stonedideas

[stonedideas]

Dec 8th

You’re not buying me Christmas presents because you love me and you think that I deserve them.. you’re doing it because you’re so convinced that I treat you like crap, so you’re just trying to make yourself look good in front of your friends and make me look like crap... all you have done is hold them over my head and make me feel like shit because oh you just spent all your money on gifts for me, I fucking hate that you just did that, it makes me feel like shit, I don’t want you to spend your hard earned money on me because I’m just a piece of shit, you tel me every single day. I know that you’re not trying to make me happy by buying me thousands of $ of stuff this year ... I told you the only thing I wanted ... and all you have done is make me feel like shit about you spending all your money on me, and held the fucking gifts over my head, I honestly done even want the few things you got me already, I just don’t. I want you to keep your money and stop making me feel like complete shit about it .... because that’s the whole reason you’re doing it in the first place. And oh god it’s working

[stonedideas]

Thank you for calling me stopping me writing my essay and then making me have an anxiety attack in the library... like why do you need that money ... and why are you so rude about getting it from me

[stonedideas]

Dec 5th 2018

Julian Cutone is honestly an animal abuser

[stonedideas]

The text I just sent to my mom

DO NOT REPLY TO THIS, he will see it on my laptop and lose his shit, but I’m going to post an add in Guelph saying I’m looking for roommates for January or February, I can’t do this anymore. I’m going to tell my dad I’m not going to stay with him this week too. It is official now mom I am done with being treated like this. I’m worth so much more than how he makes me feel. But don’t reply and we will talk very very soon I love you

[stonedideas]

As soon as I wake up he’s right back to yelling at me, like I’m sorry I don’t feel good today ... fuck you

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Just replied to a Instagram message Julian sent me, and I was kinda salty so I was gonna clear the message from the screen so he didn’t go and read it, but the message never came up... and like earlier he wouldn’t let me look at his phone and I saw a insta message on the screen, so why the fuck does he have his insta notifications turned off ? That’s my fucking question, I’m taking his phone for sure in the morning before he wakes up and looking at what he’s hiding, because that’s not like him

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I’m gonna take a toke now Julian then sits down to take a toke But I just said Yea I WANT ONE NOW ok well please be quick Yea of course babe I’ll be literally 1 min 16 mins later .... Can you hurry OH MY FUCKIG GOD STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH, MAYBE IF WE START A CHANT “ STOP BEING A BITCH STOP BEING A BITCH STOP BEING A BITCH “ Me : gets quiet Him: oh why the fuck are you throwing a putty party now bitch

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Wow I just wanted to go to fucking sleep but you can’t ever let me do that can you

[stonedideas]

Nov 21

All I was trying to do was show you a Spanish song I really liked... you didn’t have to be so mean and shut me down ... you could have just said that you didn’t want to hear it anymore... why are you so mean getting to tell Me it’s all me all the time ... i was just trying to show you something I was excited about

[stonedideas]

We’re gonna see who makes the nachos My bet is Nicole even tho jukian said he would in a few mins

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Nov 16th

I’m a little upset because I just spent the past 10 hours working and the writing an essay, one hour until I’m done my work and Melvin pees on the bed, now Julian is lying on the bed watching Netflix without headphones because he lost both of our new pairs last week ... and he’s also refusing to turn it down or even close the door so I walked across the house and did that for him, ok so Melvin pees on the bed an hour before I’m done my work and HE DOESNT CLEAN IT UP, HE WAITED FOR ME TO FINISH MY WORK TO DO IT FOR HIM, now he’s been sitting in bed literally all day, he wouldn’t even go to the store and get me a drink, when I asked him to wash the dishes he washed one cup and said he wasn’t doing anymore for me... can someone please agree with me that I’m not insane for feeling depressed? Like how can someone say they love me but treat me like shit, and when I brought up that my feelings were hurt you didn’t say sorry you didn’t do it, you just kept justifying your actions, like fuck I can’t do this for much longer, I’m so fucking exhausted from my life I hate every single part of it ....

[stonedideas]

Nov 15th 2018

He doesn’t want to go to Walmart and get groceries that he needs, the only reason I want to go is because you’re going to scream at me in an hour to make you food and their won’t be anything you want because you wouldn’t let me go to the store, so I said that it’s fine if he didn’t want to go because I can just go and I don’t mind going by myself, he then told me that if I go and get him food he’s going to spend all of the money in the account on amazon so I can’t buy anything... how fucking rude and disrespectful of you Julian ... what gives you the right to treat me like that and call me a cunt for trying to get you groceries when I need to be typing my essay

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Wow I’ve honestly never hated someone the way that I hate you, like really what makes you so fucking entitled... what gives you the fucking right to act the way that you act. You just told me that I cause absolutely every single fight in our relationship because of my negative attitudes, I’m so sorry that you think that and that you can’t see that you are part of the problem. I only have a negative attitude because you always put me down and make me feel like shit. I’m sorry that I am so fucking depressed that I don’t have a more positive attitude. And you know what else, I’m honestly not that negative at all... like I just said one little snippy thing, and oh god I know I’m not allowed to say anything snippy but you are allowed to physically abuse me all the time the way that you do... I cant fucking take this anymore, I’m going to kill myself really soon if you don’t stop, and I’m literally saying right here “ if I kill myself it is 100% Julian Cutone’s fault, he is so horrible and never stops with the abuse and hurtful words” I can’t do this for much longer, I’m supposed to have gone to the store but I’ve been sitting on the stairs crying because I’m not allowed to cry In my own house.

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Nov 12

“Fuck you, you cunt, were fucking over get the fuck out”

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Nov 12

“Get the fuck out of MY house you stupid cunt” “I swear to god if you wake me or Taylor up while we’re sleeping I’ll kick you the fuck out of MY house” “nope I’m fucking gonna call the cops on you, if you don’t get the fuck out of MY house right now”

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Nov 12

Apparently I’m “such a fucked bitch” because I was a little disappointed that Julian didn’t eat my pussy like he promised a million times last night .... why the fuck does he get to treat me like complete shit all the time, I’m sorry that he just got home from work and I’m not even grumpy because I just woke up from a good sleep.... I fucking hate my life and I am going to leave him so fucking soon .... I can’t deal with this shit much longer at all.... I’m going to leave any day now

[stonedideas]

I never want to go home to you