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120 calories for the whole thing 🤤❤️.

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6 months, 40 lbs. Not where I want to be but thank GOD I’m not where I used to be 😱

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SILENT WORKOUT!

some of us live with others, whether it's family or roommates, so here's a workout that shouldn't make any noise.

i stole this from the british army instagram page, and there is a video of how to do each exercise in this post: https://www.instagram.com/p/B-PcrE6gBU7/?igshid=1xcugdeeu2gli

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do each exercise for 20 seconds, rest for 10 seconds, then move onto the next.

1. push up

2. bent over row

3. alternate lunge

4. russian twist

5. squats

6. arabesque

7. plank

8. repeat

i do this once or twice a day, sometimes i do it more if i had binged recently.

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I wish I was as focused and committed to losing weight as I was in the beginning

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I promised myself that by summer 2020 I was going to be skinny and it’s already April and all I’ve done is gain weight.

If I’m not perfect by summer I better at least have lost 15 lbs >:(((

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Water is an appetite suppressant, not a craving suppressant!

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all it should take if you’re disciplined enough is three to four months. you’ll be at you goal weight in four months.

the food will still be there in four months. mcdonald’s will still exist in four months. that donut place will still be there after four months. food won’t leave, it’ll still be there when you’re skinny. why eat it now? why not eat it when you’ve reached your goal?

[ what i tell myself every time. ]

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I hate how my first instinct when I feel bad about my body is to binge. Like in what way is that useful??

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what you eat in private, you wear in public.

dont binge.

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nighttime ed thoughts🥒

the truth, the real truth, is that I don’t want to lose the weight healthily, and I never have. I don’t want to grind at the gym and force bland vegetables down my throat, to lose fat but gain muscle and never be the tiny, hold-able girl who I want to embody so desperately.

i want to work for it in a different way. I want the rumbling of my stomach and the strain in self control, because I want to show myself what I can really do. I want to have a secret that I share with no one but the cup of green tea in my stomach. and then I want to feel the weight come off, physically falling away, disappearing from my arms and my stomach until I am all that I know I could be. deep down, I want people to worry.

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I don’t know about you guys but covid-19 break is honestly going to be my time. I’m going to go back to school the skinniest, hottest little shit there and nothing is going to stop me (except maybe my habit of giving up diets teehee). I will literally come back at my UGW and a new wardrobe and drop jaws.

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me: *loses two pounds a day*

me: can u like….. go faster

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“I’ll start tomorrow”

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you stuff brownie after brownie into your mouth.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you gorge on another fast food hamburger and fries.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you sit on the couch, watching TV, eating chips.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you scroll through thinspo eating cookie after cookie.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you eat the last slice of apple pie you’d made.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you stuff snacks into your mouth mindlessly.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you sit admiring others slim physique.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as the number on the scale slowly creeps up on you.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as your family treats you to another fattening dinner.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you read that the diet must be started on a Monday.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say as you have all your life to lose the weight.

“I’ll start tomorrow,” you say because you need to enjoy one last day before you start restricting.

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Counting calories after a binge

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Same jeans. Pics taken two weeks apart from each other :) about 4kg(8.8lbs) difference