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drugging me in the morning with shrooms in a smoothie you make for me, then spending the whole day playing with me. setting the atmosphere to relax me as i come into the high, praising and rewarding me for basic things. it makes me really pleased, although i don’t understand why it’s affecting me so much today. i end up feeling euphoric, as you touch me and undress me, and put me in an outfit of your choosing. next thing i know, you’re dumbing me down, making me forget how to function as a regular person, giving me commands as a fuckdoll. a few hours deep and being a sex toy is all i’ve ever been and all i’ve ever known. you completely rewire my brain to your design, so that i can fulfill every whim.

i respond to a lexicon of command words, and follow domestic impulses like they are instinct. my primary function is to bring you pleasure and then to take care of our home. i’m the perfect companion.

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When I’m about to fall asleep I hope to dream about you because you’re my only comfort

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"Some people"

This is one of my favorites to listen to.

What even is this subgenre called? It's like deaddove...audios?

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It's nice to never really be alone.

I'm almost never alone anymore.

I'm not crazy right? Probably not. I just don't like being lonely.

But also I'm very bad at relationships. So it's probably for the best that I'm interested in someone who isn't going to reciprocate.

Because no matter what I do, I fuck up. I fuck up my relationships because I don't know how to do it right.

I don't know I think I just never learnt how to, or maybe my brains just really broken.

But I'm not capable of it. All I do is hurt everyone I get close to.

At least this way , I can keep everyone else at a distance. But not be lonely .

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being loved with the same intensity i love would fix me

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everyone wants a loser gf until she’s sobbing bc she missed you, she actually doesnt leave the house, she wants to spend all your time together and is upset when you’re not able to, she’s crying because she perceived a very slight shift in your tone, and she is on her knees begging for scraps of attention when you begin to pull away.

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Fuck love letters, I'll write you a whole book.

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all i want is you. all i need is you. all i dream about is you. you you you you you.

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Hii :3 (With the intention of entering a codependent, long term relationship where we cannot function without each other.)

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the rush of pleasure i feel from being praised by them borders on overdose

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hey can you come over and feed into my delusions plz

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hey can you come over and feed into my delusions plz

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hey can you come over and feed into my delusions plz

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It's nice to never really be alone.

I'm almost never alone anymore.

I'm not crazy right? Probably not. I just don't like being lonely.

But also I'm very bad at relationships. So it's probably for the best that I'm interested in someone who isn't going to reciprocate.

Because no matter what I do, I fuck up. I fuck up my relationships because I don't know how to do it right.

I don't know I think I just never learnt how to, or maybe my brains just really broken.

But I'm not capable of it. All I do is hurt everyone I get close to.

At least this way , I can keep everyone else at a distance. But not be lonely .

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Keep changing what I think (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

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I still can't get over how ..not easy but....

How much I want to get "manipulated"

With some things I can be very stubborn about, like when it comes to what I think.

But I don't think it's impossible to change that, just tricky.

But it's interesting to see how it works.

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is it really stalking if the information is out there just waiting to be memorised