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We’re friends it hung loosely in the air. Because let’s be honest all of us in the intelligence unit were friends. We spent a lot of time together through the years. We counted on the other. But Jay wasn’t sitting there developing feelings for anyone but his partner; the last person he intended to fall for. And no he wasn’t saying a word to her face because Adam was the past. He understood getting caught up in the moment. 

But anyone who had a brain cell knew Adam was holding a torch for Kim, and I did kinda feel bad for Bailey now but considering she was holding him as a place holder for who she deeply wanted to be with Jay thought he could let it slide for now. He wasn’t going to sit here feeling wounded and holding grudges, she dated Adam, she hooked up with him. But I was who she said I love you to, now. A softened glaze found its way along his features now, as he held her hand in his grasp. “ That’s true, but I also know it probably wasn’t healthy of us to not say anything, I don’t want to hide from you.” An honest truth that was now listed in a whisper as my eyes met hers. 

I was letting it go; because it was us now; Hailey and myself; and I wanted to embrace it; I didn’t want to hide behind closed doors; she had a history and so did I so therefore what the hell? Leaning into her; I brought her palm to my lips to press a kiss to her palm as I uttered the words “ You mean a great deal to me too.” More than the blonde knew; I was nuts about her; but now we had to figure us out; new territory; for our partnership. A bond that felt unbreakable.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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The last thing Jay was trying to do was put guilt on Hailey; or to phrase it poorly. But it was what it was; She used Adam and Adam used her; but i also wasn’t present in their relationship which meant I couldn’t begin to understand the bond they had. I was just saying the words that slipped from my mouth. Was it jealousy? Probably but I also just tended to say the obvious. Jay was sat back against the comfort of his couch now; as he eyed Hailey with that cute sheepish grin of his. “ It may have started poorly, but you cared about him. I’m not judging.” I wanted to be clear; I wasn’t judging her for intentions; for being with Adam; he was a friend. A great guy. Jay just had his own demons to play with now. 

But he fell for Hailey independently, when he didn’t see it; until it was roped right in front of him. I didn’t need to hear the details; I appreciated the fact the blonde wanted to share it with me, wanted to be honest. But I also didn’t need the details of it. They fooled around, they slept together were involved we all got the hint. And I tried my hardest now to keep my features neutral, to ensure I was listening and not word vomiting in my mouth. I understood not wanting to ruin the friendship the partnership and at the end of the day our bond was important. As my fingers continued to trace along her knuckles soothingly as if a tenderness to it. “ I understand.” Because what could Jay say right now? He was jealous; but he also understood not wanting to ruin that bond that felt important to you. 

I wanted to move forward; I was going to heal and Hailey and I could leap into the love we admitted to sharing. “ We didn’t want to lose the important part of our lives.” It made sense to me; Jay slowly moved our connected hands onto his chest where his heart was; his eyes staring into her own. “ My heart feels the same.” I wanted Hailey to hold that reassurance she wasn’t on her own; our bond was the same; I was opening myself to her now; we felt on the same page; it was only us now.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay could easily blame the heartful confessions on the injury. On the pain meds he was given to help with his recovery. Did he intend on letting it loose how he felt when he witnessed Hailey and Adam together the small whispers, the sneaking behind a closed door to have a word. Or the nights after a hard case all Jay wanted was to sit at the bar with her, to vent about the case the victims or the killer behind the incidents how it rocked him to have a drink with her. And her excuse that stung was letting him down easy. That she was going to grab a drink with Adam; a beer at the bar was our thing. It did feel like I was getting tossed aside; and I knew I had no right to feel jealousy, Hailey was my partner. She was my confide, but it stung and I believe that’s when I started to feel more for Hailey. 

But the threat of ruining our partnership or friendship I knew it was in my best interest, and hers to push it all the way down. By now Jay had leaned back against the couch with his hand dropping to her wrist to sooth over small movements over her wrist. She dated Adam because of me? An amusement grin played over his lips as he parted his lips to speak until he waited noting that the blonde wanted to explain. The case I got in over my head; too deep another repeat of injuries fired off in my head. And I nodded slowly understanding. I wasn’t judging, we all knew Adam he was harboring love for Kim despite the years that passed since the split. But I saw the admiring in his eyes when he glanced at Hailey; she may have used him but he did like her to an extent but I decided I didn’t need to rub salt on a possible wound. I understood being with someone in order to get over a girl you couldn’t find. You felt was untouchable. I understood. My fingers stopped the movement on her wrist in order to allow my fingers to move to her palm to grasp hold of her hand. 

“ In other words you used him, because you felt I wouldn’t like you? I know I’m tough around the edges Hails.. But I think if I had known it wasn’t off the table for us, we could’ve avoided wasting time..” Our job was hard demanding, injuries ensured; we could drop dead together; point was Jay found Hailey attractive, she understood his flaws his morals and it felt like using other people was a waste for our line of work. A soft smile ran over his lips as he glazed at her; as if she was all he could look at.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Love was a crazy thing; it leaps up at you unexpectedly. It makes you crazy, it makes your heart pound, and let’s be honest i’m surprised the monitors at the hospital didn’t pick up on my attraction to Hailey because when she touched my hand I felt the pick up of my racing chest, the prickles of goosebumps that formed on my skin. But I was never prepared to say the words, I had the gears turning in my head that if Hailey didn’t feel the same way; our friendship our partnership would’ve been tainted. Jay was terrified of saying the words. The last person he felt in love with was Erin and she left him in the dust not even worth a goodbye. So yeah Jay had that reminder in his head. But the second he felt like he got on the blonde’s nerves, the second he felt she might actually leave him to tend to his own wounds, he blurted it out; because he was scared, but he meant it. He loves Hailey; and man to hear her say the words back instantly that fool of a lopsided grin hit his lips. He noted her eyes, and that’s why his fingers moved from the hold on her cheek to gently wiping with the back of his thumb the slight hint of tears that may threaten to fall. And he leaned forward and pressed a gentle kiss to her lips as a way of reassuring Hailey he was here. 

He was shot, he was wounded, the accident happened that scared her; that promoted this portion of an us, she was my best friend the only one who could handle a grumpy Jay, and to be honest he had no idea when it happened; when his guard had fallen down. But he was so in love with Hailey; and he felt he had to share some of his own emotions now, Leaning back from the kiss fingers slowly caressing tenderly against her face as he spoke in a whisper. 

“ I don’t know when it happened, Once second I was being broody with you, guards up blazing. He next you’re the only person I want to talk to after a rough call. I can admit I think it started when you were with Adam, when you started ditching our nightcaps to go get a drink with him. I felt jealousy, I wanted to be the one you get a drink with. I can admit that’s when the feelings started..” An honest retort from Jay; even now he felt vulnerable, he felt like we were meant to land here, in the others arms.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay had fallen in love before. He had flirted with Erin a countless number of times, he was an amused person that did fall into the coy flirting nature. And that partnership had hurt him to where he felt he couldn’t repair that damage that was made. He remembered the first time Hailey and himself had been paired up together. Jay didn’t trust another partner so easily; not after Erin had tossed him aside when she found no use for him. And Hailey was a new face, even if he felt such a calmness around her. Hailey had a way of showing up for him when he was being pathetic and stubborn minded. He didn’t trust her until he felt she deemed herself worthy of it. 

And now he couldn’t imagine having another backup. He loved her; he tried to pinpoint when it occurred, when he felt the shift. Was it when she was sleeping around with Adam and he felt that twitch of jealousy? Or was it when push came to shove, our careers felt death upon us countless of times. And he felt like the person he wanted at his side was her. Was it the care behind her eyes? The way her touch sent tingles through his body. Jay told himself he wasn’t going to say the words. He was in love with his partner it almost felt like deja Vu because it had happened before. But this time he was terrified of uttering the words. Of letting the blonde know where his heart was. But at the thought of Hailey leaving him now, her body inches towards the door he folded. He didn’t want anyone else to take care of him. He stubborn a stubborn mull, he was awful when it came to his injuries, and the blonde was able to handle him as a friend? Or someone he loved rather than a caretaker. The second the words left his tongue he froze. He eyed her closely until she turned to face him. The words hung in the air a softness to his expression. “ I do. I love you.” He knew it was too late to take it back not that he wanted to. And when she came closer; he felt that goofy grin of his overcome his lips. He pressed a hand to her cheek tenderly “ You love me too.” He echoed the words lovingly as he brushed a kiss to her lips. 

For the first time.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay Halstead was a simple pain in the ass. He didn’t like the idea of being fussed over. He didn’t want to be tended to. Of course the male was aware of the obvious. He was here because he his brother decided to let him loose. His brother decided to play nice and let him go on a long leash. But Hailey she was his partner; the person he’d turn to in his time of need. The person he’d want to hold him up if needed. 

The only person he’d allow to see himself vulnerable was with her. And yes Jay was an ass at times, and he was one to tell you he didn’t need to be taken care of. But when he said the words I didn’t ask her to stay because I needed you to take care of me. It wasn’t out of malicious, it wasn’t out of harm towards his partner. Our banter was what made him smile each day. The way Hailey argued back at him was what made him fight. He loved her; even at her worse. And right now at the thought of her leaving; of her grabbing her belongings in order to cut him loose it terrified him. Jay wanted Hailey here because he cared; because he loves her. Not to be a doctor towards him. 

But hearing her toughen up retort; he raised his own fear inside of him. He didn’t want to watch her leave, and he raised his eyes up at her own retorts. And he braced himself for the door that might slam next. She was Hailey she had put up with his mood swings. She had cared for him; she helped him into his jacket, she smiled at him which left him breathless, but as he tried to move from his spot. He couldn’t move his shoulder stung like no business. But his eyes watched the dirty blonde closely. “ Hailey, you don’t get it..” I started. We were partners; I thought the blonde would read between the lines. That she would be okay with what I was offering, But as I pulled myself into my own stand. I was wobbly at best; but I felt like Hailey was about to leave and not look back. 

I stood with my hand holding the edge of the armrest of the couch. “ I love you. That’s why I wanted you to stay with me. I care for you, I want you to be the one to tend to me but not be a nurse.” Saying the words aloud it scared me to no end; but hearing the click of the door; I felt like I had no choice but to say the words. I love you; I did, and even if Hailey left; I’d know I was an honest man.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay Halstead was never the guy that tended to ease into being helped. It had always felt like an uphill battle. He was his worse critic. He was the guy that enjoyed doing the saving, as for him being injured, he liked to prefer himself as a grumpy ass. But it was Hailey and she knew how to handle his grumpy ass, which is why he was being kind,  he was allowing her to assist with his jacket, with the food. Not that he didn’t have a winning personality to charm her. But he also only had one arm to move, he doubted he’d be helpful. 

Hailey meant well, she obviously cared about him, our partnership was important to me. Jay didn’t want to make the blonde feel unwanted. If he desired to have any company it was hers. She’s who he’d want aiding in his discomfort. As the male settled down into the softness of cushions, he listened for the movement in the kitchen. A charming grin played at his lips. Noting Hailey knew where he kept the plates, where his extra water bottles were, where his medication cabinet was; the latch on top above the counters. It was as if this was a second home to her. It made his chest swell up. As quickly as she turned his face moved to the TV screen. Her feet approached as he heard her hint of fussing over him, Jay knew when to put his foot down. As the persisting ache in his arm came, he gracefully took the bottle from her hands with a brush of his fingers. And he popped the medication into his mouth with ease. Water opened as he swallowed the liquid that drowned the pills down. “ Thank you.” 

I meant it; I felt the ease of a plate hit my lap, as I dropped the bottle of water down onto the end table, and I picked up his fork to dip into the contents of his food. His expression drawn out as he narrowed his gaze on Hailey. “ Hailey please..” Don’t start fussing over me, Jay didn’t feel like he had to say the words. “ All I need is this game, to eat and you sitting next to me relaxing, I can handle a injuried arm. I didn’t ask you to stay to look over me.” I didn’t wanted her company, and if I needed help I’d ask; and let her play nurse if that’s what Hailey wanted. 

Point was; this wasn’t a nurse visit; I wanted her here with me always.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Our thing; it had. Jay knew the way Hailey and himself trusted each other. He was hesitate at first when she become his partner; only because of the turmoil that Erin left him in when she ghosted him. He had trust issues. He felt like he once had to keep Hailey at arms length. But now he couldn’t imagine doing his everyday life without her. She was a compass in the dark. She was an achor for her; and at the hospital he realized his need to hold her close, to let her aid him in his darkness times. We understood and backed each other up. 

“ My Partner. Always,” A noble nod of his head with a playful wink from his eye. He wasn’t flirting he was simply showing his Jay Halstead charm. He wanted Hailey to know he recognized her. That he appreciated the way she helped lift him up. Especially when he was an annoying pain the ass; after getting shot and injuried. All that to say Jay definitely wasn’t going to be an easy patient. As he stepped down from the car, he knew he was hurting; the persistent ache in his arm, the stiffness on his neck due to the sling he was forced to wear to keep his the slint in place to help heal his shoulder. It was a nice comfort of silence as the pair winded the stars and up to the level where he lived. We had spent countless nights looking over reports, being the ones to glance over the others written reports to ensure each case aligned with the other. Or the normal us just hanging out drinking a beer at the other’s place. It was normal for us to bask in the other’s company. It’s why Jay trusted the blonde to sniff into his pocket and grab hold of his keys. As he watched her with ease; the female had inserted the key into the lock and let the pair inside. Jay was dragging shoes against the floorboards, as he listened for the closing of the door, and lock before he turned to face Hailey knowing her; she was about to aid in his jacket. Jay normally would insist on taking care of himself; but as we know from the hospital he was struggling with the injuried shoulder. Therefore he allowed Hailey to assist with his coat before the coat was hung on the jacket stand. With ease he made his way over to the couch where he slowly plopped himself down. He wasn’t in the mood to fight; to be the one to be grumpy and insist on doing things himself. He glanced over to the blonde in the kitchen, she looked comfortable at ease. As if being in my apartment, roaming my cabinets for plates was normal; made for her. And I had to smile to myself; timing was key; and for right now we worked; as we were. 

Noting the milkshakes in front of him; the male had to laugh. “ I don’t mind if I do indulge in my shake first.” Leaning forward the male grasped hold of his straw and took a sip. “ Just as good as I expected.” He noted as he reached for the remote a baseball game would be on; within minutes the announcers were on roaring about a play. Noting the pain his body was in; he did glance up to Hailey from his view on the couch. " Tylenol please."

Us; as one; comfortable; Jay was lucky to have found that safe place; for an us.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay paid attention. He had spent enough time with Hailey over the years to pick up on her ticks. To pick up on what she did when she felt no one was looking, the case files, the way her eyes were glued to each word; it’s what made Hailey a good detective. Jay also just had the tenacity to keep his eyes on her when she was peering down on the paperwork. We had a system we either wrote down the notes together; or whoever solved the case was the one who signed off on it. Jay liked Haily; he may not of had a clear head of how deeply he cared or the fact he was absolutely in love with her, until today. 

But he paid attention, that charming smile of his worn down across his lips. He noticed the way she smiled, it made her eyes light up, as I dared one last glance in her direction. “ I also just know you Hailey, just like I know you absolutely have picked up on my own things I do when I feel no one is paying attention. “ It was you and me, it’s how I wanted it to be. But that fear of hurting our partnership was in my mind; it was enough to force me to freeze each time I thought of saying the words; those three words that inched onto my tongue. Eyes moved to the glass window as I rested my head against the window; knowing each movement; the turns your car made; I wasn’t surprised when the vehicle inched into a parking spot. Eyes shifted noting the dark building. I with ease moved in my seat as my good arm was able to click the seatbelt loose as I was preparing to leave the car. I also knew the blonde, I was able to offer a smile as she inched towards my door. She wasn't being overbearing wanting to help me, because I could be grumpy when I wanted to be. 

“ Better you than Will.” Although I trusted Hailey with my life, I slowly stepped down to the pavement with a small groan as the shift of my wounded shoulder the slight ache that formed. Jay led the way to the lobby of his building, the quietness as we took the small flight of stairs upstairs until we reached my door, “ Can you?” I asked as I shifted my jacket pocket where the set of keys for the door were; if i attempted to move I knew I’d whine and Jay was not going to show weakness not in this moment; not wanting to worry Hailey with his state.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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It made a swarm of butterflies form in the pit of his stomach when he heard her answer that she did know him well. It wasn’t surprising it was Hailey, we’ve been parters and friends for what felt like years now. She knew when I only needed a friend to listen when a tough case occurred. She knew when I needed was silence, when I needed a distraction. She had my back when I felt at my lowest. And after the bullet; after the setback of my shoulder I was feeling grateful to have her here to mend to my pain. I knew Hailey even if I uttered the word I’m fine she would refuse to leave my side. 

And I did counter to her owe response that I did know her. She was protective, she was caring and also harbored her own fears. And I was scared myself to say the few words that lingered on my mind. The few words I ached to say; what if a close call happened? And I never said it. I love you. And not in a atta girl kind of way. But I felt now wasn’t the time or place, I rather settle for a partner in her than to feel her slip away. And I let that grin play at the coerners of my lips. “ I do know you. I know that you love to do crosswords on your down time, you love to glance over each case file until you understand the reason behind why the murder did it.” 

The blonde took it personally, and i felt it in her. Jay sat in the seat as he felt the movement of the car, his route to his own apartment in view. Jay was difficult to handle when he was injured therefore to say the blonde was going to have to get her hands dirty; enough to handle a grumpy Jay at times. Tilting his gaze to meet her own; he uttered with a shake of his head. “ I think you have it covered, you definitely have yourself prepared to handle me for a few days.” I aired out teasingly.

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@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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Jay was being confident in himself. He didn’t want to outright say it; he didn’t want to utter the words about wanting Hailey that he was in love with her. So he covered it up with self confidence, with the ability to utter the words she wanted him to herself. Now did the male believe it? No not for a second. Because as far as Jay was concerned he assumed his feelings for Hailey as new as they felt were all up in his head. He never thought for a second she felt the same way. At least she never hinted at it which said it all to him. And with the easy out he felt like it was written in the stars, that us as partners was meant to be. 

I liked Hailey, I had feelings for her; but the last thing I personally wanted was to make her feel pressured or uncomfortable so when she made the retort about me being confident i felt small. I felt like i had to lower down my guard enough to hold myself back. A hum left his lips enough to give him the proper time to debate himself. He knew Hailey if she was interested the signs would’ve been there, he would’ve voluntary felt her touches, or the sound of her voice. Which meant the feeling the notion in his head was all his. He wanted to keep the blonde in his life, which why he promised to keep his own mouth shut. He watched the female leave the car, and he was almost left with longing. To say the words, to touch her hand even if Jay knew it was an awful idea. Hailey was his partner it was awful to even consider telling her the truth. Instead he vowed to himself while she cared for him he’d keep hos own hands to himself. He placed his hands down in his lap, and he waited until he heard the door door opening. And he offered a gentle smile; one that aimed only for her. 

She was hailey; his partner; the girl he thought about and he knew he couldn’t threaten how he felt or our partnership which is why when she aired about his milkshake he felt his own mouth water, the strawberry smoothie in sight. He reached for the one he ordered and he brought the straw to his lips taking a sip. It was easy with her; with Hailey and he knew his heart was losing, when it came to saying the words. As he felt the car moving towards his own apartment he echoed out a hum. “ You know me well.’ The oreo in his vision, he felt pulled towards the chocolate goodness, but he wouldn’t move, he was content, even if this was the best he felt. He was aching his shoulder; but he wouldn’t let that pain cost him; he had a partner who cared; enough to stay.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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The nickname slipped through his lips. The innocent touches happened over instinct not because he was overthinking in his head. Jay wasn’t the overthinker, he could be bold when he felt the desire to be. He could make how he felt known if he felt Hailey felt the same way. And for a moment Jay had forgotten the consequences, he forgot the risk of telling her he was in love with her. He was gonna say the words. The lump that formed in his throat, the easy lingering touches. He felt the goosebumps that curled on his skin. Hailey had always been there; she was the girl who fought tooth and nail for him to open up. Jay saw the glimpse of the dirty blonde slipping away. When she got involved with Adam it felt like a punch in the gut; and maybe that’s when he saw the bigger picture, when he felt that bang of jealousy. 

And now he almost died; well maybe that was being dramatic now. But he was shot; he got caught in the crossfire for her; to protect her, And now it lifted his eyes opened. He didn’t want to live a life afraid without purpose. He was cop, he put his life on the line everyday; for his career. But he was lonely; he only wanted to wake up with her laying in his arms, but how? How does he say it? Would it be reciprocated? Or would Hailey be the polite person she was and shut him down kindly. It would put a dammer in our relationship; our partnership and now Jay felt his thoughts slowly spirling. 

Sitting against the seats, relaxed filled his frame. Sitting outside the restaurant; he could’ve put up a challenge and opted to stay at the restaurant but he had that itching notion that the female was going to slap him silly if he even said it. Besides with the extensive injuries, the shoulder, the sling he was now sporting he was probably lucky not to be sitting safely in a hospital bed right now. Instead he was safe with her; a hint of amusement that filled his lips as he arched a brow up in her direction. 

“ You know you’re entering too overprotective zone now. I understood at the hospital it was a means of helping me get released but it’s just us now Hails.. You don’t have to be overprotective bear on me. I can handle myself or you can just admit you want me all to yourself..” He added feeling that boost of confidence in his tone, and he held the chuckle that dared to escape his own lips. It was cute the protective nature; it only made him feel in love that heavy warmth that filled his frame, his eyes spirkled over her frame before she slowly exited the car. “ Strawberry.” His go to was Chocolate but let’s just say his taste buds were in a need for a change kind of spice it up as some liked to phrase it. We’d be okay; we’ve navigate through this uncharted territory; or at least I would. 

I’d be damned if I lose Hailey to the love I held for her.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

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I knew Will; I grew up with him. I knew how he worked; he took the title of being a doctor seriously. Which meant he amped it up notch when it was his brother who was injured. But I also was aware that Will would’ve never discharged me from the hospital if he felt I wasn’t in capable hands. Not that Hailey and I gave him a real choice. The way I saw it was he neither go with our plan of Hailey being the one to take care of me safely in her home or I was going to sneak out on my own. And that would result in a bear hunt towards me and a possible tear of injury in my already sprained shoulder. I sat still in my seat as I wore that gruesome expression on my features as the blonde replayed the hospital, Will and the injuried I got torn with. I shook my head as I spoke. “ Hails.. We don’t need to replay it, I think the ache each time I move my shoulder is great reminder, as for that comfort food; I don’t think either of us had to justify ourselves.” Hails the slip of a nickname I don’t recall ever saying to her; yet it fall from my lips with ease. 

It was natural; us; experiencing our ups and downs of emotional turmoil together, but that’s not an emotional feeling I felt. I’ve felt closer to Hailey; I tried to resist my own urges of growing feelings. I could pinpoint when I felt that pang against my chest. When I knew I was in trouble. When I knew I was slowly falling, and sitting in this car, I wasn’t thinking about boundaries, of what felt out of comfort for us. THe touch of my hand to her knee; it wasn’t like I normally was this touchy with her besides the pat of a hand; or a squeeze of our hands, or the occasional way my arm would wrap around her; once or twice. But this felt different. I did hope I didn’t cross any lines; especially considering Jay was battling his own debate to say the words, to make his love known. But he reminded himself how the last partnership turned love ended. He was ghosted, abandoned, Jay didn’t think he’d be able to survive losing Hailey. He’d settle for partners best friends if it meant having her in his life, A soft expression; a smile that was reserved for her; friends; was that hint of a hope in her voice, Whatever he needed or wanted.. The words echoed in my mind, did Hailey want more? Should I say the words? I kept replaying my almost slips in my mind. At the hospital; the intense gaze we shared with each other now, Swallowing the lump in my throat; I exhaled slowly. “ Lets take out, I think that comfort of your couch is calling my name.” Jay had no desire to sport his sling on his arm in the restaurant, he didn’t want to display his injury plus Will’s echoed words of resting played in his head. Lifting his hand back to  his own knee; he offered a tender smile. He’s been to her apartment before more than he should between reports that had to be written, or the occasional us just having chinese food and hanging out, we were friends; we spent more time with each other than anyone else. 

But this was different; I felt like we shifted into territory that neither of us knew was right or how to navigate through it.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

[soldierprotect]

A tough cookie; it’s who Jay Halstead was. He’s leaped into the scenes; he’s watched gunfire up close and personal way too many times to count. He’s been kidnapped; beating to a pope, and he managed to survive. He was a fighter someone who wore scars on his skin. Wore the blood strains in his knuckles like a champ. Not that Jay was proud of the times he had faced nightmare injuries. He wished he could say this gunshot wound to his shoulder was the worse; that facing death was a trap. But he’s seen worse for others around him and himself. 

But Hailey she hadn’t been in his corner for some occasions. Not that he was going to butt in and say the words. He’s had partners; before but no one compared to her. The tenderness to her touch; how attentive she was to him. He felt that giddy feeling when he opened his eyes at the hospital and saw her. He was someone who wanted to keep his demons hidden. He’s witness death in every corner and it nearly teared him up inside. The last thing he ever wanted was to give Hailey any of the pain he felt. She was a light in the darkness. And he wanted to curse out his own name as a scolding to himself for chickening out. Love; it was real; he felt it each time he laid eyes on her. He felt it each time his hand touched hers. He wanted to say it; he wanted to reach over and press his hand on her cheek cradle her face in his hand as he did the daring thing; the thing that scared the crap out of him and kiss her. But his moment had died; instead he was lame and said thank you. He trusted her with his life; and he noticed how shaken up the blonde was. The quietness in the air; as they drove closer to her place; to the desired destination of the burger and fries place. Just thinking about the food made his mouth water. 

A low chuckle to be heard listening. “ I’m sure to tell Will you okayed the carbs, after all you’re now my nurse that is going to tend to my every need.” Each word laced with amusement; knowing there’s definitely some needs that Hailey would scold him for; but food with the lack of appetite he held at the hospital; she’d be itching to help him get food in his stomach. Besides Will obviously trusted the female he did allow her to drive off in the car with him. After all Jay was stubborn; he was difficult to tend to; he was sure Hailey might be running for the hills after a few days of being cooped up with him. 

He felt the pain when the car came to the stop, she was scared of losing him. Just like he was of her; not that either of the pair was able to express how they felt with words. His actions said it for him; the touch of her knee which might be overbounds but we were close; that touched small touches Jay wore a soft expression of care on his features. He wouldn’t leave her; he was never going to abandon her. His breath hitched feeling her touch to his hand. Flipping his hand over on her knee with ease his fingers laced through her middle finger as if it was the easiest move in the world. Eyes met; he felt his breath hitch all over again. At the tip of his tongue he wanted to say the words I love you; I want you Hailey and each time he almost cracked he even said her name again “ Hailey..’ In a nearly breathless tone he itched to say it but then she dropped the friend bomb on him; his chest snuck; a friend? Is that all we were? Was my skill of reading people off? He forced his expression not to change. To stay in the moment with her; her eyes said more than her words. “ You’ll always have me as your backup, I’m not going anywhere, we’re partners but best friends.” Just saying best friends made his stomach turn; was he lying now? Right through his teeth?

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

[soldierprotect]

Mind games; Jay knew how to control his emotions. He knew how to handle a situation give or take. He’s been a man in the army circus, he’s been known to jump in front of a moving car with his hand on the trigger if needed. He knew how to take care of his people, how to follow orders. Not that he always agreed with said orders namely coming from Hank Voight. Was it surprising his own boss wasn’t peering at his death bed? No because Hank looked out for himself. Not that Jay necessarily wanted the man in his hospital room truthfully he only wanted Hailey at his back and call after being shot. After feeling the toll of the pain his body was experiencing. But what he felt unsure how to handle was his new developed feelings for not just any girl but the girl who escorted him out of the hospital; who quickly volunteered to nurse him back to health. 

Not that the male was going to be an easy patient because let’s be honest he was awful, he was one who wanted to move on his own earlier than ordered to. He was used to taking care of himself; although he had a doctor in his beck and call for a brother. Point was his feelings for Hailey weren’t confusing. When he looked at her he felt that sparkle in his eye; that tingle in his fingertips. When they were told to pair up with someone else in the team he ached at the thought of being away from her. Then why? Why did it take him opening his eyes after surgery to realize how he felt for her? It was simple given Jay’s track record with relationships namely falling for his partners; it was one sided and messy. Erin loved him in her own way; but he wanted more. And Hailey he finally found this groove with her; a loyalty a trust years of partnership had built. The last thing he wanted was to make it weird if we were to share a kiss and she didn’t feel the same way. I guess me staying with her; would possibly open up the idea of feelings or Jay get a feel on where the blonde stood. 

He controlled what he wanted when he changed what he wanted to say to her. Instead he was settling it was easier; simpler for us. Besides maybe any high of how he felt could fade once the heat of the adrenaline of the pain wore off. 

Shifting his his seat; he knew the burger menu like the back of his hand. It was our go to place when we found ourselves debriefing after hours. The burgers were to die for. A soft smile ran over bare lips as he pressed his hand over his slinged up arm from the pain from his shoulder. He exhaled a chuckle. “ Don’t be tempting me, Will says I need to take it easy, but I say we deserve a special treat like those milkshakes.” Jay’s only ever had it once and man the taste melted instantly in his mouth. A smile so bright it was hard to contain it as face tilted towards hers. He caught her smile; it always lit up her eyes. Until the fear was in her voice; it was part of the job and man in this moment the male wanted to promise her he wouldn’t get hurt again, but he didn’t want to lie to her. 

Licking over bare lips; he spoke. “ Hails..” Pausing as the form of endearment skipped through lips. He reached over as far as he could with his good arm until his fingers brushed over her knee tenderly. Hopefully not overstepping here. 

“ I can’t promise I won’t end up in the hospital again. As you said it’s part of the job. It’s what we signed up for. The important thing is to mask how it affects you. I’m okay, I’m in good hands with you. And you can trust I’d take the bullet the stab every time if it meant you were unharmed.” A stare that could light up flames, intense and all so consuming.

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.

[soldierprotect]

COntinued

@dontunderestimateme

Jumping into the line of fire was Jay’s thing. He was a protector at heart. He was the man that was rough around the edges. He had his guard up; it took time for him to lower his own force field. It took time for him to want to let anyone in. After he got burned with Erin he didn’t trust easily. And when he instantly got paired up with Hailey it made sense that he was on the fence unsure of her; of what she’d bring to the table. He liked her; she was feisty not afraid to look out for you. Even when Jay was telling her no, even when he told her to back off; she took his insults with a gain of salt. She took his push away like nothing. But the day she told him off; the day he witnessed her fight back against him was the day he respected her. Partners fight for each other; we protect regardless if it’s what the other wants. He was afraid she’d leave, afraid she’d take another job and not say a word. Not that Hailey owed him anything because we were only partners and friends. But I saw through her own scars; the ones that ran deep she tried her hardest to hide. I never asked because it never concerned me. But I also cared enough about her to want the blonde to stay. 

You could say my accident; near death experience had opened my eyes. It had always been right in front of me. The woman I wanted to love, the girl I was in love with. I’d follow her blindly. I’d sacrifice myself for her each and every time. I felt the rang of goosebumps at the brush of our hands, at the brush of our hips nudging each other. I felt jealous when she was out with Adam, I had brushed how I felt off for so long. That now it felt inevitable to say the words, And for a second when I looked at the blonde I felt the words at the tip of my tongue. I wanted to say it but then I reminded myself Hailey wasn’t just a partner but a friend it could jeopardize our whole relationship, the way the unit worked if she rejected me. And Jay Halstead never cared for rejection until now; and that’s why instead he kept his lips tightly closed. Instead he realized he rather have a friend than to lose her completely. 

Making his way to her awaited car; he let Hailey be the one to ensure he settled into the passenger car safely, using his good arm he managed to buckle himself inside. Once he was situated, the male had leaned his head back against the cushioned seats. He heard the car move; and he heard her; and that’s why his eyes had drawn on over to the blonde, there was no way he’d ever let our roles be reversed. “ I’d rather be the one being taken care of than you be hurt. Hails..I can manage some pain but if you ever got caught in the crossfire, I’d be the one to take care of you, It’s what we do.” Always; our thing of being there for each other. A soft tender smile landed on the corners of his lips. As we neared the stop light leading closer to her apartment; the mention of burgers and fries; now that was something to die for. I felt my stomach growling at the thought of food. 

“ Definitely that burgers and fries place near your apartment.” Yes he’s spent a night here and there looking over case files it was normal for us; but we had place we liked; again we were friends; and with time perhaps courage to be more.