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Wish my dreams could stop dead naming me

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I never get to sleep anymore. I'm going nuts. Low sleep makes all of my hallucinations worse. Makes me so forgetful and angry. And I don't have any choice. This is just my life now. Nothing good ever happens

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me when I'm manic: I don't think I'm aroace, actually. I think I'm bi. I also think I'm poly. I'm in love with 11 people all at the same time

me when I'm depressed: I literally cannot imagine romance or sex with anyone. I can barely imagine friendship. I want to die alone in a hole

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if you think addiction/substance abuse disorder or any other form of psychiatric disability is a moral failure or a choice get da hell off my blog

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I hate to make another post like this but it’s the 1st day of disability pride month and I could really use a bit of help so I can afford my meds, food, and electric and phone bill 🖤 heres some pictures that explain part of what is wrong with me:

I am also bipolar I and take lots of antipsychotics to function. absolutely no pressure to donate if you are struggling too, here are my URLs:

I have PayPal too but it has my birth name on it so I would prefer to DM it to people 🖤✨ thank you all so much

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90% of age gaps don’t matter when you’re a grown adult as long as you don’t have a repeated pattern of dating people barely legal. I would date someone 30 years older than me if I liked them who gaf

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Idk if any of my mutuals have ever had/has a GI tube but if you have and you're comfortable doing so, I'd really appreciate your perspective on the pain around surgery or how it felt/if you could feel a change in your body with it.

My daughter was diagnosed with arfid and her pediatrician is concerned about malnutrition so we're being referred out to discus tube placement and id like to hear from people who've had them about their experiences so I can talk to her about possibilities and understand in part any way she may feel.

Especially if you're autistic and have/had one.

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The Hunger Games has the FUNNIEST arranged marriage of all time btw. Katniss realizes she'll have to marry Peeta and she's obviously upset so Haymitch tries to comfort her by saying "you could do a lot worse" and Katniss is like "well DUH of course I could do worse than Peeta he's the best & handsomest person on the face of the planet but that's not the POINT I want to be able to choose for MYSELF". Then she goes and chooses Peeta anyway lol. Comedy gold I tell you

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bro i LOVE indigenous fusion music i love it when indigenous people take traditional practices and language and apply them in new cool ways i love the slow decay and decolonisation of the modern music industry

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Continually pissed off by skinny people who like to bring up anecdotal pieces about getting bullied for being too skinny or having insecurities about being skinny in conversations about fatphobia. Is having insecurities tough? Yes. Is being bullied bad? Yes. Is it in any way the same as being systematically harmed by society and the medical complex based on your weight? No.

Why are these points never ever brought up on their own? Why do I only ever hear about "skinny oppression" in conversations about fatness, fatphobia, or when people post "body checks" where they can flaunt how tiny they are while talking about how they look like other conventionally attractive people?

It's exhausting. And everyone seems hellbent on providing that space and acting like it's good faith. Its not! Coming into a space where fat people talk about their bodies or fatphobia to whine about how hard being skinny is pisses me off. Posting about how insecure you are but thank God you look like Audrey Hepburn is so ridiculous to me. What is that supposed to say? Famous thin actresses are like THE standard. What is happening???

And I know. People do it for clicks and discourse and engagement and I hate it! I hate that people can farm clicks to funnel people to their link tree and Amazon storefronts to make money off of other people's struggles. But I'm just so tired of seeing how fat people's struggle manipulated and twisted around so some asshole can make a few bucks every time someone uses their link to buy cheap trash off of fucking Amazon.

And yes. I block and I filter and I roll my eyes and click away but jfc it's fucking everywhere I hate it I hate it I hate it

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Okay, so something people don't often realize about cooking gluten free for people when you yourself don't need it: get all new bags of things like sugar and jars of peanut butter because you may have gotten flour dust in it or dipped a flour covered measuring cup, or a knife with near invisible crumbs on it and you don't want to cross contaminate and hurt your friends! Celiac especially, it's like... parts per million can cause permanent damage and harm people so be VERY careful.

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Was so tired this morning that I tried turning the vibration of my phone off half awake and for some reason just turned the wifi off instead?

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Its surreal to see people talking about billionaire hunger games as a punishment when Collins made it pretty clear how she feels about repeating cycles

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My daughter has been sick/had issues for over a year and now we're dealing with cycles of fevers and she's so tired all of the time. Really hoping her doctor listens to and addresses my concerns today at her appointment. She's had high ketones and protein and high Whole blood cell count in her urine for both er visits she's had in the last month. I'm worried she's malnutritioned because her eating habits aren't varied enough and the only reason she's not losing weight is that I spend my whole day reminding her to eat and stocking up on the 5 safe foods she loves.

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Why do people act like you need to age out of joy and whimsy? You can get shit done and have fun. Just look at Yzma

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queer people on this site really make me feel like a confused straight guy at pride. the discourse here could kill a man

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there's an extremely niche plot in romance fiction wherein our invariably heterosexual leads fall in love after a night of passion leads to an unplanned pregnancy and they're now bound together by an impending child. I cast no judgment on anyone who enjoys this, but since I'm an evil gay and this is my personal nightmare scenario I want to see a zany romance novel premised on the opposite resolution: a couple falls in love while on a whirlwind roadtrip to obtain a legal abortion