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[suguruist]

— ❀ ﹏ ✧ . ˚ ⚘ ; TOORU OIKAWA AS YOUR GAMER BOYFRIEND | headcanons

genre : FLUFF FLUFFY FLUFFY PANCAKES KFKFKDJ

w/c :

characters : gamerboy!tooru and gn!reader

notes : self indulgent LMFAO ….. also yasss i play valo LOL

- oikawa is 101% a valo guy you can’t tell me otherwise

- no bcz he would literally violently react to the letters wasd ( LAWL SO DO I gamercore )

- he sometimes gets bruises on his fingers by tapping the keyboard too long / too hard and asks you to help massage them

- while you do that he’ll be lying in your lap complaining to you about how difficult it was to win

- his legs and shoulders cramp a lot so you have to remind him to stretch regularly

- HE HAS AN INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT DEDICATED TO GAMING OKAY it’ll have a cringe ass username like @/o1k4wagamer

- asks you to promote his account on your instagram and twitter so you do with some hashtag like # Follow My Bf or smth

- his set up is surprisingly aesthetic and is a mix of both of y’all’s favourite colours — purple, white and grey.

- you give him cute stickers you get from your friends and he sticks them on his headset

- has thousands of pictures of you and him around his pc okay and they’re all framed nicely too and when he’s on disc calls he’ll tell this to all his friends

- shows you off on discord 💀💀💀💀

- he would win games and say like “ this win is dedicated to you babeeee “ and kiss you with his mic on or smth

- would stop his lives or afk if you needed him — like that one time you burned yourself on the stove and he FLEW down the stairs to check on you

- because of him you naturally got into gaming as well

- he would literally be so helpful for the first few times you tried it — giving you a cute gamer tag, buying you a new headset and he! would! let! you! use! his! setup! ( idk if it’s just yall but when my friends want to use my setup i get pissed as hell LOL )

- he decided to go live with you while playing a horror game together , you afked so many times because of how scary it was

- you have the habit of lying in his lap after a while and he indulges it, combing through your hair as he plays

- sometimes you would just fall asleep on his shoulder while playing and he would adjust his positions ever so slightly so it doesn’t wake you up

- he gets mad at you sometimes while gaming with you but he would always apologise after

- uses light taps on your wrist to guide you when you’re gaming

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— ❀ ﹏ ✧ . ˚ ⚘ ; SUGURU GETOU FLUFF HEADCANONS | a journey from friends to lovers

genre : fluff , smut ( a little bit ) highschool!au. NO ANGST just fluffy shit

w/c : 1.1k

character(s) : getou suguru (duh) x gn!reader | mentioned gojou satoru, mei mei, shoko ieiri and utahime

notes : HAHA i don’t know what’s this i suddenly missed writing so much and getou has been Overtaking my Brain lately so here we are ! yay lol

DEVELOPING FEELINGS (1).

on the first day of school, suguru catches your eye first from across the classroom, then waving you to the seat beside him when he notices you’re awkward with new people.

he also keeps an eye out for you like you’re his sibling and would not let anyone mess with you, not even his own best friend.

he takes note of the subjects you’re weak in and tries his best to help you out in these subjects. especially math and physics, when he notices how much you struggle with it, he arranges meetups to teach you the tiny details about the subject you struggle with.

he doesn’t really care that shoko and utahime gossip about him behind his back when he leans over you, his larger frame casting a shadow above you when he explains the mistakes you make in your homework.

he knows you so well that even the slightest darkening of your eyebags cause him to ask you if you’ve been sleeping enough.

somehow knows all your favourite food and drinks, and would buy them from the cafeteria if you have to stay back for remedial or extra help during lunch.

since getou uses the same path home as you do, he occasionally drops into your hands a bag of doughnuts or a cup of starbucks, as a reward for making it past a day.

he once ran into gojou teasing you about your physical appearance and was ready to Square Up with him. gojou didn’t leave uninjured.

the two of you worked together in a lot of group projects. when he was the group leader, he made very! subtle allowances for you — he knew you had stage fright so he would never let you present in front of the class.

he took physical appearance very seriously so he would lean over to adjust your collar and shirt if it was wrinkled ( always with consent )

the two of you ran for student council together. getou helps you with your speech and badge pinning when both of you get voted.

whenever you get insecure/cry/get mad, you come to him and getou panics ( even though he has a naturally calming aura ) and texts utahime on What To Do If Your Friend Has A Mental Breakdown.

if he couldn’t comfort you he would apologise and feel guilty about it because he valued your happiness.

you once told him ‘it’s fine, having you around is comfort in itself’ and he blushed so hard his face seemed like it was glowing.

he couldn’t stop thinking about that sentence days after. mei mei laughs about it till this day.

he takes shortcuts home from school and once found you crying on the floor in an alleyway. when he heard who had hurt you, he grabbed your wrist and pulled you closer, vowing to hunt down the gang of hooligans.

constantly needs money loans ( which he always returns ) because he splurges at the arcade with gojou. he complains that gojou steals all his stuff and that’s why he needs so much.

buys you a new pencilcase and bag for your birthday, the one that you’d been eying everytime you went shopping with him.

when he had to select his subject combination, he had the choice to choose any subject because of his outstanding grades but he chose pure chemistry because he wanted to be with you.

next to gojou you were his best friend and he wanted to make life beautiful for you.

LOVERBOY (2).

getou found himself developing feelings for you sooner or later, and his body language began to change around you.

he has the habit of tugging his sleeves over his wrists when he’s nervous, and he tends to retie his hair multiple times whenever he’s shy.

his voice gets deeper when he talks to you, partially because of nerves and partially because he wants to impress you. he stopped when you asked him about it because he was embarrassed.

he goes from wearing his typical black hoodie or khaki oversized shirt to a crisp white polo tee when he’s with you.

he gets easily jealous when he sees you with other boys, though he never would admit it.

he gave gojou the silent treatment for two days when gojou placed his hand around your waist. gojou got the hint.

getou is EXTREMELY good at spotting red flags in other men. whenever you pointed out someone that was trouble as a dating interest, he shuts it down immediately.

then he would warn the man to never come near to you again.

his confession was a simple note, short and sweet, and went straight to your heart.

he would give it to you in a place where there wasn’t much people, firstly because he didn’t want to embarrass you, and secondly so he didn’t have to face mei mei and gojou if he got rejected.

he approached you shyly, fidgeting with his fingers one day after extra calculus, and perched on the edge of the table watching you pack.

he prepared many gifts, from a bouquet of roses to the fluffy soft toys he knew you liked.

nearly cried when you accepted his confession.

though he acted tough on the outside, he flung himself into your arms the moment you said “i like you too” and didn’t let go for more than a minute.

he loves headpats and hair ruffles. he would find any excuse to sneak up under your palm just for headpats. ( please indulge this boy he’s so cute )

gojou gets pissed whenever the two of you Act Up in front of him. getou says it’s just because he’s jealous.

he forgets his hair ties on a daily basis so you have spares around your wrist at all times. during period changes he tends to pay your seat a visit and ask for more hairties.

he claims it’s because his hairties break but shoko told you privately it was just because he wanted to use your hairties.

first date with getou is so??? Romantic??? he sends you a random 3am text and tells you to meet him at the beach.

moonlight dances are his specialty. he takes you whirling and twirling across the soft sand till you can barely stand, then he pulls you into his strong arms and holds you against his chest.

you’re so much smaller compared to him and he just wants to fold you into his arms and keep you by his side at all times.

ends the ‘date’ at Six (6) AM with the two of you barely awake under the shade of a tree, heads resting on each other’s shoulders and fingers entangled.

the two of you almost didn’t get to see the sunrise but getou would take lots of photos of it as memories.

it was also here under the rapidly brightening sky that both of you shared your first kiss, exploring each other’s mouths and tasting the joy of sunshine and salt on each other’s lips.

ESTABLISHED. (3)

getou takes you out on the simplest but best dates — whether it was to the arcade, amusement park or the movies.

if he went to the arcade with you, he would pay for all your credits. wouldn’t even let you lift a single finger to spend money.

cheers you on whenever you hit the jackpot / win someone in a game.

even if he didn’t like a particular game he would still play it with you if you asked him to. and with 100% enthusiasm as well.

in the amusement park, he didn’t have to look out for you, just let you run wild finding things you enjoyed doing. he trusts that you would not let yourself get taken away by other people.

he buys you any snack you look at, no matter the price. shares with you often but always gives you the bigger portion.

getou spends like almost all his money trying to win that one huge soft toy on display for you.

he would try his best to win games for you as well.

he likes intertwining your hands with his because of how soft they feel, and it makes him feel like you’re going to be here forever and never leave him.

gojou would always send dirty texts to getou whenever the two of you are on dates — EG ‘don’t forget there’s school tomorrow, don’t go too hard ⁉️💪’ getou never lets him get away with it.

also the way he texts you!!!!! is so!!!! fucking!!!! PRECIOUS!!!!!32&:&/&

he has PERFECT punctuation, small caps and ZERO typos. he uses ‘:)’ ‘<3’ ‘:(‘ instead of emojis. EG ‘hey babe, i’m coming over in five. <3’

when he first meets your parents he is Literally every Asian parent’s Dream Boyfriend okay i am not kidding!

he comes in such an immaculate suit and pants.

his collar is always waxed SO NEATLY. LITERALLY TO THE NTH DEGREE.

extremely polite and helpful to your family! he gets along well with your younger sibling ( he says it’s because he had experience with satoru ) and has such manners when he talks to your parents.

they give you their blessing almost right away.

NSFW !! !!

can be both a hard or soft dom in bed.

gives out suitable punishments if you’ve been a brat that day, mostly circulating around spanking and orgasm denial.

always has a safe word, safe action and safe colour. since both of you tend to go multiple rounds every time you do it, he stops in between rounds no matter how heated it was and asks you how you feel.

loves foreplay!! loves teasing!!!! he would go extremely slow just to see you crumble and beg under him before he pounds mercilessly into you at the least expected moment.

he ALWAYS lets you finish, no matter how harsh his punishments were. he would edge and overstimulate, but he would always let you reach the peak that you needed so badly.

he would never deny you of pleasure.

his aftercare is always the best — he runs a warm bath for you, massaging your scalp and shoulders.

if you cried ( which happens too many times ) he would wipe away your tears with his hands and reassure you that you did a good job.

always has some snack or other to help you calm down after your high.

whether you managed to hold out, allow him to finish or disobeyed him, he would still give you the same aftercare treatment.

he would never say that you deserved aftercare only if you earned it.

the moment you cry the safe word or say that you’re uncomfortable, he pulls out and gets off you immediately, stroking your hair and caressing your face.

he loves you.

and the first time the two of you said it and really felt it was when you embraced him on the balcony door, the promise of an engagement ring hanging in the crisp night air.

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Can you do - when you don’t say “i love you” back - with daddy Toji, Suguru, Satoru and Sukuna? Thank you Mars

Love you 😘

WHEN YOU DON’T SAY "I LOVE YOU" BACK

Fushiguro Toji, Geto Suguru, Gojo Satoru & Ryōmen Sukuna

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FUSHIGURO TOJI

"I'm only gonna be away for a couple of days" he says carrying his bag to the front door, "are you gonna be okay on your own?" he smirks when you throw your arms around his neck, "yeah, don't worry about it" you smile against his lips during a kiss.

"Okay, I'm going to go now. I love you, angel" he says taking his bag in his hand, "’kay, bye bye".

When he turns to look at you his eyebrow is raised, "I said, I'm going. I love you" he says reiterating the last three words louder, "oh, I love you too Daddy, come back soon" you smile waving at him, "be a good girl" he says walking out of the house with a smile.

GETO SUGURU

"Mhh baby, you make me feel so good" he pushes slowly into you, your back arches as you feel him completely buried in you, "baby, I love you" he moans between thrusts. 

"Fuck, Suguru don't stop" you gasp when you're on the edge, but Geto stops.

"What the fuck, I was gonna cum" you moan underneath him trying to move your hips as he keeps you pinned to the mattress. "didn't you hear me by any chance?" he asks pulling out of you slightly, "Suguru, please" you groan biting your lip, "just answer me" he says giving you a smirk and pulling out a little more. 

"I-I'm sorry, please, I love you too" you answer trying to push yourself down to get more of his cock, "yes, fuck" he moans pushing his hips in one movement inside you, "that's my girl" he whispers in your ear not stopping thrusting against you.

GOJO SATORU

He's stuffing your face with kisses as you're eating breakfast at the kitchen table, "Toru, you're running late, go" you giggle as you try to push him away, "yeah I know, but when I think I won't be able to see you for days I feel sad" he pouts going back to snogging you.

"Okay, I'm ready. I'll miss you" he says clasping his hands in front of himself, "I love you princess", "bye bye Toru" you greet him with a smile as you finish washing the dishes.

"Oh, you're still here" you ask when you turn around to find Gojo standing there with his hands together, "did you forget something?" you ask as you arrange the dishes in the cupboard. "I said I love you" he says pushing his lips out, "and I said bye bye Toru" you smile without looking at him.

"Y/n don't be mean. Say it too" he says putting his hands on his hips, "’kay I love you Toru" you smile going towards him, "as you should" he says disappearing from the room.

RYOMEN SUKUNA

"Oi, brat, I'm heading out, do you need anything?" he says not paying too much attention to you, "no no" you shake your head making your feet dangle off your big bed. 

"Good, don't make a mess while I'm gone" he says making you giggle, "I love you". 

Sukuna isn't one to say “I love you” very often but when he does say it he expects to hear it back, when your response doesn't come through he turns to look at you, "so?" he asks looking at you crookedly, "oh, ’bye master, come back soon" you smile dropping your head to the side.

"Brat, don't make me repeat myself" he says visibly pissed, "I love you" you reply in a huff biting your bottom lip, "good girl" he smirks leaving the room.

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lmao sorry i'm sending you two asks in a row but after reading the last sukuna fic it came to my mind how curses and sorcerers can model and control their domains as they desire, so like... what if, when reader's life is in danger, when sukuna has to fight with a strong enemy or something alike, he kinda traps her in his innate domain but makes it enjoyable? like, with a classic japanese house, a cute garden and all the comforts she can ask for.

i may be wrong here, since i'm an "anime only" i still have to understand how all their powers work lol

i’m also currently anime only so i’m also pretty confused about the whole power system so this entire fic might not be a “proper” fic but i really liked this ask and i’m going to do it anyway <3

author’s note: this is a part of my whole “king of curses” series, read the full fic here and the little drabble here.

warnings: mentions of smut, violence, mentions of blood

After long days, you simply like to rest your head on Sukuna’s chest as the two of you lay in bed. His hands caress your back and hair, your fingers splaying in his hair.

Who knew that the two of you would be holding each other like lovers, finding calmness in each other’s embraces. Sukuna found it surprising that he found a soft spot for a human, you finding it shocking that you feel affection for a demon. Love is strange, the two of you suppose.

“What’s my darling thinking of, hm?” Sukuna coos when he sees your eyebrows stitch together.

You’re busy tracing the markings on his chest, fingers tapping his warm skin. “Nothing. Just... I have this bad feeling.”

Sukuna leans down and plants a kiss on your forehead. “You know I won’t hurt you.”

“No, it’s not you.” You’re quick to protest. “I don’t want anything to happen to you.” You bite your lip as you gaze up at him, worry flickering in your eyes. “What if one of those sorcerers come for you?”

Sukuna’s lips curve into a smile as he laughs. How cute, he thinks, his little human is all worried for him.

“My precious girl, nothing will happen to me or you. I will see to that.” He takes your palm and kisses the back of it. “Understand?”

You nod your head, giggling as Sukuna flips you over so that you are pinned underneath him. But even after he kisses your tense body until it grows pliable under his hands, feasting on you and fucking you until your legs go numb, you cannot help but still feel that worry gnawing inside you.

Sukuna wants to go to the next village over, terrorize the people there before he heads north and expands the territory of curses. He moves at dawn, you right by his side as his army of monsters rips apart the town.

The screams of terror begin to quiet down as the humans either begin to die off or become curses. But there is still a strange tension in the air, one that makes you clutch Sukuna’s arm tighter. You feel as if the breeze shifts directions, causing the hairs on your arms to rise.

It is as if someone is watching you.

“Ryo, something is wrong.”

He doesn’t dismiss you like he did before— instead, you feel his muscles ripple underneath your touch as he narrows his eyes and stands at attention.

There, a few feet away. A man wearing a blue jacket and matching pants, a large sword in his hands.

A sorcerer.

He advances with a jump, his sword-wielding arm raised and reading to swing.

Your entire body stills in horror, but Sukuna shoves you back. “Domain expansion,” he growls roughly.

A bubble forms around the king and the sorcerer, but there’s another separate one forming around you. You watch as it surrounds you in darkness, your heart thrumming in a panic that makes you shut your eyes.

You trust Sukuna— He’ll be alright, he knows what he’s doing. Your king hasn’t been alive for a thousand years for being an idiot, after all. But you are absolutely terrified of his power, you can feel it growing all around you— What did he do?

Taking a deep breath and fighting your fear, you open your eyes and gasp.

You’re in a garden, blooming cherry blossoms everywhere in your sight, bushes of white jasmines lining the grass next to a bench. A small lake reflects the blue sky and pink flowers, and beyond, a quaint house stands with brown shingles and glass walls.

What is this?

You plant yourself on the bench, dizzy and overwhelmed from the sudden change in setting. Sukuna never really explained the extent of his powers to you, but you’ve been with him long enough to understand that he can create these mini rips in the universe— domains, he calls it.

He probably made this particular one to keep you safe.

The thought makes your little human heart swell with joy. Your king isn’t a monster like everyone makes him out to be, how can he be one when he cares about you so much?

Thinking about Sukuna makes you begin to worry again. Is he okay? Is he hurt? Your mind fills with thoughts, head in your hands as you wait for him.

Sukuna eyes the blood on his hands— Disgusting, he sneers as he tries to get the sticky substance off of his arms and torso. The sorcerer’s limbs lay before him, bones hanging out of them. Sukuna cannot even distinguish the body of the man anymore because of the way he ripped through him with the snap of his fingers.

It was not at all a fair battle— Sukuna won with ease. Sure, he took his time though, wanting to teach the pathetic sorcerer a lesson by torturing him ever so slowly. But now, all he wants to do is rush back to you and take a warm bath, wanting to ease the aches lingering in his back and arms. A thousand years older but my body has not gotten any younger.

He watches his own domain crumble away, before he steps into the bubble that he formed around you. A little garden that he thought you would enjoy— he knows how much you like picking flowers. But he blinks in shock when he sees you sitting at a bench under a cherry blossom tree, quietly sobbing with your hands covering your face.

He approaches you, sitting besides you and forcing you into his lap. You quickly accept his embrace, tucking your head into his shoulder and continuing to let your tears drip onto his bare torso.

“Darling, what’s the matter? Do you not like this domain? I can make you another place—”

“No!” You cry out, leaning back you that face him. Sukuna can now clearly see your puffy red eyes— How long were you crying for? He curses himself, he should have gotten here faster.

“I thought you were hurt,” you whisper, tracing the blood splattering that still lingers on Sukuna’s chest.

Sukuna feels strange. He already felt odd after realizing his deeper feelings towards you, how he cares about you more than he should care for a human, a pet. But the way you look at him now, with distress painting your features, it’s as if someone reached in and squeezed his heart.

He loves you, and you love him. A human and a monster, a match made in hell.

Sukuna kisses your tears, finding satisfaction in the salty taste it leaves on his tongue. “My pretty girl, I am a king. It would take more than a hundred sorcerers to give me even a measly cut.” He fakes a scoff. “Perhaps I should even feel offended that you underestimate my abilities.”

You widen your eyes almost comedically, shaking your head. “No! You are so powerful, Ryo, I know, I’m sorry, I just—”

“Shhh.” He silences you with a finger on your lips, the nail gently tracing them. “How about we take a nice bath, and then you can truly show me how sorry you are?”

You walk to the house eagerly, Sukuna trailing right after you with a satisfied grin. Sure, he might be in love with you, but he cannot help to take advantage of your blinding loyalty by being a complete and utter tease.

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a relationship should be 50/50. i talk about how much i love sukuna and you listen attentively.

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i still love them yes

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kōshi sugawara ; gazing at the moon .

📻 . . ## BEEP! , , presenting a kōshi sugawara fluff , in which you and sugawara spend an insomniac winter night on the front porch under the starry night sky .

genre : fluff .

matching : sugawara x reader .

tw : none !

“ it’s beautiful tonight , but nothing compares to you . ”

! | . + credits to @/soufflechuuya for the details above the cut

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Prompt List #2

A/N: While a majority of these are mine there are a few I have found online/was inspired by

Feel free to use these for whatever you may want! Credit is not necessary but would be appreciated.

Prompt List #1

Fluff

“I’ve learnt to love you.”

“They’re good for each-other.” 

“(She/he/they) don’t compare to you. No one does.”

“Shut up and hold me.”

“I’m not leaving. Ever.”

“I promised to love you forever.”

“You’ll find your way back to me, I know you will.”

“I’ll take care of you.”

“Can you sing that song for me again?”

“I don’t know if you know this but, I love you.”

“I know it’s 2 in the morning but do you want to…” 

“It looks good on you.” 

“You’re the reason I’m still here.”

“I love you and all but…” 

“You saved me.”

“Would you like to stay?” 

“I’ll take the couch.” 

“I’m quite comfortable here.”

“How did I manage to get you.” 

“Maybe I’m just lucky.”

“It’s us agaisnt the world.”

“Are you hurt? What happened?”

“You fainted, are you alright?”

“What do you remember?”

“I think (she/he/they/I) rubbed off on you.”

“Don’t let go.”

“I promise.”

“Am I dreaming?”

“I don’t want to wake up.”

“Find me again.”

“Don’t forget me.”

“Well it’s a good thing I don’t plan on doing that.”

“Please don’t say goodbye.”

“I wish we didn’t we have to say goodbye.”

“You didn’t think you’d be able to get rid of me just yet did you?”

“Because I fell for you, isn’t it obvious?” 

“I could never get tired of you.”

“Are you alright?” “I will be.”

“No you don’t understand, I have to get back!”

“I’m not your princess.” 

“You say you hate it but your red face is telling me otherwise.” 

“For (her/him/them), (I’ll do) anything.”

“(She’s/he’s/they’re) worth the wait.”

“I can be your reason why.” 

“This is not what I meant when I told you to fall for me.” 

“I don’t know if I want to yell at you or kiss you.”

“Is it that hard to believe that I love you?”

“Stop flirting with me, I’m not going to fall for it.”

“Is somebody jealous?”

“Can you quit being sappy for five seconds?”

Angst

“Why does it sound like you’re saying goodbye?” 

“It’s always a losing game with you.”

“If it means anything, I love you.”

“I must’ve loved (her/him/them) a lot.”

“You’re in-love with somebody else.”

“(She/he/they/I) lost (her/his/their/my) soulmate.”

“It wasn’t supposed to end this way.” 

“I’ve moved on.”

“This isn’t the person I fell in-love with.”

“It doesn’t matter unless I’m their last right?”

“Why are you still fighting?”

“You were the one who walked out, not me.”

“Please don’t make me choose.”

“You’re choosing (her/him/them) over me?”

“You don’t get to call me that.”

“You lost the right when you walked out of my life.”

“What happened to forever?”

“Don’t you remember me?”

“Would you have said yes?”

“Please don’t make me choose.”

“You can’t just act like nothings wrong when it isn’t!”

“You’re with me for a reason, right?”

“Why would (I/she/he) fall for someone else?”

“I haven’t seen you in months.”

“You’ll always be a friend.”

“Did you love me (me/her/him/them)?”

“I’m sorry.” “For what?” “Everything.”

“I’ll see you soon, I promise.”

“You have to let me go.”

“It’s all in my head. This isn’t actually happening, you’re not real!”

“Look me in the eyes and repeat what you just said.”

“Why are you letting (her/him/them/me) do this to you?” “Because I love (her/him/them/you).”

“Would you do the same for me?”

“What happened to all of our promises?”

“This was our forever.”

“Don’t tell me to calm down!”

“It’s been years, can’t you just give me a chance.”

“I’m not ready to get hurt again.” 

“Because I know when I open my eyes this will all turn out to be a dream and I’ll lose you again.”

“I’m not ready to lose you.”

“No, not again. Please!”

“You just had to go and ruin everything.”

“Why do we have to keep hiding? I’m tired of being kept a secret.” 

“You know this means nothing right?”

“It’s not my fault you believe(d) everything I (say/said).”

“You promised forever.”

“Why is it so hard for you to believe me?”

“Wake up! Please don’t do this to me.” 

“Why did you have to go and fall in love with me?” 

“I shouldn’t still be in love with you.” 

General

“I still find myself falling asleep with you on my mind.”

“Do you not remember me?”

“I thought you said wouldn’t fall in-love.” 

“(She’s/he’s/they’re) just a friend.” “We used to be friends to be ‘just friends’ too.”

“I’d never fall in-love.”

“I’ll wait for you.” 

“Just take my hand.”

“You’re weak.”

“Was that part of the bet?”

“At least I kept my promises.”

“Take me back.”

“I need (her/him/them).” 

“Do you miss me?”

“What happened to us?”

“People say I’m heartless.”

“Another nightmare?”

“Are you afraid of me?”

“Is that a threat?”

“Hold onto me.”

“I have nothing.”

“It’s killing you.”

“Maybe you should give up.” 

“I’m tired of running.”

“(She/he/they) changed (her/his/their) world.”

“Just like we promised.”

“I can’t leave.”

“You’re a bad liar did you know?” 

“I could’ve helped.”

“I never wanted any of this.”

“Only you.” 

“Come home.”

“I’ll see you when I get back.”

“Just say the word.”

“Well, I can scratch that off my bucket list.”

“We really shouldn’t be doing this…”

“Do you trust me?” “No.”

“It was your idea!”

“What happened to your face?”

“All you had to do was ask.” 

“I don’t like you.” 

“I haven’t seen you in months.”

“Why is it always you?”

“Don’t let go.”

“Who said I ever stopped?”

“Get out of my head.”

“You flinched.”

“Is it worth it? Risking everything just for a chance.”

“I did it again, didn’t I?”

“I’m not going to fight you.”

“Every time I think I’m close to finally figuring you out you end up surprising me.”

[suguruist]

small details for fictional kisses

whispering ''kiss me'' to your lover

wrapping your arms around your lover's neck

kisses that travel from your lover's nose to their lips

breaking the kiss but instantly pressing your lips back together

intertwining your fingers

kisses that start out gentle but grows more passionate

forehead against forehead

running your fingers through your lover's hair

unbuttoning your lover's shirt, pressed against the wall

surprise kisses, in which your lover weren't prepared for it but responds immediately

a kiss in which, ''we're late for work but let's be later''

kisses shared under a waterfall

pulling your lover closer by the waistband

kissing under the stars

messy kisses, destroying furniture trying to reach the bed

a kiss that isn't meant to happen but it does anyway

sliding your hands down your lover's chest

grabbing your lover by the collar

''if we get caught kissing we're dead but let's risk it''

hand kisses

exploring each other's lips

smiling in-between kisses

now-or-never kisses

caressing your lover's cheek

good night kisses

''i was supposed to take a shower alone but sure, jump right in''

brushing your lips together, lingering for a moment

an accidental kiss between two exes

kisses in which, you've already said goodbye but can't help stealing another one

this might be our last kiss ever so let's make it last

kitchen counter make-outs

jumping into your lover's arms

soft kisses while cuddling in bed

i missed you kisses

a kiss that leave you breathless

stopping a kiss when it gets too heated

a kiss on the cheek turns into a kiss on the lips

trailing kisses from your lover's lips to their neck

''everything is going to be okay'' kisses

kisses that start of passionate but grows more delicate

pulling away from a kiss to look at each other, then smiling as you dive in for another kiss

wrapping your legs around your lover's body as they lift you

a goodbye kiss, but neither of you can quite let go

''we shouldn't do this'' but they do so, anyway

a swirling reunion kiss

''i've had a terrible day at work so just kiss me''

a kiss that lasts longer than it should

tending to your lover's wound, placing a kiss on top of their head, grateful they're still alive

spinning your lover into a kiss on the dance floor

kisses in which, i can't believe this is real, but i love you so much

[suguruist]

sskk ; fear what comes after

SHiNSOKUOKU WEEK , DAY #6 ; N4 ( fear ) and G5 ( sleep )

TW/s : death

angst , 531 words under the cut . drabble .

" akutagawa. "

atsushi curls up into the velvet chair beside his boyfriend's hospital bed, his eyes burning as he watches the faint rise and fall of akutagawa's chest. everything about him seems so frail, his shaking hands, his pale face, the hollow cheeks.

his cheeks are the worst, atsushi thinks, remembering how they once coloured with pink on their first date. all that happiness, love, joy - gone. like the wind. just...gone. and in it's place, leaving an empty shell, void of akutagawa's old essence. none of his dry humor, dark thoughts, or his satire voice.

it's just a ghost of his former self, and atsushi hates it. he hates the sickness that dominated akutagawa's body, the sickness that made it's way into his boyfriend. ( why ? ) and consumed him from the inside ( why him ? ) and ate away at him, till he was on the brink of death. ( why not me ? )

" akutagawa, please don't go. "

atsushi sobs now, seeing the way akutagawa's eyes flutter and land on him. those grey orbs that used to hold only indescribable hate for atsushi now holds pure love and affection, with the slightest silver of sadness hidden within their depths.

" jinko, you're scared. " he croaks, and there's a hint of his previous dryness in the nickname, and that makes atsushi cry even harder, because under all the layers of weakness and about-to-die expressions and the wires and the tubes, he's still akutagawa. still his akutagawa.

" dumbass, of course i'm scared. " atsushi protests, touching akutagawa's face.

" no, you're scared of me going to sleep, aren't you. "

akutagawa rubs his eyes. " you're scared that i'll sleep and never wake up. "

atsushi could only cry silently as he tried to understand what's akutagawa's point of saying something like this, when any day he could be gone, disappeared, and his memory would slowly fade from the earth. when each time he closes his eyes could be the last.

" jinko, don't fear the last time i'll sleep. " akutagawa says, smiling lightly as he moved his hand to cover atsushi's. he runs a thumb over atsushi's dry fingers. " fear what comes after. "

akutagawa's eyes widened briefly before a choking cough consumed him- " AKUTAGAWA! " atsushi screams - but his boyfriend already placed a hand to his mouth and wiping the blood that foamed around it. " ne, look at that. the universe really does work in tandem with us. " he said weakly.

akutagawa focused on atsushi. " you know what this means, don't you, jinko? " and what else can atsushi do but nod, cry, and nod even harder. " we'll always be together, even when i'm gone. "

atsushi flings himself at akutagawa, and the two of them hold each other for a moment too long and too short.

akutagawa's breath stilled.

" at-tsu-shi. "

" akutagawa. "

" don't fear the last time i'll sleep, atsushi nakajima. "

atsushi smiles sadly and wipes his tears as the last of akutagawa's breath leaves him.

" fear what comes after. "

and akutagawa was gone, still here, but gone. the rising sun shone through the dusty windows, shattering into a million rays and dotting akutagawa, like heaven's open arms welcoming him.