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I see this, I love it, and I ask you to consider: Came Back Brave...or at least, with nothing left to lose. You used to be cowardly. Cautious. Never one to instigate or rush headlong into fights. But for all your caution, all your careful preparation, it couldn't save you when it mattered most. In the end it never really mattered at all. Not if you could be brought back. If you could just come back anyway, what were you even afraid of all these years? Now you're reckless, taking every battle by storm, pushing your mind and your body to their limits at every turn. If even Death could not hold you back, nothing will anymore.

"came back wrong" what about Came Back Afraid. You used to be brave. Too brave maybe, defying the odds at every turn, a fighter, cocky, playing with fire, first to throw yourself at the enemy. Until one day it all caught up to you. You came back, somehow, but now you know all too intimately how it feels to lose, to die, to be destroyed. Now you flinch and freeze and cower at the slightest provocation. Who even are you now if you can't be brave? The grave may have let you go, but the mortal fear still grips you tighter than ever.

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Hello again my friends!! We are deep in the throws of wedding planning right now and I could really use some help getting the venue paid off so I am as always having ~ a portrait sale!~

Here is the link to the google form where you can put your submissions!

Rules are the same as usual but i will put them here for you all!

$30 Each OR $25 for Dragon Age Veilguard Rooks!!

These are just simple portraits, simple gradient backgrounds and no hands or props!

Please give visual references for all characters!

I can make matching portraits of a couple but they will not be in the same picture and will be charged as two separate portraits!

These will be completed in between my normal commissions and wedding planning so portraits will not be immediately done

ETA is anywhere from 2 weeks-2 months from when you get placed into the queue (This is subject to change but should be accurate)

Thaaaaat should be everything but as always if you have any questions at all please feel free to DM me!

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being a writer leads to a genuinely helpful but also very stupid kind of mindfulness where you'll be having a sobbing breakdown or the worst anxiety attack of your life and think "okay, I really need to pay attention to how this feels. so I can incorporate it into my fanfiction."

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I liiiiive for the wlw knightly vibes............. and fine art.....

Valora & Evangeline - @commander-sarahs-art & @stellisae's girls! tysm for commissioning me!! this was an absolute treat <3<3

bsky

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One of my favourite questions for figuring out a character’s motivations is which qualities they most fear being assigned to them. Are they afraid (consciously or unconsciously) of being seen as stupid? Ungrateful? Weak? Incompetent? Lazy? Cowardly? Intimidating? Like they actually care? etc.

It’s such a fun way to explore into who they are, why they do what they do, what they don’t do out of fear, and how they might be affected by the events of the story. And I love when characters have negative motivations—trying to avoid something (in this case, being seen a particular way) as much as they’re trying to achieve a goal.

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me, writing: this sentence is way too long. I need to condense it in a way that makes it grammatically correct while still preserving the original meaning I’m trying to convey

the devil on my shoulder: or, you can add five more commas, a semi colon, three em dashes, fifty more words, and it’ll all come together in a way that’s technically grammatically correct but completely incomprehensible to anyone who reads it, even yourself!

me, writing faster: you’re a genius

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(Modern AU)

Amara, over the phone: Where are you?

MC: I see you

Amara: Ok, but I can't see you

MC: No, ICU

Amara: Ohhhhhhh

Amara:

Amara: WAIT A MINUTE

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MC's Answer "Why are you on the floor?"

AFK MC: [face-up, looking concerned] I’ve done nothing but work the past three days and I think my body just… Gave up?

GIL MC: [face-down, ankles crossed, head resting on arms] I’ve discovered that this is the best position so that the world can KISS MY ASS.

L&L MC: [face-down, limbs sprawled] Because life is just HARD okay.

HILF MC: [face-up, squinting] I lost my glasses and refuse to try and walk anywhere until they are back on my face. I hardly trust this town when I CAN see and now that everything’s blurry? Not. A. Chance.

SP MC: [curled up on side] I just sort of fell and I don’t feel like getting up. I am one with the floor and the floor is with me.

ST MC: [face-up, arms behind head, smirking] It’s easier trying to scheme when you’re closer to hell.

C!LA MC: [face-up, staring up] Oh, just questioning every thing I’ve ever done. Lol wanna join?

VN MC: [face-down, cradling head in arms] I go to work, I get attacked by Optimus. I go to my place, they attack me again. I come to the Syndicate to nap AND I GET ATTACKED WITH YOUR QUESTIONS.

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(Gilded poppy group chat)

Leon: what is 'yoink'?

Jett: yoink is the opposite of yeet.

Zoe: but just as fast.

MC: the lord yeeteth and the lord yoinketh away.

Nikolai: what am I reading?

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Reigning Passions characters' alternatives to 'ladies and gentlemen'

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just so you know, you have some followers who enjoy/write fanfiction. not saying their urls rn bc i don’t wanna air out dirty laundry in public but if you want them so you can block and report, just say the word and i’ll dm you a list

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Me: *takes a deep breath* Me: i lo- Anyone who has spent five seconds around me ever: yes, you love Orion, we know, you love Orion so much, they’re the light of your life, you love them so much, you just love Orion, we KNOW , you love Orion you fucking love Orion ok we know, we get it, YOU LOVE ORION. WE GET IT. 

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Man the Lovestruck obsession is like coming back in FULL FORCE now that I'm replaying Astoria😭😭😭 too bad I can't reclaim ownership of the confessions blog or my old server, maybe I'm just feeling nostalgic but I miss being so active in a fandom

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Everyone Gets Sick

The first 3 times that Hades sneezed, MC simply said, "Bless you". It was the sixth time that she gave him a look that he pointedly ignored. Then, when he began to cough, she set down her book and stared at him until he had no choice but to return her stare.

"Yes, dear?"

"Don’t 'yes, dear’ me. What is wrong with you?"

"Nothing," he said innocently. Too innocently.

“Really?" She looked skeptical.

"Really."

MC continued to stare at him until he sighed and put down his paperwork. She noticed that his skin looked pale and clammy. Then he coughed again, and she had had enough.

She got up and went to the bathroom. After some digging around, she found what she was looking for. Walking back into the office, MC approached him with the thermometer.

"Open," she demanded softly.

He did so reluctantly, and she stuck the thermometer under his tongue. He looked guilty when she read the screen after removing it.

"Your temperature is 102." Her tone was accusatory.

He winced and looked at her with an apologetic expression. "I didn’t know it was that bad..."

She sighed and cupped his cheek. "You need to lie down."

He opened his mouth to protest, but she placed her finger on his lips to cut off his reply. She coaxed him to his feet and led him to the bedroom. Once inside, she began loosening his tie and unbuttoning his shirt before he could even get a word in.

"This is unnecessary. I am still capable of doing work." His rebuttal would have been confident if not for the cough that wracked his chest.

“You have been trying to read the same report for the last 30 minutes. Every time your phone rings, you wince and answer it with a grimace. You have adjusted the lighting of the lamp twice. Should I continue?" Her reply was cheeky.

He narrowed his eyes. She narrowed hers back at him until he gave in and took off the rest of his clothing. He received a smile before she went to grab the cold medicine.

MC returned to him looking put out, surrounded by their pillows. She held in a laugh for his benefit and went to him. “I’m going to make you some soup. I don’t think the medicine will put you to sleep, but I want you to try regardless. And," she looked at him sternly. "I don’t want you getting up to sneak in any work. Do you understand?"

He looked indignant, but agreed with a silent nod. She smiled and kissed his cheek before she turned around to go into the kitchen.

She halted when his phone rang and turned around on her heels slowly. She walked back to him with her hand held out in silent demand. Sighing, he set his phone in her hand. She could tell that he was going to protest again, but she just shook her head and left the room.

She returned 30 minutes later with a bowl of soup and a glass of water, only to find the bed empty. She gave an exasperated breath and rolled her eyes before setting the food on his nightstand.

She headed straight to the office, already knowing what she would find.

"Hades!" He raised his head sharply at her voice, a report sitting in front of him. MC put her arms on her hips and gave him a sharp look. “What do you think you’re doing? You agreed to not work."

"I remembered that Persephone needed this by tonight. This is all I will do. I swear.” His eyes were glazed over, and she could hear the rasp in his voice from all the coughing.

"I already talked to Persephone. She said that she could handle not having the report tonight. You need to get back into bed. You look awful."

Hades looked momentarily stunned that she had already thought to call his niece, but recovered quickly. He closed the folder and silently raised himself from his chair. He swayed, and MC headed for him quickly.

She placed his arm around her shoulders and walked him to their room, supporting him as best as she could.

Gods, he was heavy.

"I’m sorry," he said quietly.

She helped him into bed and pulled the covers around him. "For what?"

"For being a burden."

MC gave him a soft smile while placing his food in his lap. She sat by his side on the bed and regarded him with a sympathetic look on her face. "You’re not being a burden. You’re sick. It happens to the best of us. Don’t worry.”

He still looked forlorn, but accepted her response with a silent nod.

“I’m going to wet a washcloth to bring your fever down. Eat as much as you can, okay?”

She patted his arm before rising from the bed. She was about to walk away when he grabbed her hand. She looked at him with confusion. Hades’ cheeks were tinted red when he replied, "Thank you."

"You’re welcome." She squeezed his hand before exiting the room.

She returned a few short moments later, only to find the bowl empty on the nightstand and Hades asleep against the headboard. She laughed silently before gently coaxing him into a more comfortable position. He gave a grunt as he moved, but didn’t open his eyes. When he was situated, she placed the washcloth on his forehead and tucked him in.

She took the dishes into the kitchen, placed the bowl in the sink, and filled his cup with more water. After grabbing some aspirin from the bathroom, she placed them next to the glass for when he woke up. MC turned his phone off and laid down next to him. He sighed softly before snuggling closer, throwing an arm around her waist before falling back to sleep.

"I love you," she whispered quietly before closing her eyes.

"Love you too," he murmured, falling asleep once more.

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Prompt: Hades takes MC on a surprise trip for their anniversary.

LI: Hades

"Where are you taking me, Hades?" MC asked, her eyes covered with his big hands. She felt warm air hit the back of her neck as he chuckled in secrecy. Rolling her concealed eyes, she scoffed. He is enjoying this too much.

"Has no one ever told you? Patience is a virtue, dear," he said teasingly. MC wanted to elbow him in the ribs but refrained. Five years married to this man and he still held the upper hand in the mysterious department. She was about to retort when she heard the soft roar of rushing water in the distance, thanks to her enhanced hearing, causing her to stop and pay attention to their surroundings.

It was then she realized that there was soft mist landing on her exposed legs and arms, causing goosebumps to rise on her skin as the breeze cooled the droplets.

"How much farther?"

"Not far. Keep walking, I'll guide you," Hades lightly nudged her in the right direction, causing her feet to resume their steady pace.

MC enjoyed the sounds of the animals and the feel of Hades' warm hands on her chilled face as they walked. She was so lost in the sensations that she didn't even realize they had stopped until she heard his light chuckle.

"Are we here?" She asked, her face burning in embarrassment. She was not going to give him the satisfaction of acknowledging it, however. Even though he can probably feel the heat traveling into his hands that were still covering her face.

"Yes. Are you ready?" He asked teasingly, knowing good and well that he had been full of anticipation since he covered her eyes. She did elbow him that time, making him laugh and uncover her eyes.

"Oh," she gasped. There they stood, on top of a cliff that overlooked one of the most stunning views she had ever seen. It was beautiful!

The first thing she took in was the sun shining through the clouds, beaming over the top of the valley that towered over the scenery before them. The vast, distant mountains were spotted with patches of snow that glistened in the bright sunlight like thousands of diamonds. A patch of delicate looking trees covered the expanse of land that separated the high grounds of the mountains from the low grounds of the waterfall. The water was clear until it hit the jagged rocks, turning it to white and throwing mist every which way. The lush grass was damp from the moisture raining down on it, making it shine in the beaming sun.

The sun was so tranquil that she was scared to break the silence.

"Hades..." she was speechless. How did he even find this place? She hadn't seen any signs while they were driving so it couldn't have have been a common place that one would find.

"Happy anniversary, love," he murmured in her ear. She turned to him sharply. I couldn't have heard him right.

"Oh, my gods! I'm so sor-!" He silenced her with a kiss, chuckling against her lips at her hurried apology.

"No need to apologize, dear. You have been so busy lately, still getting into your role as a goddess," he kissed her lightly once more before continuing. "I could not be more proud of you. So, I decided to surprise you."

She looked at the scenery again, sighing contentedly, before turning to him. She wrapped her arms around his neck, hugging him like she never wanted to let go, and he wrapped his arms around her waist and held her just as tightly. They stood there, enjoying each other's presence for an immeasurable amount of time before laying a blanket on the ground and sitting.

They reminisced on the memories of the past few years, sharing stories and thoughts. They laughed, cried, smiled, and frowned, but it was perfect. Hades wanted her to remember these things, the good and the bad, for as long as possible.

He knew what it was like to forget, but hoped that she never would. She won't. Not if I can help it.

MC snuggled closer to him, thanking the gods that her and Hades had found each other and that they were happy.

They looked at one another, happy knowing that, as the years go by, they will only get happier.

Best anniversary ever.