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back at it again screaming into the void

It's late at night. My friends have been very busy so I won't want to vent to them

But God my hips hurt. Laying down hurts a bunch, I don't even know why. I didn't do anything to them... Anyway knowing why they hurt wouldn't stop them hurting so that dosnt really matter. I would like to sleep but it's very distracting.

I feel very ungrateful complying when others have it so much worse but their pain dosnt make mine less. That would be pretty grim if other people feeling more pain let me be painfree

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I'm sorry it's fuzzy, night mode is slow and he would not stay still

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well I forgot to come back and say this but not really worth. The ending idea is fine, but they did no wrap up. The show intros a bunch of new information that has no bearing on anything 🦑. it's ashame we keep getting writers set up narratives with out figuring out how to resolve them first, it just results in slapping a different narrative over the top and scrambling to give a somewhat cohesive wrap up.

About time I watch the new season of umbrella!

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I'm really enjoying that with the 25th anniversary we are getting the 24 hour live stream, wish I knew more people to force to watch this with me

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Ugh same 😭

It's a really good show.

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About time I watch the new season of umbrella!

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i made short bread last night, cookies used to be cheep so it was less money to just buy them but now, they cost so much that buying the butter is cheeper.

But besides the insane cost of living cookies was fun

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Zen | He/Him | Eladrin | Rogue

Picrew is great for dnd avatars

What will Zendon Walrerh discover in drakenheim

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I've been kinda ok recently! It still takes all my energy to be functional and I'm terrified of the backslide but it's something. I've been making so much soup!!

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wild Op Shop find

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Not sure if the kiwis can take anything serious

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These would be perfect for haven and hell shots

my evil chalice came in but its so fucking small. goddamnit. they're going to make fun of me at the wizards circle tonight

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My ears have been ringing worse than normal the last few days, when I move my eyes the noise pulses- my vision feels laggy and I'm much more hungry than normal and yet my mind finally feels clear. I don't understand why I feel this way and the doctor won't return my calls

Am I more human at the moment? I feel so much closer to being able to work than I have in months but my own perception of the world feels like a lie

I've been on deaths door for weeks but the problem with getting better is everything feels worse- my mind is far more functional but I have less access to my body

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ok so this app 'boo' for finding friends or dates

Well I would like some new people to game with

So foolishly I made a "looking for friends" account with a photo and a message that I'm sick and want gaming buddies

Well apparently friends means looking for partner and dating meaning wanting a F*** buddy cus legit 3 girls and hundreds of due requests and if they aren't twice my age and nothing in common I gave them a chance right

Surly not all men suck...

Well apparently it's well above 90% do cus god dam no one knows how to say hi with out using a pick up lines or following up with a photo request 😭

I feel so mean hitting them right back with "not interested" but dude I've even added my bio that I don't want a partner, taken down my nice photos so now you just see my cat and still request after requst trying their luck

Is it really that hard to see another human and keep your dick in your pants!

I don't know why I thought I could try and connect with people 😕

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Cordelia x Loggin

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown

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my head hurts and I don't feel like I can breath right. Telling someone would be more effective than yelling into the void but why? Won't stop pain either way