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Boundaries

Start putting boundaries to the negativity and abuse.

This is me, moving on and shielding myself.

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Detachment SZN

I broke down again last night just because he went out with his friends and I was left all alone by myself.

Heart beat fast, shivering, lots of negative thoughts and rage - overflowing with low self-esteem. It's sad, it's lonely and it felt like it eats me alive.

All I know is I don't like this. I kept pretending I could control it. I don't like this :(

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Truth Hurts

That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.

I have been keeping and controlling everything inside my heart and mind that although I felt loved and that although it felt so special right now, the pain has been looking at me and yearning to be felt.

It is so goddamn hard that every day you will have to live up to the expectations that you will be OK and you can forgive or worst forget all the wronged they have caused you.

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"I wish I knew how to quit you."

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Come clean

Just give me a reason, just a little bit is enough Just a second, we're not broken, just bent and we can learn to love again It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again

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Peace

When love is stronger than lies, betrayal, and anxieties

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“Becoming fearless isn’t the point. That’s impossible. It’s learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it.”

— Veronica Roth, Divergent (via picsandquotes)

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“I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.”

— Lisa Kleypas, Blue-Eyed Devil (via picsandquotes)

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“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

— Anonymous, Holy Bible: New International Version (via picsandquotes)

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Twilight 🌒

As I am trying to process all these revelations, I am slowly trying to lose myself and gaining everything all at once. My instincts were all true. Everything is a lie. I am looking to myself - eyes to eyes. Looking at strength and weakness. I don’t talk. I stopped talking trash. The high road was far from what I expected. But I trust the time, I trust the universe. I am hopeful despite this long years of battle secrets and betrayal.

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August

I feel a rush to get out of my comfort zone as I am slowly preparing for my December plan.

I wanted to get out so bad that I am losing all the discipline and work ethic I have.

What 10 years can make you- either make you or break you

#Grace10FY

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Points to ponder

The problem written down is a problem half solved

The more you fear something, the more it will happen

Information and intelligence lead, money follows

When you don't need to make a decision, don't make a decision

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Unthinkable

You know how you think your life is what all you need and everything you hope for and suddenly it crashes. You don't have any backup, no nothing, no people to wipe your tears, no one to believe in and ask for help to. You just died. But your eyes are open and your heart stopped.

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The stars will cry The blackest tears tonight And this is the moment that I live for

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And suddenly, you define all the sad love songs

I’m walking on the boulevard of broken dreams

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Dieciséis 💛

Happy 16 years my babylove! I love you, the touch of your hands, your baby lambing, the food you cook for me, our long motor rides, our foodtrip discoveries, your hatid sundo supremacy, our movie nights, your love for our kids, your love for family and friends, your generosity.💛

I love your tantrums, your inmaturity, your adhd syndrome, your lasingero era, your tropa era, chickboy era, your asshole era and all your the dark spot ahead! 🖤

I will be here as a lover, a friend, a nurse, a therapist and all the things you want me to be. ❤️

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Day 6 of being sick

I’m tired. Clogged nose. Runny nose. Sticky phlegm. Difficulty of breathing. Loss of appetite. No taste. No smell. Dizziness. What more can I add to this?

I have been waking up 20-30% daily. I need to be back on track by next week.