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and while im calling out my own shit

stop trying to be mature. i dont know who ur doing that for or why. just fucking be a child for once

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i keep forgetting what i made this blog for

to talk and post or whatever with no shame. no judgement from anyone not even myself. finally be myself because for so long ive been trying to conform to people and elicit a certain reaction or reply. this is solely for me 

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literally what i was looking for a month ago while i was reading lore olympus 

Hellenic Pronunciation for the Gods

It is likely, like me, you grew up without an education in Classical (or Modern for that matter) Greek. You might have read “Hecate” and read it as “Heh-KATE” or, at best, “Heh-kuh-TEE” (a habit which I fear I might take to the grave). So hopefully you will also find this selection of pronunciation from HellenicGods.org interesting. I recommend reading their full article. In particular was the use of the diphthongs - where the tip of the tongue meets and presses flat against the roof of the mouth right behind the teeth before releasing. It makes a sound that is something between a D and a Th. This is common in Indian languages, like Punjabi, where I became familiar with it.

Ækáti - (Hecate or Hekate; Gr. Ἑκάτη, ΕΚΑΤΗ) Pronounced: æ-KAH-tee. or eh-KAH-tee.

Ærmís (Hermes; Gr. Ἑρμῆς, ΕΡΜΗΣ) Pronounced: ayr-MEES, the ‘H’ is silent; the ‘R’ is rolled slightly such that it almost sounds like the name has three syllables.

Æstía (Hestia; Gr. Ἑστία, ΕΣΤΙΑ) Pronounced: æs-TEE-ah.

Aphrodíti (Aphrodite; Gr. Ἀφροδίτη, ΑΦΡΟΔΙΤΗ) Pronunciation: ah-froh-DEE-tee, roll the ‘r’ slightly; the d (dǽlta) is pronounced like the soft th in this, not like the hard th in theory

Apóllohn - (Apollo; Gr. Ἀπόλλων, ΑΠΟΛΛΩΝ) Pronounced ah-POH-lohn.

Áris - (Ares; Gr. Άρης, ΑΡΗΣ) Pronunciation: AH-rees 

Ártæmis (Artemis; Gr. Ἄρτεμις, ΑΡΤΕΜΙΣ) Pronunciation: AHR-tay-mees 

Athiná (Athena; Gr. Ἀθηνᾶ, ΑΘΗΝΑ) Pronunciation: ah-thee-NAH, the accent on the final syllable, or not accenting any syllable.

Daimohn (Gr. δαίμων, ΔΑΙΜΩΝ) Pronounced: DAY-mohn, the D sounding like the th in thee (not like the th in thesis).

Dimítir (Demeter or Demetra; Gr. Δημήτηρ, ΔΗΜΗΤΗΡ) When enunciating the name Dimítir, the D (delta) is pronounced like the soft th in this, not like the hard th in theory: dee-MEE-teer, with the accent on the second syllable.

Diónysos - (Dionysus; Gr. Διόνυσος, ΔΙΟΝΥΣΟΣ) The D in Diónysos is pronounced like the th in thee (not like the th in thesis). Pronounced: dee-OH-nee-sohs.

Ílios - (Helios; Gr. Ἥλιος, ΗΛΙΟΣ) Pronounced: EE-lee-ohs.

Íphaistos (Hephaestus; Gr. Ἥφαιστος, ΗΦΑΙΣΤΟΣ) Pronounced: EE-fays-tohs, with the accent on the first syllable; there is no ‘H.’

Íra (Hera; Gr. Ήρα, ΗΡΑ) Pronounced: EE-rah.  The ‘H’ (Íta [Eta; Gr. ἦτα]) at the beginning of the name of the Goddess is a vowel.

Nyx (Gr. Νύξ, ΝΥΞ) Pronounced: neeks.

Orphéfs (Orpheus; Gr. Ὀρφεύς, ΟΡΦΕΥΣ) Pronounced: ohr-FEFS

Pærsæphóni - (Persephone; Gr. Περσεφόνη, ΠΕΡΣΕΦΟΝΗ) Pronounced: payr-say-FOH-nee.

Poseidóhn  - (Poseidon; Gr. Ποσειδῶν, ΠΟΣΕΙΔΩΝ) Pronounced: poh-see-DOHN, accent on the last syllable; the d (delta) at the beginning of the last syllable is pronounced like a soft th as in this, not like the th in theory. 

Rǽa - (Rhea; Gr. Ῥέα, ΡΕΑ) Pronounced: RAY-ah, rolling the R just slightly.

Titánæs (Titans; Gr. Τιτᾶνες, ΤΙΤΑΝΕΣ) Pronounced: tee-TAH-nays or tee-TAH-nehs.

Yaia - (Gaia; Gr. Γαῖα, ΓΑΙΑ. Pronounced: YÆ-ah.

Zefs (Zeus; Gr.  Ζεύς, ΖΕΥΣ) Pronounced: zĕfs; the diphthong εύ is pronounced like the ef in left.

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Brené Brown, Daring Greatly

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hows about that weather

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i never let myself unpack my feelings like this

so thats my j ustification and theres just so much to unpack here hahahahahhahahahahahhaha wow wow?? can i not change the goddamn font or size sht its like im yeling at my self when i post it loollolol

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wow

theres a lot to unpack rn lololol ok too much to write down so im just gonna go here because my keyboard is cool as fuck and omg maybe this setting isnt the smartest for right now hahahahhaha ok thats better lol

when i look at myself its like im looking at someone else i dont feel like the person im looking at yeah du mbass u sjust said that lol

theres a lot of ways i can interpret this and it all really leads to one conclusion i think? nbut im gonna write down how i feel about all of htem

- all of a sudden i cant remmbeb,ber shit about shit lol

- my brain is trying to relive the younger parts of me. im 18 physically but my mimnd wants to relive the 16 year old because i never felt the                    (i cant even describe it because i didnt fducking DO IT Lol ) but i shouldve enjoyed my younger years. basically. i didnt feel the rush of a party or a first kiss or feel the physical feeling of a million different colored strobe lights inside my veins) and i desp arately my boxdy li terally needs that feeling. and now i feel like tat younger version of myself looking up at 18 year old me. i dont hate her but its like hey! i did all this fun shit and i can do the  older people shit too andstill look like a bad bitch LOL

- i forgot the other interpreta tions ohhhhh that  im just . im not the body i am in but the person inside it yaknow lol type shit ok im tired dont feel like writing anymore bye 

-e. 7.21.2020 2:26am

is that how i did the other post idk

this shit is fun af btw

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i don’t really know how to use this website

here to be alone with my thoughts without judgement but for some reason i feel the need to put it somewhere. i usually journal but sometimes im too lazy to pick up a pencil and put something down so maybe this will be a little easier. ill leave my notebooks to the real breakdowns that i dont want anybody to see. hello

-e. 7.18.2020 11:54 am

we’ll see how long i keep up with this lol