I’ll be sad if we lose but I value hard work and determination and never giving up. I believe this challenge will bring our tribe closer because we have to work together very closely and be diligent as heck. Thank baJeezus for Patron St Jessie who knows how to do this challenge.

CODY

I get the whole tribe unity business. But oh my gosh I am here to play Survivor and not kiss Dom’s butt. Our tribe just seems to be kissing it plenty and I’m honestly so irritated with it. Don’t call me jealous but I think things need to be done about everyone following our cult leader Dom. My tribe thinks I’m a damn fool. When you talk around me, and let me be the last to know things I’m gonna do something. So I’m going to be building my own army in this game. Leave the annoying ones out and make something of myself. If you didn’t think I was anything to feared of you thought wrong. You thought I wouldn’t see your whole little buddy buddy attitude and hint to me you have your own clique? Time to take matters into my own hands and take you on.

MICHELLE

ok so a lot has happened since shawn left the tribe — um, well, not actually. we just continued to slay the other tribe and we just continued to be so frickin happy for each other. it’s just so weird when sooner or later we will have to face-off with each other. like when will the nice things stop? gerda seems to have that weird shady vibe. jen and jessie thinks the same. plus she knew szymon from the other tribe which is a beast in challenges just like her. that would be a pair to watch out if it happens. jen wants to  get rid of her just before merge but jessie thinks she would be number for us. right now, i would consider keeping gerda up to the merge since she makes somewhat intimidatingly sacrastic remarks which could draw-off the jury. jen and i have been talking a lot on how to deal with tribe swap. i’m glad jen is like a 24-hr weather channel (gerda calls her social queen) that gives you an update of what’s going on, especially me being at the opposite side of the world. she had this idea that the tribe whose dongyin strong throws the challenge so they can vote out the minority nangan members, and eventually keep the minority dongyin people on the other tribe. i’m like, wow! okay! but i don’t really trust a lot of dongyin folks. jessie doesn’t get back on my messages. dom, daniel, and cody was like “everybody seems nice. i hope we win. i would feel bad if i vote someone out.” and i just couldn’t catch-up with candace, gerda, and simon. ugh. plus a lot on my tribe are good in games, that wouldn’t be so good come individual challeneges. we’ll see though.

MARIA

TBQH literally nobody is talking to me like......... grace won't even tell me who she's voting and when i confronted her about it bc szymon AND lauren told me seth she was like "well his name's been going around every tribal" ..... like OK WORK!!!! but i told bat about the majority alliance and i think she trusts me more now ?? ? ?? also szymon seems to like hanne and i more than the people in his alliance lolzzzz so he told hanne he wants to create a new alliance w/ us in it bc the majority alliance is dysfunctional??? like please god

[survivormatsuislands-blog]

Confessionals: Episode 3

MICHELLE

strange and crazy things happened in our tribe. shawn just disappeared off the face of skype for a couple of days, then suddenly comes back hours before tribal with “omg i’m back!”, then just went off again. we were probably the most united tribe this game has ever seen with literally unaninous votes, including him voting for himself. smh poor guy. then there’s the flood of old people jokes which, i have to admit, were pretty hilarious. but gerda says otherwise. she came out and killed the old people joke vibe saying something like “it’s not funny”. BURN. yeah she is offended by canes, dentures, bingo slayers, power scooters, and Life Alerts. she’s constantly saying “we’re not that old”. so yeah, gerda is a serious woman. that being said, i apologized to her eventhough i was only laughing so hard like i’m not a part of the old people joke circle that includes dom, jen, jake and jae. i found out she seriously wants to be the alpha-female of the tribe because she said that everyone likes jen being the tribe’s social queen and felt like no one seems to like or understand her. tbh i kinda feel a dangerous vibe with her being serious and being good in games. idk. but as much as i want her to be gone, she’ll have to stay for us to keep winning. i’m hoping we’ll have her out before tribe swap.

GERDA Jen is so sneaky. So in the past two reward challenges she like keeps on asking me how much I got. Like seriously, stop making it so obvious you are trying to win it.. I mean she is in general trying to be the heart and soul of the tribe, sending hearts and hugs and talking to everyone but I can see right through her.. Last time I told her my score and she won reward after that. I’m not going to do it again this time. She should really think about the way she acts because at this point she is starting to really annoy me.

JEN

I’m having a mini freakout. I’m afraid that I’m being targeted by Gerda now. IDK I just want to live. I got another clue for an idol on the beach but I’m too freaked out to look yet. *breathes* It’s almost 4 AM and I’m still playing the Avalanche game. I wouldn’t be surprised if I have played this for 8 hours straight. I’m tired but I can’t get any better on this challenge. I really don’t want us to lose immunity again

SIMON I’m so glad I survived our first vote off cause I had serious doubts whenever I logged into Skype to find that literally nobody had messaged me. It made me lose a lot of confidence in my own game and really gave me an indication that I needed to start playing game a bit more, perhaps getting  a bit more sociable with people.

The main person I talk to is Gerda as we’re both in a similar time zone and have very common interests, so I expressed my anxieties about being bottom of the food chain to her in which she responded with the advice of talking to Cody, Candace and Daniel… Which as you can imagine, was perfect for me as that’s the YOPA. ^_^ Gerda herself also asked me for an alliance which I was quick to accept as the 5 of us banding together would be so perfect and honestly Gerda is the person I want to work with most in this game as she actually made the effort. The fact she’s also cautious of Jen and claims to be “playing enough social game for the both of us” is even better as it means I have an ally who will be a bigger target for me to hide behind. If people were to come for us, they’d have to go for Gerda first as she’s the one who is playing this game harder earlier. I hope it doesn’t come to that, but it’s an option and as I said previously as well, this game is all about options

There hasn’t been that much drama in relation to the rest of this week with most of my time being taken up trying to talk to people on more individual levels, this has once again led me to a few opinions about people which I shall leave you now bellow; Candace - My issue with Candace is that her social game, or else her interaction with me at least sucks. :( She’s either avoiding me, our time zones don’t match up, or she’s just not putting in the effort and that really sucks as I feel she’s still popular within the tribe and I obviously still need her as she’s part of the YOPA. /: She’s someone to watch and would be the first of YOPA I’d throw under the bus, sorry. Cody - He seems like a good enough guy, I think he’ll be a key character this season and he’s someone you’d need to take out before the end or else kiss the title goodbye. He’s a member of YOPA whom I feel more secure with, but I will admit that his silence also makes me feel a little uneasy sometimes and I expect he’d be happy to flip on me if needs be. Daniel - Still such a nice guy who is always checking up on me ever since I expressed my fears of YOPA not talking to me at all. :( He might be playing game a bit there, but at least he offers me nice conversations and includes me in strategic decisions - unlike the others who seem to feel inclined to my vote despite having rarely talked to me. Dom - I need to make the effort to talk to him more, I know Daniel is cautious he might have an idol though… So expect if YOPA gets numbers for Dom to be picked off quicker than most of the audience will probably like. /: Gerda - See paragraph above, I just over her! ^_^ Jen - She’s talking a lot more to me this week, which is nice as it means I have at least a rapport with her unlike some people…. However I still view her as such a huge threat that needs to be taken out sometime pre-merge before she runs the show all over again. I don’t trust Jen, but I still like her if that makes sense. People with good social games are always likable though. Jessie - I do love talking to her, I just feel a little awkward initiating the conversation each time. She seems like a very nice person and she did offer me strategic advice whenever I acted worried about the vote, despite hearing from Gerda about Shawn being a unanimous target. I mainly did that to make her think she had some control over my vote which means I’m more likely to receive information from her. Michelle - I did the same thing that I did with Jessie. Honestly, I could just copy and paste Jessie’s commentary here as Michelle is someone else that I find to be very nice and someone that I appeared vulnerable to in order to give me future reason to go back to her for information/protection. Ryan - Apart from playing Cards Against Humanity… Nothing. I think he’s screwed next tribal unless someone gets an idea. And there you have it folks, I’ll try not to use as much prefix as I did in my previous conclusion. But there are my views on the week anyways, so see you in a couple of days! :)

SZYMON First of all, i want to apologize for not writing confessionals before, i was waiting and hoping to make a video one soon but i dont think it will be possible soon.

Anyway, i really love this game. Tumblr survivor is such a new amazing exeprience for me and im enjoying every second of it, im learning a lot of stuff about tumblr and everyone is so good

I came in this game already having experience, playing orgs before. I was hoping it woudnt be that clear but people knew it since start which made me worried at first. That means that i kinda do have a target on my back, and also means that i need to addapt to it my strategy. I have an alliance with Sam, Lauren, Grace and Lachlan which is my main alliance, but i feel like having individual connections with almost all tribe except Maria and Seth. I think i will reallly need Maria for my game, because she’s a threat and for now it woudnt work for me to get rid of all threats, because when they will be all gone who will be next big threat to go? yeah, that would be me.

I know i need to win this reward, or generally someone from our tribe needs to win, Its clear that, if one of us other tribe will win then me or Grace would be exiled, Which isnt cool at all in concept of playing in immunity.

Ugh, ive gotta work really hard in this reward, and last thing i would do will be to give up

JEN

oh Lord I’m afraid I’m in a sticky situation. I won reward twice so people might not like me for sending 2 of their strongest players to exile. Also, if someone else wins reward they’ll find out that you get a clue each time you win reward for the beach. I can’t afford someone like Gerda getting it because she already seems to be suspicious of me for some reason. I’m just afraid in general that people want to vote me out. Also this challenge is AWFUL. I’ve been doing it for hours on hours and I’ve only got 261. I’m doing my best. :/   I’m glad to have Jessie and Michelle. Jessie and I are so in sync which is great. I love how my tribe is always joking around and saying puns/old people jokes. It makes the season a lot of fun. :)

DANIELLE RIP SZYMON (plz come back soon :((((( ) why the FUCK did you send him to exile whoever it was that won reward on the old people team sdkjgbhna;skdlgbhnjaskdlfghnjaskdlhgbnkdl hwas so close to winning the reward :(((((((( ANYWAYS

*patiently waits until we eventually loose an immunity comp and for them to put a commerical for like a crib or something* when old people try to make jokes and be funny:

*im sorry, i like making fun of old people whoopsies* anyways, even tho im kinda close with people i feel like ill probs go next why you might ask? idk. just feelin it. always feelin it. imma go back to playing this BULLSHIT of an immunity challenge smh hosts can yall not LET ME LIVE

GRACE

(This is part one of my iconic confessional since I have so much to talk about) So it’s been a while since I’ve made a confessional so here is what I’ll be addressing in this confessional -Lachlan returning from exile -Szymon going to exile -exile exile exile I guess I can start with what Lachlan told me when he got back from exile. So he comes back, and we’re all like “yay Lachlan’s back” but lowkey in my head I’m thinking “SHOW ME THE IDOL!!!!!!!”, then he messages me saying that he found the idol but the idol wasn’t there and I think I died a little inside because idol plans NEVER go my way. At least we all know Dom has it for sure now. So Lachlan tells me “should I tell the alliance about it?” and I said go for it to build trust or whatever since apparently Lachlan is bad at doing that. That brings me to my next point. Lachlan is literally an idiot sometimes, like I love the boy to death but SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP. He went up to Szymon and was like “well who do you trust in this game??” “who would you vote out next” AND WE BARELY HAD A CHALLENGE UP WHAT IS THIS. It literally feels like babysitting sometimes between Lauren and Lachlan’s gameplay and not really knowing when to be quiet. Szymon doesn’t really trust Lachlan, and Lachlan doesn’t really trust Szymon and I’m just so over trying to make them be nice to each other but I have to. I literally can’t afford to cut either one of them loose because I love them both. Since Szymon has been on exile, I’ve felt completely alone, like a Malcolm without a Denise and I hate being so stereotypical but it’s true. Like he sent me a lone snapchat saying “I miss you” today and like I’m so happy he actually gets to come back because we have lots of strategy to talk about. I miss being in skype calls with him, it’s been a long 2 days without him here. We have so much to talk about and we could technically talk now but it’s late there and lil cinnamon needs his beauty sleep. Since he’s been gone, I’ve been getting to know Lachlan better and he said many things that kinda made me worry about my position in this game. He told me I was like the kingpin of the tribe and like I don’t want to be kingpin because I swear I will not go out Drew style honestly rip him. It made me paranoid that people completely see me as a hella threat, and I just can’t handle being a huge threat YET AGAIN when I play this time. Do I have like a giant sign that says THREAT that is stuck to me??? Am I like handcuffed to threat and they threw away the key??? I can literally not even talk game to anyone and just be nice and the whole tribe will think I’m a threat *side eyes the snake b*. Lachlan basically TOLD me I was a threat, and I know I’m just being hella paranoid because Hanne and Maria are way bigger threats than me and I’m the one the newbies want in an all newbie alliance but still. It makes me a little nervous. I think I’m going to end this confessional here but part 2 will pick up starting with challenge scores, tribal plans and possibly what Szymon tells me about exile if I talk to him before I film it. Sorry I had to cut this up, I wanted to do all video but I needed to get some stuff off my mind before I exploded from all the info. Plus no 20 minute confessionals for me no thank you. I’m not about that life.

SZYMON

Alright so i failed at reward challenge, and despite i was kinda close to win, i still lost. And of course i got exiled, which had a positive and very negative side of it. Positive factor is that i got a lot of info and learnt how exile works, and most imporantly that idol there was already taken, which is really imporatnt information for my game. Negative is that i lost contact with tribe for couple of days, and that i wasnt able to help and motivate my tribe in this challenge. It really sucks to return from exile and go straight on tribal council, but i need to work my magic and make sure that im safe, and my alliances/indivudual strong bonds are safe, and by that i mean Lauren, Grace and Hanne. The only people i dont trust are Maria, Lachlan and Seth, basically because for me personally its way more easy to work together with girls and keep close bonds with them than with girls, except Samuel, i really like him and im sure i want to work with him and keep him close. For the safety of my personal game, i can’t returning from exile and push for who i want to go home which in this case would be Seth, because it easly would backfire aganist me, and i will agree on what majority thinks is the best, which is the weakest link Danielle, which im really sad about it since i like her a lot on personal level Peace out <3

JEN OMFG ahhh I’m a little shocked and scared. After winning the last 2 reward challenges, I sent members from both tribes to exile island. There is no idol at exile island at this point because Jessie has it. We have a plan to use it between Jessie, Dom, and I whenever tribe swap happens for whoever is in minority. Well….if you win reward and don’t go to exile island, you get idol clues for back at the beach. After 2 clues (1. I’m a male survivor contestant.   2. I have never made merge.), I guessed that it is JP from Cooks. Therefore I have an idol that no one knows about. I’m afraid to tell anyone because idols are dangerous and people like to vote out those with idols. But if someone else wins reward…..they’ll find out about the clues on the beach and they may try to vote me out anyway. It��s tricky. I’m loyal to my closest allies but they may not believe that. IDK I’m scared. I’m afraid that I may be targeted for winning reward. I don’t want to go out pre-merge but it’s always possible. I hope Jessie, Dom, and I can use the idols at the correct time so it’s effective. I want to tell Jessie about the new idol but I might wait a bit and see how things play out first. I just am not sure what a good move would be Survivor-wise. I heart Jessie though <3 <3 Dongyin just won immunity which is great!! I’m proud of my tribe. My closest allies (Jessie and Michelle) are considering the best options for future tribal councils. It may be easiest to vote out someone that everyone agrees upon.. but Gerda (you’re cool so I hope you don’t think anything of this)  has connections to the other tribe (she knows Syzmone apparently) and is a threat both strategically and challenge-wise. We need people who are good at challenges on our side but what happens if tribe swap occurs and she flips over to Nangan with Syzmone? If we have a majority at all, it could be in vain if she is a wild card and votes against us. Phew this game is intense.  

GRACE

MARIA ok so it’s our second tribal council…… honestly i’m SO nervous. hanne told me before the challenge that szymon told her there’s a majority alliance which her, seth, bat and i aren’t a part of. GREAttTTTttt. but i submitted a good score for the challenge and i’ve done better than my tribe’s average in all the other challenges. so it wouldn’t make sense for them to get rid of me. i legitimately am so scared it could be me tonight and i might find out what being voted out is like. rip i just wanted to make merge :(

LAUREN

DANIELLE

YAASSS dongWIN fuck the babies theyre just sitting there on their moms tit sucking away

DANIELLE

THEY SAID I WAS THE WEAK LINK? IM SO TEMPTED TO SCREENSHOT ALL THE SHITTY SCORES AND POST THEM IN THE TAG ITS FUCKING 8:30 AM IM FUCKING HEATED LETS DO THIS SHIT Bat: 80 Sam: 114 Lauren: 176 Me: 171 PLEASE FUCKIN EXPLAIN THIS TO ME I would like to throw some people under the bus for a minute. Bat has gotten HORRIBLE scores in the 2 comps she completed. the other one? DIDNT FUCKING HAND IN. Why they fuck did I get sent home? Bat has gotten WAYYYY worse scores than me. I don’t understand how I was the weakest. IS THERE ANOTHER AGENDA HERE?? HMM?? I was gonna start a fucking full on power alliance this week. like???? i had plans HER FIRST CHALLENGE SCORE WAS A 46 ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW and like????????????im so confused????????????????idk man fuck this game Anyways. Dongyin for the win hell yea

LAUREN