strangeislandgirl

[strangeislandgirl]

small stream

Im a broken vessel, Ive been used. People who I think that will understand me left once they knew that I am a game called puzzle. No one dares to solve it. No one dares to ask me if Im still okay. Everyone was just like, you will be fine, you need to solve it on your own. Im done. Im done with letting people come in. I am now mastering the art of being unbothered in any aspects. 

Im tired of being suffocated on my own box. Im tired of explaining myself to the people that dont even need my explanation. Im exhausted and that me realize that sometimes life throw you some pieces of stone, that you are too scared to face, thats why you hold your breath too long under the water. 

Ive learn to be not too greedy. Remain underwater for as long as you can breathe,  but if you cannot hold it anymore, come back to surface where you came from, to catch breath again. 

its okay to go back to the small stream, little by little, you will again get used to it

and if that moment you feel that you are ready to hold your breath and go underneath the surface of the big ocean, you will not be scared anymore to go back and then take a deep breath again. 

I will never let myself again to be hurt or to be used by someone that dont deserve my time and energy. Thats a promise. 

[strangeislandgirl]

he called me island girl,

I called him out of nowhere.

there's a gap and differences

and I hate it