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[soiliveon]

When I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed you put me on and said I was your favorite.

-Taylor Swift

[soiliveon]

NOVEMBER 7

Did it ended? I never thought I would be seeing a day where I no longer have her.

I was living always believing we would last a lifetime; until the sky falls.

The July breeze told me we'd be dancing in December air. But where did we go wrong?

Everytime I look back, I see her and I and when I tend to close my eyes, I see moments picturing.

I paint her almost everyday and everytime it rains I smell her fragrance like it is in me.

She took a step forward wrong and another step forward. She left me behind or I let her go?

Why can't I close the door she long walked out of? Maybe I'm inquiring she'll come around again.

For days and long nights I was coloured in blue and we're only growing further apart.

Where did we go wrong? Somewhere between prides and misunderstandings, we grew apart.

We were only leaping blindly towards the light.

I hate that November gets colder everytime it comes around.

-dl.

[soiliveon]

NEVAEH

Nevaeh was the weirdo, she was naive, fragile but strong.

She was never just another person in the crowd, she was more than we ever wanted but I never knew her truly.

She slipped away from a crowd of five; she slipped through our fingers.

Nevaeh, were you trying to heal, away from us? I know it wasn't easy for you to leave. Would you let me walk in you shoes if I tried to?

Nevaeh, why'd you run away? Why'd go away? Was it because you were scared?

There was never a day I didn't think of her for I let her go too easily. I regretted for all the days gone by and I will in all the days to come.

I was never the person to stop the rain in her and I didn't know how to. She didn't told me how and I never asked. If only I did, if only I told her to not leave

Would she be still here with us?

-dl.

[soiliveon]

OCTOBER 5

You didn't warn me it was the last time the night you were leaving and I watched as you leave.

I never thought I won't see you again.

You keep crossing my mind, you hairs still lay in my pillows and in the corners of my room.

I still hear you calling for me, I still see your face on my ceiling, my thoughts linger everywhere you've been before.

I don't know how to fall asleep when I know you still think of me in the midst of somewhere.

I hope you find warmth, warmer than the warmth you found in me. I'm counting numbers till I fall asleep.

I count sheeps till it's three in the morning then you come around and go away when I wake you.

I wait at the doorway till the sun sets on me. Boy where have you been?

Everything just seems to be a reminder if you. It is always raining on me

-dl

[soiliveon]

SEPTEMBER: HIM

It all began when he came with hazel eyes, it's sour to think I never knew him before.

He is like winter fire that burns along the edge where I can't step a foot past.

I only was seeking affection but he showed me colours I never had seen.

In his warmth I found glimpses I could never explain.

He was uninevitable but cliché. I never knew he would jumped into the waters and swim along.

Would I ever know when he'll swim away and reach the shore ahead of me?

Where was he all these times? all along he was hanging somewhere.

He was never mine to begin with and I was never his to end with but I happened to be selfish.

If he comes with a face I've never seen, with a voice I've never heard I'd still remember him like I drew him in my head after all he's the SEPTEMBER LOVE.

The September he gave me, though it don't belong to me truly, I'll be cherishing it as long as I live.

-dl

[soiliveon]

AUGUST

Thought I would always be trapped between the summer breeze and mid July like a butterfly in a web. I was living in the fading light between sunlight and darkness but came out like a butterfly out of a chrysalis

when you came in blue and hazelnut brown.

And I'm aware you'll go away fast like the flickering light, but then again I'll be the one to go and you'll be the one to stay

So show me ten thousand and one colours while I'm here; before I go. At last for once and all until we meet again, dear August.

-dl

[soiliveon]

IT WASN'T GOODBYE

I'm no superman but I was willing to go highways and byways if you wanted me to.

You took me all around and left me numb, you shut your door and I always waited for all the days gone by

But the older I get I started closing my door.

I still remember, mid October, my cheeks soaked with tears when you said you needed me no more.

I was fragile, I still am.

November felt colder than it should, kites in blue sky must've been mesmerizing and I was still living in blue.

You left me hanging; you let me off the hook

From walking together to how we walk past as mere strangers, does it ever crossed your mind 'it wasn't goodbye'.

-dl