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Finished my first shawl! It's a little wonky but I'm pretty proud of it.

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I remember seeing an Instagram reel of a woman with a high support needs child (and filming your children and posting them publicly is a whole other conversation) but she was talking about a terrible comment she got on a video of her high support child that had THOUSANDS of likes. It said something to the effect of "Whats the point of keeping something like that alive?"

People are not more accepting of severely disabled people. More people than you think don't see a point in keeping severely disabled people cared for. There's an article about a family member close to Trump that said trump told his own family to basically just let their child die and then move to Florida. (X)

My daughter is high support and I get people saying the most out of pocket stuff to me about her all the time. I was told if I couldn't keep her quiet (bc of stimming/meltdowns) that I should just keep her home. Isolate her.

Severely disabled people are not more believed. Are not more cared for. Are not more validated. I'm low support. And people hate me just as much as they hate my daughter. Ableism does not care what level of disabled you are. We can't be throwing high support/severely disabled people under the bus in an attempt to elevate ourselves. We can't use ableist talking points in our self advocacy.

Society's "collective view" of disability is NOT A POSITIVE ONE. I don't get why you'd want to shift the general view society has of disability to encompass you because right now it is not good. There is more information out there classifying disability as something to cure (like I'm high support autism) or as something that's a "drain" on people's taxes.

When I was first applying for disability, a doctor I was seeing for my knee surgery asked me what I did for work. When I told him I was applying for disability, he said, "I don't want to have to pay for that." He said that to my face. In front of my sister and my mom. I reported him to the hospital, and I changed surgeons, but he still has a job. He still treats people. The image society as a whole holds in their minds of disability is not one you should covet. Being considered disabled by society will not save you. It will not make your life easier.

the way that some non-severely disabled people, talk about severely disabled people is very odd.

there are ways to talk about how wide of a spectrum disability is and how not every disability is visible, terminal, severe etc. without bringing down severely disabled people.

i saw a comment that said "not every disabled person is a bedbound, paralyzed vegetable that can't be independent or do anything for themselves" and it kinda rubbed me the wrong way. i think it's very odd to jump to wording like that to disprove the idea that all disability looks like being bedbound, paralyzed, etc.

there are much better ways to get the same point across without being rude and ableist towards severely disabled people.

its not an isolated account either, i get and see lots of these types of comments/remarks from less severely disabled people and it gets increasingly frustrating every time and i'm not sure people realize that.

no, not every disabled person is bedbound or paralyzed or can't be independent, but jumping to calling severely disabled people vegetables and useless, amongst other things isn't a good look either.

additionally, at the beginning of the specific comment it said "society's collective idea of what a "real" disability is ..." , I think its important to add that we as severely disabled people are not inherently taken more seriously or treated with more care and validation than non-severely disabled people.

neglect and medical malpractice is rampant within high support needs communities and severely disabled care. also, i as well as many other severely disabled people i know have gotten repeatedly fake-claimed while being visibly and severely disabled. so to make a generalized statement about an experience that you do not have comes off as very odd.

i am not at all saying that people with invisible and less severe disabilities aren't treated poorly by society and the healthcare system, i know they do and i'm genuinely sorry that that happens, i wish it was different. however, when talking about your validity of being disabled, please keep your rude, ignorant, ableist comments about severely disabled people to yourselves.

please talk about your experiences with being disabled and keep raising awareness for your part of the spectrum, it is a very important conversation to have and i 100% support that. but also be mindful of the language you use and possibly ableist statements that you might be making in the process.

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YALLSTARION

I've seen too much edits of yallstarion... yes.

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still think about my nintendogs they're probably so dirty.........

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being trans in 2024 sucks I miss being trans in 2014 (flashback to Leelah Alcorn’s suicide being the #1 thing all over tumblr) (I also wanted to die all the time) (I was also in high school) (everything felt just as uncertain for some reason) nevermind actually

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the way that ableist anti-intellectuals will flatten any brain disorder or syndrome or phenomena to just “brain damage” is so harmful and so annoying but literally none of them will listen to you and will scream cry that you’re being ableist for daring to imply that brain areas, scar tissue, ventricles, blood vessels, and other measurable brain biology exist at all. we should really be teaching at least basic neuroscience in high school.

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If you liked doing this check out the Color Puzzle app. I have it on android. The tile looks like this.

I love this game. Ads are a little cumbersome after every game but I love it. Really scratches that sorting itch.

How well do you see color?

I’m cry I scored 60, I feel blind

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Idc if this is a joke or not but this shit makes me

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I still am not a fan of generative ai in the way tech Bros are wanting it to be used but I don't think it's as terrible as some people make it out to be. In that companies that do use generative ai get dogged for it constantly and lose a lot of credibility.

I remember some alternative clothing brand decided to use generated models for their clothes and they were fighting for their lives on multiple Facebook posts to defend it. Claiming at one point they didn't have the money for models which immediately made people ask if they had money for quality construction and high quality materials. So they had to admit that their clothes were not great quality in order to defend the "too poor for models" issue or say that their clothes were high quality and desirable and they were just cheaping out.

Most generative ai stuff you see that's out of this world still has "artifacts" and issues. The iterative capability is just not there for big things like videos and long-form writing. Those generated videos you've seen take a ton of processing power that most people just don't have at home. And the long-form (novel length) writing stuff is very obvious without a lot of extraneous editing and polish. And even then, it's disjointed.

I do think there are arguments to be made about human labor being used to power something else without credit or payment but that's just the fact for a lot of stuff people have enjoyed before generative ai. If you buy dropship stuff or fast fashion (which includes things from most stores you've bought from irl) chances are that you've bought something that was made by someone else for pennies. The industry bringing us Bananas and avocados etc has a big impact on the environment. Your phone and your computer and any electronics are using batteries with mined minerals collected with slave labor.

I feel like sometimes people get more upset about ai because it feels like it's effecting you personally more directly than other terrible things are. People talk about how artists and writers lose possible work, and that is true on a small scale, but that's not new. It feels closer to you because you are an artist or know one that maybe has the skill for something like a book cover or a music video and then you see generative ai and its like happening in front of you.

But when you bring up fast fashion (like shein) people jump down your throat about it. Suddenly everyone is too poor to not buy a 7 dollar crocheted sweater. Suddenly it's a human right to be fashionable. Because the distance between you and the damage that industry causes is much bigger.

This is not pro generative ai by any means but it's less pitchfork and stake burning than some people are because I see generative ai as yet another thing that people use that causes harm. It's not special. It's not a unique evil.

Even if you ignore "third world" tragedy (which so many do), the things you enjoy from inside the US (that are assembled or made or cooked here) are also products that exploit those who make them. The person making your coffee is not making a living wage. The girl at the checkout at target gets 39 hours a week so they don't have to give her health insurance. The walmart you get your grocery pickup from uses prison labor.

I guess I'm saying that people's principles aren't consistent. And with the way the economy is, they literally can't be. The solution to that isn't picking and choosing what to bully other people online for. Grand scheme of things, generative ai is just as likely to become something that can't be sustained. Chat gpt runs at a loss right now. People already don't want to pay for more ethical clothes, they aren't going to pay for a sort of mediocre generative service. At least not at a click high enough to cover cost.

People are trying to squeeze all the blood from this that they can before it turns to stone. And it'll cause harm while its big. But so does everything else. The change you want to see is not going to come from arguing with people using it for fun. It's exhausting you and making you miserable.

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shout out to the people whose illness caused them to lose their hair

shout out to the people whose medications caused them to lose their hair

shout out to the people whose hair is completely gone

shout out to the people who have bald patches

shout out to the people whose hair is thin

shout out to the people who choose to cover and hide their hair loss

shout out to the people who embrace their hair loss

you all deserve the world

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Every year I try to celebrate my birthday in normal circumstances, but this year is different... Today I complete 15 years of life, but a life filled with killing, destruction, hunger, and loss and sick . This year was the hardest, I lost everything... my dreams, my hopes, and even my sense of security.

I appeal to you today, not only for myself, but for my family and everyone suffering in Gaza. We are now at 19,070 euros, and we only need to cross the 20,000 barrier tonight. I know that there are those who could help but did not, and I say to them: mercy is not just a feeling; it is an action.

Help me to live, donate and be the reason for changing our lives for the better.

@punkitt-is-here @tamamita @skunkes @omegaversereloaded @serial-unaliver @komsomolka @sawasawako @joshpeck @teaboot @prisonhannibal @halorvic @caats @only-cat-memes @ot3 @batmanisagatewaydrug @serial-unaliver @wolfertinger666 @anneemay @afro-elf @annabelle--cane @taffybuns @bevsi

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“What transness and especially a pre-transition dysphoria actually feels like, to me at least, is much more internal and intangible. The language that I use to try to talk about it is language that I'm borrowing from the surrealism of David Lynch — the dreamlike nature of his films — or the body horror of David Cronenberg.” — JANE SCHOENBRUN, I Saw the TV Glow writer/director (x)

@lgbtqcreators​ creator meme (v2): [1/3] free choice

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I Saw the TV Glow (2024) dir. Jane Schoenbrun

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can't stop thinking about this movie tbh..

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oh yeah i found out recently its diabetes awareness month so ummm. heres a reminder that type 2 diabetes is actually MORE determined by genetics than type 1 and if youve ever made a diabetes joke or talked about it like it's just the stupid fat person disease you owe me $50. disabling lifelong diseases arent funny and they arent any indication of someone's morals and also getting a disease is never anyone's "fault"