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supernatural, “wendigo” (2005)

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No more apologizing for being horny on main. No more horny jail. We’re horny prison abolitionists. No gods, no masters! Wait. Okay maybe a few masters. Alright but no bars will hold us! No whips and chains will — fuck, hang on, let me start again.

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Be for real here.

How is this?

NOT hot?!

reblog if you’re a sick fuck

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*fans self* Exactly! You get me!

Okay but that picture of that pigeon or whatever swallowing that whole fruit.... youngish Sam trying to take Dean's entire cock down his throat the first time. There's some coughing at first, a few attempts, and Dean's being gentle, telling him he doesn't have to... but Sam REALLY wants to. Finally he gets the knack of it and swallows it down. And Dean groans while his fingers softly caress Sam's neck, feeling the bulge of himself in his baby-brother's throat. "That's it Sammy... so good for me..."

Sam comes before Dean does, but just continues kneeling there in front of his brother while Dean slowly fucks his throat.

And Sam didn't even touch himself, came from the feeling of Dean in his throat, Dean's hand on his throat, Dean's voice telling him how good he was for taking it so well, and the desperate need for air and knowing that Dean had complete control over when he would get to breathe.

Dean's a little scared and a lot turned on by how much trust Sammy gives him. He could suffocate Sammy with his dick, and Sam would let him (he wouldn't, would never want to, but he loves knowing that he could and isn't that just a little sick?), just like Sam lets him cover his mouth and nose when he fucks him.

"It's like... everything goes white, and all I know is how good you feel," Sammy said once, trying to explain why he begged Dean to wrap a hand around his throat and squeeze, and that's when Dean thought they should try deepthroating. The moment the thought crossed his mind, it became an obsession: Sam, choking on his dick, tearing up so pretty and flushed from the need to breathe. Sam's throat, so tight and tender and that's one more bit of Sam that Dean can claim and control. And the reality is so much better, with the way Sam's throat bulges and the way Sam moans around it and it fucking vibrates and Sammy's eyes, swimming with tears and full of worship as he looks up at Dean.

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Mad At Your Dad? Read On...

Jared's not entirely sure why he contacted the guy.

That's a lie; he knows exactly why.

He came out to his family earlier that summer and after the screaming was done, there were two months of complete silence from everyone. And then his mom had called and informed him that his presence was required at Thanksgiving. Seems Grandma had asked about him and then informed her daughter that "I thought I didn't raise a bigot," and then told the extended family about how his parents had abandoned him "for no good reason" and now Mom and Dad want him to show up and make nice so they stop getting shit from everyone.

Around the lump in his throat, Jared said "I already made other plans," and Mom told him to cancel because family comes first, and Jared said he would but "only if my boyfriend can come. It wouldn't be right to leave him alone just because you decided I'm not shunned anymore." A lie, of course, Jared has been tragically single ever since he figured out he couldn't like girls the way his friends do, but he wanted to see what Mom would say.

"Well, then. Bring him," is apparently what Mom would say, through gritted teeth, and now Jared's stuck. And Chad offered to play boyfriend, because Chad is awesome, but his family knows Chad and would never believe it. But then Chad found this weird post on Craigslist while he was scrolling through the personals and it seemed like a godsend, so Jared had emailed him a phone number and asked him to call if his post was serious.

It was serious, it turned out, and the 28 year old felon turned out to have a voice like smooth whiskey and his name was Jensen and when Jared stuttered out his problem, that smooth whiskey voice turned into a rumbling chuckle that tingled down Jared's spine. "Oh, I'm so in," Jensen said, "and please say we can 'accidentally' get caught sloppy kissin'."

"What if I'm hideous? You shouldn't offer to kiss people you haven't even met."

"Darlin', I'd make out with Dick Cheney to make a homophobe clutch their pearls. And I bet you're a better kisser than ol' Dick."

Jared didn't want to get into his (nonexistent) skills as a kisser so they moved on to logistics: things like last names and birthdays and a "how we met" story designed to twist the knife for Jared's parents. And sooner than Jared had expected, he's standing on the curb outside Chad's apartment, waiting for Jensen to pick him up for Thanksgiving.

The van is as old and dirty and airbrushed as Jensen had said, and it lets out a belch of exhaust as he pulls up. Jared's parents will hate it. Jared's grinning as he slides into the passenger seat.

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Jensen's first look at the kid who's given him a place to go for Thanksgiving is like a punch to the gut. Tall, Jared hadn't mentioned being tall. Slacks and a button-down shirt don't normally do it for Jensen, so it's gotta be the body in those clothes that has his heart beating a bit faster. And then Jared looks up, sees Van Halen (and so what if Jensen named his van, it was a perfect name and practically begging to be used), and grins and it's like sunshine after a thunderstorm.

"What if I'm hideous, he said," Jensen mutters just before Jared opens the door, then grins back at the kid. "Nice to meet you. I'm Jensen, I'll be your long-term boyfriend for the day." That startles a laugh out of Jared. "Any last-minute things I need to know?"

Jared bites his lip. It's adorable. Jensen wants to bite it for him. "Well... I kinda told my grandma about this." He looks up at Jensen through his bangs.

"She's the one who doesn't like bigots, right?"

"Mmhm."

"She cool with it?"

"... she said she's gonna take a ton of pictures."

Jared's fidgeting and Jensen feels for the kid. Coming out's a bitch, even with supportive family, and Jared's family is a little late to the program on that.

"You thought about what you'll call me?"

"I... why wouldn't I just call you Jensen?" Jared asks, clearly bewildered.

Bet the kid's never even been on a real date with a dude. Jensen tries to feel sympathy rather than satisfaction at the thought. "Trust me. Pet names are like... a thousand times more torturous for disapproving parents to sit through. Babe."

Jared wrinkles his nose. "I liked 'darlin' better."

"So do I, baby, but which will your parents hate more?"

"Point." Jared sighs, then gets a look of pure mischief in his eyes. "If we're going by what my parents will hate most, I should call you 'Daddy.'"

"Now you're gettin' it."

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Jared's almost vibrating with anxiety when they pull up to his parents' house. And thank God for Jensen; if he weren't here, Jared wouldn't even be able to walk to the door. But Jensen is here, pulling him out of the van and lacing their fingers together as they head to the front porch. And they stand there, staring at the door, for a good ten seconds, until Jensen says "Fuck it," and tugs on Jared's hand.

They'd talked about putting on a bit of a show, so Jared's not completely taken by surprise when Jensen's lips land on his. He's just not entirely sure what to do. With anything -- his hands, his lips, his height, and oh! his tongue, because somehow Jensen's managed to part his lips and now Jared has to figure out what to do with an extra tongue crowding into his mouth.

Jensen has a stud in his tongue, and that's a fun discovery that makes Jared's brain short-circuit and solves the problem of what to do with my lips and tongue because the answer is to play with the piercing. It's a good answer, because Jensen is groaning and pulling Jared closer by his belt loops so their bodies are crushed together. And that solves the what do I do with my hands problem because there's nowhere to put them except around Jensen's very broad shoulders. Jensen's arm wraps more securely around Jared's waist, and he pulls back from the kiss to murmur "that's right, baby, just hold on and let me drive" with a playful nip at Jared's ear.

Jared is more than pleased to follow Jensen's direction, whispers "okay, daddy," and smiles at how Jensen groans as he reclaims Jared's lips and lets one hand slide down to squeeze Jared's ass.

And the front door opens.

And the look on Jared's dad's face almost makes up for the fact that they have to stop kissing.

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It's the best Thanksgiving Jensen has had in a long time, and not just because he was in prison for the last one. Jared is flushed, happy, and relaxed when his dad interrupts their kiss on the front porch. Jensen hadn't known that a human face could get that red, and somehow his face goes purple when Jared introduces Jensen as "Dad, this is dadd... um, I mean, this is Jensen. My boyfriend."

They don't shake hands.

Jared's sister asks them how they met over the turkey, and that lets them pull out the story they made up.

"You tell it, daddy. I barely remember," Jared says, and Jensen's pretty sure he didn't even notice the pet name but everyone else did.

"Sure thing, babe. So, I'm a line cook at this dive bar..." Jensen launches into the tale of clocking out and going to get a drink and having 6'4" of sloppy drunk fall all over him. And how Jared was loudly telling the whole bar about how his parents hated him because he wanted a dick in his ass. Jared's grandma cackled at that, so Jensen winks at the old broad and continues on: "and my baby boy's just about the prettiest boy in all Texas, so of course I took him out to my van."

Jared's brother just might throw a punch. "You didn't even take him home?"

"Well, I was kinda between places right now, but I got a nice air mattress in the back of Van Halen. Real cozy."

"Don't worry, Jeff," Jared breaks in, eyes so innocent Jensen would believe anything he said. "We moved in with Chad the next day." He turns to Jensen. "Or was it the day after?"

The shovel talk Jensen gets from Jared's siblings between dinner and pie is scarier than anything he faced in prison.

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The silence in the van as Jensen drives Jared back to Chad's is sleepy and comfortable until Jensen suddenly says, "So you gotta talk to your brother about me."

"Hmmm?"

"I'm serious, Jay. I think he's planning my murder. And your sister's gonna be his alibi."

"Please. Jeff's a teddy bear."

"To his little brother, yeah. To his little brother's supposedly homeless felon boyfriend? Not so much. You gotta talk to him!"

Jared laughs. Jensen wants to hear that laugh every day forever.

"Okay, daddy. I'll call Jeff in the morning. Tell him it was all fake."

"Good. I'd like him to not hate me when I take you out for real."

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dog dean forcing sam on his hands and knees and mounting him. making his little brother his bitch for real.

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Psychosomatic

@spn20fest Week 4: Two of Us Against the World

Sam wanted Dean to leave, he did—to save himself, to leave Sam in this sterile room to rage and thrash and slit his wrists with broken glass and bleed out his poisoned blood. Or whatever it was that Croatoan zombies did when they stopped being themselves and instead joined the stepford-asshole hive mind.

But when Dean locked them both in, Sam let out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding. Dean wasn’t going to save himself; he wasn’t going to leave him.

Sam hated that he was glad. Was the virus already affecting him? Spreading through his veins, making him the vector of his brother’s destruction? Or corruption?

Sam felt a recklessness bubbling up. “Dean, don't do this. Just get the hell out of here.” Sam wanted to infect Dean with his sickness.

“No way.”

“You can keep going.” Sam wanted to hold him close and never let go.

“Who says I want to?”

Sam took a step forward—

There was a knock on the door.

*

Hours later, after the doctor gave him the all-clear—no virus, no effect at all, actually—Sam looked at his brother and wondered what the hell was wrong with him. Because if it wasn’t an illness that made him want Dean this way, then it was just Sam.

It didn’t occur to him to wonder what Dean was thinking when he locked that door on the outside world.

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Watching ‘Mommy Dearest’, a moment of high tension where Dean seems to be in some danger and yet all I’m interested in is that strip of Sam’s tummy above his jeans. SORRYNOTSORRY

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Thank you for being so open to hearing outside perspectives. That's really refreshing.

I think you are missing a lot about Wincest. It's been around since season 1 (2005), the founder of AO3 is a shipper and her fics are still up, and there's tons of meta, fics, art, andshippers out there on a variety of things. If Wincest is a lot of sex, it's because it IS incest after all. There's a lot you can do with taboo. But it's also because the show itself feeds into the ship so the only thing missing from the relationship is sex.

Sam and Dean constantly choose each other over everyone, even the world. They're canonically soulmates. In an interview with Eric Kripke (creator of Supernatural) the executive producer called the show "The epic love story of Sam and Dean." At NYCC 2022 Jensen said "It (Supernatural) was the love story of two brothers, to be honest." They're named after their married maternal grandparents, they get likened to a couple every season. Basically, canon feeds us a lot of the things people look for in their favorite ships. The show means it platonically (like a lot of slash ships are meant to be platonic in canon) but we're so well fed that we don't have to change canon. We get our fill from that.

Sex is the only thing missing from the relationship we're given. You can even test this by checking out fics written during seasons where the brothers are largely separated or fighting (like season 8) where you get a lot of non-PWPs because for once we're not being fed what we're used to.

I love Wincest for their relationship. I love that the show ended up with them pressing their foreheads together as Dean told Sam he loved him so much. I love that Dean chose to drive around heaven until Sam showed up. I love that Jensen said it was best that Dean was the one to die because if it had been Sam, Dean wouldn't have been able to live without him. I'm a shipper because how could you NOT ship them you know? Imagine everything in Supernatural is the same except Sam and Dean aren't related. Do you see the vision? That's exactly the same for Wincest shippers, except them being fictional means we don't see a barrier to shipping them.

I hope this helped shed some light!

"But it's also because the show itself feeds into the ship so the only thing missing from the relationship is sex."

That's makes a lot of sense, especially from the last inbox that I responded to (and yes, a few instances I saw) where people think Sam and Dean are together. Perhaps, the casual-ness of assuming they are together is what makes the ship more viable. I can understand that.

"Basically, canon feeds us a lot of the things people look for in their favorite ships. The show means it platonically (like a lot of slash ships are meant to be platonic in canon) but we're so well fed that we don't have to change canon. We get our fill from that."

Are you saying that even though the show means it platonically, the show simultaneously provides you with all of the content for you to believe it be otherwise? Can you clarify this? Either way it sounds like an interesting point.

"Sex is the only thing missing from the relationship we're given. You can even test this by checking out fics written during seasons where the brothers are largely separated or fighting (like season 8) where you get a lot of non-PWPs because for once we're not being fed what we're used to."

So what you're saying is writing wincest or the prior/later fics about them are something that have somewhat (at least) followed the way the brothers have been acting with each other throughout the show, right? Like the works that have been posted are like natural reactions to the current state of their relationship with each other?

"Imagine everything in Supernatural is the same except Sam and Dean aren't related. Do you see the vision?"

Absolutely. Except that's where I feel like deviate and I think that's where my criticism for the ship comes in. Let me be clear that I totally understand everything that you've talked about so far BUT. I think just the fact that they are brothers. No matter how you look at it. The show is built on them being brothers who take on this supernatural world and whatnot so a lot of things they do are just... as brothers. I thought a lot about this ship earlier and I felt like wincest exploits the trauma that they underwent so that people can insert their fantasies (again I am not attacking you, but merely stating what my viewpoint is. no accusations pls!).

To expand on this, a few months ago I had watched and read about the story of the Menendez Brothers. Let me be totally clear that I understand many circumstances are ENTIRELY different, but what I found concerning was that people were writing smutty fics about the brothers because they had developed a very unhealthy codependence on each others -- (Lyle also sexually assaulted his younger brother Erik when they both were young because he didn't really know what was going on) -- which was exploited so that people could insert their smutty fantasies about the brothers. The show that Ryan Murphy made also indulged in this hypothetical scenario that the brothers were sexually satisfying each other which was pretty disgusting.

Again Dean and Sam were emotionally abused more-so than physical so I totally understand the difference, but the main point I'm trying to get across is how their trauma-bond is being (IMO) exploited. It's a vulnerability that seems strange to tap into to write fanfiction.

"...except them being fictional means we don't see a barrier to shipping them."

This absolutely makes sense. That's what lets pretty much anyone and everyone write the most ridiculous and insane stuff ever and get away with it because there are no barriers. This applies to everything, wincest included. So from an objective sense, hell yeah you can write whatever you want.

This was an interesting conversation. I want to thank whoever initially send me a message (and was pissed) and whoever this inbox writer was (if it was someone else) because I appreciated getting to know more about how Sam and Dean's relationship is honestly fucked and how it's the reaction to that which has led to Wincest. With that being said, I still don't support it but I don't think I look at it with such a harsh set of eyes because it's not just people taking two brothers and making them kiss, but there's a genuine screwed "erotic" connection between how they depend on each other.

There is substance to support they have the wrong dependence on each other and I find that psychologically stimulating. However, the fanfiction aspect of it is a bit difficult for me to digest and I don't think I ever will. But I can understand the ship better.

And writer, as you said, you ship Wincest so I'm just going to let you do that. I don't have as much judgement and I think I learned some new stuff from this conversation. Thank you for being so open to telling me all of this information. This doesn't have to be the end! I asked some questions above so just drop another inbox if you want to respond and I'm happy to keep this conversation going.

For non-Wincest shippers or people that regularly visit my page, I'll recommend you try and find my previous inbox responses. I was pretty petty the first time so I think it's helpful to understand that you may not accept an entirety, but there are always pieces that we can learn new.

Thank you.

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@alekcarv and @wr3stlingindirtpitz tagging you both to read this, since you commented on my previous reply with your criticisms of my replies to the original writer of my other messages. Let me know if there's anything you'd like to add.

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Question of the Week: Completely Dominant?

Have you noticed there's a common trope in erotica, where characters tend to be either overwhelmingly dominant and entirely submissive?

I've often wondered why this is. It might be because readers are attracted to particular archetype, the more dominant or submissive a character is, the hotter readers find them. Or it could be that the interplay of characters at opposite ends of the D/s spectrum generates the greatest erotic energy.

It might also be that ambiguity in kinky roles breaks the suspension of disbelief that all fiction requires. If a strict character suddenly found themselves being dominated, some might find that weird, almost comical. Compare, for instance, the subverted dynamic in my story Control, with the conventionally strict teacher in Abstract Art.

So, do you find people who are completely dominant or completely submissive the most alluring?

Or do you find switches, who cede control half of the time, more interesting and arousing?

Or how about erotically bold characters, who every now and then (say 10% of the time) take or cede control in unexpected ways? Is it hotter to be occasionally surprised? Are folk that play against our erotic expectations the hottest of them all?

What do you think?

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having a guilty pleasure samdean moment don't look. really slow sex where dean's sitting at the edge of a bed, couch, or chair with sam straddling his lap. they're both completely naked but in my head sam's wearing an anklet for some reason, and dean still has all his own jewellery on. they're both pretty sweaty so it's super obvious they're drawing this out. sam's got dean's dick up his ass and is half-hard, having already cum already. sam's arms are around dean's shoulders, dean's hugging him super close, sometimes clawing at sam's back in a way that makes sam screw his eyes shut like he does when he cums. they're really close together so dean's head has to tilt his head all the way up to see sam's face, and sam has to tilt his face all the way down. but they're kissing shallowly, just pecks n stuff between breathing into each other's faces and mouths, talking and giggling a little bit between moans and whines. sometimes dean burries his face right below sam's chin, in sam's tits or right up against his neck and sam fits his whole hand at the back of dean's head like they're just hugging or cuddling. the head of sam's dick burns, it's uncomfortable, from how long his dick's been pressed against dean's tummy, creased at the middle from dean's posture. sam's glutes burn from grinding back and forth

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"ohh my god you can't just-"

Am I yours to command? Does the collar 'round my neck have your name on it? I kneel to no king nor god, and I see no crown on you.

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i’m gonna actually answer this ask later (along with the rest, thank u<3) but seeing it at like 4am got me laughing bc it reminded me of one of my fav videos ever

dean when he finds out about it

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Well I certainly am now! Thank you!

why when I saw this on twitter did I immediately think dean sam and jack

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dean winchester / tracy chapman “fast car” for spncarfuckersweek

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I mean, why do you think I came and got you at Stanford in the first place?