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Masterlist

DAY6

Young K

Be With You

Hug Me

Lullaby

Unwanted Ending

It's You

GOT7

Mark

LOVE

That Winter

Hi, Again

NCT

Jaehyun

Touch

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Touch

Jaehyun drabble

You find comfort in Jaehyun...

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"Tell me about your day."

You stopped stirring your tea. You lifted your face and saw Jaehyun who was looking at you with his usual soft smile. You smiled back at him then looked back at your tea that you haven't drink at all.

"As usual. Nothing special." You said shortly. You stared at him for a moment then looked away again. "How was your day?"

Jaehyun took your hand and caressing it gently. You looked at him, confused. Questioning his actions with your eyes.

Jaehyun smiled and held your hand. "Today I want to listen to your story. Tell me everything. About today or the previous days. You can tell me whatever you want. I will listen. Don't hold back."

You looked at him and felt his hand holding yours so tight yet so soft. The way Jaehyun held your hand and the way he looked at you tenderly, it made you feel so warm. As if you are being hugged tightly by him. Then, without your command, your eyes felt so hot and you felt pressure in your chest. Before the tears rolled down your cheeks, you lowered your head and finally you sobbed. Your shoulders were shaking a little bit because you were still holding back the emotions.

Jaehyun looked at you with a dazed face. He caressed the back of your hand with his thumb. As gently as possible. That's when Jaehyun heard your sobs getting louder. Jaehyun didn't let go of your hand even though he had his head also down because he felt the tightness in his chest.

You don't need to say a word anymore because he already understands enough how your day was, through the tears from you.

Jaehyun promised in his heart, next time you will share stories through laughter and smiles. Not through tears.

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Hi, Again.

Mark Tuan × Reader.

Fluff

Slice of life

***

This is one of the luckiest night for you that you got seat because there were not many people on the bus right now. As usual, you just stared at the street from the window until you reach your last stop.

You felt your phone vibrates in your jacket pocket. You frowned when you read the name on your phone screen. That man, you said to yourself. You opened the message and frowned more.

Surprise!

That's the only word in the message and a picture of the man stretching out his arms like the happiest person ever and you recognized the building behind him so well.

Is he here? You asked yourself again instead of replying. You almost typed something but you back off. You just stared at the text for a while then locked your phone and put it back in your pocket. You're back just looking outside the window. But this time, you saw your reflection with a faint smile on your face.

When you arrived at your house, you walked straight to the bathroom and prepared to sleep. When you're about to close your eyes, you remembered that you haven't reply to the text. You didn't want to think too much, so you just started typing and quickly sent it.

You're here?

In less than a minute you've got a reply.

Yes i'm here!!! I'll see you tomorrow.

You just smiled at the text. You didn't think he needs an answer because it's not even a question in the first place. You placed your cellphone back and closed your eyes. Too bad, your mind couldn't shut and your heart beat too fast. It made you wide awake until the sun rises.

***

"Don't you miss me?" Mark showed a tiny smile to you. He searched for your eyes.

You shook your head while still avoiding his eyes, looking at your shoes.

Mark's smile got wider. He didn't hurt at all when he got your response.

"Are you sure?" He teased you. "How long it's been since the last time we met? Hmmm, four seasons, right? It's a really long time."

"One year." You finally said something. Still refusing to lift your face. "Just one year. One year feels so short if you compare it to four seasons."

Mark nodded, understand what you meant. He smiled again, "As expected. You always have a better perspective than me."

"But, really? You don't miss me at all?" Mark asked you again.

This time, Mark lowered his head so his eyes were at the same level as yours. His actions made you flustered a little bit but once you caught his eyes, you couldn't look away. Mark's expression softened when you finally looking at him.

"I see you every day." You chuckled. "There's this big billboard right outside my office and it has your face in it. A very big one. So, there's no time to missing you."

Mark laughed loudly breaking the silence that between the two of you. His laughter made you smiled widely.

"Then you must have a great day every day." He laughed again. "Which one? The jewelry advertisment?"

You shook your head. "Not that one."

"Oh it must be the perfume one, right? It has a big promotion. I looked the most handsome in that one." Mark said confidently.

"Not that one." You laughed, amused to see he boasted his handsome face.

Mark raised his eyebrows. "Then which one? Don't tell me..."

"The Underwear ad. That one." You said while laughing.

"Ah, that. It's a little bit embarrassing indeed." Mark scratched his nape awkwardly.

"Right. Only wearing underwear in front of many people is embarrassing. I can feel that."

"But i still look cool, right? I tried my best to maintain my body and done a lot of work out just for that photoshoot."

You chuckled. "Still, it doesn't make my days become great. It's a little bit disturbing."

Mark laughed again. "I'm sorry then."

***

You and Mark decided to just walk around. At first, you wanted to just catch up at one of the cafes here but all cafes were full of people. Probably because it's friday night. Mark didn't mind but you didn't want attention because you're sure at least three to five people will recognize Mark's face. He's a superstar now.

When you passed some girls, you could hear them whispering Mark's name. The three girls also looked at you up and down and you heard one of them whispering, staff. Good thing they think I'm just a staff, you thought.

After that, the two people who looked like lovers just came out of a stored and gasped at the same time as you and Mark passed by. You took a glance at Mark who was sipping his drink and seemed like he didn't care about his surrounding. The mask he wore was on his chin and it made you sigh.

"Can you wear your mask properly? People recognize you, you know." You glared at him.

"Don't you see i'm enjoying my ice chocolate? How could i wear a mask?"

You snorted in annoyance. "I'm sure someone took your photo secretly."

"Let them be." Mark said casually and sipped the remaining chocolate ice, then threw the cup into the trash bin. He fixed his mask carelessly. It didn't even reach the middle of his nose.

"What if my face is seen in your photograph too and it spreads on the internet?" You said panicking. Your colleagues have no idea that you and Mark know each other.

"Don't worry, your face will be blurred. Or you won't be photographed at all." Mark smiled mischievously.

"That's right." You nodded. "Indeed "

As you passed a park, you see a bench next to a quite huge tree. The spot is a bit hidden. It's a great spot if you don't want to be seen or see a lot of people.

"Mark, let's sit there. I'm tired." You said pointing at the park bench.

You and Mark sat down next to each other. Even though it's not far from the street that's full of bright stores and cafes at each side, this park is so quiet.

"Oh, you haven't post your painting on your social media again. It's been a while." Mark asked starting the conversation again. "The last one is a painting of sunset, right? I really like that one."

"I don't paint anymore." You said shortly.

"Why? Don't you really like it?"

"Indeed. But i must admit that i have no talent." You smiled sadly.

Mark looked at you before he talked. "You can continue it as a hobby. There's no need to make it as a profession."

"Yes, I do. But if I continue to paint, i will have a hope of becoming a good painter. It will only be a false hope."

"But maybe over the time you can become a real professional painter. A good one."

"Mark, I've been painting for over 15 years. It's yielded nothing but a shirt full of paint marks." You laughed, sound too forced.

"But it makes you happy." Mark muttered.

"What?"

"Nothing." Mark said. "Then how about your job? Tell me something interesting."

You snorted. "What story do you expect from an ordinary office worker like me? Every day is boring and tiring. Too bad, i still have to do it."

"Then, find someone you like in your office! Maybe it will be more interesting." Mark suddenly became excited.

"You talk like a high school kid." You said looking at him sarcastically. "Even if there is one, it doesn't change anything."

Mark nodded. "Then, do you want to come to Paris with me? Or New York?" Mark carefully continued. "After three months i'll be in New York for a while."

"To become your personal assistant? No, thanks." You sounded really uninterested. Or you thought.

"You could ask 'to be your companion'? But you chose a personal assistant instead." Said Mark.

"I don't want to be that one either." You said, half serious half joking.

"Why?" Mark raised his eyebrows. "Hey, look at me. I'm a fun person, a hardworking man and i have handsome face!" Mark leaned over so you could get a good look at his face. He likes to act recklessly.

"Being my own companion is enough." You said and shifted your body away from him. "By the way, how is the real modeling world? I see your world as very glamorous one. You're always well dressed. Your hair is always groomed. Is that the real state?"

Mark sighed, he looked serious again. Mark looked like he's in a deep thought. "I think all jobs are the same. Everything feels boring and tiring because we have responsibilities ." He stared at you for a moment and then looked back at the night sky. "At the first time i came to Paris, I was really happy. It felt like a dream. Well, it was my dream. But after a while, everything became, a routine? I got bored with because i was there to work."

"The life of adult is tiring, isn't it?"

"You were the one who wanted to grow up fast." Mark poked your hand and laughed. "But it's good, right? That your parents don't scold you like a kid anymore?"

"I wish my parents still scold me." You smiled bitterly.

Mark said nothing. He just smiled. Maybe he understands what you meant. Still being scolded by your parents means that there are still people who tell you how live your life whether you do it right or wrong. Sometimes, following someone's directions is easier than finding your own way. Mark felt it before.

"Ah, I almost forgot." Mark reached something in his hoodie pocket. He took out a very small, pitch-black box. "I bought this for you." He said shaking the little box.

"What's that?" You asked curiously.

Mark opened the box roughly until the object in it almost fell to the ground.

You leaned in closer to get a better look. "Earrings?" .

Mark nodded and placed the pair of earrings in his palms. "Isn't it pretty?"

"For me?"

Mark nodded and handed you the earrings.

You took it from his hands hesitantly. "Why did you give me this?"

Mark shrugged. "When i saw those earrings, i thought of you. I don't know. I just thought that it would suit you."

You blinked your eyes in confusion because you rarely wear earrings.

"Ah, did you know? Earrings make your face look more attractive." Mark said with a smiley face.

You frowned. "Is that the reason you gave me this?"

Mark laughed. "It could be."

You look at the earrings in your hand. The earrings look so simple yet beautiful.

"Try it. Let see if you become more attractive."

"I can't wear earrings without mirrors." You said. You put the earrings back in the box.

"Here, give me that. I'll help you." Mark immediately took the earrings from your hand and shifted his body closer without hesitation.

You froze when he put the earring on your right ear. The touch of his fingers on your ear felt ticklish. You two were so close. You could feel Mark's breath. Suddenly, you remember that you haven't put on perfume at all. You must smell like sweat. A contrast to the soft scent from Mark.

Mark was done putting the earring on your left ear. When his fingers touched your ear again, you shuddered. Mark noticed it but didn't say anything.

"Is it expensive?" You asked, worried.

"Let me see how you look after wearing the earrings." Mark tossed your hair back gently. He looked back and forth at your face and the earrings.

Mark smiled. "You look the same."

You ignored his joke and asked again, "Are these expensive earrings? I don't want to be burdened."

"No, I bought it at a regular accessories store." Mark was still looking at the earrings. "Next time i'll buy you an expensive one, okay?"

"I wouldn't accept it if it was an expensive item." You said while touching the earrings. You really want to see yourself in the mirror. Are you getting prettier? Sometimes, you just have to ignore Mark's words, including about this earrings and attractiveness thing.

"Sorry, I didn't give you anything." You said.

Mark just smiled and stared at your face. You smiled at him back then looked away.

***

It's been 7 months since Mark left again. The weather has changed for the second time. You came out from your office building feeling relieved that you've done your job for today. You lifted your head up to see a huge billboard on top of the building across your office. It's been a few months since Mark's face isn't on the board anymore. It was replaced with your favorite actress. You smiled because you feel it's better this way. It's better to see the beautiful face of your favorite actress rather than seeing a photo of Mark wearing only underwear.

You continued walking towards the bus stop. You were surprised when someone suddenly linked his arms with yours. You roughly let go of the person's hand and ready to hit him if the person is someone you don't know.

"MARK?" You screamed when you recognized him. He grinned and you hit his arm lightly. After all, you can't really hurt a model. "Why are you here again?" You asked surprised.

"Hi!" Mark said while rubbing his arm that you just hit. "You didn't even say hello to me."

You snorted. "We have just met."

"Seven months is long enough, you know. Oh, you're still wearing the earrings." He said, pointing at your ear.

You touched your earring awkwardly. "Why are you here?"

"I'm back completely."

"What?" You're surprised again. "Didn't you say you would continue to live in Paris or New York?"

"I didn't renew my contract in Paris. I just wanted to come back here."

"But why?" You asked confusedly.

One of the reasons why sometimes you're jealous of Mark's life is that he can move around freely. He didn't even think much of it when he said he was going to Paris. Now he said he would come back to here. You don't have the courage to live a life like that. Or you just don't have the freedom to do that.

"It just happened." Mark replied. "The work here is good too. I already know what it's like to be in Paris. Or New York. I think i still prefer it here."

Mark continued, "Besides, i can stay here to be your companion. Would you like it? That's one of my reasons. Maybe the first one." Mark looked at you seriously and smiled when he saw your smile first.

You continued walking when you realized you were still talking in the middle of the sidewalk. Mark then walked next to you.

"If that's your reason, you made the right choice." You said, then let out a wide smile. You just couldn't hide your smile and the fact that you're happy that he's going to stay for good. Your smile became a laughter and it followed by Mark's laughter.

The two of you continued walking pass the bus stop and talking about the things that had happened during these seven months.

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Hi, Again. (Teaser???)

Mark Tuan x OC

He's back...

***

"Don't you miss me?" Mark showed a tiny smile to you. He searched for your eyes.

You shook your head while still avoiding his eyes, looking at your shoes.

Mark's smile got wider. He didn't hurt at all when he got your response.

"Are you sure?" He teased you. "How long it's been since the last time we met? Hmmm, four seasons, right? It's a really long time."

"One year." You finally said something. Still refusing to lift your face. "Just one year. One year feels so short if you compare it to four seasons."

Mark nodded, understand what you meant. He smiled again, "As expected. You always have a better perspective than me."

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Damn.

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You always make us proud.

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How not to fall in love with Young K, Kang Younghyun, Brian Kang, Young One?

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IT'S YOU

Young K x Reader.

It's when you wish you're bigger than Kang Younghyun.

***

You realized that Younghyun has been so quiet these days. Whenever you meet him, he looked so tired and he looked like he would faint anytime. Even though he always said that he's fine whenever you asked if he's sick, you know he's not that well. He talked less. It's not like he's not happy to spend the time with you, you just felt like he's not lively as he used to be.

So today, when Younghyun texted you with only your name in it, you immediately rushed to his place with a pounding heart. Younghyun never texted with your name only just like that. So you knew, he needs you.

When you barged in to his place after several rings he didn't open the door, you found Younghyun fell asleep on the couch in his small living room. You didn't want to wake him up so you just sat on the floor and stared at his sleeping face. It seemed like he could feel that someone was staring at him, Younghyun opened his eyes slowly and blinked. Your smiley face was the first thing he saw. Younghyun moved his body to sit beside you on the floor.

"You're here." Younghyun said with a sleepy voice.

You nodded and move his fringes from his forehead. "You can go back to sleep. I'll be here."

Younghyun shook his head and rest his head on your shoulder. His hair felt so soft against your cheek. You held his hand and kissed it softly. You didn't let go of his hand after that.

"Did you decide to come just because the message i sent you?" Asked Younghyun, still in sleepy voice. He closed his eyes while enjoying his hand being held by yours.

"Not really." You caressed his hand. "I want to see you too."

Younghyun didn't say anything but he raised his head from your shoulder.

"Do you want a hot chocolate? I will make one."

"Okay."

You stood up and walked to the kitchen. Well, his kitchen. When you were about to stir the hot chocolate, Younghyun stood behind your back and rest his forehead on your back. He didn't hold you.

"I actually don't like to be alone." Said Younghyun. "I don't know since when i let myself to be alone. I force myself to be surrounded by loneliness."

"Younghyun.." You were surprised for his sudden confession.

This time, Younghyun hugged you from the back. He circled his arms tightly around your waist. You waited for him to speak again.

"To be honest, im afraid. I'm afraid i'll get used with someone's company. I'm afraid if one day they can't be there for me, i'll lose myself. That's why i prefer to be alone to avoid that feeling. The feeling of being forgotten and left behind. I don't want to be weak and depend on someone. Including you... that's the reason why i barely call you. Please, understand me."

You touched his hands and it felt so cold. Younghyun didn't seem want to let go of you yet. So, you tried to turn your back and face him without let go of his arms. When you managed to face him, he kept looking down and avoid your eyes. You reached his face with both of your hands and caressed his face smoothly. It made Younghyun closed his eyes and leaned his face to your hands. Then, you rest your hands on his chest.

"Younghyun, it's okay to need somebody. It doesn't make you less stronger. It's nice if you can do anything by yourself but it's not bad to do it with somebody else. So, whenever you need somebody, just call me. I will come to you."

Younghyun looked at you with teary eyes. You know he tried to speak but he would burs into tears in any second. You took one step closer to him. He is very much taller than you but your hand reached his head and stroke it lightly. Your action made Younghyun cried. He started to sob until his shoulders were shaking. You tried to hold back your tears because seeing him like that made your heart clenched.

"I want to stop."

His hoarse voice made your heart broken. Younghyun is a very dedicated man. He's always responsible and positive. He's the most working hard man you've ever met. To hear such thing like that from him made you realize that Younghyun is just another human being.

"I want to stop doing everything. The burden is too big."

And there he was, broke into tears and sobbing, showing his weak side to you.

You hugged him and wish you're taller than him so you can hug his whole body completely. Younghyun cried harder and he buried his face on your neck. You didn't mind if you clothes wet because of his tears. You would give everything to him so he can calm down.

"Younghyun." You called his name while stroking his hair. "It's okay to stop. If you don't feel like it anymore, it's okay to stop."

Tears rolled down on your cheeks. You didn't want to sound that you're crying because you want to be strong for the weak Younghyun that were on your embrace.

"You've already worked so hard. You didn't get any sleep. You worked too hard. So, if you tired, it's only right to stop."

You've never been someone who's good with words so you just hope that Younghyun would understand your words. That you'll always on his side, that you'll always support his step, that you'll always be the someone he needs.

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Lullaby

Drabble. Younghyun x Reader.

***

"Younghyun, sing a romantic song for me. I can't sleep." You said while burying your face to his chest.

Younghyun caressed your hair and hugged your waist tighter with his other hand. He was thinking for a while and proceed to sing.

"The things i'm about to.."

"Are you crazy?" You looked up to see his face and furrowed your eyebrows.

"What?" Younghyun was confused.

"I said a romantic song. That's a breakup song." You pulled yourself from him but Younghyun didn't let go of his hands from your waist.

"The lyrics are romantic though."

"Yeah but it's in the past." You rolled your eyes. "I want another song."

Younghyun pulled your body again so you could feel his warmth once again. "Okay, how about this song?"

Younghyun smiled before he started to sing.

"When i notice you in the midst of many... ouch!!"

He stopped singing when you hit his chest a hard. "What's wrong this time?" He asked you, pretending to be confused.

"It's not romantic. It's too...wild." You finally let go of yourself from his arms. You turned away and let your back facing him. "Forget it, i'll just go to sleep."

Younghyun laughed because he just loves to tease you and seeing you being sulky is just so cute to him. Younghyun hugged you from behind and he knew you were just pretending to be mad when you hold his hand.

"Okay, listen to this one." He gave a little peck on your shoulder and started to sing.

"Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful you, I love you.

Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful you,

Please know i dedicate my heart to you

Maybe in this world

Only one person

Only you don't know

I am always restless with full eyes follow your gaze

Baby, you are my only love

My love is not two

There is only one

So no need to worry, love

I just left my body to my love

Look at me"

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HUG ME

Kang Younghyun

Reader

Jae

Soft. Fluff.

***

You jolted when you heard your phone ringing. You glanced at Younghyun and saw him still sleeping soundly. The clock was showing that it's only 2 AM. You quickly picked your phone on the nightstand. You're confused seeing the caller id on your phone screen. It's Jae. Why is he calling at this hour? And he's calling you, not Younghyun. You answered the call because you didn't want the phone to ring longer.

"Hello, Jae?" You whispered because you didn't want to wake Younghyun. He looked so tired because he just came home an hour ago.

You could hear Jae took a deep sigh and then he said, "I'm in front of your apartment building. Could you come down for a moment?"

You raised your eyebrows confused. "What's happen? Do you want to talk with Younghyun? I'll wake him up."

"No, no. Wait." Jae said in hurry. He continued, "I want to talk with you. Just a moment."

You hesitated to answer. You felt weird because he asked you to come down to meet him at 2 AM? Does he want to talk about something related to Younghyun? You looked at Younghyun who's in a deep sleep.

"Ok, wait a minute." You said and ended the call. You chose not to tell Younghyun that his friend -and your friend too- asked to meet you.

You found Younghyun's hoodie that he just wore on your sofa and put it over your pajamas because you're too lazy to search for another one in your closet.

***

You saw Jae right away when you're already outsite. He sat on the bench and he wore the familiar jacket. You know that jacket so well. It's a gift from you when he won a singing competition. It was five years ago.

You approached Jae slowly. The air was so cold and it was very quiet. All you can hear was the sound of the branches moved by the wind. Jae put his hands inside his jacket pockets. He looked so cold.

"Jae." You greeted him when you're already in front of him.

Jae stood up and it made you took a step back when you felt that he's too close.

"What's happen, Jae?" You asked him. You're worried when you noticed that he looked so gloomy. You wondered if he has some big problem or anything else.

Jae looked at you and showed a tiny smile. But you could see the sadness in his eyes. He called your name softly.

"Can i hug you?" Asked him without hesitation. Jae was aware that you're confused. He added, "Just for a moment. Just one minute."

"Jae, are you drunk?"

He chuckled and shook his head. "No. Can i hug you?" Jae asked you once again. "If one minute is too long, let me hug you for thirty seconds. No, ten seconds would be enough."

You looked at Jae worriedly. That was your first time to see him behave like that. He usually talks with a bright tone and always have smile on his face. But right now you saw him like a broken pieces.

"Jae, you make me worried. Tell me what's happen."

"I just want to hug you." Jae looked down. "Can i?"

You stayed quiet but you also didn't stop him when he came closer to you and finally hugged you. You could feel that he's being careful. You wanted to hug him back because you thought that Jae maybe really needs someone to hug him. But you couldn't move your hands. Your hands stayed on your side. The image of Younghyun who's sleeping on your bed was the one that hold you. Jae tightened his hug and he took a deep breath. He called your name again.

"I like you." He said.

Your eyes widened by the sudden confession. You're thinking that he must be drunk. You're about to pull yourself from his embrace but he hold you.

"Just a second." He said softly. "I like you. So much."

"Jae..."

"You don't have to say anything. Please just listen to me." Jae paused before he continued. "I like you for a long time. Even before you're dating with Younghyun. I didn't do anything because i was afraid that all of this would ruin our friendship. But these days, i think my feeling for you has become stronger and i can't control it. I became someone i've never expected. I keep wanting you more. Please forgive me because i like you so much."

You pushed Jae a little bit harder. He let go of you and you saw an apologetic expression on his face.

"I'm sorry." Jae realized he made you uncomfortable with the way he hugged you longer than he should. He looked down.

"Jae, i honestly don't know what to say."

Jae lifted his face and smiled at you. "You don't need to say anything. I just wanted to tell you about how i feel. I'm sorry i made you uncomfortable with my wrecked up emotion."

"No, Jae." You shook your head. You're busy thinking what should you say to him. You like Jae, as a close friend. He's one of a few close friends you have.

"I hope my confession will not ruin our friendship." Jae said it with hoping smile. He didn't want to regret what he did. He never wanted to ruin the friendship. He only thought that he needed to let go his feelings towards you. He wanted to be honest to himself and to you. "I confessed not because i wanted to hear your answer or tried to get in between you and Younghyun. I won't be like that. I just thought that i need to let it out so i can face you and Younghyun without any guilt. I like you and Younghyun as my friends. I want to keep both of you in my life. That's why."

You know what he meant. You know he's still Jae, your kindest friend. That's the reason why you accepted his honesty. You feel nothing but sad that it has to be like this.

"I'm sorry, Jae." You said with a hope that he would take the hint that you accepted his confession, his honesty. But you want him to stay as your friend.

Jae smiled and nodded his head. "Thank you for saying sorry. I'll be fine."

***

Both of you and Jae didn't know that Younghyun had been watching. Younghyun woke up when he heard the front door closed. He thought he was dreaming when he heard you talking on the phone. He opened his eyes and saw the empty space on the bed. When he saw that his hoodie on the sofa was gone, he knew you're outside so he decided to go outside.

Younghyun slowed his walked when he saw you and Jae. He was curious what the two of you were doing at this hour without his knowing. He stopped his step when Jae pulled you into his arms. Younghyun felt like someone stabbed his heart when you just stayed still. He wanted to run and knock some sense to both of you but he wanted to read the situation first. He noticed how you didn't hug him back. When you pushed Jae, Younghyun feel so relieved a little bit. He wanted to hear what you and Jae talked about but he hold himself. Younghyun thought whatever it is, it has to be done between you and Jae. He had a negative thought for a moment but he pushed that aside because he trusts you. He knows he can trusts Jae too. He's so sure that you'll tell him about the current situation you have with Jae. Younghyun turned away and decided to just come inside and wait for you.

Younghyun was already inside your apartment again and let himself fell on the bed. He hoped you would back in a minute or he'd just come down and ask for an explanation. He heard the door opened and he sat straight waiting for you to open the room door.

You gasped when you saw him sitting on the bed. He looked at you like a lost child. You smiled at him awkwardly and you still had his hoodie on you.

"Why did you wake up?" You asked him.

Younghyun didn't say anything and just reached out his hand. You took his hand and let him pulled you. You sat on his lap and rest your head on his shoulder. Younghyun caressed your hair softly with his one hand while another one hold your waist tightly. "Where were you?" He asked with a soft tone.

You told him everything without missing a single thing. You told him about what you feel and how you want to deal with the situations.

Younghyun hugged you tighter and he kissed your head. "Thank you for being honest with me."

You lifted your head and cupped his face with your two hands. You just stared at his face. You played with his hair and smiled to yourself.

"My boyfriend is so handsome when he shows his forehead like this."

Younghyun laughed shyly. "Didn't you say i look so mean with hair styled up?"

"Mean but sexy."

Both of you laughed. You kept playing with his hair. "Younghyun."

"Hmmm?"

"Thank you for letting me be honest with everything in our relationship. If you're not who you are, i don't think i can be honest and so open with everything. Thank you for giving me this incredible trust and love."

Younghyun pulled yourself again and he leaned his forehead on yours. "It's all because of you too."

You smiled knowing that it would lead to compliment battle. "Younghyun, i want to sleep in your arms."

"Anything for you."

[spellthemoon]

THAT WINTER

Mark Tuan x Reader. Angst.

***

Winter, 2019

Today, there was a rude customer. She treated me like i'm her servant. I really wanted to scream but i bit my tongue to keep being professional. It wasn't a good day but i'm finally in my room wearing my pajama. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. How's your day, Mark?

-

Today i went to a cafe alone. It was so comfortable. But there's a couple sitting in front of me. They looked so cute. It made me miss you more. How are you, Mark?

Spring, 2019

I'm so sad now. I fight my with friend. I caught her boyfriend holding hands with another girl and i told her but she didn't trust me. She said i should mind my own business. Am i wrong?

Summer, 2019

I feel so lonely these days. I feel like everyone is leaving me one by one. You too.

Winter, 2020

After a long tiring day, the thought of writing an email for you is enough to give me strength through the day. I know you're not going to reply. Maybe you will not even read my emails. Well, do you even still use this email? Regardless, please allow me to use this email to talk to you. This is the only way to reach you and it's enough for me. Anyway, how's the weather in LA?

Summer, 2020

Why did you leave me without a word?

-

I miss you. Please come back to me. I miss you so much.

Winter, 2020

Mark, how's your day? I hope you're healthy and doing well. Mark, Mark Tuan. The name i really miss to call. The name that brings me smile and tears.

Mark, i'm sorry for everything. If you read all my emails, i must be look so pathetic to you. It's been two years but i keep doing this. I didn't understand why you left just like that. I didn't understand why you cut me off just like that. Even when i can finally meet you, i will not ask any question. From now on, i'll just accept it. Now i know what i need is not an answer. What i need the most is acceptance. I'll accept that we have to parted ways like this. I'll accept the fact that we already ended. I'm sorry it took me two years. I'll stop what i've been doing for the past two years. Goodbye, Mark. I'm sorry..

***

It's been two months since you stopped send any email to him again. It's still hard for you because you used to do that whenever you need someone to listen to you about what you feel. You can't tell anyone else but him. You used his inbox as your own diary and now you decided to close it forever. So much questions are still lingering on your mind. Why he left you without a word when the two of you didn't even fight? What kind of mistake you did to be left alone just like that? How could you heard it from anyone else? Leaving you like a fool. Why did he treat you like you didn't exist? Why did he has to hurt you like that?

Day by day, the questions are on your mind. You keep thinking about it every single night for the whole two years. Your heart is broken into pieces and you can't even cry anymore. But right now, you decided to close all the feelings and memories. It's time to accept the fact that someone whom you love has dumped you. He abandoned you. You have to accept it so you heart will be in peace.

You started with the emails and deleting all the pictures you have with him. You throw away his clothes from your closet. You still have a hard time to erase all the memories of him from your mind but you do it little by little. You tried to not have any grudge, you tried to only remember him as a good person, as someone you once loved. You do that for your own good. So, you won't be living your life in vain. So, you can fully accept it and start your day with the new you. You, who stop hoping for someone who doesn't want to be on your side.

***

You decided to have a night walk on your way home. It's the end of winter season so the wind still feels so cold but not freezing. You love it this way. Winter is your favorite season although it brings some an odd feelings to you. Winter is the season when you feel so lonely the most but it's also the season that makes you calm.

You enjoyed the night breeze and walked slowly. It's how you relieve the stress through the day. You feel refresh again. You looked up to the sky and really appreciated the moon that gives the light to your night.

You just looked around the streets and the branches that soon will have a beautiful flower. The night was so more beautiful than usual. It was when you see a really familiar figure about five meters from you, you stopped your step. Your whole body was malfunctioning in second. You were in the verge of crying when you thought that you're just hallucinating. You can't trust your own eyes. The person who also looked at you without a sound, took his step closer to you.

When you saw Mark moved forwards from his place, you took a step back. Three more steps back when he took another step to you. You wanted to scream at him, telling him to stop but you can't even open your mouth.

Mark hesitated to take another step when he saw you took a step back. His heart was pounding crazily. His hands were so cold. It's so hard for him catch a breath. Mark kept move forwards to get closer to you. He took other steps more confidently when you stayed at your place. He could see your expression and he felt like someone just throw a big punch to his chest.

"It's been a while." He said when he's already in less than one meter from you.

***

You couldn't avoid the situation even though you wanted to escape from this so badly. You were so confident that you already forgetting everything about him but it's all crushed when he's here, sitting next to you at the park in winter night. You couldn't even look at his face because you're afraid that you'll cry like a mess. You don't want that. He's no one, right now.

"How are you?" Mark started the conversation carefully. He looked at you who still avoiding to look at him.

"I'm good." You said. You tried to show him that you don't want a further conversation even though you still have all the questions of why he left on your mind. But you buried those deep inside your heart. It's over already.

"I'm here just to see you."

You really didn't know what to answer. You just wanted to run away from this situation so you just stayed quiet. You didn't care about his reason why he wanted to see you. At least you tried to convince yourself that you don't care anymore.

"I want to explain anything. For what i did two years ago." Mark said in a calm manner.

How could he? How could he's so calm like that when he knows he crushed your heart two years ago.

You hold back your tears. You have promised yourself you will not cry because of him again. You will not let yourself hear a word from him. Not after two years.

"You don't need to. It's already two years ago." You said, still didn't look at him.

"But i still​ think i have to explain everything to you. I want..."

"And i think i have a right to not want to hear it, don't you think so?" You cut him off and raised your voice intentionally.

"I always read your emails." Mark's words made you close your mouth. "I.. i always waited for your email. Everytime."

Now he made you more confused than before. You don't understand his mind at all. "What are you saying?"

Mark looked down because the guilt feelings attacked him strongly. He suddenly couldn't face you. He deserves tha hatred look from your eyes.

"I needed to go back to LA because of family matters. My parents needed me to be there."

"I said i don't want to hear it." You stood up and ready to walk away from him but Mark hold your hand.

He let go of your hand when he realized that it feels so strange to hold your hand after two years.

"Please. Please let me explain everything. I know it won't change anything but please give me time to tell you what happened." Mark pleaded.

"I didn't tell you anything and just left you without saying anything was because i was so scared that i wouldn't have a guts to leave. I was so scared that i would abandoned​ my family for you. I was scared if i came to you before i go back, i wouldn't be able to leave." Mark finished his words and gasping. He didn't​ let you cut his words. "Reading your email always saddened me but it kept me working hard to settle my family matters so i can come back to here. To you. You suddenly stop sending email for months and i was so worried."

Now you can look at Mark's eyes. He got teary eyes just like you. But you won't let a single tear falls.

"You did those things for yourself, right? But did you ever think about me? For how broken i was? We were just talking at night and suddenly you're gone in the morning and left me with nothing." You're out of breath. "I was worried like a mad woman, did you know that? When your friend told me that you're going back to LA, did you know how confused i was? And now what? You said you read my emails? You wait for it?" You let out a hurtful laugh. You're so sure people nearby can hear how thick the sadness you have in your voice.

"Mark, you didn't​ just broke my heart as a girl. You broke me as a person." You took a deep breath. You have to finish this fast because you feel like you'll throw up. Your head is so hurt. "For the past two years, i can't sleep peacefully. I feel so lost. I keep asking myself what did i do to you. When i decided to stop send you an email was because i wanted to forget everything about you. I'm almost there. It's no use to explain everything to me right now. It's too late, Mark."

You hope Mark will stop because you can't handle anything anymore. Him explaining everything to you is like reminding you to the wound that almost healed.

Mark couldn't say anything because he heard you. He heard how your voice was so hoarse and how your face was full of sorrow and frustration. Mark knew he's selfish. He hurts you twice. When he left you, he was only thinking about himself and now when he came to you after two years, he's only thinking about himself too. If Mark was someone else, he'd make sure to punch himself hard on the face.

Mark could not even call your name when you turned your back and walked away from him. He was looking at your back with regrets.

[spellthemoon]

Unwanted Ending

Kang Younghyun x Reader. A little bit of angst.

***

The same place, same time, same conversation and the same ending. You looked so tired in Younghyun's eyes. He's tired too. Probably. Tired of what he's doing right now. Every time the two of you meet, it always ends with a deep sighs and buried anger. No, the two of you don't scream at each other. Both of you talk in calm manner then one of you would give in and stop responding. That makes Younghyun scared. He's scared if the anger that's buried inside will explode and leave nothing. Even if Younghyun wants to open his mouth and raise his voice, he can't do that. If he does, he's afraid it will end things. This relationship of three years. Younghyun also know that lately, you've been holding on your emotions. When the two of you fight, you used to raise your voice and have a sullen face. There were times when you'd just leave him. He remembers when you left him in a restaurant and when you purposely let him waited for you for three hours in cinema. He also remembers when he was ignoring you for a whole three hours when you came to his studio. But, these days it's different. Both of you talk with a low voice and expressionless face. The two of you will just leave the unsolved problems and misunderstandings. To Younghyun, it's not normal that the two of you are so afraid to start a fight and let all the emotions buried inside.

***

It's been three days both of you haven't text or call each other. The last message was from Younghyun telling you that he couldn't make it to attend your friend's wedding because he had a sudden meeting with the singer he's working with. He got no reply from you but he also didn't make effort to call or come to your place.

A guilty feeling of thinking that you're all alone at your friend's wedding came to his mind. Younghyun closed his notebook and placed his guitar then rushed to your place. Somehow he knows what he's coming to. There are two possibilities, you're going to ignore him and tell him that you're okay or you're going to scream from the start and push him out of your place. Younghyun hopes it will be the latter. At least, he knows what he'll gonna do. He'll beg for forgiveness if you're mad. But if you just ignore it and let it pass, the tension in this relationship with you will get heavier.

***

Younghyun arrived at your place. He was just standing in front of the door for minutes. He knows your passcode so he could let himself in easily but he knows how to act accordingly. He didn't tell you in advance that he would come, so he didn't want to invade your privacy. Younghyun pressed the bell and waited for a while. He hoped you're inside and let him in. He pressed the bell once more and just right after that the door was opened but it didn't revealing who's inside. Younghyun pushed the door and came in. He saw you already walked to the living room. You didn't even let him greet you. Younghyun followed you and standing awkwardly when you sat on the couch and turned on the television. Younghyun cleared his throat to get your attention.

"Hi..." He said with a low tone.

You looked up at him with no expression. "Why are just standing there? Don't you want to sit?"

Younghyun sat beside you. He closed the gap and his heart hurt a little when you shifted your position slightly.

"I'm sorry i couldn't accompany you to your friend's wedding." He said carefully looking at your face.

"It's okay." You said, still had your eyes on the television even though you didn't even care about the show and those people on tv laughing like crazy.

"If it's not, you can tell me. I'll try to make up for that." Younghyun just looked down.

"How?"

Younghyun lifted his face and looked at you. "What?"

"How will you make up for it if i wasn't okay?" You still didn't look at him even though you could feel that he asked you to face him with his sharp eyes still looking at you.

Younghyun stayed quiet for a while. He didn't know how, actually. If it takes everything then he'll do it. "You can tell me, i'll do anything."

You turned off the television and finally looked at him in the eye. "Forget it. You don't even know how to." You stood up and walked to your bedroom.

Before you could open your bedroom door, Younghyun got in your way. He stood in front of you. They way he towered over you would make your heart fluttered in different situation. You looked up and sighed.

"What?"

"We have to talk. About us."

His stern face made you tired already. You just want to have a peaceful day. You let him in without no intention to argue. It's true that you're mad at him but you just need a time to let your anger gone away. You also missed him.

"Let's talk later. I'm tired."

Younghyun hold your shoulders with both of his hands. It's not hard enough to hurt you but it's enough to not let you move your body.

"We really need to talk." Younghyun said softly.

You pushed his hands and walked back to sit on the couch. Younghyun sat on the table so he can face you. You refused to look at him and just looked down.

"What do you want to talk?"

"Honestly i don't know where to start," Younghyun paused because he needed to think how to talk in the right way and how to lead this conversation without blaming anyone and not end up with a fight or worse, tears.

You waited for him to continue. You became so nervous all of sudden.

"Don't you think something has changed between us? I feel like we've become cold to each other." Younghyun stopped to see your expression. He carefully continued, "We've become careful to each other. It's like there's a wall between us and it's getting higher. I don't even remember the last time we laugh so freely together."

You stayed quiet because what he said is right. You feel it too and it makes you scared for how the relationship is going to somewhere you never want to think of. Whose to blame? You don't know. Younghyun has been too busy lately. You tried to understand it. You tried to take more effort to come to his studio even though it's far enough from your place. You don't mind that, really. But it's the way he's only focus on his damn guitar and computer with you sitting on the couch behind him, it made you feel like you did that for nothing. Like he's just fine if you were not there sitting like a statue.

For you, you also have enough stress going on with your personal life so you don't want to put more on your shoulders. So, whenever something is going on between you and Younghyun, you just want to let it pass. You are tired of fighting. You don't want to be stressed more.

Before the two of you give each other a silent treatment, you used to fight a lot for the past few months. It's to the point where the two of you were tired of it. So, both of you and Younghyun just holding on. You can feel it and you're sure Younghyun feel the same way that one more fight, it will end the relationship because the two of you had enough. You don't want to part away with Younghyun. You love him so much. You've been three years with him so you are already feel comfortable with him. For Younghyun, he already knew the difference between his life before you came and after you came and stay by his side for three years. You're the sunrise and the sunset of his days. He couldn't imagine if he has to live his life without you again. He already how it feels to be with you.

These days, if he can be honest, the relationship just adding more stress to his days. The days when he couldn't fulfilled his promises, the days when he's being a disappointment to you, the days when he has to say sorry, to the days when he got hurt seeing your cold face and the way you hold your tears caused by him. All of those things made his heart heavier and he wishes he can leave those behind.

You're tired too. You want to let go all of this stressful things. You don't want to have expectation that only make you disappointed at the end. Maybe, it's really the time to try to let go.

"Are you tired?" You asked Younghyun in sorrow.

Younghyun looked down and nodded his head. It's enough answer for you. It's enough for you to let your tears fall from your eyes. Tears were rolling down unstoppably when you heard he's sobbing. You want to take his hands and hug him tightly but you know you'll break down and you'll ask him to stay with you. So, you hold yourself.

This is the ending you never wanted but this is what you and Younghyun need right now.

[spellthemoon]

BE WITH YOU

Kang Younghyun x Reader.

***

You really don't know how did you end up here. In Seoul station with your backpack at 12 PM. You just had this idea when you woke up that you want to have a trip to somewhere since you skip class and it got you bored. So, you just took shower and packing your clothes enough for 3 days trip. You don't even know where to go and it's your first time to have a trip alone. You had a thought to go back home and cancel this plan but when you look around the station, it holds you back. Station is always an interesting place for you. There, you can see people who are about to go to somewhere or just got back from somewhere. You hold your backpack strap and thrilling to go on with the first plan. But you don't know what to do first. Shall you check where to go first or just buy whatever ticket available. You're still deep in your thoughts when someone bumped into you from behind. You dropped your wallet and phone.

"Ouch!" You hissed, worried that your phone might cracked.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." The person sounded he's on rush and helped you to pick your wallet. "Are you okay?" He asked you, worried. He stretched his hand to give your wallet.

"I'm okay." You took your wallet from him, still checking your phone to find any crack.

"Okay, good. I'm sorry."

When you looked up after found no crack on your phone, the man was already running from you. You didn't have a chance to see his face. He's wearing all black outfit and carrying the same black colored backpack as yours. Seem like his train will leave soon, he's sprinting.

For safety reason you save your wallet in your bag and put your phone in your pocket jeans. You walked to the Ticket Vending Machine and luckily there's not so many people. You're standing still at the Ticket Vending Machine. You don't know what you're doing so you just pressed whatever you see, without thinking. After you got the ticket you decide to just wait for the train because you can't do anything much in one hour. You're sitting at the corner while examining your ticket. From Seoul to Gwangju. You don't know much about Gwangju actually, so you just started do some research about what to do, what to visit and what to eat in Gwangju. The most important one is where to stay. You think guesthouse will be a perfect choice since you always wanted to try stay at the guesthouse for a trip. Maybe you'll meet nice people. You're so focus searching for affordable and nice guesthouse when someone came and sit next to you. Between other empty seats and row, someone chose to sit beside you. It made you uncomfortable enough to shifted your position slightly away from the person beside you. You didn't take a look at the person, pretending to still focus on your phone. From the corner of your eyes you can see that he is a man. He seems so busy searching something inside his bag. A ring is falling right at your feet. You picked it up and placed it on the little space between you and him without saying a word. He buried his face inside his bag, so he didn't realize that he dropped his ring and had someone pick it up from him. You looked at the your watch and it's just 15 minutes left to your train departure. You stood up and walked to the platform leaving the man who's still busy searching for the thing he's losing behind.

***

You're smiling from ear to ear when you're already seated on the train. Your seat is by the window so it got you so excited. You'll get a chance to see the view.

You picked your phone to continue browsing for a guesthouse you'll stay at. There are two guesthouses that caught your attention. After you gained every little information about the two, you decided to choose the guesthouse which closer to the station. You think it's better. After you done with the booking and the payment online, you chose the playlist you want to listen to during the two hours ride. The train will leave in five minutes. At the same times someone sits beside you. That made you disappointed a little bit since you hoped no one would sit next to you. You'd feel more comfortable that way. You took a glance at the man sitting next to you. He looks somewhat familiar. You paid attention carefully then you realized that he's the same man that sit beside you at the station. You recognize him from the ring he's wearing. For once again he's busy looking for something inside his bag. But this time he didn't bury his face in the bag so you can see his face clearly. He has a black hair and he has a pair of sharp eyes and those eyes are now looking at you. Yes, he realized that you've been eyeing him. You gasped and immediately turn your face to look outside the window. You feel so embarrassed. The man cleared his throat awkwardly. Fortunately he didn't say anything. Who's gonna be happy if a stranger staring at your face? You also wil not comfortable if that happens to you.

The train started to leave. Your excitement has gone because a stranger was sitting next to you. He has a really board shoulders, it made his shoulders brushed with yours frequently. Every time that happened, the two of you immediately distancing yourself even though it's useless since there really wasn't any space anymore. You looked around the carriage, there were many empty seats. Why this man has to sit next to you making you uncomfortable. You have a thought moving to another seat but you're afraid he would feel offended. Yes, you're such an overthinker person. You really think too much about a stranger's feeling. You just hope that he would be the one who moves to another seat.

***

One hour more you'll arrive at Gwangju. Still with the same man next to you. Your stomach made an embarrassing sound. You pretended like nothing happened so that you don't get even more embarrassed. You wanted to buy food but you hold back. You have to make sure that you won't starving for two nights in Gwangju. This is a sudden trip so you don't bring that much money.

Your neck was stiff because you just look outside the window and you were hungry, so your mood was not very good. Is this the start of an unpleasant journey? You got even more annoyed when your shoulders brushes with the man again because he was looking for something inside his bag, again.

You're ready to close your eyes hoping that when you wake up, it's already in Gwangju.

"Hello, do you want this?"

A voice made you to open your eyes again. You turned your head and the man is handing a chocolate to you. That's your favorite chocolate. But, is it because he heard your stomach growling?

"No, thank you." You said in the most polite way you could think of.

He put the chocolate back to his bag without saying anything. Then, he handed you something again. This time it's sandwich.

"It's okay, i'm fine." You said with a smile reassuring him that you're fine.

Well, you think it's not save to receive any food from stranger. The world can be so scary.

He nodded, "Okay then. But you can take this." He put the chocolate on your lap. Carefully so his hand didn't touch anything else. "Don't worry, the expired date is next year. It's edible."

Did he read your mind? You hesitated but still take the chocolate. It won't be nice to keep rejecting it. Hence you can accept it without actually eating the chocolate.

"Oh, thank you."

"Hmm, you're welcome." He opened the plastic wrap of his sandwich and started to take a big bite. A really big bite. The sandwich looks so tempting. You should just accept it. You can smell the tuna from it. All you can do was just sigh quietly and back to look outside.

The man back to looking for something inside his bag. Again. He took another sandwich again! Will he give it to you? You had a little hope that he will, but it's vanished when he unwrapped the sandwich and take a big bite again. He's probably starving. The previous sandwich was tuna, you can smell the second one was chicken sandwich.

You're shocked when he's coughing loudly. No, he's choking. He kept coughing vigorously. You became panic when his face turned red and he shedded tears. He's having a hard time breathing. People starter to notice the incident but they did nothing. Their gaze made you even more panicked. You patted him on the back, still being careful. That's what people do, right?

"Are you okay?" Dumb question, you know. He didn't look okay at all. You kept patting his back harder. Your other hand tried to reach the water bottle inside your bag. He's still coughing and now you hit his back hard. It looks like it's finally work because he had something coming out from his mouth. He was panting, his face was still red. You took your hand off from his back and handing your water bottle to him.

"Here, you can drink this."

He took the bottle with his trembling hand. After he drank for like half of it, he gave the bottle back to you.

"Thank you so much." He said.

You took it and closed the lid. "Are you okay now?"

He nodded and smiled shyly. "Yes, thank you. I thought i was going to die. It's all thanks to you."

You smiled slightly. It was nothing, really. You were also so panicked because you couldn't do anything except to hit his back hard.

"Sorry i hit you too hard. It must be hurt."

He laughed, "No, no. Thank you. It saved me."

"If that so, i'm glad."

Two of you nodded and smiled to each other. Okay, this is so awkward. You played with your fingers. You didn't know if you should ask if he's really okay or do something else.

"By the way, what will you do in Gwangju? For vacation or something else?" When he's aware that you look a little bit surprised, he smiled warmly. "Oh, i didn't mean to be a creep to asked you something like that."

"I didn't think like that." Even though you feel a little bit uncomfortable. "I'm going to visit my grandparents." Of course you're lying. You don't want to take the risk to tell a stranger that you're going to be alone travelling around Gwangju. Again, the world is not save.

"Oh, your grandparents are here? That must be nice." He smiled again.

You just nodded and smiled back at him. You are just not good at talking with strangers.

"If that so, do you often go to Gwangju?" He asked. From his tone it seems like he wants to talk with you more.

"Not really." Your answered him modestly. Honestly, this is your first time visiting Gwangju. But of course you can't tell him that.

"Oh, I see. This is my first time in Gwangju. I wanted to take a short vacation alone. I wanted to ask you about good restaurants in Gwangju. For me, good restaurants are the most important one when we come to a new place..." He closed his mouth when he realized he's talking too much. Your face also seems uncomfortable. "Sorry. I'm someone who talks a lot."

"It's okay." You really mean it.

"Oh yes, I'm Younghyun. Kang Younghyun." He smiled introducing his name. His smile is cute, you thought. "You don't have to tell your name if you feel uncomfortable."

You stared at him. Why he doesn't​ want to know your name? Then what for he's introducing himself to you if he doesn't want to know yours?

He smiled seeing you confused.

***

In less than five minutes the train will arrive at Gwangju station. Finally, you thought. You started stuffing your stuffs in the bag. Your first plan is to find a good restaurant because you are starving right now and go to the guesthouse to leave your bags there. Then, you can visit one or two places. You glanced at Younghyun, he was cleaning his trash. A guilty for lying to him crossed your mind. Younghyun has the same plan as you. This is his first time to Gwanju for a short vacation alone. If you didn't lie, maybe you could find a good restaurant with him. After the small talk he seems like a good and fun person. Isn't this what you want? Go to new places and meet new people?

The train has stopped. You're finally arrived in Gwangju. Younghyun stood before you. He adjusted the straps of his backpack. You realized that the bag is the same as yours. Maybe he was also the one who bumped into you at Seoul station earlier?

He turned to you when you stand up. "If we bump into each other later, can i say hi to you?"

"Yes, of course." You answered without hesitation. The chance of meeting him is slim, right?

"Tell me your name when we meet again. Please send my regards to your grandparents." He waved his hand and walked.

You stared at his back. He is a tall man with a board shoulders. However, the way he talked earlier like he's teasing you. Did he know you were lying about visiting your grandparents?

You sit back down waiting for everyone to get off the train. You saw Younghyun walking from outised the window. He turned his head then smiled and waved his hands again. You can only smiled back. Why did he look so happy? But you like it, his smile.

***

You stopped at a small restaurant. From the building and decoration, you are sure that this restaurant is older than you. You decided to eat the traditional dish from this town.

You opened the door slowly. There are not many tables and you only see three people. A middle-aged woman greeted you and let you to sit at the table closest to the door. You chose your orders from the old menu book and the woman told you to wait with a warm smile before going into the door in the corner.

You looked around and there wasn't much that caught your attention. You hope the food is as delicious as the reviews say that you find on the internet. Your eyes stopper at the back of the man sitting at 2 tables in front of you. Wait, is that Kang Younghyun? His back looks so familiar. It must be Kang Younghyun. Your heart was beating so fast without a reason. You kept staring at him. If he looks back, what should you do? Smile? Greet him? Or pretend not to see? Or maybe he will ignore you? When he's done, he will definitely pass my your table. While you were still thinking what would you do if Younghyun see you, the middle-aged woman brought your order to your table.

"This is your order." Said the middle-aged woman putting a bowl and plate full with lots of food on your table.

"Thank you." You said in a small voice.

There was a screeching sound coming from a moving. You immediately lowered your head. No, Younghyun will definitely see you right away when he turns around.

Just right. Younghyun turned around and realized that someone was sitting behind him.

"Oh? You again?" He said with a bright smile.

You smiled awkwardly. "Hi."

Younghyun smiled widely. His eyes were sparkling. "Thankfully, i got here first."

You raised your eyebrows. "What do you mean?"

"I'm afraid you would think that i was following you if i got here after you."

"I wouldn't think like that." You said. Did he think that you find him strange?

"Glad to hear that." He kept showing you his sweet smile. "After this, are you going straight to your grandparents' house?" He asked, still standing by your side.

You nodded doubtfully. He kept talking about your grandparents who are actually in Seoul.

"Do you want to buy something for your grandparents first?" He asked with a hint of hope that you'd say yes. "You know there's a market around here, right? Maybe you want to buy some good street food there for you grandparents."

"Do you want to go there too?"

Younghyun nodded. "Yes, I like street food. If you want to go, would you go with me?"

You thought street food is not bad idea at all. You love street food, especially the ones they sell in the market. But is it okay to go with a stranger? You know his name you just met him. Besides you still haven't started eating your meal. "I want to, but you can go first if you want because i have to eat this first." Your pointed to the food on the table.

"It's okay. Eat slowly. I'll wait for you outside." Younghyun left you but you called him.

"Younghyun." The name still feels unfamiliar but you really like the name. "You can sit here." You pointed to the chair in front of you.

Younghyun smiled widely again. He loves to smile, you noted it on your mind.

"Okay, then." Younghyun sat down immediately.

It turned out that it's such a wrong decision because you felt awkward to eat in front of a guy you just met a few hours ago. There was no conversation between the two of you. You thought Younghyun also regretting not to just wait for you outside. It's so awkward.

When your eyes accidentally met at each other, both of you immediately turned your head to the opposite direction. You couldn't even taste the food right. You didn't know if it's good or bad. You're just trying to eat fast.

***

There were still a lot of people in the market. It's not the packed, you could still walk freely without bumping into other people. You and Younghyun walked side by side. So many food stalls that you can't decide what to buy. You took a glance at Younghyun that seem had interest with a long queue on the right side. It seems like the food is really good to have a quite people lining up.

"Do you want to buy that?" You asked him and finally he turned his head to you.

"The line is too long. Why? Do you want it?"

You shook your head. "No. I don't want to line up."

Younghyun chuckled. Actually he doesn't mind to line up if it's for a good food. But he didn't want to waste a time with you. He's really comfortable to walk side by side like this. That's why he hasn't stop at one food stall at all. Even though the corn dog at the entrance made him take a second glance.

"Oh, there's tteokbokki!" You ran to the tteokbokki stall leaving Younghyun behind. You can't skip tteokbokki whenever and wherever you see it. Younghyun giggled seeing you so excited for tteokbokki. He walked to you with small steps. Adoring how you patiently waiting your turn to order. He nudges your side lightly on purpose when he was standing next to you.

"You can find this easily in Seoul." He teased you.

You smiled shyly. "Yes, but it looks more delicious here."

You rushed forward when the people in front of you got their orders.

"Do you want it? It's my treat." You said to Younghyun. You count this to repay for the chocolate.

Younghyun nodded with a smile. It was adorable to see you so excited for tteokbokki. While you were waiting for your order, Younghyun said that he would buy something in another place.

You've already held two bowls of hot tteokbokki and you saw Younghyun came back with something on his hands.

"I hope you like strawberry juice." Younghyun handed you the juice. "Or do you want this? I bought cold mint tea."

You immediately took the strawberry juice from him. "I prefer strawberry juice. Thank you."

"Oh, so you don't like mint?" Asked Younghyun, leading you to keep walking.

"Not at all. It doesn't suit my taste."

Younghyun nodded. "Do you want to find a seat for a while to eat?"

You agreed and the two of you started looking for a place to sit. You easily found a place to eat.

You and Younghyun started to eat together. It turned out that the combination of strawberry juice and spicy tteokbokki is perfect. You watched Younghyun as he was wiping his sweat. He looked like he was having a hard time.

"Is it too spicy?" You asked, worried for him.

Younghyun sipped his ice mint tea. "Not really. I just can't eat spicy food well."

"Oh, I'm sorry. If it's too spicy, you don't need to eat it."

"No, no. I'll eat it. It's really good. I still can tolerate the level."

You feel relieved, then. You're fine if he doesn't eat it. You're afraid he just tried to be polite.

"By the way, where do you want to go while you're here?" You tried to open the conversation.

Younghyun shrugged his shoulders and sipped his tea again. "I don't know. Today I just want to eat a lot and then rest at the hotel. How about you? Do you just want to stay at your grandparents' house?"

You really felt like telling him that your grandparents are in Seoul, that you lied to him. You don't even have any relatives here.

"I don't know either." You really don't have a plan yet. Maybe to a museum or to a national park or you will take a walk in every market you come across.

"Oh i see. Hence you're here to visit your grandparents."

You swore you want to ask him to stop talking about grandparents.

Younghyun drank his mint tea until the last drop. "Maybe tomorrow I'll go to the lake. You know the place, right? I heard there is a nice garden there too. Have you been there?"

Of course not, you said to yourself. You shook your head. "Never. Is it a good place?"

"People say it's a nice place. How about we come together tomorrow?"

You didn't think this is a bad idea. Younghyun has tendency to make you comfortable. It was proven that you are still with him until now. If he made you uncomfortable, then you must had already run away since you met him at the restaurant.

"Okay, let's go together."

Younghyun smiled happily. He couldn't even hide his wide smile.

"Oh i forgot. I haven't said my name." You just remembered about your promise on the train.

Younghyun smiled meaningfully. "I know your name."

"What?" You said, surprised.

Younghyun said your name while pointing at the small keychain attached to your bag. Right, your name is on it.

"Nice to meet you .." he said your name again. It made your heart beating so fast.

***

You really loved how the wind blows. The air feels so refreshing here. You purposely came to this place at the morning. This place is so quiet just the way you like it. You can enjoy the view at ease. You waited for Younghyun at the bench closest to the lake. You were kind of regretting to not bring at least one casual dress. All you have is just a pair of shirt and pants. You're deep with the view in front of you that you didn't realized Younghyun has arrived and capturing the view with his camera, with you on the frame. Younghyun smiled to himself. He loved when the wind swayed your hair. He took another picture.

Younghyun called your name as he walked towards you. You stood up and look at him. You were blushing when you saw his clothes has the same color but different tone like yours.

"Wow we're wearing a matching outfit." He noticed that you also wear a blue color. He knew you're blushing. He needed to hold himself to not squish you.

"You are here." You said shyly and let him sit beside you. "What are we gonna do here?" You genuinely asked. Because you don't think you can do much except enjoying the view.

"What do you want to do?" He asked you. You look away because he looked more dazzling than yesterday. It seems like he styled his hair for a little bit.

"I'm okay just taking a walk or just sitting here enjoying the breeze and the lake."

"It sounds like a good idea. Do you want me to take your picture?" He asked you, showing his camera.

***

After taking a few photos, you and Younghyun decided to just walk around the place. Enjoying the fresh air and kept taking picture when you found a good spot. You also took several photos together. As the two of you walking, you talked about various things. Younghyun said he's frequently goes on vacation alone and without a plan. He feels comfortable doing that. He will just come to the station or terminal and buy a any ticket. When you heard him, you think he's a really cool person. You also found out that Younghyun is only one year older than you, he makes music and is also a Radio DJ. No wonder he talks so well and make you comfortable. You haven't told him about your lie, of course. You thought you just let him think that you are here to visit your grandparents.

***

Now you were here in a restaurant with a beautiful view. Walking around the lake and a beautiful garden was enough to make you tired and hungry. As soon as your food placed on the table, you and Younghyun ate it right away without saying much.

It was already evening after you and Younghyun finished your meal. Time flies so fast when you enjoying it, right?

"Do you want to go somewhere else?." Youngyun asked you after uou came out of the restaurant.

"Is there anything interesting around here?" You don't want to go home yet so it would be nice if the two of you can spend more time together.

"There's an art museum around here. What do you think?"

Art museum sounds good. But, you don't feel like going to a place like that. It's never been on your list.

Younghyun saw the hesitation on your face. "How about we go to the market again? I'm still hungry."

You smiled happily. "Good idea!"

Younghyun laughed, "Let's go then!"

He stretched out his hand and you took it. You walked hand in hand with Younghyun and both of your body became stiff when you realize what you were doing.

But neither both of you intended to take your hands off of each other. This felt so right. You have to take a bus to get to the market. It's too far for a walk. While you were waiting for the bus and even when you were already on the bus, your hands wouldn't let go of each other. Like a magnet. Your heart was pounding and you didn't dare to look at Younghyun's face even when you were sitting side by side on the bus. You thought that if you let go of his hand, it seemed like you wouldn't dare to hold it back.

Younghyun also had the same thought. If he lets go of your hand, he's afraid you wouldn't allow him to hold your hand anymore.

In his heart, Younghyun hoped that this bus will not make a stop. So he could stay beside you and keep holding your hand.

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LOVE

Mark x Reader. FLUFF FLUFF FLUFF.

♥

Mark fasten his steps when your door already on his sight. He rings the bell impatiently like someone is going to pull him away from your door. The second time he rings the bell, you open the door and revealing yourself with a smile and allowing him to come in. Mark enter your apartment and without taking his shoes off, he hugs you. He let your face buried to his chest. The scent of your fruity shampoo is like an aroma therapy to him. He inhales deeply. Your body feels so cold in his arms because you just took a shower, but it gives warmth to his heart. You didn't say anything and just allowing him to hug you tightly. He smells like an expensive coffee.

"Are we going to stay like this forever?" You tease him because there's no sign of him to let you go. "You're not sleeping, right?"

Mark hugs you tighter. He rests his chin on your head. "I don't mind to stay like this forever. It's so comfortable."

"Not until you get a cramp."

Both of you laugh and you pull yourself from Mark so you can see his face with a right view. He is so handsome when you look at him closely like this. His hair is getting longer and more messier but you love how the way it suits him so well. He looks manlier like this. You tip toed and kiss his lips. He tastes so sweet. You smile after the small kiss while appreciating his look. Before you pull yourself from him completely, Mark hold your face kiss your lips softly. You initiated to deepen the kiss when Mark moves his hand to your waist.

Both of you pull out from each other to breath. Mark close his eyes and kiss your forehead.

"I'm hungry." He said breaking the silence.

You chuckled and pinch his waist. "Take of your shoes. I'll cook ramen."

You walk to the kitchen and leave him struggling with his shoes.

"Give me two servings because i'm so hungry." Mark shouts when he's actually don't have to do that because you can still hear if he talks in normal tone.

***

Stomach full of ramen and coke. Mark lay his head on your lap. The two of you turn on the television and just decide to watch homeshopping show. You run your fingers through Mark's silky hair. Your action makes him close his eyes and he caresses your knee.

It's so comfortable to stay like this, just enjoying each other's presence.

"Mark, shall you spend the night here?" You ask him, still playing with his hair.

Mark opens his eyes and shift his position to look at your face. "Shall i?"

You nod. Smiling when you know what is already on his mind. You flick his forehead softly. "I just want to sleep beside you. You know, like sleep. Dreaming and snoring. Nothing else."

Mark laughs and now he's sitting beside you. He put his head on your shoulder. He plays with your fingers on your lap. "Will be nice if we can do something more."

"Shut up or i'll just kick you out."

Mark is laughing hard when he sees the blush on your cheek. He loves to tease you.

***

Your noisy alarm makes Mark opens his eyes almost immediately. He groans and searching for your phone to turn off the alarm that keep ringing louder and louder. The empty space beside him is what making him fully awake. He rubs his face, still sleepy and hungry when he can smell something good from outside of the room.

Lazily, Mark opens the door and your back greet him. You look so busy flipping something on the frying pan. You don't even notice that Mark is already awake. When Mark hugs you from behind, you jump a little.

"Be careful, it's stove here." You kiss his cheek and let him cling on you like a koala hugs the branch.

"You should turn off your alarm."

You smile at him. Mark really has every little thing to be whinny. "I'm sorry. Now let go of me and sit like a good boy."

Mark listens to your words this just because he's still sleepy. He kisses your head and let go of you. He sit on the sofa and turn on the television but his eyes still lingering on you. The way you preparing the meal for him is always touching his heart. He really loves the idea of the two of you sleep side by side every night and have a breakfast in the morning. The idea of it makes him smile without him unknowingly. Just thinking about it makes him happy.

"Babe, let's get married. I want to be your husband and call you my wife." He just said it smoothly. Still smiling like a fool. It's not just a blurt out, he said it from the bottom of his heart. It's not to tease you, he really meant it.

You almost spill the milk. Mark loves to joke and tease you but when you look at him, you know he's serious even with that dumb smile. He's looking at you sweetly. This man knows you will not reject him. Of course you will say yes but you also don't want to give in that easily even though you just want to hug him right now.

"Where is the ring?" You said with a flat tone. Pretending to set the plate and clean the milk you spilled.

Mark smiles widely, almost laughing. "It's a yes then."

You really love when he's smiling like that. It means everything for you. You can help to smile too.