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[strawberry-acais]

aug 3 2024

At this point, this is gonna become an annual thing. So quick updates, I had another stint at Amazon after the last post only to be hired by Chick-fil-A. In November while working in Amazon, I decided to go out into the local writing scene and I made friends. This is why I can now say that I left Chick-fil-A 2 weeks ago and now I work at a library. I also went to one of the Ateez tour stops about a week ago. So, I can say that life is now looking up. The car's fixed, I have a better job, I have more friends again. I still struggle with my spirituality and my relationship with God. (gasp, you don't talk about religion.) Indeed, I don't, perhaps out of a sense of embarrassment or guilt due to events in the past but I don't speak about it in general. What I will say is that I'm taking it a step at a time, going to church isn't the same anymore, and sometimes I wonder If I'm in a stagnant state of being in a spiritual sense. But perhaps I am and there's nothing wrong in admitting it. All I can do is now, to move forward and take a step time. I might never be at where I was in the past, but I don't want that. I want to find where I should be, wherever life should take me. and who knows, maybe when i remember to write again, I'll be somewhere even better.

-Sharon

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aug 29 2023

It's been over a year.

I know.

So let me get you filled in on what has happened and what has been done since we last saw each other.

The Past: I picked up 2 jobs, one at a gas station and one at the local airport. I was barely making ends meet and tbh my personal life suffered immensely as a result of it. I moved back to texas in January and picked up work at a hotel a whiles away from home. In April i lifted the pause on my educational career and started school again but at a different school.

The present: I last 7 months before the car I drove to and from work broke down and left me unable to work. so I cut my losses and quit. I'm in my second quarter of the year and I'm sucking big time. I still haven't learned time management. My room is still a mess and I'm still hella depressed.

In short, I'm still the exact same person as before but with fewer friends and even fewer connections. I'm currently job hunting but my pickings are slim, all the good jobs are beyond my current radius and to be frank, it's very annoying. Yet September comes soon and I might finally secure something soon.

What can one learn from this? Keep your goals a secret, never trust anyone, and always keep a level head. Till my next post.

-Sharon

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may 6 2022

I've been to more than 10 interviews and for the most part, I've been rejected. Perhaps, I shouldn't schedule myself so early, or was it the schooling getting in the way? I had 3 interviews this week and I know that perhaps I didn't get the job for one of them. I applied for a coffee shop and a hotel, my sister forced me to apply to another location of the gas station she works for. She told me that she knew the manager and she was willing to hire me.

To be honest, I just need work. My entire family is breathing down my neck regarding work, I know I failed and perhaps I should've never moved out to Florida for school but I know that in my heart if I tried to do school online and at home, I simply wouldn't make it. I know the ways I learn and online isn't my forte. I learn better when I'm in a classroom. Also, I started a new hobby, I stream online now playing games I have on the switch. I don't have much of an audience but it gives me a bit of relief from the pressure that I have.

My sister told me she's moving back home in July, so that's why I've been applying to jobs left and right hoping and praying someone gives me a chance.

Am I writing this to procrastinate on homework? Definitely. One of my assignments was to write a happy or funny story about myself except, in my current state of being, nothing comes to mind. Every day I feel like crying and all I have is nothing. I called my younger sister to ask if she had any funny stories about me since my memories are absolute shit rn.

Luckily she had a few, she told me about the time I went ice skating for the first time and I realized something about myself. Perhaps, I don't think I have good stories because the truly good stories are too embarrassing for me to share. My chest becomes tense when I think back on it. Regardless, I'll need to sacrifice a bit of my dignity if I need to ace my class.

I'm gonna go finish my homework. I'm sorry if this post is heavy. I have a ton on my chest and I'm unsure if ill see a solution for this anytime soon

-Sharon

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feb 17 2022

I started Uni a few weeks ago and I'm struggling to find a job.

I spent the last of my savings on the move and now my older sister said if I don't find a job and have any money saved, she would take me back to my hometown because I've been burdening my younger sister.

This is the same person that thinks that I spend all my money on video games (which is inaccurate, I spend my money on food and subscriptions.) I would rather unalive myself then go back with her. She's not exactly the best person to live with. She has kids of her own and also married and I'm a bit of an idiot so it's not a good mix. I know it.

I luckily secured a gig w/ uber eats but I am still searching for another job that pays a steady salary since 2k of my loan money is goin to said younger sibling. (SO yeh I need the extra cash money, I'm sleeping off an airbed while everyone else in the apartment has furnishings)

I'm probably gonna go do some delivery in a bit, I just need to finish some homework first.

-Sharon

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oct 2 2021

My father surprises me in odd ways. Today I planned an outing to the local library with my younger siblings so they could enjoy browsing for more books and take advantage of the better wifi that's offered. As we were about to leave, my father called and told me he somehow merged my phone plan with his.

For context, two months ago, my college-bound sibling moved our lines out of the family plans, due to tensions, and we have been paying our bills since.

I, was furious, in short as I had applied a prepaid credit to the account and it felt as if my father had slapped my sister and I in the face, (it's not the first time).

I immediately went to the phone store and asked for confirmation of what had occurred. They were shocked, my dad lied to them regarding our consent and told them he was paying both the plans when in reality it was me! They suggested letting my dad suffer the consequences of his actions. I was also told to return in two weeks to resolve this issue. To be frank, if he wants to wants to pay the 120 bucks instead of 88, that's on him.

on a side note: this blog turned a year old the day after the last post. It's surprising what can transpire over the span of a year.

I can only hope for better and happier days.

-Sharon

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sept 21 2021

what a fool i am.

i am awful at fulfilling any goal i set. It's been a year since the last post and i still don't have my license but we have some bittersweet updates, i no longer work at my previous job(s). I was recruited to work in the healthcare sector. The pay's not that great but it's the least stressful job I've ever had and i want to keep it

BUT YO MY SISTER STARTED COLLEGE A MONTH AGO I AM SO SO PROUD OF HER

she going to full sail and she just got their launch box and tbh that is probably the easiest way one can get a MacBook. funny thing tho her school is trying to get me to apply. (they do have a decent writing program and their online program is cool so perhaps)

till the next time

-sharon

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jun 05 2021

sidenote: sly need to stop forgetting that this exists.

it's been a while so i'll update u on what has happened since the last post:

-i quit both jobs and now starting a job in a gas station

-my mental health is still in the gutter

-my little sister graduated high school (so so proud of her)

-and we plan to move out by years end

-i also plan to do an I.T. course so I can get a better job by early 2022

I've had the last week off and honestly, I'm relieved that I get a small break before I throw myself into the workforce again

-Sharon

sidenote: ik its September sorry

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aug 03 2020

if i could wish on a star and wish for financial stability, it would’ve been done 5 years ago. Alas, shooting stars don’t exist in Texas and i am under some questionable circumstances. 

it has been a eventful yet uneventful few months. Since the last post i have gotten some dreamies for my animal crossing village and i got my wisdom teeth and the the teeth that were damaged from said teeth out. so now my mouth feels awkward, im scared that somethings gonna fuck up and i owe my parents and the dentist money. 

thus why prior to the dentist i had gotten a second job and frankly i wouldn’t mind working a 60 hour workweek if it twas to prove something to my parents. I would rather work myself to the edge of death then to hear my mother moan over my “unproductive ass” one more day. Unfortunately, i only work few hours on both jobs and i can barely make ends meet. I have plans and hopefully my dad (the only other one than me that works) agrees to said plans. I don’t plan to involve my mother, mainly due to the fact that she loves to spill anything I do to her friends and other people in my life. Frankly I won’t be surprised if everyone knew of this by weeks end. 

Seminary is starting back up tomorrow and I need to reset my availability for one of my jobs now. 

But despite the agony these past few months have given me, I try to smile and try to stay upbeat. Frankly I’ve wanted to tell people my true feelings but my parents would rather that I listen to them than them to me. They would rather that I help them, and nurse them since they are aging. (which ofc fair point) My mom says her life is going to waste. 

Regardless I am gonna have to get my license soon. Just so my mom can stop complaining for a bit.

I am sorry about the lengthy post. I needed to get this off my chest and I didn’t want to inconvenience my friends anymore.

-Sharon 

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may 17 2020

its almost 3am and I want to write.

this is most definitely becoming a monthly thing. Soo let’s update! it’s almost been a month since the last post and it certainly hasn’t felt like a month. it feels like it has been a couple of weeks. things at work are starting to go back to normal and i am going to find a second job to further supplement my income as i plan to travel and get a car. 

Amid the chaos of life, i have finally managed to play more Animal Crossing. I have to be honest, i plan to kick out 3 villagers by month’s end mainly due to the fact that i don’t like their vibes. (except lucky, he’s going to an acquaintance when i manage to get him packing)  

I’ve also started to get back into Minecraft and it’s fun. I had forgotten how fun it is to explore unknown lands tbh. I’ve had an urge to build a sheikah tower in every world i explore but I’m not sure how to go about it really.

I’ve also thought about moving all my fanfics from it’s current home on wattpad. It’s been changing and i honestly hate it. I’m not sure to either move it to here on tumblr or on AO3. I’ll have to think of it some more before doin anything really.

I’ve been feeling stressed recently. more than usual. but i don’t think it’s a good time to share. maybe for next time.

-Sharon

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apr. 29 2020

i wonder if this will just become a monthly thing. i hope not.

I do have some updates. Since the last time i posted, i moved into my siblings’ old room. (for context, i has 3 sisters, the youngest two share a room, the last two being me and my middle sis have our own rooms.) The youngest two are now in my old room and tbh, i has more room now and idk what to do with such room.

my sister gave me her pink desk (due to the fact that she wanted my desk and she knew i needed room for clutter). alas, my desk is semi broken. As of writing this post, the desk i ordered for her has arrived at the local wally world.

in gaming updates, i have completed botw with 100% shrines done. I’m replaying botw with the dlc and i hate it. but i know i can do it so i’ll try to finish soon.

till the next post,

-sharon

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mar. 29 2020

IT’S BEEN A MOMENT AND I AM SORRY.

not much has happened since the last post except for 2020 happening and a thing called COVID-19 that busted down everyone’s doors and caused a dam recession here in the states.

is your girl out of work? no. I’m still working. I’ve been following more streamers on twitch and subbed to a few. 

Despite almost everyone in the USA staying in and catching up on their shows. I haven’t even bothered to start catching up and instead am trying to finish Breath of The Wild. (as of now i am at shrine 79 out of 120 and i has the shield and sword.) I also got Animal Crossing and I am in love with it. I am still trying to understand the mechanics as it is my first AC game.

i’ll leave it here for now. till the next post!

-Sharon

ps. i forgot i had a post from january so i posted it before posting this one.

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jan. 08 2020

happy late new year!

since last I posted, lots of good and bad moments have happened.

I finally got a desk/shelf! I took a slow week i had in december to assemble it and it now resides in the corner in front of my bed. almost all of the shelves are full. 

As a birthday gift to me, i bought myself a Nintendo switch with the intention to play Zelda and Bayonetta 2. (since then I’ve acquired a copy of Bayonetta 2, Zelda still eludes me)

but on christmas eve, my cat, Frosty, died. My family doesn’t know how she got to the road where we found her. My sister buried her under a tree in the front yard. If there was a ray of sunshine in that period was the fact that earlier that week we got a new dog, her name is Chiqui.

-sharon

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oct. 12 2019

episode 3 of the shane series. Holy cheese. (i havent finished it yet) them SHADES tho. 

anyways, my side tumblr (aka the cc blog ) got 2 messages from possible nsfw blogs. one wondered if i was interested in being a sugar baby. (LOL nope). you would think that tumblr purged that content almost a year ago. oh well.

im still tired but still goin strong.

-Sharon

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oct. 4, 2019

SuperM’s debut was an effin bop. Alas, the tickets for their first tour go on sale tomorrow and i am hella broke.

it’s been insane at work, it's good if I get out tired. It means that I've done my part and then some. our stations are now properly set up and i’m going to close for the first time tomorrow. im excited yet nervous.

but i’ve been keeping track of the new shane docuseries. gives us the true tea in the beauty world but this just really means that imma buy the conspiracy palette. Shane can have my money.

-sharon

edit: i’m playing the new life tragedies mod from sacrificial and omg, instead of a kiddnapping, one of my sims died of a fatal disease. I do have to admit that it flopped when the kiddnapping event was supposed to happen but whatever.

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sep. 29, 2019

i was late for a meeting *insert sweating emoji here* but then again the gc did say 2:30 instead of 2.

but I'm excited. the store opens tomorrow. I’m going in at 5 but I plan to go in earlier just in the case they need help.]

friday was crazy! i was in charge of the wall display and it turned out pretty good. ends up our deliveries didn’t arrive till earlier today so we will carry on as usual!

I do go to a church on Sundays. so I went today and it was okay I learned and might’ve dozed off but I have improved on my left hand in piano and that’s an accomplishment in itself.

-sharon

edit: superm dropped their teaser for “Jopping” and holy poseidon sm went all out for this. also i finally got around and bought a holo taco. more info in the next post.

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sep. 26, 2019

I found a brilliant youtube creator called KrimsonRogue, he mainly posts book reviews which is a genre that reminds me of my high school years. Those times, despite the glamorization that the msm hold over it, was rather bland. I didn’t have a good nor bad time there. 

Today was like usual with the exception of an impromptu meeting that my mother took me to. (Something to do with detox pills but, I did buy her dinner.)

If i was excited about anything it would have to be the debut of SuperM. A group created by SM Entertainment meaning to be the “Avengers” of K-Pop. I’ve seen their teasers trying to piece together the concept of this first album. The collab that they announced with Marvel makes it a bit too perfect. I’ll have to wait for the mini album to drop before coming to a consensus.

-sharon

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sep. 23, 2019

it’s been a quiet day. I mostly stayed in bed, watched the story of how the online onion boy rose and fell. did some sims 4 cc shopping. I started a new job under a week ago and I think im doing ok.

my intention with this blog is to share a part of my life for when I’m not around someone might read this.

in other news, I finally got the books I had in the shed. This means i need to buy a bookshelf sometime this week and i probably need to take a bath.

-sharon