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strawhime · 5 years ago

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[Disclaimer: There is foul language and just very very sad content. Fall usually is my favorite season because I get more motivation to write stuff but I also get hit with sudden emotions. So I write them out. I hope you enjoy and I will definitely try to be more active and post more of my stories! <3 Thank you <3]

She sits on the roof of her apartment complex. A comforter under her along with another blanket to cover her legs. As she stares up at the night sky, she notices it’s starting to get colder as the days pass by. Signs of fall starting. It's nice weather, the days are shorter, the nights are longer. Her favorite time of the year. But it's also the time of the year where her depression catches up with her. Where her mind wanders deep into the dark crevices of her thoughts. Making her feel useless or unmotivated. Thinking that there's nothing else for her anymore. That she had no life purpose.

She knows everything she's thinking is a lie. She has a purpose. A great life. She's happy… But that doesn't stop her thoughts from coming. It's borderline cliche. This happens every year, around the same time. But no matter how much she thinks she's prepared to fight it. She loses. And she's back here. On the roof, in the cold, staring up at the night sky. Hoping to clear her thoughts, become sane once again. Or maybe just fool herself into thinking she was sane.

She sniffles, rubbing at her red nose and wiping at stray tears that fall. "Great.." She mutters to herself. She's starting to cry again and it's frustrating! There's no reason for her crying. She wasn't thinking about anything.

"God, I'm such a fucking mess." She grumbled as she roughly wiped at her eyes. As she was busy with grumbling and being upset over her emotional state, she didn't notice that someone had shown up. It wasn't until the person cleared their throat to catch her attention.

She jumped slightly in her spot, eyes wide as her head whips towards the sound. She stares at the stranger before she lets out a sigh of relief once she figures out who it is.

"Jesus fucking Christ, Johnny… You scared the shit out of me!" She whines lightly, as the other starts to chuckle, and places a hand over her fast-beating heart. "I'm sorry. I should've said something instead of that."

He walks over and takes a seat next to her, his hands shoved into his jacket pockets. "I called and texted your phone a bunch of times. And you weren't answering."

She gives a small smile, looking down at her hands. Fingers curling into the fabric of the blanket, "Ah… sorry. I kind of left my phone off."

"Don't be sorry…" He gently nudges her shoulder, his gaze soft. "I had a feeling you weren't feeling too good. That's why I'm here. So don't be sorry. I was just worried you finally found a boyfriend who was less annoying than me…~"

Nothing. Panic settled in when Johnny notices she hadn't even looked up or even said anything at the comment. "Joking~ Hey-- I'm kidding--"

He dips his head down to look at her face, noticing tears welling in her eyes and he's quick to move in front of her. Cradling her face in his hands. "Shit-- I'm sorry! Was it something I said? It was a joke-- cause you always tell me how annoying I am and that you're gonna find someone less annoying--"

Johnny gets cut off, her arms were quick to wrap around him for a hug. The sudden movement catches him off guard and he loses his balance and falls back on his butt. Johnny winces at the slight pain of hitting the floor a little harder than expected but it quickly fades when he glanced down at her. Her face pressed into his chest as she's now sobbing. He slowly moves into a sitting position, his arms wrapping around her as she cries.

"...Did I say something wrong..?" He quietly asks, his hand coming up to comb his fingers through her hair, hoping to calm her down just a little.

She shakes her head slightly, not once pulling her face away from his chest. "You wanna talk about it…?" She nods this time. "...later?" Another nod. "Okay. I can wait." His voice is gentle as he leaned his back against the brick wall. "I'm ready whenever you are."

It seems like hours before she's finally calm, her breathing evens out as she slowly pulls back, sniffling and roughly rubbing at her face. Johnny stops her before she could even give herself a rash or something from the constant furious rubbing on her face. He uses the sleeve of his jacket to wipe at any tears he sees. "You ready to talk now?"

"..Yeah…" She hesitates before she's back in his arms, her cheek pressed against his chest as she starts to talk. Telling him about everything that's been going on in her head. From feeling like a failure to never being good enough for anyone. Especially for him. That she's such a cruel person who has a hard time expressing her emotions properly and that he should just leave her. Find better. Because he deserves better.

His heart clenches from her words. How her breath hitches or quakes once she starts talking about him. How she doesn't believe she's good enough for him. That she's nothing but mean because she doesn't like doing 'couple' things in public. Or how she doesn't always say 'I love you'. But leaving her was never the answer. It had never crossed his mind. Not even once. Not even when they had arguments that were far from playful. He knew that she was hurt a lot in the past. People that came and went would always look her in the eyes and tell her that they would never leave her. That they loved her. But the second things got rough, they left. He wasn’t like that and he made sure she knew that.

He kept quiet, making sure he didn't interrupt unless she asked him a question. Which, thankfully, there was none. He kept her close and gently rubbed her back. "It sounds dumb. I know. But I just.. I just can't stop these thoughts. I'm just really scared…" She leaned back to look at him. Her eyes slightly wide, afraid that he would agree or give some sort of sign that everything she was worried about was true. But her body slowly relaxed when she noticed the soft gaze and the soft smile from the other.

"It's not dumb… because it's how you feel. If feelings were dumb, then why would we have them?" He chuckled softly before he grabbed her hands gently. "You're worried the most because you're afraid I'm going to leave you. Because you're bad at expressing how you feel… That's not true. You don't see it, but you express yourself through actions. Not words. I don't care that most days you tell me you're gonna break up with me, or that I'm annoying, or that I'm a fucking idiot…" Johnny's smile widens when he notices her cheeks turn red in embarrassment. His thumbs gently rubbing the back of her hands. "But at the end of the day. I know they're all empty threats. Yeah. We have stupid arguments, more playful than serious, but that doesn't mean I love you any less. Or that I'm going to leave you. Believe it or not, you're stuck with me." He gently taps her nose and chuckles when he hears her giggle at that. "You don't have to tell me you love me every single day. Because I know. Because hearing you say those words when the time is right, makes it that more magical. Makes it more real."

He brings her hands up to his lips and gives them a soft kiss. "We've been together for a pretty good amount of time for me to know that the little gestures in public, like linking pinkies or you grabbing at the end of my shirts or the sleeves of my jackets or standing a little closer to me so our arms brush against each other, tell me that you care about me. That you want me by your side." He slowly laces their fingers together and he leans in to press a kiss to her forehead. "Besides… your body tells me a lot when we're alone~"

Her eyes widen in shock at his words, face turning red as she pulls back to give his arm a hard slap. "You're fucking unbelievable, Johnny! Why am I even with you?!" He bursts out laughing, rubbing his arm after the slap.

"I'm not sorry! It was perfect!" He grins, pulling her into his embrace as she huffs and pouts. "I fucking hate you. I swear to God. I will throw you off the roof."

"You could do that. But you'd miss me too much if I died~" He gave a smug look. Her face scrunching up in distaste as she refuses to respond and crosses her arms over her chest. This only makes him happy. Finding her reaction the cutest and he lifts a finger up to poke her cheek. "Hey… look at me."

"No. Stop touching me." She tries to swat his hand away but he's persistent. Johnny keeps poking until she finally gives in and turns her head to look at him. "Wh---" She's instantly cut off when he's quick to lean down and press his lips against hers. Her face turns red for the nth time today as her eyes fall shut and she slowly kisses back. Her heart racing as she melts into the kiss.

Fall nights are usually the start of a bad season for her. But that can change. She doesn't have to be alone. Because she has him. And he's made it clear that he's here to stay.

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strawhime · 5 years ago

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The New Kid In School (NCT Renjun)

I hated college because there’s so many assignments and projects due pretty much every week! The only time I ever liked it is when I got to hang out with all of my friends. I’ve known Wooyoung ever since we were kids and we grew up together. I met Bri and Jisung along the way, we were all school mates so we all promised each other if we got into college we’d still make time for each other.

When we had breaks in between classes we met up in the empty study room to just talk and bring up old memories. I got to the room first, which I thought was empty I saw a guy with his head down sleeping. I thought it was Wooyoung so I decided to go and scare him. As I got up to him I jumped at him “BOO!” he got scared and sat up as to my eyes it wasn’t Wooyoung, but someone I’ve never seen before. “WHAT THE FUCK?!” He yelled. “Oh my god I’m so sorry. I thought you were someone I knew. I’m so sorry.” I was so embarrassed I ended up leaving the room quickly not realizing I left my wallet on the table.

I bumped into Bri in the hall. “Dude where you going? Aren’t we meeting in the study room? Wait—-why are you?” She stopped in front of me to see my face really red. “Wait what happened Dee? Why are you all red?” She asked. “Nothing…let’s go. Someone was in the room” as I said dragging her back in the other direction. “Wait what the hell man..” Bri was so confused about the situation. She had us stop in our tracks. “Dude stop what the hell is going on Dee?” She asked. “We can’t go in there” I said in embarrassment. She looked at me really confused but knew something was wrong. “Was someone in there?” She asked. “Yes. He was sleeping and I thought it was Wooyoung so I tried to scare him but turned out to be someone else.” I told her as I kept staring at the floor. “Oh my god Dee you made it sound so serious!” As she snapped back at me Wooyoung and Jisung came to where we were.

“Hey what’s going on?” Wooyoung asked. “Dee thought you were in the room and she wanted to scare you but it turned out to be someone else.” Bri replied. I was turning so red from embarrassment. “Ugh can we just go somewhere else please.” I didn’t want to be anywhere near that room. We didn’t have much time left to hang out so we all went our separate ways to go to our classes. So Wooyoung walked with me to class since his was right next door to me. “Are you ok Dee?” He asked. “Ugh yeah I will be I just hope I don’t see his face again. That was pretty embarrassing.” I told him. As I got to my class we said our goodbyes and as I sat in class the whole time like “Oh my god why did I do that?! He looked like Wooyoung sleeping.Ugh it’s alright I’ll never have to see him again”

Our professor came in as class was about to start. “Class I have an announcement..We will have a new student joining us so please give him a nice welcome.” As the professor said he gestured to the student to join us. I was looking down getting my book ready I heard a guy’s voice introduce himself. “Hi my name is Renjun, nice to meet you all.” I looked up to see who it was. “NO FUCKING WAY THIS IS HAPPENING! It was the guy I scared in the study room earlier.” The professor looked around for empty seats…and just my luck the seat next to me was fricken empty! “You can sit over there next to Dee” the professor then adds “Dee can you raise your hand please” As I slowly raised my hand I tried to hide my face as he sat next to me. I tried to not make eye contact with him as I was embarrassed to see his face….what are the fucking odds of him being in my damn class?! “Hey.” He said quietly. “Hi.” I responded. He then looked at me again and I began to try to hide my face and look away from him. He then realized I was the girl that scared him earlier today. “Hey wait…you’re the girl that scared me earlier…..” he said. “I’m so sorry about that….really I am” I responded. “I thought you were my friend. You looked like him” He then added. “It’s ok…” he then bends down to grab something out of his bag. Then hands me something. “You dropped this” he said. I looked at it, oh my gosh it was my wallet. I didn’t even know it fell out. “Oh—-oh thank you. I didn’t know it fell out.” I said. It must’ve fallen out when I was in a rush to leave.

Class had ended, and as I was gathering my things I see him at the corner of my eye to put his head down to sleep. I looked at him sleeping so peacefully he looked kinda cute like that, I then hear “Dee”… I quietly got up and left the room with Wooyoung standing outside waiting for me. “Phew….one day over. I still can’t believe he was in my class.” I smiled as I got to Wooyoung. “Hey you ready?” He asked. “Yes. Lets go” I said. We both met up with Bri and Jisung. We decided to go have coffee at the shop by our school. I couldn’t get Renjun out of my head all of a sudden. He looked so peaceful when he was sleeping and was really cute. He seemed real smart too during class. He helped me a lot through it too so he seemed interesting. I began to phase out not realizing that Bri was talking to me. “Dee…..Deeee….DEE” She shouted. “Oh my god what!” As I snapped back at her they all looked at me. “Are you ok?” Bri asked. “Yes I am. Why?” I responded. “Well you haven’t said anything since we got here” Jisung added. “Yeah is everything ok?” Wooyoung seemed worried. “No I’m fine. “ I said. The boys had to go back to school before us because they had music class and we had the rest of the day off.

“Dee are you sure you’re ok?” Bri asked. I then added. “*sighs* remember how I told you I scared someone because I thought it was Wooyoung? Well that guy is now in my damn class.” Bri was excited and shouted “WHAT?!” I got scared “OH MY GOD SHHHH! Yes, apparently he’s a new kid in our school now. His name is Renjun…here’s the best part…he sits next to me….” Bri began to laugh so hard. “IT’S NOT FUNNY!” I added. “Not only that…he had my wallet because it fell out when I was in a rush to leave the room. So he gave it back to me.”

The next day came and I had that same class with him again. When I got to the classroom he was already there. He had his head down and sleeping again. I quietly set my things down to try not to wake him and sat in my chair. I glanced at him he looked so cute sleeping. I caught myself smililng. “Oh my god Dee what are you doing?! Stop staring before he wakes up” He then wakes up and sees me looking at him. So I quickly looked away. “Were you just watching me sleep?” He asked. “N—-No. I thought I was looking out the window.” I nervously replied. He then smiled and started to pull out all his books for class. “Ok class I have a project for you folks.” The professor said. “AWW MAN” the class replied. “Now now, it’s college people are we aren’t kids. You can do this.” He added. “The project is to draw a blueprint of how you would like to renovate the school’s library. And no you don’t have to do it by yourself. You can pick a partner. I’ll leave it up to you guys to pick them” Great now I gotta find someone to do the project with.

One of my classmates Irene went up to Renjun. “Hey Renjun wanna be my partner?” She asked. “It’ll be fun if we partnered up right?!” He then answered back to her, “Sorry I have a partner already.” She then got mad and snapped. “What? Who is it then?” Renjun then glanced over to me while I was grabbing my things and grabs my wrist. “Dee is my partner.” I was confused, “Huh?” I added. “Right Dee you’re my partner right?” He gave me that look like “Please help me and say yes” I then replied “oh…yeah we are partners.” She then rolled her eyes and walked away. “Thanks” he said. “Oh–yeah no problem” I said. “Why didn’t you want to be her partner?” I asked. “She’s annoying…she kept bothering me all day yesterday,” He said. “I couldn’t get rid of her.” I then giggled and he then looked back at me. “Oh sorry.” I said. As everyone finished picking their partners me and Renjun started to draw out a plan on how we wanted to do the renovations of the library.

I was watching him draw. “Wow you are a really great drawer.” I said. “Thanks, I love to draw on my free time” He added. The more I looked at him and got to know him he didn’t seem so bad. Yes I had a bad start with him but he seemed really mellow. He could see me looking at him at the corner of his eye he then smiled and said, “Is there something on my face?” Oh crap he caught me staring. “Oh–um no.” I replied. He then just giggled and continued to draw what we had come up with as he finished. I kept watching his hands move across the paper and noticed his unique birthmark on his hand, it was kinda cute and I’ve never met anyone with a birthmark on their hand like that, when he finished I was amazed by how he drew everything that was said perfectly. “How long have you been drawing?” I asked him. “Ever since I was able to write, my mom said I always wanted to draw on anything near me. Including the walls.” He replied. I giggled and accidently said, “You’re cute.” He looked at me when I didn’t realize what I said until a few seconds after. “I meant the story is cute. I mean not that you’re not cute or anything…you are…I mean, um.” I just continued to babble as he smiled and started packing his things. I put my head down as I felt myself turn red, then I felt someone nudge me. I quickly got up and it was Wooyoung standing beside me to get me to leave.

“Let’s go dork. You’re taking too long everyone is waiting for us.” He said. As I slowly started grabbing my things Wooyoung also helped. Wooyoung looked at me “why you all red?” He asked. “Awww did you miss me is that why you’re all red?” He added grabbing my cheeks. “No…nothing.” I said. I glanced over at Renjun as his smile disappeared and he got up and began to walk away. “Bye see you tomorrow” I quickly said. As he walked away he softly said “Mmm..see you tomorrow.” and quickly walked away. Wooyoung watched him leave then asked me, “Who’s that? Your new boyfriend?” I quickly snapped “NO! He’s my deskmate and partner for a new project our professor gave us.” We had all agreed to meet at the mall because Bri and Jisung needed to buy new books for their class so they dragged me and Wooyoung along. I wasn’t really in the mood to walk around too much so Wooyoung agreed to stay outside with me and wait until Bri and Jisung were finished getting their books.

I was so comfortable around Wooyoung because like I said we grew up as kids and always looked out for each other. We were laughing so much just talking. As we were talking and laughing, I glanced behind Wooyoung to see Renjun. He looked so different outside of school, like he was dressed up for something. He looked amazing, I smiled because how amazing he looked. Then that smile I had quickly disappeared when I saw a girl run up to him, it was Irene. She then linked arms around him and started walking towards us. Irene noticed Wooyoung and came up to us. “Hey Wooyoung….hey Dee.” I looked over at Renjun as he wasn’t smiling and just standing there. I then said “Oh hey…” It was an interesting sight to see him with her as he rejected her to be his partner and used me instead. I felt uncomfortable so I started to get up. “Where you going Dee?” Wooyoung said. I then added “Oh–Bri texted me she needed me for something…just wait here you guys can talk.” It was a lie, I didn’t get a text from anyone. I just needed to get up and leave. I don’t know why I was so upset, we were just deskmates and partner for a project. I kept thinking to myself, “What the hell is wrong with me?” I peeked behind me when I started to walk away and noticed Renjun watching me slowly walk towards where the store Bri and Jisung was. I quickly went behind the pillar so no one could see me.

“Wait why am I hiding? I didn’t do anything wrong.” I thought to myself. But I did feel upset for some reason seeing him with her.

The next day came and I had class with him again. He was already in the class sitting at our table. I quietly sat down. “Hey” I said quietly. He then just nodded his head. He normally would start a conversation with me but for some reason he was quiet the whole class. As class finished I was about to ask him something but he was so quick to leave. I didn’t understand what was going on. But I didn’t have too much time to think about it because Bri wanted to meet up.

“What’s with you?” Bri asked. “Nothing.” I said. She knew I was lying.She snapped at me “Bitch cut it out. I know it’s not nothing. Something is up with you now spill it before I make you.” I knew I couldn’t hide anything from her. “Alright I’ll tell you!” I said. “Remember that guy Renjun I told you about?” “Yeah.” She replied. So I began to tell her. “I don’t know what’s going on with him. He was so nice to me a few days ago then after that he just started giving me the cold shoulder.” She looked at me, “um isn’t he your partner for the project? Did something happen anytime after?” I told her No. I was so confused.

“Dude I think you like him.” Bri said. I quickly got really defensive “OH MY GOD NO I DON’T” she looked at me shocked “woah easy tiger.” She said. I mean yes he was cute and seemed like a nice person but he kept giving me the cold shoulder all of a sudden. I didn’t know what to think. I was supposed to meet up with everyone else but I felt like being alone and studying so I went to the library for a little while. When I got there I saw him sitting there with his head down. So I softly tapped him “is it ok if I sit here?” I asked. He just nodded his head yes. So I sat in front of him and began to study. My eyes got droopy from all the reading I figured maybe I’ll put my head down for a few mins and go back to studying.

I ended up falling asleep in front of him. I slowly opened my eyes and glanced to see him looking at me with a small smile then quickly got up after he saw me wake up. He had left before I could say anything. I looked on my shoulder “I don’t remember having this on me when I got here” he had put his jacket on my shoulders when I fell asleep. I don’t get it, he was nice to me then gave me the cold shoulder and then now putting his jacket on me. Maybe I should just talk to him tomorrow in class when I give back his jacket.

When that class came the next day I had folded his jacket nicely back to him. Wooyoung wanted to walk me to class he sees me holding the jacket. “When did you get a new jacket?” He asked. “Oh it’s not mine. I fell asleep in the library and I think Renjun put it on me” I replied. He looked upset for a second when I told him. “So you were with him last night?” He mumbled. “No. Oh well yeah technically I was but he was there before me and I sat in front of him” I said. Wooyoung then wrapped his arm on my shoulder and walked me to class. Renjun was already in there, I turned to Wooyoung and said my goodbyes.

I carefully walked towards our desk and neatly put his jacket in front of him and softly told him thanks for letting me use your jacket. He then replies “it’s fine, you were shivering when u dozed off I figured you could use it more than me” As class began I tried talking to him but he would give me short answers. I wanted to give up but when I wanted to I got upset. “Was Bri right?” I thought to myself, “Did I like him and that’s why I got upset? He was so nice to me and confusing me I don’t get it” when class finished I he got up so quickly to leave I grabbed his hand. “What’s with you lately?” I asked him. “What do you mean?” He replied. “Like you were nice to me the first day of class and now all of a sudden you’re being rude to me then nice to me again I don’t understand what’s going on” I started to get upset and didn’t even want to hear his answer. “You know what forget it. I’ll see you tomorrow”

I just wanted to forget everything as I was walking down the hall I was so upset I didn’t even realize I walked passed Jisung. “Hey D—…HEY DEE WAIT UP” Jisung quickly caught up to me. “Are you ok Dee? Were you crying?” He asked looking back at the classroom I just came out of. He then sees Renjun walk out after me watching me walk away. “No I’m fine let’s go.” I told him pulling him in the other direction. Jisung knew something wasn’t right and stopped me and asked to talk about it.

“Dee you know you can talk to me about anything too. Not just Bri. No matter what it is, unless it’s a female problem about cramps then I can’t help you there” I smiled at the stupid comment he made but I was finally ready to open up. He already sensed what it was about. “It’s about that Renjun guy in your class isn’t it?” I instantly looked up “wait how did you know?” I asked. “Come on Dee, I’ve known you for years I know these—“ I quickly interrupted him, “Bri told you didn’t she.” He then giggled and said “damn yeah you caught me. What happened?” I then added, “I don’t know what’s going on with him. He’s nice to me then mean to me. I just don’t get it!” He suddenly thought of something “Dee I think you really like him.” “What are you talking about no I don’t” I snapped back. “Look at how upset you’re getting over him Dee. I think you really like him.” Jisung said. “But I don’t get why he’s acting the way he’s acting.” I added.

Jisung then asked me, “you know that first day of class didn’t you say Wooyoung came and grabbed you?” I replied “yeah what does that have to do with anything?” Jisung then paused for a minute. “Oh my god that’s probably why! Renjun probably thought Wooyoung was your boyfriend and that’s why he’s acting the way he is. He’s probably making you jealous.” Just as he said that Wooyoung came in and put his arm around me.

Wooyoung asked, “What’s going on guys?” The things he did to me was boyfriend like and he probably thought we were dating. “If that was the case why didn’t he just asked if Wooyoung was my boyfriend.”

The next day came and we were in the empty study room. I couldn’t help but think what Jisung said about Renjun. “Was he really mad because he thought I was with Wooyoung?” There was so much noise going on with Bri and Jisung arguing over a fucken Oreo cookie. Them argue was like a daily thing for me and Wooyoung it’s like if we didn’t hear them argue then we knew something was wrong. I was phasing out into space when I felt a ball of paper in the face. “What the hell!” I looked to see who threw it and it was Wooyoung smiling at me. “You were spacing out again.”

We were just laughing and giggling then out of nowhere Bri yells, “so what Dee you like Renjun now?!” I quickly looked at her “what?! Oh my god what are you talking about. He hates my guts! How can he like me back?!” She then starts to laugh and Jisung then adds “AH HA YOU DO LIKE HIM!” I snapped back “shut your mouth before I kill you damn child” he then throws the ball of paper missing me and then hits Bri. We then see Bri sprint off her seat jumping over the table to reach where Jisung was knocking me over. Where I fell in Wooyoung’s lap. We all began to laugh. Right after that happened Renjun walked in. “Oh hey Renjun—“ I said. Before I could finish he grabs me by the wrist and pulls me out of the room.

I didn’t know what was going on, “hey Renjun…wait” he didn’t say a word as he kept pulling me and we suddenly stopped in an area where there was no one. I was a little upset at how he just dragged me out I kind of snapped at him. “What is going on?!” He then stops and looks at me, “sorry I did that. I just have something to tell you.” He said. I quickly interrupted him, “no actually I have something to say to you! I don’t understand what is wrong with you and why you are treating me this way. You were nice to me then now being rude to me then nice to me I don’t ge—“ he then stopped me and pinned me to the wall as he did that he kissed me on the lips. I froze for a minute because I didn’t get what just happened. He then just stood in front of me with his arm on the wall, I couldn’t move.

He then realized what he did and backed up a little. “Sorry…” the then continued what he had to say to me. “I was cold to you because I was upset to see you were with someone. I didn’t want to get too close to you and get hurt more knowing you had someone already.” I quickly wanted to say something “But—I” he then interrupted me “no let me finish. When I saw you with that guy I knew that I didn’t have a chance with you. I thought you were cute when you first scared me in the study hall. Then when I saw you were in my class too it made me happy that’s why I was so nice to you. I wanted to get to know you. I only hung out with Irene to get you out of my mind. Then I saw you at the mall with him I just got more upset. And I wish you’d laugh and smile at me like you did with him” I then quickly stopped him with a peck on the cheek. He looked at me confused. So I told him “Wooyoung isn’t my boyfriend.” He then looked more confused. “That guy you saw me with isn’t my boyfriend. I don’t have one. Wooyoung is like a brother to me, we grew up as kids. And his class is next to—-“ he then leaned again to give me another kiss. I couldn’t help but smile at him. And he then moved his hands down to mine to hold it in his.

We started to walk down the hall back to where everyone else was. And once again I can hear Bri and Jisung arguing, well more like Bri yelling “I’m going to kill you once I get my hands on you!” As we walked in holding hands it got super quiet. I quickly let go of his hand and Bri just rolling her eyes. “You don’t have to hide it Dee, we already know y’all a thing now.” We both sat down. “Guys this is Renjun.” I said. Then all of a sudden Wooyoung got up and started to leave “I’ll see y’all later” he said. Jisung quickly got up to chase him out as we stayed in the room and continued to talk.

Jisung then grabbed Wooyoung by the arm. “Hey man.” Jisung said. “What?!” He snapped. Then Jisung knew what was wrong, “Bro, I’m sorry….I know you liked her. Why didn’t you just tell her?” Wooyoung then added, “and what make everything awkward because of my feelings? No I’d rather just have it like it’s always been. Before I end up losing her more. I will just see her happy from afar” Jisung felt so bad because he knew Wooyoung liked me for years and didn’t want to say anything because he was afraid of losing everything. Wooyoung then said, “I’ll just be like how I’ve always been around her and let her be happy how she wants to be”

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strawhime · 5 years ago

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Stay With Me (NCT Jaehyun)

Me and Jaehyun have been dating for a little while now. About 2 months at least. We got set up by his good friend Johnny. They both were in a music group together along with another good friend of ours Jisung, and I knew Johnny and Jisung way before they became celebrities. I knew they’d make it far because they were so motivated with their music and dancing they never wanted to quit. Even more so ever since he met my roommate Bri. He always had a thing for her too. When he first met her he’d always beat around the bush about me setting him up with her. He was horrible at it too. They made a cute couple too.

The boys got quite busy preparing for their comeback so we barely got to speak to them unless it was through FaceTime. I didn’t mind just as long as I got to see Jaehyun’s face and hear his voice I was happy. He always made time to talk even if it was just for a minute.

Everytime my phone rang Bri said I always lit up like a Christmas tree. “Hey Jaehyun” I said with a smile. “Hi babe, how are you?” He replied. “I’m fine, I’m just doing some studying before I leave for my night shift at restaurant” he was never a fan of me working late nights because I’d always walk home by myself. ”what time do you get off? He asked. “I get off at 1am.” I told him. Before he was preparing for their comeback he’d always came and walked me home. But now it would just be myself and once in a while when he was free Jisung would walk me home. Tonight it was just myself.

Our phone call lasted about 5 mins. He added before I hung up with me, “please call me before you start to walk home. I’ll answer no matter what” I then replied “I don’t want you to get in trouble though.” He didn’t care he always wanted to make sure I was safe. After I hung up with him I overheard Bri and Johnny arguing on the phone. Hearing them argue was a daily thing so it never really bothered me. “See Johnny why can’t you be a good boyfriend like Jaehyun and call me?!” She snapped at him because Johnny’s schedule was different from Jaehyun’s so he wasn’t able to call her. “I’m sorry Bri I can’t” he told her. Before he could finish she hung up on him. “Ugh why do I even bother with that giant” she grumbled.

My night shift was about to start. It was going to be a busy night, before I knew it, my shift was over and it was time to head home. I always felt guilty calling Jaehyun while he was working but he always made sure I went home safe. I called him as I walked outside. “Hey babe!” He said with a big smile. As I said my goodbyes to my coworkers I began to walk home while talking to him. “So how was work Dee?” He asked. “It went by really fast because we were busy and my feet are killing me.” I replied. I loved how interested he was about my day no matter how boring it sounded. “Enough of my day” I said. “How’s work going for you?” With a smile, he began to tell me how his day went. I love the passion he has for his music and he does so well too. “I’m sorry I can’t walk home with you these days” he said “once we are done with comeback promotions we can spend more time together” I then told him “We knew you’d be busy, so I’m just happy enough to get 2 mins of talking to you like this.” I was about 2 blocks away from my house. Just as I was getting closer to my house someone came out of the alley next to me with a knife and stabbed my on the side.

All Jaehyun could see is me scream in pain and fall to the floor and he saw feet running away from me. “BABE!!! DEE!!! ARE YOU OK?! DEE!!!” he was in such a huge panic seeing me lay on the ground in the dark area near my house. I’m still holding the phone seeing him screaming on the phone. “JOHNNY CALL 911, DEE JUST GOT STABBED!!! CALL BRI TO GET TO HER NOW!” I slowly started closing my eyes and blacking out with the lost of blood. “Dee! Stay with me! I’m on my way to you! STAY WITH ME DEE! DEE!!!” As he kept yelling my eyes slowly closed and I passed out. “Is this it? Am I going to die?” I don’t know how long I was laying there but I felt someone pick me up and continuously screaming my name “Dee….Babe Please wake up! Dee please wake up” I hear that voice constantly call me and I knew it was Jaehyun’s voice. But was I dreaming?

I felt someone put me on a bed as it moved into a car. I’m laying there going in and out. I hear voices screaming at each other. “WE NEED BLOOD! SHE’S LOSING MORE!” then I hear crying and yelling “PLEASE DO SOMETHING HELP HER PLEASE!” I can see people around me but I can’t make out who it is. I just know we finally arrived at the hospital as people were waiting at the door with blood bags and a doctor on standby. “WE NEED TO HURRY AND GET HER INTO SURGERY!” a voice screamed. I could feel a hand hold it tight as they ran me to the room, I didn’t know who was holding my hand but I just know they didn’t want to let go…but slowly had to let go as we I went through the doors. I see bright lights as I began to be put to sleep.

A few hours later I woke up in a room which I believed to be a hospital. I felt someone laying on my hand holding it tight. I looked down to see Jaehyun sitting there as if he was praying and hoping I’d wake up, I glanced at him to see him covered in what I’m thinking was my blood. I quietly whispered to him, “Jaehyun is that you?” he quickly put his head up to see I have finally woken up. All he could do is begin to cry and kiss my hand being thankful that I woke up. “I’m so so sorry Dee!” he was so apologetic to what had happened. “I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner. I should’ve just walked you home.” I quickly grabbed his hand to have him calm down and stop. “No it’s not your fault, don’t put blame on yourself.” I said. “No!” he quickly snapped back. “No, you could’ve been safe if I was with you.” I didn’t want him to get worked up so I tried everything to calm him down. “Babe…it could’ve happened to anyone.” I told him. “Yes but it happened to you!” he couldn’t help but cry and continue to take the blame. He didn’t want to let me go and hugged me and cried on my shoulder.

I had pulled him down to stop and relax. “Yes, I know it was unfortunate that this had happened to me, but I’m ok.” I said to him. “Please calm down.” He then sat down next to me on my bed and wrapped his arms around me and kissed me on the top of my head. I then realized he was in the middle of preparing for their comeback. “Wait what about your folks comeback preparations? Weren’t you working?” I asked. “Don’t worry about that right now. Our managers know what’s going on and they told us to come stay with you.” I felt so bad they had their comeback pushed back because of me. “I’m sorry….I’m sorry you have to be—-” He then interrupted me. “Please don’t….don’t be sorry. Your safety is more important than our comeback.” I looked at him covered in my blood. So I told him “Go home and change. I’m sorry you’re covered like this.” “Dee don’t be sorry, I’m going to be here until you are fully recovered.” He added. “Let me go get everyone else and let them know you’re up. Everyone is worried about you.” He then kissed my hand and went to go grab everyone else.

Bri came in first. “Oh my god Dee, you should’ve just called me to pick you up!” I knew she was working late that night too but her job was on the opposite end of where I was. “No I didn’t want you driving back and forth” I told her. Jisung was all shook up when he came in, “Dee are you ok?” He asked. “I will be” I replied. Everyone was so worried and I wanted to reassure them I was ok. Johnny came into the room with some extra clothes for Jaehyun to change in. So Jaehyun gave me a kiss on the forehead and went to go change.

Johnny was really bad at making comments at the wrong time. “Bri if I was laying there would you take care of me?” He asked her. I just giggled. She then snapped back, “Dee, get up because a new body is about to be there.” As she glances over to Johnny. We all giggled except for Johnny. “I’m just tryna brighten up the mood here.” Johnny said. All Bri could do was roll her eyes and walk over to him and say “Keep it up and you’ll be on that bed instead of Dee.” When Jaehyun came back from changing everyone else began to leave to go home. So it was just me and Jaehyun in my room. He came and sat on my bed and slowly hugging me.

“I know I keep saying this, but I’m sorry I’m laying here like this with you.” I told him. “I’m sorry you’re laying here like this too. But I’m glad you’re awake and recovering well.” He added. He then came closer to me and hugged me tighter. His hugs were so warm and welcoming. I loved the warmth he always gave to me, and I always felt safe in his arms. I knew that he was the one I wanted to be with forever the first day I met him.

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