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going to slowly work on more drafts but come talk on aim for ic interactions in the meantime: unnie.sk !

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🍻 A drunk confession by my muse to yours

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ƸӜƷ — “your team is really cool.”

it’s not really that deep of a confession, but it counts as one. right? when her path had first crossed with his, she had teased him. well, all of them, really. but it was lighthearted. and most of the things she said came from a place of genuine care. she knows, like many others, how hard it is in this industry to just keep your head above water. but right now, she knows they’re doing well. and she’s happy for him. for his team.

she’s always thought that there are members within his group that hold a lot of potential, but they’re all so young. it leaves a visible gap between her and them. it makes it hard for her to really relate, but she can appreciate them all the same. they’ve gone through a lot of struggles. she knows that.

soju’s managed to make her a little sentimental.

“you guys really have a lot of stage presence and even with so many members, you all dance really well. it seems like it would be hard to sync everything together with so many people,” she adds, and then it dawns on her. “wait, you choreograph the dances, right?”

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ƸӜƷ — "sometimes i still want to go back to america.”

maybe it’s not that shocking. maybe not to him, anyway. maybe he’ll understand where she’s coming from. maybe he understands the struggle of trying to stay afloat in such a tough industry, trying to find solid footing on a path that’s far too rocky. not maybe, but definitely. she thinks that he has to understand - right? everyone has to start somewhere. she feels like she’s been driving a sports car with too smooth tires up a steep hill surfaced with a thin layer of ice during winter. it’s so hard to make progress, and even if the car manages to inch forward, it slides backwards and threatens to crash into the wall behind. to completely flip over and land upside down. 

her journey has been so different from his, but she still feels as if there’s some relation. or maybe it’s the booze. or loneliness? that’d be quite the confession. but no, she’s not that drunk. not yet, anyway.

no, it’s the shackles of her past around her wrists and ankles, the power of an entertainment industry that leaves her powerless, and the striking blow left by the situation to her ego.

“but i want to stay here more than i want to leave,” after a few dragging seconds, she feels the need to make that clear. as if there’s some sort of guilt bubbling in her chest and up her throat from her hasty statement only seconds before. liquor is strong enough that it dictates her already obvious accent to run boldly with each syllable that leaves her lips, but she doesn’t care - assumes he’ll understand what she’s saying, even when english words run into korean. “i don’t want to give up, but it’s- it’s hard all the fucking time, you know? but if i give up, then i’ve wasted my entire…” she trails off with an exhausted sigh, eyes fixed upon the half empty bottle safe in her hands.

“i don’t want people to be able to say that i gave up. ‘jessi gave up and went back to america’, i don’t want anyone to be able to say that,” halfway through her words, she’s managed to end up leaning against him, head rested against his shoulder as she exhales another sigh; softer this time.

and she doesn’t know what else to say. she’s spoken too much, said too much. she’s dumping her own burdens onto him without intending to. so she stops. doesn’t say anything else. cuts herself off.

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ƸӜƷ — "i’ve kissed a girl before-”

it comes out quickly, almost like word vomit, and it’s entirely in english and it’s only too late when she realizes that it doesn’t matter that her words managed to transfer into her native language. hyesoo understands english.

jessi, what are you doing. drink some water.

she’s convinced that most certainly, even with hinted slurring, they’ve understood her words. but it’s really not that big of a deal, at least not in her mind. even with her attraction being solely to men, she can’t say that she hasn’t had a bit of an adventurous past brought on by intense partying.

but this is korea. it’s things like this that always manage to get her into trouble. these sort of misunderstandings always find some way to bite her. and then she has to explain herself, like every other time anything she’s done has been brought to public attention. and even her explanations tend to be picked apart. it’s not that she expects hyesoo to run off and start telling everyone, of course not, but her instinct to back peddle and defend herself is something that’s triggered naturally. instantly. it’s an instinct. a habit that she still holds and likely always will.

and it only takes her a few seconds to switch into that mode after being appalled by her own confession originally brought on by the playful atmosphere.

“wait wait wait wait,” frantically, she waves her free hand, setting down the bottle she’d been holding. there’s an abashed laughter that escapes her as she shakes her head. “it was innocent! it wasn’t a real kiss- it’s not like i made out with a girl!”

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👾 An angry remark from my muse towards yours 🐙 A funny, out-of-context remark from my muse to yours 💡 A question my muse always wanted to ask yours 🔪 A threatening remark from my muse to yours 👄 A sexual/flirtatious remark from my muse to yours 👗 A remark from my muse how your muse dresses 🍻 A drunk confession by my muse to yours

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Self-Knowledge Questionnaire

Below the surface everyone is pretty complicated. Based on your answers, we think the following three traits are important strands in your personality:

INDEPENDENCE

You don’t set out to be different for its own sake; you are more easily guided by what interests and moves you. You are more concerned about what is right for you than about the pressure to fit in. In sex you are more aware than others of impulses which are not entirely conventional. You know the value of selective irresponsibility, of forgetting occasionally about being ‘good’.

SENSITIVITY

You have delicate, sensitive perceptions; you can be deeply moved by appearances – the right light in a room, or good food, or the texture of a piece of clothing. Expressive, intelligent language has a powerful hold on you; your mind works better when it is inspired and provoked by vivid imagery. It can be sad to live in a world which is often so ugly and not properly looked after. But you know that things can be otherwise, and you have the ability to appreciate the world at its best.

DEFENSIVENESS

One tendency in you – which is of course normal to the human race – is to bristle when criticised, and to defend yourself when you feel under threat from aggression or blame. Defensiveness can make you conceal your less honourable motives, from others, and from yourself. The habits once made sense: they all derive from past efforts to protect yourself. And most of the time – because we don’t get much help in loving ourselves – you still need them to feel secure.

tagged by: @hyunani ( thank youuu ) tagging: @ephenne @kiimheebibi @deeanfluenza @kvoshi @fri0lero @jcwng

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       ▻  “ OH MY STRESS? OH MY STRESS! “                   王嘉爾 : GOT7′S MAIN RAPPER - REBLOG FOR THE LOVE OF RICE 🍚 

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제시(Jessi) - 울리지마 (Don’t make me cry)

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A  VERY  DESCRIPTIVE  &  DETAILED  PROFILE  OF  YOUR  MUSE. repost with  the  information  of  your  muse,  including  headcanons,  etc. when  you’re  done,  tag  other  people  to  do  the  same!

NAME: jessica ho. AGE: 28. SPECIES: human.   GENDER: female. ORIENTATION: straight. PROFESSION: singer && rapper.

[    PHYSICAL    ASPECTS    ]

BODY TYPE: slim && fit. HAIR: long && dark blonde. EYES: dark brown. SKIN: melanin poppin. HEIGHT: 167cm.

[    FAMILY    ]

SIBLINGS: two older brothers. PARENTS: mother and father. CHILDREN: none. ANY PETS?:  pomeranian named rocky. 

[    LIKES    ]

COLORS: black, red, white. SMELLS: flowers, the ocean, perfume. FOOD / DRINKS: sweets, burgers, pizza, tteokbokki, sushi. ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES?: yes  [ ✓ ]  || rarely [ ] || no [  ] FAVORITES: dogs, cats, family, friends, fans, music, fashion, makeup. 

[    OTHER    DETAILS    ]

SMOKES?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ ]   ||   occasionally  [ ✓ ] DRUGS?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ ✓ ]   ||   occasionally  [   ] DRIVER LICENSE?: yes  [ ✓ ]   ||   no  [   ] EVER BEEN ARRESTED?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ ✓ ]   ||   almost/detained  [  ]

tagged by: @kiimheebibi  tagging: @enyng @hyunani @ephenne @vigilandae @hvrlowe

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                                tough girl with a soft interior

                                        — REBLOG && FOLLOW —

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Jessi // Don’t make me cry

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tough unnie