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Its my birthday!

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i love the insane juxtaposition between how we talk about autism on tumblr vs on tiktok. on tiktok all everyone ever really discusses are the “easier” parts of autism, the “cute” ones like stimming, special interests and SOMETIMES, and HEAVY on the sometimes, they talk about the lack of tonal understanding and missing jokes and it’s like… dude that’s maybe 1/4 of what the Autism Experience™️ is… like i love tumblr bc we really talk about all the ugly parts on here like what is ACTUALLY means to go mute/nonverbal, or the daily struggles with hygiene and independence, the horrible feeling of knowing that you are fundamentally different from everyone around you and trying to mask but knowing they see through it and being compared to non human creatures to the point where you actually start feeling nonhuman!!! like okay missing the joke sometimes is annoying but yknow what’s worse? not being able to look after myself and knowing there’s a decently high chance that i’ll never be able to live alone. like i need tiktok autistic people to understand that in order for you to have autism, which is a disability, it does have to actually disable you first. i’m not saying that because they only post the “cuter” parts that they don’t have autism!! but like it’s an app full of teenagers and i feel the need to remind them that we all miss jokes sometimes, and we do all have interests and shows that we may really enjoy!! and that’s okay!!

but idk maybe i’m being bitter or smth i always get paranoid that i’m just being a hater but there’s not a single autistic person i know that hasn’t genuinely suffered bc of it in their lives whether it be in their social or personal or academic life. just a thought!!

[weird colours included bc huge chunks of text like this are gross to read otherwise lmfao]

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When i was told i had NASH (liver disease), i thought that my life as i knew it was over. I was so wrong it just went in a new direction. I still haven't met anyone with NASH (or NAFLD), but that doesn't change anything. I am me, and that's what matters.

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Title: The Grimrose Girls

Genre: fantasy

Author: Laura Pohl

Rating:10/10

This book made me laugh. This book kept me in my toes! I never saw the ending happen. The fairy tales were original not the cutesy ones disney portrays. It even inspired me to find the true fairy tales i may have! I loved this book!

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Book title: A Study in Drowning

Genre: fantasy

Author: Ava Reid

Rating out of 10: 8/10

Review:

This book was really interesting. I related to Effy a lot. I enjoyed many things about it. I also enjoyed the slow burn of how Preson and Effy got together. I also enjoyed hearing about the fairyking

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Book title: The Kinder Poison

Genre: fantasy

Author: Natalie Mae

Rating out of 10: 10/10

Review:

This book was so good. I read it in a day! The plot was amazing the character development anazing the world building amazing. The ending amazing. I love everything about it. It ended in a cliff hanger so i wonder if there is a second book.

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Book title: Dark and Shallow Lies

Genre: fantasy

Author: Ginny Meyers Sain

Rating out of 10: 10/10

Review:

Oh boy where do i start? The character development flawless i could see everything as it happend! It was an amazing read i totally didnt expect the ending! I want more give me more! The gifts were amazing. If i were to guess my favorite it would be Zale's gift. A hurricane baby thats what they called him.