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I can never find the right words to tell people what I’m thinking. Telling them I’m tired doesn’t work, but I can’t seem to vocalize that I’m mentally exhausted and sick of existing. Telling them I’m sad doesn’t work either, but I can’t explain that I’m struggling not to kill myself and that the joy in everything in my life is gone and when I wake up to the sun in my eyes, I have to struggle to get myself out of bed because most of me didn’t even want to wake up at all. I can’t tell them I’m numb because what I’m feeling is so much more complex than numb and I don’t have the vocabulary to tell them that I feel like I’m drowning and it terrifies me that I feel nothing as it’s happening, and that my insides want to scream but I can’t even find it in me to shed a tear anymore, that every single aspect of my life feels like it’s shaded in grey because all the colors were sucked out but I can hardly even remember what colors are because I can no longer remember a time I didn’t feel like this. No, I don’t know how to say that. So I just whisper “I’m fine.”

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whats your type?

Fictional men written by women.

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outline

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cryptic

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🐝✨ bee aesthetic ✨🐝

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Imagine going on a date like this >.<

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in the midst of the mountains

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“We all grew up and did the things we said we’d never do.”

— Unknown

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Requested by Anon

Arctic Monkeys - Thunderstorms

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Subtle ace writing and thunderstorm lockscreen for anon!

Lemme know if you’d like anything changed!

~Mod Pau❤️

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types of girls: movie genres

comedy: red lipstick, dancing in the rain, the thrill of being alive, stupid selfies over actually pretty ones, body positivity, standing up for your friends, dog people, street smart

romance: paris, insecure about looks, wants to write poetry, literature lover, gets a million crushes every day, natural make-up, always reassures their friends, wants to be liked by everybody, one or two close friends but lots of acquaintances

indie: headphones, wistful expression, rain and thunderstorms, hipster aesthetic, not very school smart, dancing, shy, deep blue, sugary foods, reclusive, chooses who they trust

fantasy: suprisingly into psychology, sweet smiling, keeping secrets, loyal friend but unpopular, head full of thoughts, keeps to themself, can be childish, ice-cream although it’s winter, humming songs to yourself

action: fast-paced, messy hair and handwriting, tragic backstory, dyed streaks in hair, first of your friends to drive a car, the youngest sibling, gets bored on planes, using your phone, outcast or stands up for outcasts, dark red and dark blue and rich black

crime: quiet, sarcastic comments, has a deep voice, very funny around those they know, math pro, smokes, can sometimes be rude to people, harsh words

cartoon: yellow converse, good attitude, traumatic experiences have happened to them in the past but they’re recovering, lemonade, carnivals in summer, shorts, knowing just the right thing to say to your friend, puns

anime: flowers, cutesy decorations, really good at drawing, classical music, studies a lot, does yoga, probably vegetarian, is very friendly but doesn’t have many close friends, feels alone sometimes, smarter than most believe, cute heels, pastel colors

musical: vibrant, always has a song stuck in their head, doodles in class, pretty aesthetic, can be silly, fancy restaurants, playing harmlesss pranks, an extrovert, plays an instrument

drama: loud laugh, deep purple shade aesthetic, has a million accounts, sunglasses, dancing even if you can’t do it well, making dirty jokes, journal, seems open but actually is very secretive, intelligent, can be brash, doesn’t wear make-up

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