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Yellow Mellow Rays

Dream Diary: November 14, 2024

Background: I have been sick since November 11, 2024.

November 11, 2024 I was suffering from intense vertigo, I couldn't get up. My aura was flickering. I was purging through colds, vomiting and mild diarrhea. This was similar to my ordeal during childhood when I am overwhelmed with the crowd. I asked help from healer friends in desperation. Not knowing what to do. They told I have to release the energy I have absorbed. I did my best to ground in the garden and release all the energy to the Earth which reduced the flickering aura but still had to sleep the whole day until 6 am the next day.

November 12-13, 2024: Weak with terrible clogged nose and phlegm in the throat so it was difficult to sleep.

Last night, I really thought I could not meditate because I was so weak and sick. At around 4:18 am, I woke up from a dream so vivid. I wanted to get up but thought first of consolidating the dream before it fades away. I wanted to get back to sleep before my 4:30 am wake up time for meditation but my dogs then began to bark so I had to wake up for meditation. During the meditation I thought I was healed because my nose were clear but after the meditation the clogged nose returned lol.

Dream details: I was under soft mellow gentle yellow rays of light as if being regenerated by it. Then I was having a telephatic conversation with someone. He said: You have to practice today. I asked: What is this light? I now can't recall what he said but it related to a mission… So I asked: What mission? What is this light? He said: Your mission is to assist in the awakening.

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I Choose the Light Over Darkness

Dream Diary: Oct 15, 2024

The night after our S.T.A.R. class I dreamt of this as soon as I closed my eyes.

There was a dark field field with bright candles of so I thought.

As I got nearer, they turned out to be numerous floating orbs of light that sparkled like the stars. They also approached and surrounded me with a warming and welcoming feeling.

After that I had another vision which I did not like. It was a place filled with dark beings in human form. It kind of reminded me of the Japanese comedy where men wore dark stockings for the whole body to make them appear invisible.

There were also so many of them. But, as I didn't want to stay there. I subconsciously taught I want to be with the light better. So, I blanked out into sleep which I could no longer remember.

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Sweeping Mom's Heart

Dream Diary: August 14, 2024

I dreamt that my mom was talking to a server by the counter and crying unreasonably. So she sat down and I did pranic healing sweeping to her back heart.

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Aged Mom in Wheelchair

Weird Dream: 24 July 2024

Note to self: Honestly I don't know if this is a godo thing or not but I'm documenting it here because I intend to not think about this again as to make it as a thought-form.

In my dream I woke up to go to the restroom. Someone was there in the dark. It was a usual scenario for me as I usually encounter my mom who is now 67 going in the restroom in the middle of the night. But, to my surprise she was really old and now in a wheelchair. I was taken aback and realized it was just a dream.

I continued my sleep because I had to wake up early to meditate. I am aware that I had other dreams but I couldn't recall. It was not as shocking as this one that I remembered it as soon as I woke up and can still recall until now.

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My Man

Weird Dream: 27 May 2024

I was in a big spacious room with white walls and a large window. And, there was a tall dark man with strong energy gazing at the window.

I got out of a bed floor and stood beside him. As we looked at the view of the three wide streets with house-like structures before us, he was proud of these routes for some reason. There were other women sleeping on the floor. I thought they were concubines but later found out they were there to serve me. The man and I had uhm marital relations and I could actually feel he had gentle affection towards me despite my initial impression. Actually I wanted to say it was too gentle for me haha. And, I was taken care of even with servers.

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Weird Shapes

Dream Diary May 13, 2024

I dreamt of somekind of weird 3D? No 4D because it's not only 3D solid but it has some kind of dark purple-colored cool-looking shadow within its magenta-like color. And, it looked like it was bleeding or squirting some kind liquid or light ray or nervey or fibry stuff.

Then I had another dream There was a amazing looking ice wall which was the edge of an ocean of some sort! The ocean has a whale or dolphin leaping on it. How I wish I could paint or draw it because the bricks are not your ordinary rectangle block like an igloo. They looked like a rectanglular cubes with triangular sides. It seems not of this world.

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Shape-shifting Spirit

Dream Diary: March 16, 2023

I woke up tonight from a weird dream. I was at home and my mom called on the phone. I answered the call. While speaking to my mother on the phone, I saw a shape-shifting spirit. First it was in the shape of my female cousin then it turn to the shape of my doctor sister. It seems because of my previous dream, I am no longer afraid of spirits. I just described the experience while talking to my mom calmly. Then, the dream stopped and I woke up at my hotel bed in Gensan with my heart beating fast. I thought perhaps my family just misses me.

When I flew back this afternoon, I was told all the plants in the 3rd floor were killed due to renovation. I spent a lot of time canvassing and 10,000 php to purchase their pots of transplantation but was told that due to my mom's stress. They couldn't wait for me and decided to throw them all away.

Perhaps, the spirits relate to the many plants that are now gone? I can't help but feel sad but I really did try my best to save them.

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Magical Exam

Dream Diary March 3, 2024

Background: I was writing a blogpost last saturday and realized the difficulty I have in composing so my frustration might have reflected through this dream.

I used to be tormented by dreams of exams because I disliked school but this dream was different The exam was uhm. magical? First, as I read the questionaire, it came with a pop up visualization as a hint. The question was about how Dr. Rizal became a world reknowned hero. Then, a popup visual of footballers with their uniform numbers came out from the testpaper. Somehow, I got the hint that it was referring to the age of Rizal where he displayed how remarkable he was. As I wrote on the test paper in my ugly scribbles. It transformed into written words in blue and it moves to in an orderly way upwards to maximize the space of the paper. However, I was so frustrated in norganizing my thoughts that I kept striking through the words until there is no more space to write my answer in. I requested for another answer sheet and saw the proctors puzzled face. As I resumed, I heard an inner voice. It told me that I will never finish it if I focus too much on the details in arranging it by chronological order of the age. Instead, just like everything in life. I have to visualize and think of my main argument/end goal. Then, use every factual component to support the main argument.

It reminded me of my brother's instructions to me with regards to language. He told me no don't translate it word by word. You should compose the sentence first and translate it as a whole. And, I always reasoned with my brother that I couldn't do it.

Then, the inner voice told me. You cannot do it because you lack confidence in yourself. You think you are slow when in fact you are very smart. You are quick witted so stop pretending to be dumber than you are. You can do it but it will take practice as you need to reframe your mind.

Reflection: I will be more concious from now on. I will try to visualize the end goal of every thing I do.

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Cross Over

Dream Diaries: Janaury 25, 2024

I couldn't sleep fully. I was lucid dreaming not realizing how much time has passed. I saw her… the angry ghost who has turned into a beautiful bright and glowing angel? She wanted me to know that she has crossed over.

Suddenly the image of the angry ghost somehow faded in comparison to the magnificence of the angel. It reminded me of how our better states can outshine our worst. The experience also taught me that we can easily misinterpret what we first perceive. What I thought might be for a fright was a call for help or attention. I also somehow could no longer find a difference in my compassion for the living who have even wronged me and the spirits who has been depicted by movies as scary.

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Dream of Labor Case

Dream Entry: August 18, 2023

I entered into an elegant restaurant andbumped into a dark fat guy in coat-and-tie outfit (I had the impression that he was not so neat and looked a bit drunk) before entering into a function room for a meeting. The room had windows which showed the night sky so I felt as if we were in a tall building. I was seated beside my client on my right and a lady at my left.

I was contending that my client was unfairly hindered from promotion. The lady was telling me that the process was fair and reasonable because the its typical for candidate having 22 to 27 years of experience to be promoted but we have to wait for their lawyer to speak more on the legal implications. As I wrote down on my notepad with my blue pen 22 to 27 years, the man I bumped with entered the room. Then, I woke up.

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Dream of Angry Ghost

Dream Diary: Janaury 22, 2024

Last night, I had a supposedly scary dream. I was sleeping in my bed as usual. When my side pillow fell on the floor on its own as if it someone pulled it. As I was about to reach out to the side to pick it up, the boxes by my head side rattled wildly in a noisy way. Then, a messy haired white skinned (female?) ghost (?) came floating from my head side and stared at me with angry eyes. Yes, we looked at each other eye to eye.

At first, I got scared so I prayed "Our father" as felt the sweat on my head. Before I could even finish the prayer, I remembered a previous dream which somehow explained to me that I should not be afraid of the darkness. The darkness will always be attracted to the light. As I felt inner peace and light, it suddenly disappeared together with the dark heavy air. While my eyes were closed, I woke up and felt I was back in silent room alone and my breathing was peaceful and light. After a few seconds, I courageously opened my eyes, scanned my room, felt the side pillow by my side which did not fall confirming that it was all just a dream. A dream I have conquered. I closed my eyes again to sleep. And, I woke up with a realization. A healer and the light attracts darkness so they can lead them to the light.