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thinking about how Bucky probably rationalizes how fucked up his brain is by thinking it's his fault - he thinks he was broken before the war and the serum just made it even worse. he doesn't even argue when Zemo says only Steve was uncorrupted by the serum. when in reality, the serum amplifying Bucky's caring, resilient nature is probably why it took HYDRA twenty years to break him. the serum didn't corrupt Bucky, HYDRA did. but of course, Bucky can't see it that way.

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Everyday scenario on ao3:

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It’s interesting to see Steve’s insecurity about his friendship with Bucky. Bucky was his best friend, and presumably his only friend. Steve idolized him. As he told Natasha and Sam: even when he had nothing, he had Bucky.

But Bucky? Bucky had a family – parents, probably some siblings. He likely had friends from school, work friends, and friends from army training. He had endless girlfriends. We know he was popular. Bucky had an entire life, and objectively, Steve was only a part of it.

Before Captain America, Bucky was Steve’s world, but Steve may not have been Bucky’s. And because of that, you can see Steve constantly second guess Bucky’s love for him. During CATFA, he doesn’t know if Bucky will follow him into war. In the CATWS funeral flashback, he doesn’t want to intrude on Bucky’s life (even though if the situation were reversed, you know he’d never let Bucky ‘get by on his own’). Even during the final CATWS fight scene, he says ‘You’re my friend’ instead of ‘We were friends’. He’s horrified that Bucky died following him, because Bucky had a life outside of Steve. 

I don’t think Steve realized how important he is to Bucky until he broke the Soldier’s programming, just by existing. 

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nah since marvel is trending again I’m going to say it again louder for the people in back — canon steve rogers would never have chosen an “idyllic 1950s white pickett fence life” because the only place that man belonged was a picket LINE. the whole point of his character was that his work was never done. there was always going to be another oppressor, another bully, another person who takes advantage of the underprivileged for him to stand up to. from the moment he gained consciousness he, a chronically ill son of a working class mother living below the poverty line, used his voice and his body to protect & fight for what he believed in. I’m not sure there was ever a time pre-super soldier serum where he didn’t have a black eye. he could put the shield down all he wanted but he could never retire from being steve rogers — someone who never once turned a blind eye, who never once wanted a “reward” for his work, who never once abandoned his friends. this isn’t up for debate. this is almost a century of comic book & film/animated precedent. he may have been a man out of time, but in his words “it’s tempting to want to live in the past. it’s familiar, it’s comfortable. but it’s where fossils come from”

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hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

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goodnight steve rogers and bucky barnes who are happy and hopelessly in love with each other

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the bond between a girl and their favorite fictional man is both an unstoppable force and an immovable object

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it's ya girl 🙂

i have some news to share and a little bit of a confession (?) to make 🤍

🚨TW under the cut for rape/non-con/sexual assault

humour is my coping mechanism so forgive the wording 🥲

ya girl was raped almost a year ago and stayed WAY TOO LONG in a not - so - great relationship.

since the sexual assault, my motivation to write has been at an all time low.

slowly i am trying to ease myself back in by writing for me, and my desires.

right now that looks like the fluffiest fluff, and also some major angst!

i hope to be back to you all soon, thank you for understanding 🤍

xoxo

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The search is over. Did I find it? No. The author deactivated and now I will go cry in my bathtub.

Hi everyone!!! I have a really huge favour to ask!

I'm looking for a fic🚨🚨

It was choreographer!bucky x ballerina!reader

The writer's blog starts with an S and the pfp is of purple yarn!

The title is something around The Princess and The Cinnamon Roll

Reader is a ballerina who is being cast in Swan Lake as Odette

The story was about how Bucky was super grumpy and rude but super sweet (eventually) to reader!

She gets injured, she mostly eats Cinnamon rolls

Help is very much appreciated 🤍🤍🤍

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Hi everyone!!! I have a really huge favour to ask!

I'm looking for a fic🚨🚨

It was choreographer!bucky x ballerina!reader

The writer's blog starts with an S and the pfp is of purple yarn!

The title is something around The Princess and The Cinnamon Roll

Reader is a ballerina who is being cast in Swan Lake as Odette

The story was about how Bucky was super grumpy and rude but super sweet (eventually) to reader!

She gets injured, she mostly eats Cinnamon rolls

Help is very much appreciated 🤍🤍🤍

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Hi everyone!!! I have a really huge favour to ask!

I'm looking for a fic🚨🚨

It was choreographer!bucky x ballerina!reader

The writer's blog starts with an S and the pfp is of purple yarn!

The title is something around The Princess and The Cinnamon Roll

Reader is a ballerina who is being cast in Swan Lake as Odette

The story was about how Bucky was super grumpy and rude but super sweet (eventually) to reader!

She gets injured, she mostly eats Cinnamon rolls

Help is very much appreciated 🤍🤍🤍

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The Winter Soldier diet (according to Sam Wilson): Rats and frozen protein pills.

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Shoutout to all the people who work tirelessly to keep their fandoms going, even after canon has ended. Kudos to the mods who organize rewatches, fic challenges, and other fandom events. High fives to the people who keep posting new art, fic, meta, and headcanons. A collective pat on the back for the people who like, reblog, and comment on the new fanworks and remember the older works as well.

If you’re on Tumblr reading this, chances are good that you fall into one of these categories. So shoutout to YOU, and to all of us.

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