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[specdrawz]

guess who rewatched across the spideverse🫡

[specdrawz]

I'm sure some of you have been wondering why I haven't been answering anons lately, and I wanted to get on here and state that it is not out of fear or anything of that sort.

I am simply just VERY stressed out and exhausted, in many ways and for many reasons.

I'm sorry to all, I know that you're eager to hear my opinion on things. But honestly, I can't. Not for a few weeks.

I know that all the drama is just..awful. But I need to put myself first here. My mental health has not been the greatest.

Again, I'm sorry.

Anons will stay open, but I'll only be answering anons that are about my art and/or my ocs for a decent while! So, any drama related stuff will be ignored until I state that I want to answer them.

Cool? Cool!

Again, this isn't me bein' afraid, this is just me putting myself first! After all, I am human, lols.

, Spec ♡

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if koi is innocent why the fuck did they delete their response and their tumblr account? not the behavior of someone who’s innocent.

There is something called being stressed unbelievably out of your mind. And frankly, it's disgusting that yall believe that Koi has done something as such 💀, with there being literally no proof from what I've seen?? All I was able to gather from the document was that Leo and Koi had an awful falling out.

Do you lot not understand that the people's lives you're trying to ruin are also HUMAN? With FEELINGS?

Disgusting, truly. Fucking pitiful.

You don't even KNOW Koi, but all of you, every single time, you ALWAYS flock to the "VICTIM", EVEN IF THE SHIT AINT TRUE.

Honestly, I'm counting the seconds to hear one of yall make up some awful shit about me next. God damn.

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There is proof of Koi admitting to drawing CP😭

Where..?

[specdrawz]

You; “Mel and I became friends before they stated that in their video. and I do hope Mel n I continue to be friends.”

Also you: “SHE CAN’T GROOM ME BCS WE DON’T EVEN TALK!!”

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Not saying she did groom you but can you make it make sense. Your similarities in both your ocs tell us that YOU ARE a Mel fangirl regardless of how you may disprove it.

Online friends don't talk ALL THE TIME..yknow?? like not even IRL friends talk 24/7..

Mel and I are friends: WHO DO NOT TALK ALL THE TIME.

You don't have to be friends with someone and talk all the ttiiimmmeee 💀.

As for the similarities in our ocs: I wasn't aware Mel owned the scene aesthetic? Or the colors Lime Green and Hot Pink??

Mel's sona is a GOAT...Spec(my sona) is a BUNNY with REALLY long ears.

* 1. doodle I did last month while at school

* 2. WIP reference sheet (because I'm terrible at making reference sheets)

Thanks for letting me know that my oc looking similar to a creators automatically makes me this freaky, parasocial, fangirl? 💀 that's insaaaane

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Why do you defend Koi? This is a genuine question that is not made in malice

Because I've known Koi for decent a while. I know for a fact they haven't done what they're being accused of. It's absolutely absurd that people are accusing them of drawing CP and pedophilic jokes? I mean hell, Koi is literally a victim of GROOMING AND SA. It's fucking VILE that you all believe that Koi would do something so awful. I am disgusted. 💀

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I'm not ashamed to ask but what do you mean the screenshots are cropped? Mel has been accused of more than she addressed when the video was made about her and only responded to things with "That stuff was old" or "I was being immature, I'm not used to having responsibility" or even just "Guys it's out of context".

She made it clear that she didn't read or watch anything brought up about her, only piggybacking off of what her friends had told her about certain things.

I understand that people make mistakes, but she's still pushing blame that she was ever wrong in these situations. Also it isn't drama, it's her addressing that she was wrong, and needs to step down from the public to better herself. Which yes she did do by stepping down from YouTube, but she still continues her behaviors on VRChat or in personal group chats made by herself/others.

Speaking of her evidence in her video, the only "shit talking" that she claims Voided did was her being upset that Mel was mistreating her. Voided has shown so many screenshots and video evidence of Mel blantly using her, and being inappropriate with/surrounding her younger audience.

Also she said that Mel isn't blocked, so another thing of Mel turning the truth on others.

I'm not saying all this in a way where it's "Grrrr, Mel this, Mel that!" But Mel still mistreats people to this day. Which is more clear and clear with what all her past friends have not only said but showed as well.

I know you're close with Mel now, but do consider that since you're her friend, having her best interest isn't sugar coating her wrongdoings.

Apologies if the answers to your various statements are out of order, I just responded with the points that would come to mind first</3

I absolutely agree that having their best interest in mind isn't sugar coating their wrongdoings, I along with the rest of our group have all had conversations about this. While yes, some of the things they have done are bad, they've openly admitted several times both within their own server as well as personal VC's about things they'd like to improve upon. The screenshots I have mainly seen of the situation from various Tumblr profiles just seem to me more that they're angry over the little things rather than.. the bigger picture? An example would be the fact that Voided AND Keith both have insulted Mel for shipping their character Razzberry with an unnamed friends OC; calling it a "rip-off" or an "Iris replacement". The few others I've seen of the supposed 'callout' just involved a lot of extremely out of context screenshots and/or videos with incorrectly used terms. (an example being the SA claim.)

On the topic of Voided not having Mel blocked, I'd like to ask if you've seen proof of "Mel turning the truth on others"? I've seen absolutely NO evidence that Voided hasn't blocked Mel, and considering her tendency to lie and manipulate situations into her favor I quite frankly wouldn't doubt if she were lying to you. The shit talking provided in Mel's video just.. is.. shit talking?

"Don't let Mel taint them, she's evil"

"Careful with her y'all! She's nice now but she's always talking shit about every action and breath you take with me fr!!"

And how exactly would this just be Voided "being upset that Mel mistreated her"? The only 'mistreating' within that situation from Mel was them.. hanging out with Khai and another friend for a day or two. Voided quite literally was just getting pissy because Mel wouldn't respond within 0.2 milliseconds when she messaged them. Mel has stated SEVERAL times to the people they've befriended that they DON'T know how to properly comfort people. While I can understand where Voided's frustration came from with the lack of a response on Mel's part, you CANNOT be angry with Mel for not responding too much when they literally STATED that they don't know how to comfort people.

With the claim that Mel still mistreats people to this day, I can absolutely tell you that they don't mistreat people? The supposed shit talking that I'm assuming you've heard about from Khai & Voided are just our group discussing "hey, have you noticed that ___ has been a bit harsher/meaner lately?", others agreeing, and wondering how to go about it or bring it up to them. The shit talking began after said 'friends' would openly say extremely mean things to the point that others have been driven to TEARS from it. (Khai, I'm looking at you. While Voided didn't do this, they STILL shit talked SEVERAL people behind their backs.)

The behaviors you're asking about with VRChat are just entirely false, given that the claim from Khai that "Mel flirts with men in VR" is just.. blatantly untrue?? Mel is aroace, falling under the category that feels NO ROMANTIC/SEXUAL ATTRACTION to other people. The only "flirting" that could have happened in VR are all JOKES.

And lastly with the whole thing of Mel saying "those are out of context," or "Those are old," still stands?? People are actively bringing past issues up from when Mel was significantly younger, and claiming that they still have the same mindset when they clearly don't??? The out of context screenshots claim also still stands, because the screenshots.. ARE out of context? Hell, in Luvu's video the screenshotted "evidence" is OUT OF ORDER.

Mel stating that they aren't used to being the older person is a genuine explanation, given they've been surrounded by adults for the most part of their time both online and offline, which was WHY their behavior is so normalized to them. They've realized that they can't keep making these jokes, and are actively only making them with our current friends group; which is filled with ADULTS. They were not saying that as an excuse, but rather an explanation for WHY they did it so often. While it doesn't make it any more excusable, it gives you a better understanding of the situation. In their video they take accountability for their behavior involving shit talking AND making those jokes.

Apologies if this reply is long, but I hate seein' my friends be put under fire for stupid petty shit</3

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Hello! Im Koi, and im one of Quartelz friends. And i’ve been recently accused of drawing CP and making pedophilic jokes.

i’m here to answer questions and im here to defend myself.

Now lets start with the important accusations,

first, drawing cp, i’ve NEVER drawn an underage oc nsfw and LEO knew that i changed her age because he said “hey in order for this to work they need to be 18 in the story” i said okay. And did so. KEEP IN MIND I CAN DRAW MY OC AT TWO DIFFERENT POINTS IN THEIR STORY.

now I don’t have screenshots of this because i was kicked from the server from recent drama with leo. now i will admit seeing the child art and then seeing nsfw of said character is SCARY, but she was OF AGE. and leo knew this. The drawing’s below are glitchey/Leos artwork. As you can see THEIR IS SUGGESTIVE ART OF THEM BOTH. THEY ARE ADULTS. SHES AN ADULT.

Onto the “pedophilic jokes” these are quiet obviously jokes, but for a stranger who doesn’t know me at all this is fucking weird and i agree. i was a victim of Grooming and S/A so i use those jokes to cope. was it appropriate? No. but I genuinely have no ill intent or malice intent behind these jokes.

due to the lack of screenshots you can take it as you please, but im trying to clear my name because this is ridiculous. anyways i hope you all have a good day 🫶

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I just wanted to add on art of my other sonas cus I love them <//3

1. Sinnamon! Spider lady, possible psychopath..

ft. Dr. N , her silly right hand<3

2. Aspen! Alien boyo, absolute nerd!!

3. Vega! An absolute nervous wreck. Please, give them a hug <//3

4. Oaklynn! Goofy ass cow boy(🏳️‍⚧️), also a ball of energy. Bro bounces off walls istg

5. Minx!! My fursonaa!! 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 lil' shit LMAO

6. LimeStone! She's pretty, but she does got trauma. Same as Vega tbh, PLS HUG HER..

7. SpiderBunn! Pretty self explanatory..Just me/Spec, but spidersona. (design may change)

There are more, but I've not finished art of them yet— so I will update this once I finish!!

Your persona is literally just Mel in a different font, ofc you would wanna defend her since you want to seem like what she doing isn't wrong

My sona is Mel in a different font? Really??? Are you suuree?? Let's see, my sonas first design made in 2022, early 2023:

This was a gift for my bf, also the first ever drawing of his sona.

My sona usually bright colors and a scene, neon goth, clowncore, type aesthetic. I made my sona wayy before even know who Mel was/is. So you saying that Spec is just Mel's sona in a different font is frankly just...not true.

I have more drawings/doodles as proof that I made Spec before knowing Mel, but those are all traditional art, of which all my previous sketchbooks are put away and I am not bout to pull them out to prove a point that's not relevant...

but, if I must:

this doodle was created roughly 2-3 days after the previous drawing you've seen; and should I also mention that Spec was originally a male? As at the time, I was TRANSMASC.

I doodled this silly fucker and fell in love, making constant doodles of them, then eventually go on to join Mel's server (not be very active) and create this next drawing (and many doodles afterwards). Officially debuting Spec, the bunny with big ass ears.

To which, yes, some people would begin making comparisons of my sona to Mel's, but I didn't care(and still fucking dont) because I know in my heart that Spec is my own original design! Do I see the similarities? Yes— but again, I do not care. It's pure coincidence and it's honestly just 2 people having same aesthetics. So awful, right? 💀

OMG I should also mention that: SPEC IS NOT MY ONLY SONA. I HAVE...6 OTHERS?? honestly only sona I'd say took A LOT of inspo off of Mel's is LIMESTONE. my goatasus oc/sona:

I have 4 sonas of mine have the same aesthetic, but imo only one (Limestone) took direct inspiration from Mel's..💀. The other 3 are simply just other versions of Spec herself!

As for the rest of this ask, I will ignore it for now. I've stood my place enough. You all know where I stand. I have no need to reply to this type of comment anymore.

[specdrawz]

gay boyfs!!

guy with horns - Zorro

human guy - Robert

No matter what universe, Zorros mouth will taste like peppermint!

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Helloo I'm Lance, a friend of Mel :)

Ngl I'm at the point that this drama is all so fuckin' stupid that I'm decidin' to go "fuck it" and block all the opps on here (although with how much they weirdly stalk, they'll prolly see my posts anyways) but yeah hi👍👍I won't be answering asks that are just blatant hate/harassment or ignorant shit, only genuine questions.

Also anon asks are off so uhh I can see if who's sayin' ts LOL

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thankkkss for the rebllooggss ♡♡

ur being groomed by quartelz btw

I'M ABSOLUTELY DEAD

WE. DONT. TALK. 24. 7. WHEN WE DO, I DM FIRST. WHEN WE DONT, THE WORLD KEEPS FUCKING TURNING.

MEL IS NOT GROOMING ME. HOW CAN THEY GROOM ME WHEN WE DO NOT TALK?!

THATS THE LAST TIME WE HAD A CONVERSATION, THE LAST MESSAGE I SENT WAS ON THE 24TH BECAUSE I WAS ASKING FOR HELP WITH AAARRRRTTTT!!!!! they didn't reply to my message, but as I told another friend, I DONT CARE IF I GET A RESPONSE OR NOT.

Yall I'm not this like...clingy, paranoid, fangirl....

Mel n I basically never talk. So please, explain to me on how Mel could be GROOMING me?

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Genuinely tho, my bestie of 5 years is 18 and we talk almost daily, we know each other IN REAL LIFE. WE MET IN THE 7TH GRADE.

IS MY BEST FRIEND OF 5 YEARS GROOMING ME ??? HUH??

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ur being groomed by quartelz btw

I'M ABSOLUTELY DEAD

WE. DONT. TALK. 24. 7. WHEN WE DO, I DM FIRST. WHEN WE DONT, THE WORLD KEEPS FUCKING TURNING.

MEL IS NOT GROOMING ME. HOW CAN THEY GROOM ME WHEN WE DO NOT TALK?!

THATS THE LAST TIME WE HAD A CONVERSATION, THE LAST MESSAGE I SENT WAS ON THE 24TH BECAUSE I WAS ASKING FOR HELP WITH AAARRRRTTTT!!!!! they didn't reply to my message, but as I told another friend, I DONT CARE IF I GET A RESPONSE OR NOT.

Yall I'm not this like...clingy, paranoid, fangirl....

Mel n I basically never talk. So please, explain to me on how Mel could be GROOMING me?

[specdrawz]

GRHANDJNA?? GO BESTIE GOOO

I’M DOING INBOX TRICK OR TREATING RAAAGH SEND IN THE ASKS >:3

[specdrawz]

Halloween 2024!

This isn't anything related to what I'm being for Halloween, but I do imagine this is what Spec would go as ♡

Literally doodled this at school...help? lol?

I also do imagine that moon symbol on her forehead resembles her sanity or somthin, so normally it'd be where the circle is more above, and it's colored yellow. When sad, it turns upside down and inverts it's color; like so:

(these drawings were mostly just tests-- I am fine LMAO)

maybe this Halloween doodle is her at her limits?, mayybee more with anger ...or just full on insanity. idk, just fun thoughts

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Asks are back up!

Heyy chat..so I've been getting asks almost back to back, and I am too exhausted to keep answering them. So, I'll be turning them off until tomorrow.