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I don't feel at home anymore among the family I love, the family I missed, the family I craved to see at this period of the year. I hate it all.

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so that was a lie

going to start posting here more often

expect game dev gifs and announcements in the months to come!

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She tried to kill me

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did my first injection a lil week ago btw

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G-G on Facebook - G-G on Twitter

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17 - 56 WTAH IM ACTUA SICK WTFWTFWTFWYGWTFWTFWTFWTF

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I be getting dysphoric for the most random things

I actually want to kms over this like wth ??

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I've felt traumatisingly alone before. Somehow this is worse.

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I feel like I'm one pic of a person looking better than me away from ending it all.

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I'm worried that my dysphoria, my inability to do anything and to manage my emotions will just turn my frustration into an infinite hate and bigotry against women and fransfems alike

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I have to work but I'm too busy wanting to die and having my heart hurt like hell

Mood swings are getting more extreme and frequent. Surely it means nothing and will resolve itself :)

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Mood swings are getting more extreme and frequent. Surely it means nothing and will resolve itself :)

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1 Year

March 3rd is my 1 year on HRT and felt like I wanted to show what my final realisation was to accepting that HRT was my only option. Some context:

I was born with pulmonary stenosis and all you need to know is my pulmonary valve doesn't work and I need surgery every ~10 years to get a valve replacement. This event takes place on Nov. 1, 2022 the night after my 2nd heart surgery and even though the pain from an artificial valve and an incorrectly place IV drip in my hand hurt like hell the most painful thing I kept seeing was my reflection.

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Sudden urge to kms, my chest hurts so bad, what the fuck is happening

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... I guess imma fuck my ex again.

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I've barely talked to the girl. Why do I feel heartbroken.

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I feel like it's the end for me. I feel that I'll never be able to have such strong and sincere bond with anybody else. I feel like nobody's gonna care enough, and the only one that maybe does I want out of my life. I feel like it will be only downhill from now on and I will only suffer more and more until I fucking killmyself