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Why Am I Such A Big Mess

Don't you just love it when you're supposed to make a first impression on one of you're boyfriend's close friends and you accept a video with them call while you're masturbating in the bathroom and you try to play it cool like you're just laying on the bathroom floor yet die on the inside or is it just me?

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Panoramic photo taken at Nay Aug park in Scranton, Pennsylvania on 10/14/18. I took this picture while on a hike along the gorge and I love this picture a lot. I'd like to draw or paint it some day! Nay Aug park is a small park on the outskirts of Scranton and it has a few hiking trails to explore. I love going here in the Autumn because of how gorgeous the trees look and the trails lined with fences and the gorge truly do complement the scenery.

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Music Recommendations

I have an extremely terrible taste in music but I'm going to recommend some music that I like because maybe some people out in this little nook of Tumblr will enjoy it:

1. Sum of our Parts - Mary Lambert

Love this song so much, I've been listening to it on repeat so often recently. This was originally recommended to me by my boyfriend. Beyond the chorus of the song I love the verses and I found them to be very inspirational. I don't know how to interpret the song itself, but I think the song expresses human decency and also emphasizes that small things come together to make something greater than the individual attributes themselves. It reminds me to keep pushing forward and the song in and of itself is just beautiful <3.

2. Praying - Kesha

A few months ago I was completely OBSESSED with this song. I still listen to it often now but not quite as religiously as I did before. I love how Kesha's voice becomes stronger and more emotional as the song pushes forward. I looked up some background behind the song and it apparently reflects physical and emotional abuse Kesha received from one of her ex-producers. The song holds strong with the #MeToo movement and although I am not religious, the notion that someone should be begging God for forgiveness of their actions over another is a strong one. Beautiful song and I honestly just love Kesha <3.

3. Monsters - Timeflies

I find the song to very comforting and it makes me feel like everything is going to be alright even in the darkest of times. Katie Sky's voice is so soothing and it also also has this uplifting undertone which I love. It reminds me of people I hold close to me, especially my boyfriend. The song itself conveys that people who hold such high positions in your life will love you despite your "monsters" and will stand alongside you to fend them off. I might have monsters but I have people in my live who make them tolerable and even scare them away. I love this song a lot and I'm hoping some of you people out there will enjoy it too, whatever your monsters are, know that there are people out there who are willing to help you deal with them and who want to build you up to allow you to be the best you you can be <3.

I hope whoever decided to read this enjoys these songs. I love them all because they sound beautiful and they hold brilliant messages. I see them to be inspirational to myself and others ^_^

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Petty

Being petty is a privilege

Not a right

Being petty is a privilege which I haven't earned

Being petty is what no one should be

Society condemns it

Stubborn, selfish, ignorant

Petty is something I was given

Get your way

Fight a war on your own

Shed enough blood to convince the others

Bring them down

Get your way

Sacrifice the happiness of others

So you yourself can be happy

Be petty

Stack the whole Earth against you

Place yourself as the victim

Alter the way others look at your life

Not something you've done to yourself

It's what others have done to you

You are the victim, after all

Be petty

It will do you well

A cure for your problems

Persistence

Keep at it

Petty is who I am

Call me by my name

Petty is one

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Bubbles

Bubbles are beautiful

Beautiful things are hard to come by

Bubbles are easy to come by

A cheap flimsy plastic wand and a drop of soap

It doesn’t matter, no technique, no experience, no skill

Perfection in and of itself every time

Bubbles are calming

Flow with the wind

Float between the trees in simple harmony

They’re nice to watch

And they’re something to see

Hard to believe what it is they do

Bubbles are lonely

I’ve been in one

Perhaps you’ve been in one too

As fragile they are

No strength to pop it

I love bubbles, but I hold a hatred for the ones I create

No soap

No plastic wand

The ones I make enclose my being

They separate me from what there is to see

What there is to do

What there is to be

What there is to become

I speak now because my bubble has been popped

I didn’t pop it myself

And unlike bubbles of soap did not pop quickly

Popped gradually

Without ease

No one can pop their bubble on their own

As weak as they may be

On the inside its overpowering

It takes someone on the outside

Someone who doesn't have a bubble

To set you free

I’ve found someone

Worthwhile to me

My bubble was popped

Maybe now I can be me

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Time

All of our problems resolve with time

Or so they say

Time is meant to heal

Meant to close the wounds which have been opened

Close the wounds which were opened

By time

Time shows no emotion

Shows no empathy for what it has done

For what it is to do

Shows no fear for what it will create

Time is fluid

Everything has happened or is going to happen

In time

Time motions me forward

Beckons me to go on

Tells me it will make everything better

I despise time

There is a time and a place for everything

A time where all is perfect

When?

Are my actions already predetermined by time?

Is my whole being entangled by the system time has constructed?

I feel free

I make my own choices

I act for myself

In time

Who am I to say wounds will heal

Tears will stream down my face

The ones from before won't we my last

In time I am destined to suffer

There is a time for everything

There is a time I will hit rock bottom

There is a time where the whole world will shatter to pieces

Not when, but how

How will I stop time from eradicating my whole?