strangepersonartemis

[strangepersonartemis]

grabeh..I never said malas ko sa akng life... tbh swerte kaayo ko.. i have a very supportive family... i am never alone...But the thing is, i never felt THAT KIND OF HAPPINESS (if you know what i mean)..I remember pa nga laughing so hard with my friends.. I remember being so disappointed to myself but you know I CANT BE SAD! I SHOULD NOT BE SAD, I'LL JUST CRY ANF LET IT GO, because I am insisting na strong ko! wala koy problema, happy akng life, gwapa ko 🤣.but the more I reject crying, the more I reject the pain the more it took my personality away, the more painful it gets, the more it crushed me. Kaya I eat a lot, you know the feeling when youre eating tapos the only thing in your mind is, "dugaya maabot sa akng order uyy, gutom na ko, unsa kaya akong unahon ug kaon, unsaon kaya ni pag luto and etc that i forget everything" so, i decided to eat to forget and eating while studying para walay mulihis na bad thoughts because you are thinking two things, eating and studying lang. Until i was getting so fat and I realized, I was rejecting my pain too much that I was already abusing my self that I am already enganging with bad habbits just to escape sadness lupig pa nak ang palainom 🤣. i remember the time na I failed sem2.. tapos i cried so hard until maglisod na ko ug ginahawa... then duty lang gihapon bisag lain kaayo ang gibati... tapos muuli ug malagos na naga ngisi nga murag wala lang... tapos pag balik bhouse.. hilak tas duty nasad... And felt so sad.. but mind you I was never alone that time, daghan ug tao nag support ug nag comfort nako I appreciate all of you, I just felt so empty... kanang feeling na murag wala may reason to be sad but theres somthing inside of you thats dragging you down... Clearly I never find that happiness until now.. i just wanna write my feelings..

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your experience is your own

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"The little things?

The little moments?

They aren't little."

-John Kabat »»

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You are beauty.💛

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happiness will reflect on persons eyes and that makes them real beautiful

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Rest today, friends. Rest.💙

[strangepersonartemis]

There’s nothing wrong with struggling.

[strangepersonartemis]

it hurts so bad but I'll feel so empty if this hurting stops

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me in the past few years 🥺

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😭😭😭