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Debbie Harry × H.R. Giger (1981)

© Chris Stein

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Donald Roeser & Eric Bloom (Blue Öyster Cult)

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I want to pack my things & leave everyone here behind

I want to burn the bridges that have led me to this hell

I hate the girl I have been forced to become this year

I hate that I feel so incredibly alone

I hate looking to the past & watching my dreams slip out of my hands

Am I being punished for staying?

My feelings don't matter to anyone, no one would notice if I ended my life today

I want to turn myself to ash

I will be nothing more than a memory

You will have nothing of me to hold, not an ear of mine to talk to, no part of my body to quench your lust

I will be dust

I will set all of myself on fire to escape from the hell I am in

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So tonight I'll take your pictures down

I'll pretend we never met

I'll pretend this giant hole is a space full of love instead

My friends said I'm smart enough to know when to leave

Every woman I know has been forced to grieve

Over a man who drained their soul

Lied, cheated, and took his toll

Not a care in the world for who she's forced to become

My once fluttering heart has beaten itself numb

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Black Sabbath, London on 17th February 1972.

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THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE TWO TOWERS (2002) dir. Peter Jackson

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I am a shell of the girl I loved last year. I miss her so much. I hate the pain she is going through right now. I wish I could turn back time and choose differently. Maybe I wouldn't have avoided this pain. Maybe I would have.

It doesn't matter now.

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Jawek Kwakman - untitled - 15-08-2024

Source: Glitch artists collective - Facebook

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Not cute or easy for me to admit, but I have not had one full month where I have been free from thoughts of ending my life since last year.

Everything feels pointless and dull. I don't know my purpose. The only time I feel okay is when I'm asleep or distracted by friends.

I hate that this is what my life has become. I hate that no one cares. I hate that no one notices.