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hi fic gang a life update starmakerdotcom is alive and turned 18 a few days ago 🥳🥳🥳

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hiiii i miss u guys

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HI real quick i’m so sorry i’ve been inactive and i’m just popping in to say it’ll probably stay that way for a bit LMAO i was planning on getting some stuff done but some stuff in my personal life (that i’d rather not get into ahaha) is kinda . preventing me from being active

not preventing i just dunno how else to put it SO ily but i’ve got my own shit to worry abt and this blog is Not a priority

i’m still active on my talk blog @cheriesjubiles occasionally and i’m trying to still like and rb stuff from my moots BUT yk life is kinda getting in the way

this is too dramatic lmfaooo bye

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my ocs as mitski songs !

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . ari as townie

find ari and her group at @crepusculedotcom

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❌☕💛 for my sickly victorian son jaeyi

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . jaeyi @ 20 : 39

❌… what’s the worst part about being an idol? how do you deal with it?

“is it weird to say sharing a bedroom? i mean, at least it’s just baek, he knows how i am, but i like my privacy, thank you. also i don’t like getting up early for schedules.”

☕ … share an opinion that would have your searches up in flames.

“does this have to be related to an idol or can i just say something like pride and prejudice is a cinematic masterpiece that’s greatly underappreciated. i don’t know if that would have my searches in flames actually, i think they’d just be like baekhan and make fun of my taste in movies.”

💛 … what’s your position in your group? do you think the positions are fair? 

“as of right now i’m a lead dancer, vocalist, and visual! i don’t really get the visual position? but other than that i think all the positions in my group are pretty fair! they highlight our talents pretty well.”

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🧡❤for my babie MJ

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . mj @ 20 : 29

🧡… if you could join any group other than your own, which group would you join?

“...is it biased to say botanica? i dunno if i’d fit i just get along with them all really well.”

❤️… if you weren’t an idol, what would you be doing?

“i’m not too sure. around the time i was offered an audition i was just getting out of middle school so i didn’t really have my life planned out. i had a few ideas, one of which was to be a stand up comedian... for some reason.”

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⏳ for mj !!!

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . mj @ 20 : 26

⏳ … what do you do when you have time off from schedules?

“i’ll usually just have a lazy day! try to relax as much as i can, maybe visit elliot if he’s not busy too. and then we’ll relax together, maybe watch a movie?”

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⭐ MILO MY BBY

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . milo @ 19 : 49

⭐… is there a “favorite” member in the group? is it you? how do you feel about their treatment?

“i think the company makes a fair effort to treat us all equally, it’s mostly the public that has favourites, we’ve noticed. we’ve all kinda agreed that the maknae line are the most popular, especially posie, she gets a crazy amount of brand deals compared to the rest of us. i don’t really care, it’s not like i could do anything about it anyways?”

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can i request 🍊 and 🍍 for jaeyi?! okay now im done :)

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . jaeyi @ 19 : 40

🍍  :    how comfortable is my muse in their body?  how do they feel about their height,  weight,  strength,  and body type?  how important is being attractive to them?  

“i’ve been pretty comfortable in my body for a while, but everyone wants to change something about themselves, right? i know i brag about how tall i am a lot but sometimes it’s like... i dunno i feel real weird and lanky sometimes. i’m not sure how important being attractive is to me. i mean, sure, there’s this societal standard but honestly? i don’t get it. let people live and look the way they want.”

🍊  :    does my muse desire romance?  is it something they would actively seek out,  or prefer to happen more  ‘  naturally?  ’  what is their love life like?  do they have any exes or past flings,  or crushes?  

“like i said, i don’t think i’ve ever been in love, and i’m not always actively seeking romance, but it’s be nice. my love life is pretty boring, i’ve had a lot of crushes, and sure, everyone’s had a few short term relationships in middle school and high school, but that’s about it? but i’m free february 14th. hear that? i am free the 14th of february, just in case anyone was wondering.”

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hiii! long time no see! i really hope you're doing well :) idk if i'm doing this right because i don't really go on tumblr much unless it's to check your page LOL but can i request chrysanthemum for jaeyi??? 😊

can i also request gardenia for jaeyi uwu???

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . jaeyi @ 19 : 37

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

“i don’t know if i’ve ever been in love? i like the concept of love, if that makes sense, like i’m down for that. i don’t know how i’d express it though? i did take that love language test and figured out mine was quality time, which makes sense. i guess that’s how i’d express it, i could talk to someone for hours, i can only imagine how long i’d talk to someone if i was in love with them.”

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

“i don’t know... i guess it depends? it depends on who it is, but i’d probably try to confess pretty soon. you only live once!”

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[💌] KOC EMOJI ASKS!

an ask game for kpop ocs! largely inspired by the another older koc ask game which can be found in the source link. most of these are aimed at idol ocs in groups, but can easily be modified for a soloist or an addition!

❤️… if you weren’t an idol, what would you be doing? 🧡… if you could join any group other than your own, which group would you join? 💛 … what’s your position in your group? do you think the positions are fair?  💚 … what’s something you’d like to achieve for you, or for your group? 💙 … if you could, would you have rather debuted as a soloist? have you ever thought about going solo + leaving your group? 💜… what’s your idol image like? is it different from your off-camera personality? 🖤 … have you been in any scandals? how have they affected you as an idol? as a person? 🤍 … what are your fans like? how do you interact with them? 💬 … if you could receive the phone number of any other idol(s)… who would they be? ❌… what’s the worst part about being an idol? how do you deal with it? 💫 … is there any idol you just don’t get along with? any member of your group you’d fight if you had the chance? ⚡ … have you ever gone on a survival show? what was it like? would you ever do it again? ✨… what concept suits you best? does it line up with your group’s concept? ☂️ … what’s your relationship like with your staff (ex: managers, stylists, etc) ? ⏳ … what do you do when you have time off from schedules? 📱 … what are your sns habits like? do you post a lot or barely at all? 🎤 … what’s the most embarrassing public moment you’ve had (ex: voice cracking, bad aegyo,etc)? 📝… how involved are you in  your/your group’s music and promotions? what aspect do you most like working on? if not, do you want to be more involved or are you content just performing? 🥪… talk about your experiences with inkigayo sandwiches! 📸 … show off your favorite selca! 🏅 … have you ever participated in the isacs? what sport? did you or your group win any medals?  💞 … talk about any experience dating as an idol 🎬 … what are your activities outside of promoting your albums? do you model, act, etc? ⭐… is there a “favorite” member in the group? is it you? how do you feel about their treatment? ☕ … share an opinion that would have your searches up in flames. ⏳ … what would you tell your past self about what their life will be like post-debut?

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this side of paradise , han jaeyi and kwon baekhan / peach , 1.3k

fluff / hurt comfort , warnings : light swearing , crying , very very vague references to past traumatic events (if i’m missing anything pls let me know <3)

in which, jaeyi doesn’t know if he’s gotten closer to peach or found out there’s more mystery to him than he originally thought. (a revision of a piece i posted a few months back!)

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . july 2020 , 1:35 am

jaeyi hated the smk building rooftop.

he hated heights in general, and definitely didn’t see the appeal going up ten stories and peering over the edge down at the countless people and cars that were at a normal human elevation for nothing more than leisure?

why baekhan decided to go up there whenever he felt overwhelmed, jaeyi had no clue, but he couldn’t just leave him up there.

he pushed the door open and stepped into the night. baekhan wasn’t far, just leaning on the rail, facing out to the skyline of seoul. he looked oddly peaceful.

“baek?” jaeyi called out hesitantly, “it’s just me, don’t worry.”

carefully making his way over to where baekhan was, he tried to ignore the sounds of rushing cars beneath them, it made his head spin. baekhan turned around, but quickly softened in seeing that it was jaeyi behind him.

“you should go back to the dorm, it’s late,” baekhan said, looking back to face the open air.

“and you shouldn’t?” jaeyi replied, “you’re coming back with me.”

“not yet,” baekhan protested, “just gimme a few minutes? i’ll come back in soon, i promise.”

jaeyi huffed. “fine, but i’m staying here with you,” he proclaimed as he sat down, back pressed against the cold railing. surprisingly, baekhan offered no sounds of protest, and slid down to match jaeyi’s sitting position, pulling his knees up to his chest.

they sat in silence for a few minutes, baekhan with his head between his knees and jaeyi with his head back against the rail trying to focus on his breathing. honestly just trying to focus on something other than the irrational scenario he’d come up with where the rail gave way and sent the two boys tumbling over the side of the building.

he decided to break the silence to take his mind off his irrational thinking, “is there anything bothering you? do you maybe... wanna talk about it?”

baekhan kept his head down “it’s nothing you can help with.”

jaeyi sighed, “maybe it’ll still help a little if you talk about it? i dunno i just- i don’t like seeing you like this, i wanna help.”

“it’s complicated,” baekhan said simply, “i don’t wanna dump all that on you. but i’ve managed to convince myself i’m not ready to debut.”

jaeyi looked up at him in disbelief. “you’ve been here for years, you’re more ready than i’ll ever be.”

“don’t say that. i wanna believe i’m ready,” baekhan muttered, “but- i don’t know, i’ve been so eager to debut for so long but now that it’s happening i’m like- scared, almost?”

jaeyi listened intently as baekhan continued, “not scared, really, i just don’t know how else to describe it. like, i just wanna run away, or something. i know it sounds pathetic-“

“nothing you say to me could sound pathetic. you’re allowed to feel like that,” jaeyi interrupted, “i get it, it’s nerve racking, but you’re crazy talented. you’ll regret it if you don’t debut now.”

baekhan sighed in exasperation, “i know,” he put his head back down and mumbled, “it what he would’ve wanted.”

jaeyi didn’t press. he didn’t know the “he” baekhan was referring to, but the possible intent behind that made his heart clench.

jaeyi could always tell baekhan was different from the other trainees. he’d always been quiet, he’d been distant and always looked like he was in a daze until the day they all learned they’d be members of botanica. he’d heard countless rumours about the older male, jaeyi always tried not to listen to rumours, but to his surprise, baekhan warmed up to him quickly.

not to say jaeyi didn’t wonder what it would be like after it was announced they’d be debuting together, along with four other boys.

“shit, i... okay- look-“ jaeyi started again, trying not to stumble over his words, “i’m not great at the whole, comforting and giving advice thing, and i don’t know what you’ve been through so it might be the wrong thing to say- but i think you’re one of the strongest people i know.”

baekhan lifted his head up again, and jaeyi continued, “and i- i know you’ll get through this, the kwon baekhan i’ve gotten to know so far wouldn’t give up so easily.”

“this sounds cliche, but maybe you don’t actually know kwon baekhan like you thought you did.”

“in any case,” baekhan stood up, brushing his pants off and yawning, “i’m fuckin’ exhausted. you probably are too, wanna go back now?”

“oh god yeah, anything to get off this roof,” jaeyi said half jokingly as he got up and started walking towards the stairwell.

“oh! but before we go in can i- uh-“

“what’s up?” baekhan asked.

“do you- are you okay with people touching you? do you like hugs? can i give you a hug?” jaeyi babbled.

baekhan laughed through his nose a little at jaeyi’s awkwardness, but ultimately responded, “yeah sure, but only for you,” it wasn’t clear if he was joking about that last part.

but jaeyi still let baekhan walk into his open arms and enveloped him in a tight hug. baekhan instinctively stiffened a little, and jaeyi loosened his grip.

“you smell like sweat,” baekhan laughed in a feeble attempt to not make the hug so awkward.

“you’re no better,” jaeyi retorted, “but at least it’s a sign we’re practicing hard, right?”

“also,” he continued, “can you please come to me if you’re having a hard time? i don’t know how well i can help, but i’ll give you some company at the very least. i don’t like seeing you sad, okay? we haven’t known each other for very long, but we’re friends, right? i care about you.”

baekhan had to turn away so jaeyi wouldn’t see him getting choked up. “thank you,” he responded quietly, “that means more than you’ll ever know.”

“but anyways,” he continued before he got too emotional for his own liking, “wanna go to bed? you look exhausted.”

“you should see yourself!” jaeyi exclaimed, already making his way through the door and down the stairwell, “but yes, please, to sleep we go.”

when they’d gotten back to the dorm, everyone was already asleep. with the lights out and half unpacked moving boxes scattered about, they had to be careful not to wake anyone. thank god they shared a room so they wouldn’t cause too much ruckus.

“i’m just gonna- go wash my face super quick, okay?” baekhan whispered, “i’ll come to sleep in a minute, you get in bed.”

“okay mom,” jaeyi said jokingly, but complied and headed towards their room. baekhan headed the opposite way, towards the bathroom.

once he’d locked himself in, he turned the tap on as hard as it would go so no one could hear him cry.

as his chest began to heave and hot tears spilled down his cheeks, he slid down the wall into a sitting position with his knees up to his chest, the same position he’d been in a few minutes prior on the roof with jaeyi. he wasn’t sad, quite the contrary actually, he was just... overwhelmed. overwhelmed at the support he was receiving? overwhelmed that someone was there to listen and offer help? overwhelmed that someone cared about him so much and wanted him to succeed since...

when his chest stopped heaving and he wiped his eyes, he thought about how he’d no doubt be kept awake that night that night thinking about what the hell he did to deserve such a good soul like han jaeyi as his friend.

and in their shared room, said han jaeyi laid flat on his back staring at the ceiling, thinking about what had just happened. he’d even gotten choked up himself at the potential weight behind the things baekhan had said earlier. his heart clenched at the thought of the possible things his friend had been through, the events that shaped him into the baekhan jaeyi had come to know in the past couple months.

kwon baekhan was an interesting soul that jaeyi couldn’t tell if he was eager or scared to learn more about.

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u have asks off on solar's blog but broooo the new fcs are a VIBE like jun fits milo so well and the name milo?? fits him so well?? and also beomgyu as orion yes

AND YEOWOOL

ok that is all goodbye

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . ava @ 13 : 45

FUCK i gotta turn asks on on all my new blogs i forgot to do that but THANK U !!!! IM SO EXCITED FOE THEIR NEW FCS AND HOPEFULLY BETTER PLOTS !!!!

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❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

headcanon prompts with questions based on plants   &   what they represent in flower language .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,    or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ?  

acanthus :   is your muse deceptive ,   or willing to lie or deceive to achieve certain means ?   why or why not ?   

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ?   how do they express that pride ?   

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ?  where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?  

bachelor’s button :   does your muse actively seek romantic companionship ,   or cherish the liberties of being single ? 

basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

bay tree :   does your muse seek glory   &   accolades ,   or do they favour a simpler ,   more personal life ?  

begonia :   how cautious is your muse ?   are they prone to noticing red flags ,   or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ?   why or why not ?  

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?   

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ?  

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

daisy :   did your muse ever feel as though their innocence had been lost ?   what moment in their life could be described as the end of their innocence ?  

edelweiss :   what was the bravest moment in your muse’s life ?  are they known to be courageous from then on ?  

fern :   does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces ,   or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control ?  

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

goldenrod :   does your muse believe in luck or fortune ?  why or why not ?   where do they believe these things come from ?  

heliotrope :   does your muse believe in soulmates ?

hibiscus :   how does your muse view the gentler ,   daintier things in life ?   as things worth preserving   &   caring for ,   or things only bound to wither   &   disappear ?  

holly :   how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition ?  are they aware of it ?   do they ever fear that it is only paranoia ?  

hollyhock :   how strong is your muse’s sense of ambition ?  what’s something they strive for in life ?  

hyacinth :   is your muse athletic ?   does it come naturally to them ,   or have they had to work for their physique and/or skill ?  

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?  

ivy :   what are your muse’s views on marriage ?   do they believe it is something strictly for love ,   or an institution rooted in business   &   social benefits ?   do they desire or have they desired to be married ?

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

lilac :   what was your muse’s childhood like ?   how has their upbringing affected them as they’ve aged ? 

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?  

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ?  

magnolia :   describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

marigold :   is your muse prone to jealousy ?  how might they handle envious feelings ?  

mint :   does your muse view themself as virtuous   &   moral ?  what do these words mean to them ?

nasturtium :   describe your muse’s relationship with their birthplace ,   or homeland .  

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

pansy :   does your muse often reflect on their own actions ?   do they ever think a lot about the past ,   and what they could have done differently ?

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

rhododendron :   is your muse receptive to warnings   &   advice given by others ?

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

salvia :   is your muse possessive over people or things that matter a lot to them ?  how do they express that possessiveness ,   or lack thereof ? 

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

sunflower :   what brings your muse the most joy in life ?  

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

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🍒 and 🍇 for mj!!

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . mj @ 01 : 12

🍒  :    how much does my muse value companionship?  do they constantly keep people around them,  or do they prefer to be alone often?  do they have or desire to have many friends?  do they see every meeting as an opportunity to make a new friend?  

“i mean, don’t get me wrong, i love company, but sometimes i just wanna sit by myself for a minute? i dunno, sometimes i cant avoid it, i’ve got a real clingy boyfriend, which- i don’t hate, i definitely don’t hate it. but other than him i don’t really hang out with too many people? i don’t have a lot of friends. that might just be me, i’m not always actively looking for a bunch of people to talk to.”

🍇  :    how would my muse describe their childhood?  how much has it impacted the person they are now,  or will become as an adult?  around what age did they or will they start to mature,  and why?  do they wish to go back to their days as a child,  or have they embraced adulthood?  

“gosh, i’m barely an adult so i dunno, but i think my childhood was pretty good. kinda average. average home life, average grades, average everything. some people say they feel like their childhood ended when they started training... but i don’t really think so? i’ve been here since i was? 15? i still felt like a kid. i still feel like a kid sometimes. it takes some getting used to.”

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🍋 + 🍓 for milo !!

⊹ ˖ ˚ ⋆ ⊹ * . milo @ 22 : 14

🍋  :    what kind of diet does my muse have?  do they eat regularly,  or the standard 2-3 meals a day?  do they have to be reminded to eat,  or are they likely to remind others?  do they cook,  or have others cook for them?  do they eat healthily,  or not so much?  

“i think i eat pretty healthy... i mean i am on a diet just to like- keep myself fit enough to do all that singing and dancing. but i eat the standard three meals a day, i’m not malnourished or anything, i think i’m doing pretty good. i like to cook for myself, but i usually don’t have a lot of time, so i’ll just end up ordering in.”

🍓  :    how is my muse typically seen by others?  does it ring true to who they really are?  does their reputation matter to them? 

“i guess it depends on who you’re talking about, because something tells me that there’d be a big difference between like- my close friends and my fans for example. i mean don’t get me wrong, i try to be myself around everyone but, sometimes things get screwed, you know? that’s just how it is. i don’t really care, they know me well enough.”