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PSA: I miss Lucas Ripley

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Sharpwin Headcanon 2x16

This is what I wish would happen at the end of next week’s episode. There’s so much hype guys that I’m really curious to see what these writers do.

“I should have listened to you,” he said looking at her apologetically.

“Yea. Well, it’s fine. At least no one got hurt in the process.”

“No it’s not. You tried so many times to tell me something was wrong and instead of having your back, I decided to obey the rules. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” She kept staring at him not really knowing what to say.

“I’m only able to do this,” he scans the room in reference in the hospital. “Because of you. If I’ve learnt nothing in the last few weeks, I’ve realized that you never needed a title to be who you are, to stay by my side, to support me the way you have. When everything changes, one thing is constant, you. You’re my person Helen.”

He wants a response from her but he knows better. Her expression is difficult to read. He can’t quite figure out what she’s thinking. It’s expected by now. Every time he gives her one of his speeches, it renders her speechless. She withholds her words, leaving him with so many thoughts that he wished he was brave enough to convey. She gets up, ready to leave his office, when he remembers something.

“Oh, I find it hard to believe that someone with such good judge of character like yourself didn’t know the kind of person Castro was. Did you?” She starts fidgeting, going back and forth in her mind about if she should tell him the truth. She remembers telling him that without trust, they have nothing. “I knew,” she says barely above a whisper, slightly embarrassed at her admission.

Stunned, Max rises from his seat and closes the distance between them. He needs to get a closer look at her. He wants to scan her eyes and read them. His voice is low but unaccusing. “So why did you allow her to take half of your department?” She tries to avert his gaze but the moment they break eye contact, he reaches for her chin to refocus her attention back to him. “Helen,” he says in that tone of voice that he knows is capable of breaking her resolve. Even if she didn’t want to, she’d have to tell him the truth.

“She-could we just forget about it?” she pleads, trying to keep the secret to herself. He says nothing. His face alone speaks for itself. He’s not going to give it up until he knows the whole truth. “Fine. She told me that she’d stop your treatment if I didn’t share my department with her. And there was just no way I was putting your life on the line.”

She lets out a huff of air, feeling like she was finally able to breathe in that moment. Max would only speculate how she felt about him, but the evidence was now so overwhelming, that neither of them could ignore even if they tried. He steps back, trying to process the gravitas of what she just admitted. Only one word came to mind. “Why?” he asked. He wanted an answer from her although he knew that she would try to downplay the importance of what she did. He’s shocked when she doesn’t hesitate. “Because, I’d be damned if I lose you. Maybe you’re my person too.”

They pause and look at each other. The familiarity of an unspoken longing to be all of the above to each other is present in their eyes. They’ve checked almost every box except the one called “lovers.” They feel it, every time they’re in each other’s space. There is electricity lingering in their fingers when they touch each other. They know the way their hearts race just a couple beats faster when they simply stare at each other. Still, with every admission that they’d go above and beyond for each other, they retreat to the the safety of their ill defined relationship. It’s easier to be each other’s person rather than lover at this point. But they know, that one day, it would all come to a head and they’d run into each other’s arms and never let go.

One day but not today.

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- Luke Alvez, stop making me like you! - Ha! Never.

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9-1-1 + couples: Bobby Nash & Athena Grant

“Right here, right now. You’re real. I’m real. We can be real together.”

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“I can’t do this without you. I’m not fully here, a part of me is still in that ambulance”

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Dr. Max Goodwin to his soulmate Dr. Helen Sharpe.

After watching this scene for the 30th time, It really struck me that Helen’s mere presence is probably the only thing other than Luna’s existence that is keeping Max together. The reason I say her presence is because at this time he and Helen are not communicating like they used to. Notice she said “you won’t talk to me,”.  She’s not lying. He’s avoiding her, most likely for a myriad of reasons.

My top three theories is that 1. he knows that if he’s around her long enough he’s going to really grieve and ultimately let Georgia go, which would open the door to possibly forming a romantic relationship with Helen, because let’s face it at this point Max already knows he loves her, deeply.  This leads to my next theory.

2. Max feels guilty. Notice in episode 2x01 he left Georgia’s side to look for Helen and when he came back she was already dead and on top of all of that Max and Helen had already begun an emotional affair of some sort. They were both sharing things that were way too intimate for “just friends” and colleagues to share with each other. They shared their hopes, dreams, and their fears with each other. Granted, it was not intentional and both, particularly Helen, had tried to avoid and deny it, but the love they share is so deeply rooted in their spiritual beings it was almost as if they had been waiting their entire lives to find each other, so like a runaway train it could not be stopped. Again, Max knows he loves Helen, but he is still grieving Georgia.  So he’s not ready to fully admit that to himself or her but he feels guilty because his wife died unexpectedly during a time when he was unintentionally and unequivocally falling in love with another woman.

My third point comes from Max himself; he wanted to spare Helen. Go with me on this y’all. I think Max and Helen’s connection is so strong and seamless that their emotions feed of of each others’ and blend in a way. He doesn’t share his current feelings with her because he doesn’t want to expose her to his pain which would in turn cause her pain.  Knowing that she has already experienced losing a loved one, he doesn’t want to hurt her all over again, even if that means sacrificing his own healing process by suffering alone. 

He told her “I don’t want you to feel this, I don’t you to experience this.” 

Max acknowledges that its not fair because Helen didn’t do anything to deserve his coldness.  But, similarly to how she decided to triage their relationship last season in episode 17 without his permission, I think he decided to compartmentalize his grief so she won’t be negatively affected by it. Problem is that meant shutting Helen out, which won’t last. 

I said all that to say this. Even though Max is battling his grief and seems determined to do it alone, the fear of potentially losing Helen being at that hospital with this whole toxic hip replacement situation scared the mess out of him to the point where he was forced to confront her and peel back some of the layers he had been shielding himself in for the previous two episodes. 

Because Helen knows him oh so well, she called in out on emotionally manipulating her when he finally showed some genuine emotions after being closed off to her for a while.  Which in a sense I believe he was, but only because he was desperate and panicking at the thought of not having her presence on a daily basis. 

So, I’m glad that Helen stuck up for herself and her patient despite Max’s pleas, one thing about our girl is she will check someone that needs to be checked. But I’m even happier that she expressed to Max that whenever he was ready she would be there for him for ALL OF IT, meaning the good, the bad, the ugly, the highs and lows, ebbs and flows, low-key sounds like wedding vows if you ask me. 

Did y’all see how relieved and proud Max was while watching Helen’s interview?

If the show continues on this trajectory, I predict that the Sharpwin fandom is in for a beautiful, honest, timeless love story, I cannot wait! 

This episode was so good and had me all in my Sharpwin feelings, so I just wanted to share my thoughts. 

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Reblog if you are or know of an adult fan fiction writer

I’m trying to prove a point

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PSA: I miss Lucas Ripley

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Request Special

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Vicley Positivity Project

So, some of us have been talking and while it will most likely not change the writers minds I would like for them to see and understand how much the relationship between Victoria Hughes and Lucas Ripley means to us fans, so I urge everyone to join in on this little project.

When: June 1 - June 30 Where: Twitter

Tweet about one Vicley scene (Vicley related scene) each day and why you love the scene, what that scene made you feel, why it was so important, mention the writing and directing of the scene if there was something you especially liked about that and so on,…

Tag the S19 Writers, Krista Vernoff (the new show runner), the writer and director from the episode of that specific scene you are talking about.

Post gifs and screencaps of said scene.

No negativity, demands or threats: Don’t threaten with no longer watching the show and don’t demand anything. Just show them how much this pair means to you. Stay positive.

I hope people will consider joining in on this.

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We just had this conversation at work

Reblog if it’s ok for people to give you $599.99

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Jack: What does “take out” mean?

Hotch: Food.

Garcia: Dating.

Emily: Murder.

JJ: It can be all three if you’re bold enough.

Hotch: [sighs]

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