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Go on youtube. Watch this video. Give likes and comments. Go follow @sidecar-er. Watch all their stuff

If this video gets 500k views, I swear to Chuck I will animate a Destiel music video myself. Whatever song ya'll want

I have been rewatching this for months now and it frustrates me that it's not getting the recognition it deserves it's so fucking good

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my dumb ass forgot that ao3 was going down for a few hours like i rushed over here to see, oh, its just scheduled maintenance that i chose to ignore. how am I supposed to fill my afternoon now??

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this had probably been said before but it honestly feels unreal to be getting into supernatural just last year. almost 20 years since it started, and way after the peak, i saw it and said huh, why not try this out. i did not know i would fall this deep into the fandom. i now know how badly this will end, how my heart will break and how the characters aren’t even the why do i not find anything at cons or stores for this when i can find stuff from other fandoms from this era. i need to create or consume for this fandom but it feels like there is nothing left. i feel as if screaming into a void when talking about this fandom sometimes

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I don’t think people fully understand the sheer gravity of Destiel.

Like, this isn’t just a story about an angel falling in love with a human or another fanon ship that was created just because two dudes were standing too close.

This is an angel, a being forged by God, programmed to follow orders, incapable of free will, the literal embodiment of divine obedience!!! choosing to rebel. For one man. For Dean Winchester.

Think about it. Castiel wasn’t made to feel. He wasn’t made to question. He was made to serve, to follow heaven’s will without hesitation and then he meets Dean. He saves him from hell and in that moment, that exact fucking moment, his entire purpose shifts. Dean didn’t just change his mind cause we are not talking about another mortal being. He changed his entire fucking existence.

And here’s the kicker of it all. God, the all-knowing, all-powerful storyteller, couldn’t stop it. God, who controlled the narrative, who created Castiel and set the rules of the universe, couldn’t stop him from falling. Cas didn’t just disobey orders!!!!!!! He shattered the divine design. He looked at Heaven, at the eternity he was promised and said, "No. I choose him." Insane.

Do you understand how fucking huge that is? This isn’t a simple love story. This is cosmic rebellion and the writers couldn’t even grasp the insanity of what they created for a CW show.

It’s tragic and overwhelming because Cas didn’t fall in love with Dean for any selfish reasons. He didn’t want anything back. He didn’t expect Dean to love him, didn’t need his affection or validation. He never got to touch him or kiss him or get the "I love you too" that all of us wanted to hear. He just wanted to be near him. To help him. To save him, over and over, to make sure that Dean knew that he had someone who was looking after him.

And the cost? It was everything and people just brush over that.

Cas gave up Heaven. He gave up grace. He gave up the safety of eternity and purpose to stay in Dean’s proximity. Not because he was destined to, not because God told him to but because he *chose* to. That’s what makes it so tragic. It wasn’t written. It wasn’t meant to happen. Castiel broke the rules of his existence for someone who didn’t even realise the depth of it until it was too late.

Then THAT moment. When Cas says, "You changed me, Dean." It just hits different, doesn’t it??? Cause it’s not just a love confession. it’s a revelation. He confirms it right there that it was Dean's humanity that did it. Not some grand cosmic force, not some divine intervention. Dean himself, in all his flawed, beautiful, self-sacrificial mess, changed everything.

Dean, who always put others before himself, who had to raise himself, who gave everything to Sam and kept nothing for him. Dean, who was destined to always be second, to always sacrifice his own needs for someone else. Dean, whose car that he loved so much, his only constant, even that belonged to his father. Dean, whose clothes were probably second-hand, whose childhood was spent taking care of his little brother. Dean, whose purpose was always for the world, for the greater good and never for himself.

For the first time, Dean had something that was his. Something that wasn’t meant for anyone but him. Cas was HIS. Not for God, not for his father, not for Sam or the world.

This isn’t just a story about love!!! It’s *the* story about love. It’s messy and painful and romantic in the most devastating way cause Cas didn’t just rebel against heaven, people!!! He rewrote the entire concept of free will, of devotion, of sacrifice!!!!

He loved Dean with everything he was and that love was strong enough to defy God himself.

It’s the greatest, most tragic, most insane fictional story of our lifetime. Nothing will ever come close.

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behold, some supernatural art i created while listening to mama by mcr. it just felt right for the theme and i thought it fit the winchesters, so have my art that i love so much. and also fueling my hyperfixation

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my updated bag, now with the pin my friend got me for christmas! i do have more fan fiction related ones but i just can’t fit them on it unfortunately

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i showed these to my grandma bc i went over to her house in these, and she was like “you should post that on tiktok! you would start a trend!” no grandma i would get eaten by the algorithm and people have been diying thrifted stuff for years. i love you but tumblr is enough thank you

my diy boots i thrifted and customized. I am pretty happy with how it turned out, and with my little fandom references too. this wad the first thing i ever diyed!

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when ao3 is down what do you want me to do? live my life without my fix of hyperfixation? expect me to socialize normally and not go to sleep without reading something made by someone else who shares the same passion as i do? like man idk what you do ao3 being down is like my least favorite feeling

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A Phone Call for One

Summary:

Christmas in 2003 was lonely enough.

When a Impala stops outside an abandoned phone booth, their christmas might get a little less lonely.

I tried to study Dean’s character during Stanford era with this; the loneliness of being alone and the feeling of living while not actually living. This was inspired by seeing a lamp reflecting snow when walking, imagining I was the only person for miles, the loneliness this caused me to feel.

This does have mature themes, so read the tags and heed their warnings.

Have happy holidays, everyone.

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my diy boots i thrifted and customized. I am pretty happy with how it turned out, and with my little fandom references too. this wad the first thing i ever diyed!

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Sad jester

the jester jungles around sadly, looking for a master to ridicule

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I will never forgive Supernatural for making Dean out to be the bad guy whenever they came across a teen who wanted to hunt/was already hunting and he pointed out that hey maybe this kid who who hasn’t even graduated highschool yet shouldn’t be hunting fucking monsters

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Kissing practice with aziraphale and crowley

I was goofing around and these just worked their way into my mind so i couldn’t stop myself from drawing them. ik it isn’t the greatest but it is practice

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The Angel of Thursday and the Sword of Mitchel

I tried my best on this one. It was my first attempt at anything remotely based on realistic characters. i had a lot of fun drawing it!!