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To the "endogenic systems" out there.

I can use plural to describe my system

It ain't a word you guys control and can decide who uses because you ain't real. It isn't only for "endogenic" fakers and supporters

- Signed a ver proud Anti-endo plural system

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literally its so fun being abnormal about christianity and also being christian because i just said "id kiss judas with tongue" in front of my pastor and she squinted at me and went "do you need to be removed from council or are you going to be normal?"

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you'll respect it/its pronouns or by my blade you will die

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Now more than ever we need to make Tumblr unmarketable, do NOT invite the government into this space.

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sorry guys this blog is officially run by my rabbit, he claimed it as his own along with my computer. goodbye.

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Why are so many people on here pro endo or endo neutral. I thought it was common sense that exclusively traumagenic disorders can only form thru trauma. Being pro endo is like saying "I believe people who don't have trauma can have post traumatic stress disorder" or "I believe this person without any money, has a lot of money and is actually wealthy." It makes no sense.

Pro endos, pro non traumagenic systems and neutrals DNI. Y'all piss me off so bad. Please block me ASAP.

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The reasons I say I am anti-endo are pretty specific. CDDs form from trauma and are mental disorders. As far as I know, the term "system" came from people with CDDs. If an endo wants to call themself a system, I can't do anything about that. But I don't want them telling me what it's like to be a system when they do not have even remotely the same experiences as I do. There are plenty of aspects of this disorder that I struggle with every single day. I will never relate to a self-proclaimed endogenic system, and I don't want to talk with them about system stuff for that reason. It is dumbing down CDDs to just alters, which takes away the part where it's a disorder. Yes, part of the diagnostic criteria is distinct personality states (or alters), but there is a disordered reason for alters existing that definitely isn't "because someone wanted alters." And, there is far more than alters that endos never seem to claim to experience. If someone claims to be endogenic, they do not have a CDD. Fine, endos can live their life, but they don't get to try and tell me or other people with CDDs that they get it, because they fucking don't.

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Hey, Tumblr.

I saw a post today and would like to share my own personal opinion. My posts on this platform are made to never invalidate people that I personally do not know. This is my own perception of my struggles, and it's okay if you cannot relate to areas of this specific post.

I may hate my parts, but that doesn't mean you have to as well. You can enjoy those good days of communication. You can enjoy having reached functional multiplicity and therefore love your system or love certain parts that you can have some form of communication with. You are not any less invalid simply for liking your alters (or, if you don't like using the term alters for your system, whatever that is, I won't judge you for what you refer to your parts as).

I hope to never make anyone else with a CDD feel any less validated in their feelings. I hope to make posts that can be affirming, but also express the realness of my experiences.

I hate nearly every part of this disorder, because it's extremely, well, disordering. My parts? I don't have a good relationship with them. Is this because of my level of communication? Possibly. Maybe if I had more communication I may like those parts more. But I especially hate everything else. Being disconnected, forgetting basic information, feeling unreal and this feeling extending to feeling like my diabetes is fake. I hate forgetting that I have diabetes, because sometimes I suppose my brain blocks it out due to it causing me distress. I hate not having a solid clear ideal self, I hate not knowing who I am or having moments of panic because I don't recognize people or places. Having vague flashbacks, avoiding spaces out of fear due to my trauma.

I'm pretty sure the post I saw was an older one, but I'm sure a lot of people say ‘liking your alters means you don't have OSDDID’ and I wanted to say something. You can hate your parts. You can love them. You can hate some but like others.

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Screenshot:

^ do they know they're talking about themselves? Whose gonna tell em?

- ❔ (it/he)

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It’s always genuinely baffling anytime we hear someone say it’s valid to “become a system for attention”. Why would you want to have a debilitating disorder that so heavily impacts your day to day life?

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sys culture is why is it when we explain every little thing about how DID works to a singlet, it immediately escapes them and they get mad at us when the disorder disorders???? this shit isnt rocket science. if the singlet partner gets it, why tf dont you guys get it???

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"endos are just minding their own business"

endos are watering down a severe and heavily debilitating disorder.

endos are creating spaces where trauma survivors think they'll find others like them, only to be surrounded by people who don't actually understand what they're going through and make them feel isolated and alone.

endos are making it impossibly difficult to get a proper diagnosis and treatment due to them giving DID the reputation of "roleplay as your favorite character disorder".

(endos are especially making it hard for minors to get diagnosed. medical professionals already brush off any and everything a child says, and now traumatized kids aren't getting treatment because they're "just following trends".)

endos are tearing this already fragile community apart, whether they're actively attacking systems or not. wake up and get your head out of your ass.

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I will say this a million times but diagnosis is not always a privilege. People diagnosed with personality disorders have their therapy and treatments denied by insurance and many professionals refuse to work with them. I got my diagnosis while involuntarily admitted to the mental hospital. Going to the mental hospital, a place where patients typically get abused and neglected, is not a privilege. Being forced to pay an exuberant about of money that I don't have is not a privilege.

Diagnosis isn't always desired. Diagnosis is frequently forced onto patients who are being abused. Diagnosis can be dangerous for minorities or those with stigmatized mental health conditions. It can make seeking help more difficult because the amount of professionals they can see is severely limited.

Not every diagnosis is sought out by some middle class white kid who wants to feel more valid, some of us were abused to get our diagnosis.

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I'm a different person than the others here and the next person who says I'm anti recovery or lying or some shit is exploding into a thousand tiny bits. Ranting because I hate when people try to force parts language onto us. It throws us into horrible disassociation instantly I cant take this shit anymore. I know we all are in the same body and are like this because of our disorder and we work together but we're MULTIPLE FUCKING PEOPLE.

Not looking for a debate on this post. If you have any medical resources that explain how this is harmful to me you can put links. I have not seen a single source from these people.